vocals by me

I thought that we'd be together forever
No one could ever be better for me
You silenced all the chatter
And you helped me see

A version of myself
That really feels like me
I just wish that I could tell
You how I really feel

But you haven't replied
In a couple of days
Now all that I can do is cry
Why won't this feeling go away

I don't wanna run
I just wanna be ok
I wish that I could go back
If only for a day
I wish that I could go back
If only for a day

Now I can't get no fucking sleep
Feels like I'm sinking through the floor
Yeah I just wish that it could be
Just like it was back before

But it's a two way street
Don't love me if it's a chore
Yeah I just miss you telling me
To come and open up the door

The bar wasn't exactly high
But now it's way up in the sky
So every single god damn time
I meet someone I expect them to fly

I know I'm not getting anywhere
Trying to find another you
There's no use comparing
I'll just miss what's at hand

But I can't drop my standards now
When I can just remember how
You made me feel
Now I just have to deal

With this feeling
Oh it just won't go away
Keep on staring at the ceiling
I could do this all day

With this feeling
Oh it just won't go away
Keep on staring at the ceiling
I could do this all day
I could do this all day

Now I can't get no fucking sleep
Feels like I'm sinking through the floor
Yeah I just wish that it could be
Back like how it was before

But it's a two way street
Don't love me if it's a chore
Yeah I just miss you telling me
To come and open up the door

Now I can't get no fucking sleep
Feels like I'm stuck on repeat
Yeah I just wish that you could see
What you really meant to me

I'm still glad that we could meet
Even if I never see
I'm still glad we got to meet
Even if I never see you again

Open Up Full 3

FOOBYWOOBY

Eek2

Eek3

Eek4

Skibediwibede

Fylbe

i'm autistic i wrote this song about being an autistic person

why don't you make up ur damn mind
do you want me to talk or to shut up 
i've heard it a million times oh why
don't you leave me alone i've had enough


don't wanna play pretend
don't wanna have to carry around a rolodex of fake personalities
untill I never see what life could be
if I was more like me


used to feel like a ghost
yeah life goes so fast
when you're putting on a show
but now i'm starting to unmask and let it all go
cause the years i spent pretending


have taken a fucking toll
I don't wanna throw myself at a wall I don't wanna throw myself at a wall I don't wanna throw myself at a wall anymore


why don't make up ur damn mind
do you want me to talk or to shut up 
i've heard it a million times oh why
don't you leave me alone i've had enough


don't wanna play pretend
don't wanna have to carry around a roledex of fake personalities
untill I never see what life could be
if I was more like me
what the fuck, what the fuck, what the fu-

Wtf 3

Angy demo 2

I wrote this song about being sexually assaulted

you told me that I wanted it
that it was what I was made for
I did not fucking want it, but I could not say no
because I already did. and that didn't stop you

I panic
you say "nice resistance"
while you worm your way in to my head
now I'm not safe here anymore

please kill me
oh god I wanna die
i don't want to live anymore
please fucking kill me (please)

get the fuck out of my head
i can't be alone with myself or anyone else
they all remind me of you

it didn't make me stronger
it just fucking made me fall apart
and I didn't even
realize that it was because of you
oh I started cutting without realizing why

I can't get out of bed because of you
stuck in my head
even if i try to distract myself
at any moment i could get caught up in the memory
i don't want to go on any more
i don't wanna do this an mo-

-i don't want to live anymore
please fucking kill me (please)


when I look through my camera roll
at who i was before you
oh I wish I could be her
i wish I could go back to who i was before you
I started processing my childhood trauma
just for you to tear apart what was left

get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you get out of my head i hate you

TW:SA I wish I could forget the taste of your violence

You have to have a heart for it to be broken
and I'm thinking of getting rid of mine
at least then I could maybe mean something to someone

without second guessing all the time
wondering when they're gon' get tired of me

but I don't wanna go back to watching my life
from the back of my eyes
the view is nice from a distance but I know it doesn't compare

I guess I'm getting why people stay away
a haunted house is no home until you've fixed me
it's in my bones. I'm rotten to my core

you'll never separate me from my trauma
just want someone to not care but also care

the odds of dying in a plane crash are higher than the odds of me being loved by someone I love

but I won't let that stop me. I've spent my whole life alone I won't let this break me no

it sure fucking sucks though

and all I do is suffer and all I want is peace
just want a sense of stability

just want to know what it's like to
have the ability to sleep

without staying up all day and night
just waking up in 3 hours
can't get back to sleep

A Haunted House Is No Home

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