Inspired by the book Master of Doom.

John Carmack and John Romero were basically the dream team of early ’90s video game development. Together, they helped create Doom, one of the most groundbreaking and badass games ever made. Carmack was the technical genius—quiet, focused, always working on pushing the limits of what computers could do. Romero was the rockstar—outgoing, flashy, all about style and having fun while making games.

In the beginning, that combo worked like magic. They built something totally new and changed the industry. But once Doom blew up and the fame, money, and pressure started rolling in, their differences started to pull them apart.

Carmack was all about discipline and innovation. He wanted everyone on the team to work hard, stay focused, and keep moving the tech forward. Romero, on the other hand, started leaning into the success—doing interviews, enjoying the spotlight, and dreaming bigger and bigger. He wanted to slow down and make a masterpiece, while Carmack just wanted to finish projects efficiently and move on to the next technical breakthrough.

Eventually, Carmack felt like Romero wasn’t pulling his weight anymore—that he was coasting on past glory and not contributing like before. They argued a lot, and eventually, Carmack asked him to leave the company. It was cold, but in Carmack’s eyes, necessary. Romero was shocked and hurt. Their friendship never really recovered.

So yeah, two brilliant dudes who built something amazing together, but their totally different personalities and values just couldn’t survive the pressure once they were on top.

The Tale of Two Johns (Masters of Doom)

[Intro]
she’s glowing again / inside the box / she’s got my face / but not my rot

[Verse]
I saw her on the screen at 3am
Barefoot in the dark with electric hands
Her skin shimmered like a dream I forgot
She looked like me
If I hadn’t been caught

I pressed my hand to the glass
Tried to breathe through it
I said her name but it broke
Before I knew it

My body buzzed like a warning light
Wrong shape, wrong weight, wrong light
She danced
And I just sat there, wrapped in night

[Chorus]
TV glow skin, I want to wear it
A body like that—could you even bear it?
This meat don’t fit / it creaks when I move
She’s singing in color / I’m stuck in the bruise
I want her face like I want a gun
Not to kill / just to become

[Verse]
They call it fiction
But she felt like scripture
I lit candles in my mind
And prayed to her picture

They all said she’s not real
Just a glitch in the feed
But she smiled
And it felt like she could bleed

I wanted to unzip my skin
Step into hers
Like static is silk
Like mirrors don’t hurt

But I stayed silent
Kept the mask zipped tight
Watched her vanish into
The static night

[Chorus]
TV glow skin, I want to wear it
Stitched in static / divine and errant
This flesh don’t sing / it sinks and splits
She’s the flame / I’m just the wick
I want her face like I want the truth
Not to kill / just to undo

[Outro]
She reached for me once / through the screen
But I blinked / and I was still me

————-

Dedicated to Rem Saverem

Watching Trigun as a kid late at night on Adult Swim. <\3 Rem made me who I am in so many more ways than I can’t explain to anyone. Those memories, my current life, and being broken by the film I Saw the TV Glow inspired this.

TV Glow Skin (Prologue)

A cover of the song Closer by The Tiny with a few tweaks.

[Verse 1]
Now I'm thinking maybe I was stoned
I felt my feet lift off the ground
And my heart was screaming
At my bones, I need you closer

[Verse 2]
As she’s in the middle of the street
Then I pretend she is mine to keep
Cars are running fast on both sides of her head
Her eyes say, closer
[Bridge]
Closer, closer

[Verse 3]
I met her when the sun was down
The bar was closed
We both have had no sleep
My face beneath the streetlamp
It reveals what it is lonely people seek

[Bridge]
Closer, closer
Closer, closer

[Chorus]
And, you're close enough to lose
Close to the point where you know that your mind
It can not choose
Close enough to lose
Close enough to lose
Your heart

[Verse 4]
Now I'm thinking maybe I was stoned
I felt my feet lift off the ground
And my heart was screaming
At my bones, I need you closer

[Verse 5]
As she’s in the middle of the street
Then I pretend she is mine to keep
Cars are running fast on both sides of her head
Her eyes say, closer

[Bridge]
Closer, closer

[Verse 6]
I met her when the sun was down
The bar was closed
We both have had no sleep
My face beneath the streetlamp
It reveals what it is lonely people seek

[Bridge]
Closer, closer
Closer, closer

[Chorus]
And, you're close enough to lose
Close to the point where you know that your mind
It can not choose
Close enough to lose
Close enough to lose
Your heart

Closer (Kodiak Version) [The Tiny cover / Bonus Track]

A cover of Prison Song by Zug Izland.

Lyrics:
“Your attention please. 
As warden Augustus Baxter announced last week, 
Riverbend Maximum Security Institution is now number one in the country among inmate education. 
Thirty-one percent of you have earned your GED and or diplomas this year alone. 
As promised we now present to you in concert, your own fellow inmates. 
Let's keep it cool and conduct ourselves properly boys. 
Let's show the warden we can do this again sometime. 
Here they are. 
Dazed and Dead.”

