svnam - hey, darling w/ sendflowrs (jolst)

prod @lilpunstr fellow new zealander :)

lyrics

im ok, peace of mind
its ok, im on th grind
sleep during the day
nrg at night
fighting this pain
been doin my life
so its jus th same
but ill b alrite
use this pain
to succeed in this lie
this shits a game
and i cant wait to die
the shit is so lame 
im just so sick and tired

im so sick of playing it safe baby
now im out the mud, they think that im crazy
no-one really cares, u been the same lately
at least with all the hate, i get to wake daily 

woah 
she said u gon glow
bae thats just the ice shards, u know me im better cold
this is how i break uh
this is how i fold
pain is my whole blood stream
not a thing that i could out grow
9tails down to bones

pain
but ill b alrite
use this pain
to succeed in this lie
this shits a game
and i cant wait to die
the shit is so lame 
im just so sick and tired

belong (punny)

[+ trabbey]
@dannysadventures

(TNS)
I think it’s time for you to leave me on the ground 
Tearing out my soul just to find a way back home

Running outta time I ain’t worried about that 
God only knows I’ll be comin right back 
I only know the way back home to you 

(Danny)
Girl I wanna take you home tonight
Don’t you leave me on the ground like every time
You don’t need to keep messing with my head
That's why you got no friends
Shawty be wack
Why you gotta do me like that
Going out sad
OVO I’m falling back
On the ground every time you call me out
Girl you got me stressed up and you had me let down
Cold down here
It’s not safe nowhere
You are all my fears
Don’t break me dear

(TNS)
Tear out my eyes 
I know you’ve got something to hide 
Your not right inside 

You can’t keep on living like that 
Games are fun until he don’t hit you right back 

Losing all the people that you love on your life 
That’s so fucking wack 

Catch all the people falling onto the ground 
Tearing down the ceiling 
pull the paint off the wall 

Tell the stupid stories to remember my fall 
To remember my fall inside of these walls 

I think it’s time for you to leave me on the ground 
Tearing out my soul just to find a way back home

Running outta time I ain’t worried about that 
God only knows I’ll be comin right back 
I only know the way back home to you

Leave Me On The Ground (ft. Danny’s Adventures)

i guess i could write it off as just me being obsessed or something,
but i dont really think it is.
i mean..
i know its fucking stupid to just.. wait for someones reponse every single day of your life,
i know its fucking stupid to just-
get sad when they dont respond,
and get sad when they talk about somebody else,
or- what they have, or whatever, and get envious or jealous of them, but..
whatever.
or maybe its not stupid at all, and im just fucking.. brainwashed.
by everything that i see online, cause I'm just convinced that everything that I feel's invalid and I will never be the fucking same as him.
i just fucking hate this.

ive been fucked up like every single day recently
im stumbling thru my halls sleepily
can you even see what i see?
i see my end in my dreams
ive been feeling like two people at the same time
and i know damn well i cant help either im a landmine
boy just talk youre a damn mime ..
im envious as shit and i really hope you get nowhere
ive killed myself forever to have what you have
or a fraction of it.
oh my god that bitch is dumb 
i filled my stomach with nails and tums
cause im really sick and i cant grow up

hi, um..
i just got off the phone with him, and-
i dont know, he's- 
he just seems really sad, and i dont know what to do anymore, and i..
i just wish i could help him but i dont know how.

brainwashed (domesticsoul)

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

learning to lose

learning to lose w/ greenwood

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hate u ft. sendflowrs (sorrow bringer)

08 [bonus track]

i see the house burn down over nite.
and id relive it all again in another life.. 

lyrics

face me 
the darkness will replace me

/

taste me
im overcooking tryna take heat

/

over done
is this how we are, is it over love

/

im tryna bring light to the things in the dark 
but it seems like it cant get any lower ugh

/

where were u when i called 
7am in the morn.
ran off w/ no notice
i swear i didnt leave those scars..scars

/

wanted its all i wanted x2

/

ik the walls r caving in
we cant b closed we're close to sin
ik the walls r caving in
ik the walls r caving 

