blacksquares HARDEWSTR BOPS

art by me and @ivyatoms

every year that goes by i just seem to get older
and the tide goes up and the water washes over
and i know myself less going in and out my head
going in and out my head hooded death gets a boner

fucking sickos. fucking sickos everywhere
and you got your nails long
whyd u cut off all your hair
fucking sickos. fucking sickos everywhere
are u fucking doing ok?

ill be a black crow in my next life
flying over an office park

i smash and curse this skin
oh i dig and dig and dig
pulling away at the fat and muscle
always searching further in
somewhere deep inside my body
has to be the answer to everything
somewhere deep inside my body
has to be the reason for why I’m like this

2017 / 01

Girls Rituals - Black Crow

its ready if you want it
its on fire and its nothing
if you touch it you can have it
but if you touch it youll become it

its like a wound 10 miles wide
how can it heal if we cant see to either side
its carnivale
its 2012
im in a new shit now
keep changing shapes until it helps

lets try a new dance
lets make some new shit up
under the new moon
lets make a new style
lets fuck something up tonite

lets fuck something up tonite
lets make it right tonite
lets fuck something up tonite
you dont have to be alright tonite

im never knowing for a sea of fire
im never hoping for a world of pain

tell me how it feels
tell me if its real or not
is it really real
tell me if its real or not

Girls Rituals - New Moon

slightly lost my voice today but still wanted to make a song

above my head theres angels laughing
its like my soul is stuck in traffic
10 steady years of never passing
i try to fly on lace wings
but i keep on crashing down

on my head theres demons dancing
their charcoal hooves are always tapping
where i go theres strangers laughing
i wanna look like a girl but i always do it wrong

wheres my self / soul / sell

Girls Rituals - World Dissolving Into Slime ASMR

apple and a mango
sitting on a rainbow
yogurt and a milkshake
and a red gatorade
sitting on the metro
looking out the window
watching all the world blow up in a stupid ass mushroom cloud

when someone fucks it up again i know
we'll see you all in the reboot again i hope
i dont know how that type of thing would work
i tried to look it up but i dunno

head right now into it

2017 / 02

Girls Rituals - Sitting on a rainbow

every body breaks down
nothings gonna carry you forever
always wanna carry on
always wanna scream in terror
im just tryna be myself
if it gets me killed no wonder
thinking i should by a gun
probably shouldnt but whatever

ive been getting so much static
ive been getting brainwashed and shit
please dont really drink the water
keep your head down theres tonnes of cops out

if theres nowhere to run
if theres nowhere to hide
can we dig a hole right into the other side
if theres nowhere to run
if they already

2017 / 03

Girls Rituals - Every Body Breaks Down

art by silkpath 
silkpath.tumblr.com

resting on a sunday
hungry for some subway
just another doomsday
alarms are going off
getting on a airplane
surfing on a bloodwave
hiding on the airwaves
nails keep breaking off

i dream a secret dream
i dream something thats just for me

her soul is tangled like some apple earbuds
that girls ugly but its not her fault
please dont worry im cryin over nothing
please dont crush me im just a tiny bug

putting on foundation
cruising for donations
in all of this creation 
i just wanna flirt with u
stuck in transformation
another new mutation
total information
information overload

i dream an evil dream
in my dreams im dancin in hell

Girls Rituals - Cryin Over Nothing

overflowing sludge
weaponized industrial garbage
i could use a hug
pat my head and tell me im wrong about everything
feeling like a wound
that healed around a knife
if the knife was also a dick

i wanna wanna live but i wanna die
as a real girl
a real girl

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