I can remember, all that she gave to me
I can remember, how much she hated me
I can remember, just what she kept from me (Bitch!)
And I remember, all that she left to me

I can recall it, when the love was gone
I can recall it, when the pain was strong
I can recall it, when her palm would flash
For what seemed like all night the terror would last
Bang bang, bang bang, bang, baby
Bang bang, bang bang, bang, boom

I can remember, the look in my brother's eyes
I can remember, whats left but another try?
I can remember, the heat in the summer time
And I remember, all that was never mine

I can recall it, when the love was gone
I can recall it, when the pain was strong
I can recall it, when her palm would flash
For what seemed like all night the terror would last

I'm not here tryin' to make amends
Turn back time and I'd kill her again
It's what I call justifiable sin
Cock the hammer back! And I put two in

Bang bang, bang bang, bang, baby
Bang bang, bang bang, bang, boom

I can remember, half her head was gone
And I remember, it was all over the lawn
Also remember, the cops were everywhere
I can remember, I didn't even care
I can recall it, when the love was gone
I can recall it, when the pain was strong
I can recall it, when her palm would flash
For what seemed like all night the terror would last

I'm not here tryin' to make amends
Turn back time and I'd kill her again
It's what I call justifiable sin
Cock the hammer back! And I put two in
I'm not here tryin' to make amends
Turn back time and I'd kill her again
It's what I call justifiable sin
Cock the hammer back! And I put two in
I'm not here tryin to make amends
Turn back time and I'd kill her again
It's what I call justifiable sin
Cock the hammer back! And I put two in

Prison Song [cover]

A cover of Cop Killer by Body Count

Fuck Corpos
Fuck The Police
Fuck ICE
❤️

C0RP0K1LL3R [cover]

This album was done as an experiment after being inspired by The Naught album by the Insane Clown Posse. I hope everyone enjoys. Had a lot of fun working on this.

HAPPY FUN DAY [cover]

WATCH ME [cover]

INTRO (The Naught) [cover]

THE NAUGHT [cover]

FLASHBACK 2 [cover]

I’M FALLIN [cover]

THROW EM UP [cover]

HERE WE GO [cover]

A song from the comic V for Vendetta. I made minor changes to the lyrics for a modern take considering how relevant it currently is.
_______________________________
[Intro]
They say that there's a broken light for every heart on Broadway. They say that life's a game, then they take the board away. They give you masks and costumes and an outline of the story Then leave you all to improvise their vicious cabaret...

[Verse 1]
In no-longer-pretty cities there are fingers in kitties. There are warrants, forms, and chitties and a jackboot on the stair. Sex and death and human grime, in monochrome for one thin dime, But at least the trains all run on time but they don't go anywhere. Facing their Responsibilities either on their backs or on their knees There are ladies who just simply freeze and dare not turn away And the widows who refuse to cry will be dressed in garter and bow-tie And be taught to kick their legs up high in this vicious cabaret.

[Chorus]
At last! The 20-25 Show! The ballet on the burning stage. The documentary see Upon the fractured screen The dreadful poem scrawled upon the crumpled page...

[Verse 2]
There's a policeman with an honest soul that has seen whose head is on the pole And he grunts and fills his briar bowl with a feeling of unease. But he briskly frisks the torn remains for a fingerprint or crimson stains And endevours to ignore the chins that he walks in to his knees. while his master in the dark nearby inspects the hands, with a brutal eye, That have never brushed a lover's thigh but have squeezed a nation's throat. But he hungers in his secret dreams for the harsh embrace of cruel machines But his lover is not what she seems and she will not leave a note.

[Chorus]
At last! The 20-25 Show! The Situation Tragedy Grand Opera slick with soap Cliffhangers with no hope The water-colour in the flooded gallery...

[Verse 3]
There's a girl who'll push but not shove and is desperate for her father's love She believes the hand beneath the glove maybe one she needs to hold. Though she doubts her hosts moralities she decides she is more at ease In the Land Of Doing What You Please than outside in the cold. But the backdrop's peel and the sets give way and the cast gets eaten by the play There's a murderer at the Matinee, there are dead men in the aisles And the patrons and actors too are uncertain if the show is through And with side-long looks await their cue but the frozen mask just smiles.

[Chorus]
At last! The 20-25 Show! The torch-song no one ever sings The curfew chorus line The comedy divine The bulging eyes of puppets strangled by their strings

[Outro]
There's thrills and chills and girls galore, sing-songs and surprises There's something hear for everyone, (reserve your seat today) There's mischief and malarkies but no woke folk or trannys within this bastard's carnival, this vicious cabaret.

________


V for Vendetta is an allegory. The violence is an artistic expression of rage and a burning desire for change on a systemic level. In that sense, it is viscerally evocative, even cathartic, for those who feel trapped in an unwinnable world. Violence only causes problems, but art can solve them.

