Rough Demo Recording
Written by Bruce Dickinson & Adrian Smith
Originally released on "Piece Of Mind" album 1983

Lyrics:

Well you killed your first man at 13
Killer instinct, animal supreme
By 16, you had learned to fight
The way of the warrior, you took it as your right

Sunlight, falling on your steel
Death in life is your ideal
Life is like a wheel

Sunlight, falling on your steel
Death in life is your ideal
Life is like a wheel

Through earth and water, fire and wind
You came at last-nothing was the end
And make a cut by fire and stones
Take you and your blade and break you both in two
Break you both in two

Sunlight, falling on your steel
Death in life is your ideal
Life is like a wheel

Sunlight, falling on your steel
Death in life is your ideal
Life is like a wheel

Sunlight, falling on your steel
Death in life is your ideal
Life is like a wheel

Sunlight, falling on your steel
Death in life is your ideal
Life is like a wheel and it's rolling still

Sun And Steel (Iron Maiden Cover) - Demo

Recorded at Innsmouth & Mono
Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth

Lyrics:

Through the fears, all these years, I walked alone
I look like shit, I always did and they still fucked me
It's just by luck that I found, should've played the stupid
My honesty is just a disease

Can not scream, can not speak or smack the walls now
I lost it all, I lost the cause, I should've listened
To my mom and dad, hear what they said but now it's curtains
And you know I'll be wrecking soon

Oh yes she knows how it feels
Dear mother light come make me bleed
With you one thinks love is real
And then the weakness shows

But for a short while it was good
For a short while it was new
For a short while it was good
For a short while it was blue
Now I know that it's only pain
With these teardrops I'll decay
But for a short while it was good
For a short while it was new

Life's a dream, so hold still before it's over
Cancer bites, eyesight dies and the heart gets tired
Spirits dance, I take a glance at my body
'Cause you know, nothing remains

Oh you carved in me this hole
Faces change but spirits don't
With you at first I felt reborn
And then the weakness showed

But for a short while it was good
For a short while it was new
For a short while it was good
For a short while it was blue
Now I know that it's only pain
With these teardrops I'll decay
But for a short while it was good
For a short while it was new

For a short while...

Written and arranged by Mert YILDIZ

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, 12 String Acoustic Guitar, Electric Guitar, Bass, Keyboards, Percussion
Mikkel SZLAVIK: Percussion
Tuğba Selin ÜLKER: Voice 

FOR A SHORT WHILE

Recorded at Innsmouth & Mono
Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth

Lyrics:

I've lost my way
I'm not sure where I was from
I've lost my way
I'm not sure where I was headed
Remember your crossroads
And the memories that I carried
The last time I've been there
No roads were left at all

So this was me?
Tell me how I came so far?
So this was me?
Tell me how come there are no dawns?
Who took the sun away?
Who took the sun away?
Who took the sun away?
Why are we here?

I've lost my way
I'm not sure anymore now
I've lost my way
East and west are now the same
It's all mud
I remember the sound of breaking
Did I ever try?
Maybe the pressure on the glass started slow

Reached to the top
Was there a place before this?
Reached to the top
Did it ever exist?
Why didn't anybody make a sound?
Why didn't anybody make a sound?
Why didn't anybody make a sound?
So this was me?

I've lost my way
I'm not sure where I was from
I've lost my way
I'm not sure where I was headed
One step forward
One step down to the ground
Look for east or south
North or west, it's all behind

When I was broken
I left the wind aside
I cant move anymore
I cant see anymore
It's all the same
It's the end of the game
It's all the same
Who is all to blame?

Written by Mert YILDIZ and Saba ARAT
Arranged by Mert YILDIZ

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, 12 String Acoustic Guitar, Electric Guitar, Bass, Percussion
Mikkel SZLAVIK: Percussion 

THE STAGNANT

Recorded at Innsmouth & Mono
Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth

Lyrics:

Wolfgang saved my life
Through his bleeding heart
All those songs of love
19 years all went by
I told him "it's good to enjoy,
"All the little things you see,
"It's better to be alone,
"All alone for a while."

Going down with my frostbit heart

Dimitris said "hello,
"So weather's bad over there?"
Let's take a stroll down the street
To get some booze or poke some whores
Nothing better to do
All failure, all emptiness
All the backstabbing and the leaving
I guess, left me sour

Going down with my frostbit heart

Rust turns to love
Love turns to rust
Silver into steel
Steel turns to rust

Rasputin saves my life
Will and discipline
He tells me I'm better without,
"Get rid off all the vermin and bugs."
Woke up today, feeling astray,
I took a razorblade to see some blood
I took a look at the mirror and said:
"There are better things to cut!"

Going down with my frostbit heart

Written and arranged by Mert YILDIZ

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, 12 String Acoustic Guitar, Bass, Percussion
Mikkel SZLAVIK: Drums, Percussion
Korhan GÜNSOR: Piano 

FROSTBIT HEART

Recorded at Innsmouth & Mono
Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth

Lyrics:

I've been with all the bad girls here
For the next one I have some pills left in my pockets

He tells me he's been raped
And not just once so it's his fate
His body made but his heart didn't
So, he regrets

They said "you're a man, be cool!
"Fuck around, don't be a fool!"
He said "You know better than Poe?
"So I'll be a fool like him as well!"
He said:

I've been with all the bad girls here
For the next one I have some pills left in my pockets

Don't get me wrong, I'm no snob
I keep my expectations low
Once they sniff out my loneliness
That's when they really start to use

They all give you hope
And parts of them you'd think it's love
Banging all day is not what I mean
What I mean is that they share it all

I'm just confused
Why is it ok to hurt a man this way
Evil abuse
It's a lie that pain makes you strong
Never asked for pussy or ass
Blowjobs and backdoor sex
So they are not the payment back

Then I told him "I'm the same,
"Try it but they won't understand,
"We're born cavalier
"Into a southern land of whores and pimps."

