your description hits home. your not alone. keep the fire. and spread the love. always

track 26/30 of the album

read the stories behind my music here:
revenantmusic.net

i wrote the base instrumental to this song in September 2019. this was originally going to be a cover of a song that meant a lot to me. i then sent it to one of my best friends @nshvllmusic who added the pretty guitars and piano you hear in it, and I instantly fell in love with it.

the original idea of the song stemmed from the fact that around the time of making it, i had lost trust and faith in someone i held close to me. i didn't realise how much emotional damage they had been causing until i finally cut ties, which probably saved my life.

there was a lot of manipulation and gaslighting, and it altered my perception of myself and how i thought other people perceived me. i couldn't function or think properly, and its effects lingered on into new relationships with people despite them being gone. indirectly, they made me isolate myself from everyone, and held me alone to themselves. i couldn't confide in anyone, and was constantly living in fear of them.

this song highlights how even in the absence of something or someone that has had such a negative impact in your life, their effects and the scars left behind can still manifest in your life.

thankfully, through a lot of therapy and support from my loving friends, i can say i'm in a much happier and better place.

connect with nshvll:
soundcloud: @nshvllmusic
instagram: www.instagram.com/nshvllmusic
twitter: www.twitter.com/nshvllmusic
youtube: www.youtube.com/c/nshvllmusic
bandcamp: nshvll.bandcamp.com/

connect with me:
soundcloud: @revenant-edm
instagram: www.instagram.com/revenant.music/
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/48Icw89LgB8t7C7AnUIT0Q
twitter: twitter.com/revenant_music
audius: audius.co/revenant
genius: genius.com/artists/Revenant-ishraq-choudhury

artwork thanks to:
@aqcoffee
twitter.com/aqcoffeee

[verse 1]
i didn't wanna tell you how i felt
out of fear of losing you
i'm sorry this is what i'm like
still got memories left behind

[verse 2]
now things are dull and bitter cold
still sat here staring at my phone
and nothing feels as good alone

[verse 3]
i know i didn’t tell you how i felt 
but i couldn’t let you go
remember back when i saw you that day
i couldn’t look away

[verse 4]
now things are dull and bitter cold
still sat here staring at my phone
and nothing feels as good alone

[chorus]
it would be a lie if i told you
i wish you'd never come through
i'm tired of being a ghost
i won't let go

nothing special

i won't let you go

read

i won't let you go w/nshvll

nothing special.
a beautiful, yet hurtful life.
musician + painter + doctor

1/2 of @codenameniocell + @ghostkidclub
contact: mgmt@revenantmusic.net

https://revenantmusic.net/

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