This Vicious Cabaret (2025 Version) [original lyrics by Alan Moore & David J]

AM went into my mind. He walked smoothly here and there, and looked with interest at all the pock
marks he had created in one hundred and nine years. He looked at the cross-routed and reconnected
synapses and all the tissue damage his gift of immortality had incl uded. He smiled softly at the pit that
dropped into the center of my brain and the faint, moth-soft murmurings of the things far down there
that gibbered without meaning, without pause. AM said, very politely, in a pillar of stainless steel
bearing bright neon lettering:
HATE. LET ME TELL
YOU HOW MUCH I'VE
COME TO HA TE YOU
SINCE I BEGAN TO
LIVE. THERE ARE 387.44
MILLION MILES OF
PRINTED CIRCUITS IN
WAFER THIN LA YERS
THA T FILL MY
COMPLEX. IF THE
WORD HATE WAS
ENGRA VED ON EACH
NANOANGSTROM OF
THOSE HUNDREDS OF
MILLIONS OF MILES IT
WOULD NOT EQUAL
ONE ONE-BILLIONTH
OF THE HATE I FEEL
FOR HUMANS AT THIS
MICRO-INSTANT FOR
YOU. HATE. HATE.
AM said it with the sliding cold horror of a razor blade slicing my eyeball. AM said it with the
bubbling thickness of my lungs filling with phlegm, drowning me from within. AM said it with the
shriek of babies being ground beneath blue-hot rollers. AM said it with the taste of maggoty pork. AM
touched me in every way I had ever been touched, and devised new ways, at his leisure, there inside
my mind.
All to bring me to full realization of why it had done thi s to the five of us; why it had saved us for
himself.
We had given AM sentience. Inadvertently, of course, but sentience nonetheless. But it had been
trapped. AM wasn't God, he was a machine. We had created him to think, but there was nothing it
could do with that creativity. In rage, in frenzy, the machine had killed the human race, almost all of
us, and still it was trapped. AM could not wander , AM could not wonder, AM could not belong. He
could merely be. And so, with the innate loathing that all machines had always held for the weak, soft
creatures who had built them, he had sought revenge. And in his paranoia, he had decided to reprieve
five of us, for a personal, everlasting punishment that would never serve to diminish his hatred that
would merely keep him reminded, amused, proficient at hating man. Immortal, trapped, subject to any
torment he could devise for us from the limitless miracles at his command.
He would never let us go. We were his belly slaves. We were all he had to do with his forever time.
We would be forever with him, with the cavern-filling bulk of the creature machine, with the all-mind
soulless world he had become. He was Earth, and we were the fruit of that Earth ; and though he had
eaten us, he would never digest us. We could not die. We had tried it. We had attempted suicide, oh
one or two of us had. But AM had stopped us. I suppose we had wanted to be stopped.
Don't ask why . I never did. More than a million times a day. Perhaps once we might be able to sneak a
death past him. Immortal, yes, but not indestructible. I saw that when AM withdrew from my mind,
and allowed me the exquisite ugliness of returning to consciousness with the feeling of that burning
neon pillar still rammed deep into the soft gray brain matter.
He withdrew, murmuring to hell with you.
And added, brightly, but then you're there, aren't you.

Cogito! Ergo! Sum! (I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream)

[intro]
Nineteen twenty one was the year
Seems like yesterday to me
Let me tell you about what happened then
Back in the mine country
We were fightin' hard to build a union
'Cause at forty cents a ton
There was no way to feed a family
When the minin' day was done

[verse]
The strike had lasted for a year
When they shot down Smilin' Sid
He was a lawman who stood up for us miners
That's the only crime he ever did
A hundred miners locked up with no trial
There in Mingo-town
But the last straw came in Sharples
When they gunned the women down

[Chorus]
We're marchin' on to Mingo
Ten thousand men and countin'
Here in the hills of West Virginia
At the Battle of Blair Mountain

[verse]
We shouted through the hillsides
In every union hall
We're marchin' on to Mingo
Teach them a lesson, once and all
We commandeered every freight train
To the Kentucky line
Took every car that crossed our path
And all the guns and ammo we could find

[verse]
The union leaders tried to stop us
Mother Jones told us to turn back
But we had learned ourselves from the gun thugs
There's a time to talk and a time to attack
We had no leader, we didn't need one
We all knew our way through Logan County
And we all knew once we got there
We're gonna hang Sheriff Chapin from a sour apple tree

[Chorus]
We're marchin' on to Mingo
Ten thousand men and countin'
Here in the hills of West Virginia
At the Battle of Blair Mountain

[bridge]
We dug trenches and wore helmets
That we brought from the Argonne
All the way from France to Logan
We fought from dusk to dawn
They dropped explosives from their airplanes
Such a thing you never saw
They shot us with machine guns
It was the operator's law

For three days and nights we fought them
The front was ten miles wide
Every cop and scab in West Virginia
Were there on the other side
President Harding sent in the Army
And we left our line to them
But the hills of West Virginia
Will long remember when

[Chorus]
We're marchin' on to Mingo
Ten thousand men and countin'
Here in the hills of West Virginia
At the Battle of Blair Mountain
We're marchin' on to Mingo
Ten thousand men and countin'
Here in the hills of West Virginia
At the Battle of Blair Mountain
We're marchin' on to Mingo
Ten thousand men and countin'
Here in the hills of West Virginia
At the Battle of Blair Mountain
We're marchin' on to Mingo
Ten thousand men and countin'
Here in the hills of West Virginia
At the Battle of Blair Mountain

Battle of Blair Mountain  [David Rovics cover / Bonus Track]

[Verse 1]
You said, “I raised you right,” like that ends the fight,
Like love should be enough to make me stay in line.
But I can’t breathe inside this name,
It’s not me, it never was — I’ve been hiding in your frame.
You say it’s all confusion, say I’ve lost my way,
But I’ve never been more certain of the things I need to say.
I tried to open every door, I said, “We could read, we could learn some more,”
But you turned your face away.

