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Staggering, alone, 
Looking through all of the pics on my phone 
Use your photoshop, so cold
Take me out of every image and code 
Staggering, alone, 
Looking through all of the pics on my phone 
Use your photoshop, so cold
Take me out of every image and code 

Never thought it’d go this way
Never thought I'd feel this pain
I just don’t know what to say
Pick me apart frame by frame 

Never thought it’d go this way
Never thought I'd feel this pain
I just don’t know what to say
Pick me apart frame by frame 

But its alright,
God's with me
He's by my side
I'll be alright

But its alright,
God's with me
He's by my side
I'll be alright

Losing focus
My mind's so tortuous
Yeah
Plans are a mess
Trapped by my own head

I hope you go on to find someone else
God's guiding us both, He always helps
Two flesh make one
Guess ours didn't match
Husband and wife, for now I'll hold back

screentear (Sadvato! x reprieved)

engine.start()

focus.lose()

fortified

imprisoned

iris

intrusive war (feat. Azrael)

letting go

clash

overload

intro

pyrite (feat. O2solus)

pyrite (ft. O2solus)

Test1xD2

complicated (feat. SIX KAY)

Am I a sore excuse for a man
What’s the point – will I ever know who I am (who I am)

I don’t wanna be a man by your standards
God loves me as I am 
I don’t wanna be so superficial
God knows my heart and is my friend
There’s nothing my own strength can do
I don’t want to lead me away from You
Will I ever be happy or am I just tying my noose 

Im so stressed out (im so stressed)
Why do I feel like a let down
I can’t let my guard down
Like what is that about? 

Honestly I wanna die
But that’s a net loss
It just feels so hard to try
I just can’t get up
I’m stuck in place
Sinking through the sand
I’m starting to doubt
I’ll ever be a man

What does that even mean
Who do I really want to be
The pressure is breaking my bones
The pressure’s breaking me
Im so weak

I don’t wanna be a man by your standards
God loves me as I am 
I don’t wanna be so superficial
God knows my heart and is my friend
There’s nothing my own strength can do
I don’t want to lead me away from You
Will I ever be happy or am I just tying my noose 

I DONT EVEN CARE

I hope I die
Sometimes
Cause im like
Why should I live when I hate my life

And I don’t wanna get out of bed (but maybe)
Will a diagnosis fix my head

Pop a pill it’ll make you fine
Either that or youll hate life
Are my emotions valid if im not (diagnosed)
Im not gonna tie a slipknot (I wont)

But, but I’d be lying if I said I don’t want to die sometimes
I just feel too down to want to fight
I’m taking control over too much of my life
How do I give You these burdens of mine

How do I give You these burdens of mine (of mine)
I know there’s hope in the cross
I’m a sheep that is lost
Am I gonna give in to these thoughts 
That tell me im something im not?
I just want my thoughts to stop
God this burden is a lot (yeah)
And I don’t know that I can make it
What’s with this weight 
Yeah I hate it
Crushing my bones
I cant take it (i cant take it)

Pop a pill it’ll make you fine
Either that or youll hate life
Are my emotions valid if im not (diagnosed)
Im not gonna tie a slipknot (I wont)

But, but, but

I CANT TAKE IT
IM NOT SURE I WANNA MAKE IT THROUGH
FROM ME TO YOU
I THINK IM WASTING A BED 
I MIGHT LOOK ALRIGHT BUT I THINK MY MIND IS DEAD 
GOD LET ME OUT
GOD BRING ME OUT OF MY HEAD

NEURONAL INSTABILITY

What is the purpose of my life if I just get trapped by my mind

Am I a coward for wanting to end my life?
I just cant take it
but I couldn’t ever take it (am I complacent)

How is it im scared that itll end
I hate this

God I really need some guidance
My mind likes to take the lead, but it’s lying 
Is it even worth trying at this point

Does anybody know me
Cause I feel sad and lonely
I don’t even know myself
How do I use the cards ive been dealt

They just fall to the ground
Ive been trying for quite some time now
I’ll either tear myself apart or learn how
To cope

Will I learn how to cope

God I’m stuck in my head
My mind is tearing itself apart 
You brought be back from the dead
So why do I feel so far

I feel so far away  
Im buried in the soil but im wide awake 

Why do my thoughts outweigh the price You paid
I don’t care how hard my life gets
I want for You to stay
I don’t wanna live if it means that im stuck inside my brain
I DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS I CAN TAKE

i dont know how much more of this i can take

Does anybody know me
Cause I feel sad and lonely
I don’t even know myself
How do I use the cards ive been dealt

They just fall to the ground
Ive been trying for quite some time now
I’ll either tear myself apart or learn how
To cope

PRISON OF FEAR

Oh Im never alone
Time to get out of my head; its not my home
Whats the point of your wealth if you’re alone
Idols say that they’ll save you but they won’t

Loneliness doesn’t bode well for me
I think I need some company

Yet I know you’re with me
Why am I so scared
I’m way too aware
That life’s not fair

Im happy and then im sad
And im getting real sick of that

WHY CANT this JOY just LAST
I BEEN STUCK INSIDE MY HEAD FOR TOO LONG
I CANT HELP BUT ASK MYSELF
WHERE IN LIFE DID I GO SO WRONG
SOME DAYS FEEL SO SHORT
AND OTHERS FEEL TOO LONG
MY MIND IS FICKLE
WHAT DO I EVEN WANT

Why am I so anxious
I don’t know but I hate it
Life well I don’t wanna face it
I don’t wanna be here

Just to be clear

WHY CANT this JOY just LAST
I BEEN STUCK INSIDE MY HEAD FOR TOO LONG
I CANT HELP BUT ASK MYSELF
WHERE IN LIFE DID I GO SO WRONG
SOME DAYS FEEL SO SHORT
AND OTHERS FEEL TOO LONG
MY MIND IS FICKLE
WHAT DO I EVEN WANT

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