/

pouring the gasoline all over the driveway
despite the fact we said we'd b living the right way
pouring whats left of the dark make me sideways 
its burning every edge of my soul in the right way

/

not a thing u could do could unblur in this high state
a fine face 
but no room, yeah no space 
its not much to me if i live well but dont die great

/

im changing, im changing, im changing form
and im changing
im taking off and im spacious
i love it here but i hate it 

/

in this lake i bleed my final form
ur words dont anything to me no more

/

wanted all i wanted was for u to save me
im not sorry, in this one life u cant redo shit

/

i been hella places
but nothing compares to the basics
the simple things in life we take for granted
its so hard to fake it

/

dangerous, but its so dangerous 
in this fucking storm
im taken by the wind
they'll take u in this form

/

theres not much
not much you can do about it 

/
let them take you how u are.
the world will be the same when you're gone.

your former

your-former [bonus track] (empty roads)

Featuring heylog: @heylog

[not home.]
Cold couch, I'm stupid high
The voices in my head subside
My face goes pale, my face goes white
Just let this kill what's left inside

Take me back to late July
When me and you would synchronize
The drugs wear off my thoughts align
Just kill me 'fore I change my mind

[heylog]
Save me before I use this knife
This pain grew on me over time
I wish I was a kid my whole life
'cause I see things that I feel sorry for my eyes

So baby I'm crazy
Don't think you could date me
But I don't have problems
Like your drinking habits
She goes out for the night
To hangout with some guys
Who could care less for her
But she doesn't seem to mind
No she doesn't seem to mind
Mom's worried sick
And dad's tryna ring her line
But she don't pick up
She's gone for the whole night

[not home.]
Cold couch, I'm stupid high
The voices in my head subside
My face goes pale, my face goes white
Just let this kill what's left inside

Take me back to late July
When me and you would synchronize
The drugs wear off my thoughts align
Just kill me 'fore I change my mind

garbage

welcome

not home. - welcome w heylog (Irby)

I was in the back room
Wishing that I knew you
Liquor on the table
Your smile brought me close to you

Sorry for the attitude
Never met someone like you
She texting me and fucked up
I can't pull away from you

Take me and my soul now
I think I'm in love with you
Answer to my issues
Now she with somebody new

Answer to my issues
Now she with somebody new

Answer to my issues
Now she with somebody new

Answer to my issues
Now she with somebody new

Only one who gave a shit
I guess I fucked that up too
But I understand completely
I don't deserve something like you

Smoking till my chest hurts
I just want a point of view

she cant stand me

not home. - she cant stand me (jolst)

She feels my hands
I'm filled with rage
I know you're hurt
I see your face

I left my bliss
In picture frames
The scars on my wrist
Spell your name

I guess love
Eventually fades
The notes you left
Keep me awake

She feels my hands
I'm filled with rage
I know you're hurt
I see your face

I left my bliss
In picture frames
The scars on my wrist
Spell your name

I guess love
Eventually fades
The notes you left
Keep me awake
Keep me awake

left

not home. - left (caves)

Yeah, I think that I've had enough
They caught me couching up my blood
My simple life had just begun
They don't think I'm waking up
Just copped myself a brand new plug
I told my friends "don't hit me up"
I fell in love with harder drugs
They worry 'bout what I've become

I don't fuck with anyone
I got a lot of shit to overcome
I lost the feeling in my fucking tongue
Now get this garbage out my black lungs

Wonder why I abuse drugs
I don't really care much
I just think this shit fun
Liquor in my red cup
Killing all my tastebuds
I think this is true love
Like really shut the fuck up
My soul has been disposed of

I need release
Where my self esteem?
They can't belive
I'm only 16

I need release
Where my self esteem?
They can't belive
I'm only 16

Yeah, I think that I've had enough
They caught me couching up my blood
My simple life had just begun
They don't think I'm waking up
Just copped myself a brand new plug
I told my friends "don't hit me up"
I fell in love with harder drugs
They worry 'bout what I've become

not home. - 16 (tsurreal x nato)

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