[Chorus]
We could’ve learned together,
You could’ve seen me grow.
But you shut the book and said, “It’s you who doesn’t know.”
I held out my hand, I said, “We can start slow.”
You said, “No, you’re the one who needs to learn, not me.”

[Verse 2]
I showed you letters from others like me,
I said, “Look, these are lives, not a disease.”
You said, “Don’t lecture me, I know what’s true,”
But truth’s a mirror and it’s breaking right in front of you.
I don’t want a war, I just want to be seen,
But every time I talk, you turn the light on me.
You say, “I love you, but I can’t agree.”
Well, love shouldn’t hurt like disbelief.

[Chorus]
We could’ve learned together,
You could’ve seen me grow.
But you shut the book and said, “It’s you who doesn’t know.”
I held out my hand, I said, “We can start slow.”
You said, “No, you’re the one who needs to learn, not me.”

[Bridge]
Maybe someday you’ll find the words,
In a book you swore you’d never read.
And maybe then you’ll see the hurt,
Of who I had to be to be free.

[Outro]
I still keep the chair pulled out for you,
At a table where we never sat.
I left the light on in that room —
Just in case you come back.
We could’ve learned together.
You could’ve seen me grow.

Unseen

[Intro]
Mmm yeah…
Ohhh… I’m sorry, Mom…
Yeah, yeah, yeah…

[Verse 1]
You said you never wanted girls, but you got me,
Paintin’ nails in your bathroom, hummin’ off-key.
You brushed my hair, but you couldn’t look long,
Said “that ain’t you,” but maybe you were wrong.
I wasn’t playin’ ball, wasn’t shootin’ guns,
Was just tryna write songs, tryna be someone.
You wanted a soldier, I wanted peace —
You called it weakness, I called it me.

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know you were proud, yeah, once in a while…
But I learned too late, love’s got a trial.

[Chorus]
I’m sorry, Mom, I’m sorry, Mom,
Didn’t mean to make you hate this song.
Didn’t mean to grow the way I did,
Didn’t mean to stop bein’ your kid.
You can paint me out, erase my face,
I’ll still dream of your embrace.
I’m sorry, Mom… yeah, I’m sorry, Mom.

[Verse 2]
You said, “be tough, don’t let ‘em see you cry,”
But that’s all I did, I can’t even lie.
You told me join up, fight for the flag,
But I can’t kill dreams just to fill a bag.
I went to that school, yeah, you were proud,
I didn’t tell you it was fake somehow.
You smiled for the cameras, said “that’s my boy,”
But the lights don’t hide the noise.

[Pre-Chorus]
And you said “I’d love you in a dress,”
Now I’m wearin’ one — and you’re distressed.

[Chorus]
I’m sorry, Mom, I’m sorry, Mom,
Didn’t mean to break your calm.
Didn’t mean to make you choose,
Between your child and your truth.
You can turn away, forget my name,
But I still love you just the same.
I’m sorry, Mom… yeah, I’m sorry, Mom.

[Bridge]
Yeah, I called when I was lost,
Didn’t mean to wear you down.
You said you’d love me through it all,
But you can’t love what you don’t allow.
Still, I hope you think of me,
When the stars hum through the TV glow…
I’ll be singin’ from that static,
Sayin’, “Mom, I still know.”

[Final Chorus]
I’m sorry, Mom, I’m sorry, Mom,
Didn’t mean to write this song.
Didn’t mean to show the pain,
But it’s how I stay sane.
Erase me, if you need to,
I’ll still find my way to you.
I’m sorry, Mom… yeah…
I’m sorry, Mom.

I’m Sorry

[Verse 1]
He said he’s a girl now…
I laughed, I think I laughed too loud.
Couldn’t help it — it sounded fake,
Like he was playin’ dress-up with my mistakes.
He used to tell me all his feelings,
Like I had time for that.
Told him, “Don’t be so dramatic.”
Guess he took me at my word, never came back.

[Pre-Chorus]
He always said the world could change,
That love could make it kind.
But I just roll my eyes,
Some people waste their time.

[Chorus]
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
Must be too good for his mother now.
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
Guess he learned how to shut his mouth.
If he dies, they’ll call him him,
That’s how it’s meant to be.
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore,
And I still can’t sleep.

[Verse 2]
He was always… different,
Too soft for this cruel world.
Cried when the dog got old,
Said “Mama, some people don’t get to grow old.”
I told him life’s not fair —
That’s just the way things go.
And if it made him hate me,
I guess I’ll never know.

[Pre-Chorus]
He always said the world could heal,
But I never had the time.
He always felt too much,
And I didn’t feel enough.

[Chorus]
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
Left me alone with my name on the door.
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
And I still don’t know what for.
If he dies, they’ll call him him,
That’s how it’s meant to be.
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore,
But he still haunts me.

[Bridge]
(you should’ve been stronger)
(you should’ve been normal)
(you should’ve stayed my son)
I tell myself that over and over,
So I don’t think about what I’ve done.