"No matter how you feel,
"Stick to your heart, don't give in,
"The next time you make yourself sure,
"To give a good smack as the payment back."
I said:

We've been with all the bad girls here
For the next ones we have some pills left in our pockets

Written and arranged by Mert YILDIZ

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, 12 String Acoustic Guitar, Electric Guitar, Bass, Keyboards, Percussion
Mikkel SZLAVIK: Drums, Percussion
Deniz TUNCER: Electric Guitar

I'VE BEEN WITH ALL THE BAD GIRLS IN ISTANBUL

Lyrics:

Have you been to the places I've seen you in my dreams?
For just one moment we let go and got lost somewhere

The spider I crushed is dreaming
Laid beside my shortcomings
My eyes are closed in fetal position
Waiting for the explosion
Our childhood toys are sleeping
That broken-hearted sleep

In the drawers that we hid them in
And as much as we think that we are alive
We are what they dream and that's why
We break and wither
And tire each other out

I ran towards your voice but you've seemed like someone else
Then I took a glance at the mirror - it was me who was not himself

Do you feel scared that I'm not there now?
I felt scared with you
Maybe that's why I've been so fearless
I know it's ok if it hurts
When we can no longer break
We fall into garbage cans

And maybe you'll see me in a museum
Or maybe I'll see you when you look at the stars
I just wished a return to the dreams I had
When I was a boy

Those old neon lights and dusty theaters
It's night forever, June midweek

from THE BIG LOSS, released 18 May 2015
Recorded, Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth between 2012-2015

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, Electric Guitar, Bass, Programming 

JUNE MIDWEEK

Lyrics:

Knock! Knock!
Guess who's back?
I searched, I tried
Then I wrecked
I seeked the trail to the river
But something kept on holding me back
Spent my youth, spent my days
Then I saw it all collapse
When the credit's gone
They put the bullet in
So I say

I can change the shape of my skin
But not the weight of my heart
I can see them, looking like ants
But I'm not built to climb
So stitch your scars now
And pack back home to die
Only a live bait for the wretch
See, there's nothing left
To sell

I see you're still fighting
Tooth to tooth, blade to blade
Should hurt when you gasp for air
Unfurl! Onwards to black days
But I found a knife
That cut me deep
So deep that I broke free

I did change the shape of my skin
But not the weight of my heart
I could see them, looking like ants
But I was not built to climb
I stitched my scars well
And packed back here to die
Was the live bait for the wretch
See? There was nothing left
To sell

I'll put myself
In the bargain bin
There life goes
But I'll stay here on my own
And out there the sun's waiting
But not for me
Not for the lonely
After all those times intoxicated
I survived
But not my heart
credits
from THE BIG LOSS, released 18 May 2015
Recorded, Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth between 2012-2015

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, Electric Guitar, Bass, Programming 

THE BIG LOSS

A taster from the forthcoming EP "11.11" - this is actually a small segment of the rather lenghty title track.

Lyrics:

Here take a ride with me across the snow covered city
Faster and faster we shall go staring at the city lights
See how they blur into a heaven of colours in darkness
While we ride without a worry in the world 

Riding on the wet road
Risky it shall be 
But do we really care?
Well, this is only the dream
You will be the native and I will be the stranger
You will give the directions and I'll be the driver
The passenger

And to the freeway and to the outskirts of the city 
And outside the road where we'll hear the sounds of people 
Speaking and fucking behind the bushes where animals dwell

So I ask myself
Are they dreaming too?
Silence of the winter
Nighttime forever 
Speeding into the darkness, sprinting in the water
When we ride downhill, I lose control
I'm the ghost rider

I'm the passenger
I'm the ghost rider
I'm the passenger

Until we arrive into the valley in the forest
A silent wooden boardinghouse by the lake
Majestic trees on the other side in the fog
This is where you'll leave me behind

I'll wake up an old man 
Living in the house all alone
With dead letters and postcards never sent

Dreams never realized 
The postman never arrived
Never
Never

I'm the passenger
I'm the ghost rider
I'm the passenger


from "11.11"
Recorded, Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, 6 String Acoustic Guitar, Programming
Çağlar NEÇELİK: Percussion


THE RIDE

Lyrics:

The grey sky hides the sun
The smell of moss fills my lungs

A raindrop falls on my face
Just like a tear, it leaves no trace

Bad news arrive while you laugh
Somebody leaves while you drown

Would you believe there was a time
I fell from grace with the sea
Lost my hopes in turning tide
Turned my face to leafless trees

What will I leave behind?
Dreams in Lighthouse Keeper’s Cabin

Tonight I’ll watch the White Ship leave
While it sails away, I stay here

I sold my soul to these dreams
The sounds of birds and the sea
Watching waves hit the rocks
Guiding ghosts with my light

What will I leave behind?
Dreams in Lighthouse Keeper’s Cabin

Personnel:
Mert YILDIZ: Voice, Electric Guitar, Bass, Programming

Recorded, Mixed and Mastered at Innsmouth, 2016

DREAMS IN LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER'S CABIN

Miserable music for miserable people.

Discography:
- An Aimless Craving (2014)
- Guddo-Bai (2015)
- The Big Loss (2015)
- The Ride (A Single) (2016)
- Dreams In Lighthouse Keeper's Cabin (A Single) (2016)
- All In 1 (Bootleg Compilation) (2016)
- Remembrance (A Single) (2019)

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