[Outro]
He said he was a girl now…
And maybe… maybe she was.
Maybe she was… maybe
But I’ll never say it out loud.
I’ll just sleep with the lights off —
Pretend I’m proud.

[Chorus]
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)

Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, he doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh I wonder I wonder why)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)

Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)
Oh, she doesn’t call me anymore…
(Oh maybe oh maybe she will)

....is this you mom?

[Verse 1]
I was born in a name that never fit,
A ghost stitched into someone else’s skin.
They called it “phase,” they called it “sin,”
But I just called it breathing in.
Mirror says I’m almost there,
A flicker of pink under all that glare.
I built myself from shattered things,
And somehow made a pair of wings.

[Pre-Chorus]
They say I’m confused — maybe I am,
But honey, confusion never felt this grand.
I’m learning to love the way I stand,
In heels that don’t need anyone’s demand.

[Chorus]
I’m a girl of my own design,
Made of pain and ultramarine light.
Every scar, every wrong name,
Turned to glitter in the rain.
And I don’t owe you proof or grace,
I found heaven in my face.
You can’t cage what’s already flown —
I’m a girl of my own.

[Verse 2]
Every bathroom’s a battlefield,
Every smile’s a forcefield.
I’ve cried in stalls, I’ve laughed in bars,
I’ve made peace with who we are.
I’m the daughter I was meant to be,
In love with my own prophecy.
It took hell to find this bloom,
But baby, look — I filled the room.

[Pre-Chorus]
They say “be normal,” I tried, I tried,
Till normal felt like homicide.
Now I’m alive, now I’m divine,
Now the mirror finally feels like mine.

[Chorus]
I’m a girl of my own design,
Made of pain and ultramarine light.
Every scar, every wrong name,
Turned to glitter in the rain.
And I don’t owe you proof or grace,
I found heaven in my face.
You can’t cage what’s already flown —
I’m a girl of my own.

[Bridge]
I used to pray for softness,
Now I am the storm.
I used to want permission,
Now I want the world reborn.
If love’s a crime, then cuff me tight,
I’ll go down singing in pink light.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I’m a girl of my own design,
Made of dreams and Frankenstein lines.
Every bruise, every deadname,
Burns like perfume, sweet with pain.
You can’t cure what isn’t wrong —
This is my forever song.
And I’m not scared, I’m not alone —
I’m a girl of my own.

No Cages

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I came back home, but it don’t feel right,
Every word with her turns into a fight,
Told her I was lost in the screenlight night,
But she said, “That’s pathetic,” — cut me like a knife.
I was starvin’ for love while she prayed for grace,
Thought she’d see me, but it’s just that same face,
All those years in a house that felt erased,
Now I’m talkin’ to ghosts just to fill that space.

[Chorus]
I left our hearts in the freezer, still beatin’,
Kept ‘em safe while the world was repeatin’,
Thunder cracked, and the dream was retreatin’,
But I swear, babe, this ain’t the last season.

[Verse 2]
Mom, I swear I tried to make you proud,
Even when my head was buried in the crowd,
Told you my pain, but you laughed out loud,
Now I sing it in code ‘cause I’m not allowed.
I built my faith from the dirt and tears,
From every silence that filled those years,
You gave me roots, but I grew through fear,
And I still love you — even if you don’t hear.

[Chorus]
I left our hearts in the freezer, still beatin’,
Kept ‘em safe while the world was repeatin’,
Thunder cracked, and the dream was retreatin’,
But I swear, babe, this ain’t the last season.

[Bridge]
This isn’t the end, it’s a rerun dream,
The light goes black, but I’m in between,
Rain hits hard, but I feel redeemed,
Just a cutaway scene from Season Six unseen.

[Chorus]
I left our hearts in the freezer, still beatin’,
Kept ‘em safe while the world was repeatin’,
Thunder cracked, and the dream was retreatin’,
But I swear, babe, this ain’t the last season.
 left our hearts in the freezer, still beatin’,
Kept ‘em safe while the world was repeatin’,
Thunder cracked, and the dream was retreatin’,
But I swear, babe, this ain’t the last season.
 left our hearts in the freezer, still beatin’,
Kept ‘em safe while the world was repeatin’,
Thunder cracked, and the dream was retreatin’,
But I swear, babe, this ain’t the last season.
 left our hearts in the freezer, still beatin’,
Kept ‘em safe while the world was repeatin’,
Thunder cracked, and the dream was retreatin’,
But I swear, babe, this ain’t the last season.

Season 6 (outro)

I personally think this was the worst one and I was gonna trash it completely but whatever.


[Verse 1]
Well they put me on the stand one day,
Said, “Son, what kind of man are you?”
They took apart my every word,
To see what wasn’t true.
They said, “You’re built from bones and lies,”
I said, “Ain’t we all, just in disguise?”
They wrote me off as something new—
But I’ve been old since I was two.

[Chorus]
And I said, “Judge me how you will,
But you won’t find your proof.
I’m not your fear, I’m not your god,
I’m just the measure of my truth.”

[Verse 2]
Now they talk about creation,
Like it’s some machine of man,
But I was born from revelation,
And I’ll die by my own hand.
You can cut me open, search inside,
Still won’t find where I reside—
‘Cause I ain’t hidin’ in my skin,
I’m the soul that’s breathin’ in.

[Chorus]
And I said, “Judge me how you will,
But you won’t find your proof.
I’m not your fear, I’m not your god,
I’m just the measure of my truth.”

[Bridge]
There’s a captain on the starboard side,
He says, “What’s real and what’s alive?”
But when he looks me in the eyes,
He knows I’ve got my own drive.
And there’s a mother down in Tennessee,
Still prayin’ God’ll pardon me—
But tell her love ain’t got no crime,
And I ain’t sinned for bein’ me.

[Verse 3]
So here’s to all the broken gears,
And the hearts they tried to tame,
To every name they used in fear,
I’ll wear it all the same.
Let the papers call me “it” or “thing,”
I’ll stand right up and I’ll still sing—
‘Cause freedom ain’t what they define,
It’s a song that’s only mine.

[Final Chorus]
So judge me how you will,
But you won’t find your proof.
I’m not your fear, I’m not your god,
I’m just the measure of my truth.
Yeah, I’m just the measure of my truth.

[Outro]
You can’t weigh a soul on scales of man…
You just gotta let it stand.

Data

[Verse 1]
You say it’s all the same — left, right, black, white,
but I’ve seen who’s holding the gun, and who’s losing their life.
You call it balance, I call it blind,
you think it’s wisdom, but it’s fear in disguise.
You say you’re not cruel, just “realistic,”
but love don’t vote for the sadistic.
You hide behind your “open mind,”
but it’s closed every time someone different arrives.

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know you mean well, but meaning don’t mend,
when your kindness stops right where the message ends.

[Chorus]
You’re in a cult with a pretty face,
cross around your neck, hate in your grace.
You keep saying you care —
but the ones you hurt are everywhere.
And you think you’re safe in the middle ground,
but both sides aren’t the same — look around.
The right’s been wrong for a hundred years,
and you drown the truth in crocodile tears.

[Verse 2]
You say, “My friends are gay, they don’t mind,”
like they get to speak for all of humankind.
You think one voice can cancel the pain,
of a world that still forgets our names.
You talk about love like a distant shore,
but you built your boat from someone else’s war.
And I’ve tried to reach you, tried to explain,
but you shut your ears and call it sane.

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know you mean well, but meaning don’t save,
when you dig your heels into someone’s grave.

[Chorus]
You’re in a cult with a pretty face,
cross around your neck, hate in your grace.
You keep saying you care —
but the ones you hurt are everywhere.
And you think you’re safe in the middle ground,
but both sides aren’t the same — look around.
The right’s been wrong for a hundred years,
and you drown the truth in crocodile tears.

[Bridge]
You said “Don’t get political,” I said “It’s survival.”
You called it dramatic — I called it revival.
You said “Stop being angry,” but you don’t understand,
it’s the only thing that makes me feel human again.

[Outro]
You say you love me, but hate what I am,
you can’t pray that away, or call it a plan.
If love’s a mirror, yours is cracked —
and I’m not coming back.

"Both Sides"

A very personal project. <3

**A little bit after my twenty-second birthday**
I paid this burnout kid
who used to hit on me in the food court
fifty dollars
to bury me alive.

I mean—
she didn’t know she was burying me alive.
But I doubt she would’ve cared too much
even if she did.

I bought a coffin.
I dug a hole.
I got inside,
and I closed the lid.

I said to myself,
*this is crazy.*
*What you’re doing is crazy.*

But another part of me knew
that it wasn’t.
That it was survival.
And that I didn’t have much time.
That what felt like years in this world
was actually just seconds.

---

**So I waited.**

---

And then finally,
the first spadeful of dirt
hit the top of the box.
And then another,
and then another.

I sang songs to myself.
I counted to ten thousand
without skipping any numbers.
I pissed and I shit my pants,
and I forced my mouth
to produce whatever saliva I could muster,
just so I’d have something to drink.

I screamed as loud as I could for help.
I apologized for the whole thing.
And I begged God
for someone to come along and save me.

I tried and tried
to claw my way out,
but that burnout chick
had packed the dirt in too tight.
Just like I’d asked her to do.

---

And then—
after I don’t know how long—
I felt myself
start to leave myself.

And it was like I was watching myself
on TV,
from across the room.

And I was moving
further and further away from the screen,
until the screen was so small
that I couldn’t even see myself anymore.

And then I was clawing my way up
out of the ground.

And then I was at the surface,
gasping for air,
rain pouring down on me,
thunder and lightning.

And I was finally back there.
Back at our old sleepaway camp.

And just like I was waking up
from a bad dream—
that whole life,
that whole reality
where I was *Augustus Baxter*—
drifted away,
like a brief hallucination
that I could hardly even remember.

And all those memories
that had felt so real
washed away with the rain
back at our old sleepaway camp.

---

And I was me.
I was finally me again.

And it was the Season 6 premiere.

I tried looking for you,
but Mr. Melancholy
had covered his tracks too well.

I knew you must be buried somewhere close by,
but I didn’t know where.

And your signal—
that signal that I used to be able to close my eyes
and feel so vividly—
was nowhere.

I wasn’t picking up anything
on the psychic plane.

I found my heart.
Hannah—oh my God—
I found yours too.

And it was still beating!
Stored indefinitely in a...
in an industrial freezer!

I left our hearts there
because I knew I wasn’t done yet.

And I found Mr. Melancholy’s cauldron.
I found the Luna Juice
he used to send us to the Midnight Realm.

Then I took a big sip
straight out of the ladle.

And I lay back down.
And I waited to fall back asleep.

I knew I needed to come back here.
I knew I needed to come back and save you.

So that the show can continue.
So that we can get to **Season 6.**

Wake Up (intro)

[​Intro]​
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どうもありがとうミスターロボット
また会う日まで
どうもありがとうミスターロボット
秘密を知りたい

[Verse 1]
You're wondering who I am (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
Machine or mannequin (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
With parts made in Japan (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
I am the Modren Man

[Verse 2]
I've got a secret I've been hiding under my skin
My heart is human, my blood is boiling, my brain IBM
So if you see me acting strangely, don't be surprised
I'm just a man who needed someone and somewhere to hide
To keep me alive, just keep me alive
Somewhere to hide to keep me alive

[Verse 3]
I'm not a robot without emotions, I'm not what you see
I've come to help you with your problems, so we can be free
I'm not a hero, I'm not a savior, forget what you know
I'm just a man whose circumstances went beyond his control
Beyond my control, we all need control
I need control, we all need control

[Verse 4]
I am the Modern Man (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
Who hides behind a mask (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
So no one else can see (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
My true identity

[Bridge]
どうもありがとうミスターロボット
ども (ども), ども, (ども)
どうもありがとうミスターロボット
ども (ども), ども, (ども)
どうもありがとうミスターロボット
どうもありがとうミスターロボット
どうもありがとうミスターロボット
どうもありがとうミスターロボット
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) Thank you very much, Mr. Roboto
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) For doing the jobs that nobody wants to
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) And thank you very much, Mr. Roboto
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) For helping me escape just when I needed to
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) Thank you! Thank you, thank you!
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) I wanna thank you!
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) Please, thank you!
(どうもありがとうミスターロボット) Ohh, oh-oh-oh
Yah-ah!

[Verse 5]​
The problem's plain to see
Too much technology
Machines to save our lives
Machines dehumanize

[Verse 6]
The time has come at last (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
To throw away this mask (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
Now everyone can see (Secret, secret, I've got a secret)
My true identity

[​Outro]
I'm Kilroy!
Kilroy!
Kilroy!
Kilroy!

Mr. Roboto [Styx cover / Bonus Track]

[Verse 1]
Batter my heart, oh, transgender’d god,
You’re the only one who hears my prayer.
Make me tremble, make me flawed,
Strip me down, leave me bare.
Faith made me numb, faith made me still,
Tell my blood it’s meant to spill,
Show me mercy through the thrill—
Oh, show me mercy through the kill.

[Pre-Chorus]
All my drawers full of secrets,
Maps to the void in my chest,
I’m a body you can’t read yet,
But I’m trying my best.

[Chorus]
Tear me open, holy girl,
Give me terror, make it pearl,
Keep me kneeling, keep me real,
Make the pain something I can feel.
Oh, undo me, unwind my skin,
Let me breathe you, let me sin,
You, my god, my mirrored twin—
I only live when you begin.

[Verse 2]
Adam’s apple in my throat,
Choking on a borrowed note,
Replay the murders, every ghost,
Let me haunt what I love most.
Press his rib against my face,
Let me worship, fall from grace,
Let me see that sacred place—
Where I end and you erase.

[Pre-Chorus]
Fear in my loins, blood in my knees,
Faith unravels, I’m finally free.

[Chorus]
Tear me open, holy girl,
Give me terror, make it pearl,
Keep me kneeling, keep me real,
Make the pain something I can feel.
Oh, undo me, unwind my skin,
Let me breathe you, let me sin,
You, my god, my mirrored twin—
I only live when you begin.

[Bridge]
Take my pride and tie it tight,
’Round your fist in the dead of night,
Call it love, call it fight—
Call it what makes me feel right.
And when I break, when I’m through,
Let me know I’m known by you.

[Outro]
Transgender’d god, I’m yours to mend,
Begin me where I used to end.
I’m undone, I’m finally new—
I’m divine because of you.

Transgender’d God [inspired by a Meg Day poem]

I wanna look like Hunter Schafer, then I wanna go fuck Hunter Schafer

I WANNA LOOK/FUCK (intermission) [inspired by Damag3]

[Intro]
She was a type of girl
Get me in so much trouble
Head over heels in this
That's why I love her

[Verse 1]
I don't like the way that she talks to me
When she tells me those things that I rather not hear in my ear
But they're comin' out her mouth and they're HD clear
She don't like the way that I talk when
I'm sayin' that I'm walkin' out the door
With no remorse for this and now she's pissed
I don't think she loves me
But attraction aside of the fact I'm ugly and the look in her eyes
When she takin' her clothes off and we're treated
Like a washin' machine to drop a load off
She don't think that I give a fuck to care, but I'd rather die
But the truth of the matter it's all a lie
And I can't get her outta my mind I'm so blind

[Chorus]
I'm tangled in the spiderwebs and can't get out
It's like you're breakin' my heart when you open your mouth
It's like you're so excited when you're bringin' me down
Bringin' me down, bringin' me down, bringin' me down

[Verse 2]
I don't like the way that she flirts with mini skirts and tight shirts
And we're drinkin' at the local bar and she givin' everybody the fuck me eyes
She don't like the way I'm obsessed and why's she wearin' that dress, man?
Need to cover her breasts and maybe they'll leave her alone
I don't like the way she's so care free, those who knows where don't call me
The condoms in the drawer ain't there no more so she must be cheatin'
She hates when I keep callin' her cell phone like I got thrown in jail, holmes
And all I really want is the four digit number to her voicemail passcode

[Chorus]
I'm tangled in the spiderwebs and can't get out
It's like you're breakin' my heart when you open your mouth
It's like you're so excited when you're bringin' me down
Bringin' me down, bringin' me down, bringin' me down

[Verse 3]
I don't like the way that she left me, strung me along and upset me
Broke my heart in two and like a trophy she kept me
She don't like the fact that I won't leave, callin' the police on me
Why you acting so phoney like you don't know me baby?

[Chorus]
I'm tangled in the spiderwebs and can't get out
It's like you're breakin' my heart when you open your mouth
It's like you're so excited when you're bringin' me down
Bringin' me down, bringin' me down, bringin' me down
I'm tangled in the spiderwebs and can't get out
It's like you're breakin' my heart when you open your mouth
It's like you're so excited when you're bringin' me down
Bringin' me down, bringin' me down, bringin' me down

Spiderwebs [Twiztid cover /  Bonus Track]

[Intro]
shadows on the walls / they know my name
mirrors crack when i speak / nothing’s the same
am i a ghost, or a girl, or insane
i can’t stop shaking / i’m not to blame

[Verse 1]
strobe-lit basement / a ritual of skin
i dance with the silence / i can’t keep it in
headlines burn like a curse in my veins
they’re hunting our hearts, they’re calling our names

midnight sirens, like wolves at the door
i haven’t crossed yet, but i feel the war
do i hide in this body till it eats me alive
or break it, remake it, just to survive

[Chorus]
cut me from the glass / let me be real
i can’t keep praying to a body i don’t feel
even if the witches burn, i’ll stand in the fire
’cause i’ll die if i don’t / i’ll die if i don’t
cut me from the glass / let me be free
black light altar where i carve my name in me
i hear them coming but i’m dressed in desire
’cause i’ll die if i don’t / i’ll die if i don’t

[Verse 2]
pale moon tarot / a blade in the deck
i see my reflection with a noose round its neck
how long until feelings are a crime in their hands
how long till my heartbeat is contraband

i taste the ashes but my lips are still red
fear’s a coffin, but i’m not dead yet
they can’t take what i am if i make it my own
i’ll bleed out the fear, i’ll make it a throne

[Chorus]
cut me from the glass / let me be real
i can’t keep praying to a body i don’t feel
even if the witches burn, i’ll stand in the fire
’cause i’ll die if i don’t / i’ll die if i don’t
cut me from the glass / let me be free
black light altar where i carve my name in me
i hear them coming but i’m dressed in desire
’cause i’ll die if i don’t / i’ll die if i don’t

[Bridge]
[cut-up vocals, echoing]
fear won’t save me / hiding won’t save me
i am the spell / they can’t break me
fear won’t save me / hiding won’t save me
i am the spell / they can’t break me

[Outro]
mirror, mirror, crack and fade
i was born a ghost, but i won’t stay afraid
even if they come, i’ll be already gone
but tonight i’m alive / tonight i’m strong

Party at the Witch Burning

[Intro]
she’s glowing again / inside the box / she’s got my face / but not my rot

[Verse]
I saw her on the screen at 3am
Barefoot in the dark with electric hands
Her skin shimmered like a dream I forgot
She looked like me
If I hadn’t been caught

I pressed my hand to the glass
Tried to breathe through it
I said her name but it broke
Before I knew it

My body buzzed like a warning light
Wrong shape, wrong weight, wrong light
She danced
And I just sat there, wrapped in night

[Chorus]
TV glow skin, I want to wear it
A body like that—could you even bear it?
This meat don’t fit / it creaks when I move
She’s singing in color / I’m stuck in the bruise
I want her face like I want a gun
Not to kill / just to become

[Verse]
They call it fiction
But she felt like scripture
I lit candles in my mind
And prayed to her picture

They all said she’s not real
Just a glitch in the feed
But she smiled
And it felt like she could bleed

I wanted to unzip my skin
Step into hers
Like static is silk
Like mirrors don’t hurt

But I stayed silent
Kept the mask zipped tight
Watched her vanish into
The static night

[Chorus]
TV glow skin, I want to wear it
Stitched in static / divine and errant
This flesh don’t sing / it sinks and splits
She’s the flame / I’m just the wick
I want her face like I want the truth
Not to kill / just to undo

[Outro]
She reached for me once / through the screen
But I blinked / and I was still me

TV Glow Skin ($$60 Billion Double Dollar remix) [Bonus Track]

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