none

I loaded the gun you cocked it and pulled the trigger 
looking for a little fun I did things that I would never 

loving you’s one of the worst things that ever happened to me 
now I can’t figure out why it took me this long to see 
I let you pull apart the pieces of my heart 
go ‘head and pull apart the pieces of my heart 

I said I wouldn’t mind then you went ahead and you did it used to blame you but now I know I was a hundred percent complicit 
loving you’s one of the worst things that ever happened to me now I can’t figure out why it took me this long to see 

I let you pull apart the pieces of my heart 
go ‘head and pull apart the pieces of my heart 

now that the deed’s been done I sit here with my own conscience 
both my hands are blood red no matter how much I wash them 

loving you’s one of the worst things that ever happened to me 
now I can’t figure out why it took me this long to see 
I let you pull apart the pieces of my heart 
go ‘head and pull apart the pieces of my heart

Pull Apart The Pieces of My Heart

violate me
talk down to me
hit me where it hurts
lie to me
forget about me
use me
give up on me
all I’ll do is love you more

love feels like having the same relationship with expressing your feelings so you both keep your mouth shut
love is realizing how unforgiving I’ve been to you
feeling guilty about it and swallowing it down
no we don’t talk about that kind of stuff with each other - we just don’t 

sometimes I see you in my dreams
can’t escape when I’m asleep
I’m so selfish I’m so weak
it’s no wonder why you left me
I walk in moonlight by the sea
picturing you in my arms again

all I'll do is love you more

Can't Get Enough

you used to lend your shoulder
you used to smile whenever I saw your face
asked me how things are going
gave me the time of day
you used to be a backbone
you gave all that you had and you didn’t take
picked me up on my worst days
you used to rep for me

but you don’t care you don’t care you don’t care no more
well if you don’t care
then I don’t

you used call me up every once in a while
just to shoot the shit 
you used to ask me to bail you out whenever you got yourself in a bind
you used to talk about how you make new friends but keep the old ‘cause one is silver and the other is gold
you used to ask me if we would still hang out when we both can’t walk cuz we’ve gotten so old

but you don’t care you don’t care you don’t care no more

I don’t know why I get so mad
people change
people hear half the truth
people assume
people flock to whoever’s the coolest in the room
what’s new?

You Don't Care

my high

Don’t need no satisfaction
It wastes my time
Don’t need no hard reaction
love being that I’m prude
 
I have my books to read and
My teachers to please
Who needs romance when
I have all of these?
But I’m still alone
I am still alone
 
Who needs romance when I walk
Out the car to my room?
My pants are soggy but who cares
I had fun with you
 
But I’m still alone
But I am still alone
 
And who needs to love when it always ends so brutally?
And who needs to waste their time kissing? Oh no not me
 
And who needs to love
When it’s just as easy to think about?
Or go to the movies and pretend
That your life is just complete
 
But no you are still alone

I am still alone

Still Alone

Preserve Your Soul Like Your Bedroom

"she tryna get thru college on her own..."

featuring:
Ambivert Sista on background vocals
Trey Station on the mix & master
2GDN on production and additional vocals
Deja Corin on the cover art

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On Her Own

Loners Club

4real 4ever

can’t fight my lonely
it’s been too long
keep on wandering
far from home

can’t look at myself
I’m ashamed
and I don’t have anybody
else to blame

it’s my worst wounds
that I let bleed
I keep running from the truth
and it runs from me

as long as I look away
I am cursed
I’ll never love nobody if
I don’t love myself first

thought if I waited
the day would come
when all my problems fell away
one by one

I kept on searching
for the best distraction
kept my mind occupied
and ignored my passion

it’s my worst wounds
that I let bleed
I keep running from the truth
and it runs from me

as long as I look away
I am cursed
I’ll never love nobody if
I don’t love myself first

I'll Never Love Nobody If I Don't Love Myself First

Cuppa Tea

act iv: scales tip my way

"Company"
Written by Aisa
Produced by LOUALLDAY, Floyd Fuji
https://too.fm/company
https://aisa.baby/company

Do you remember that night? 
We were downtown, downtown 
You were a sight for sore eyes 
It was the middle of the, middle of the night 

Drinks taste like water and you love to complain 
But I promise that you will be fine 
We drank 'em at a cost 
and you felt the night was lost to the lights 

But it's still good company 
Now that you're here with me 
This is our symphony 
This is our energy, I'm talking 'bout inner peace 
Company 
Now that you're here with me 
This is our symphony 
This is our energy, I'm talking 'bout inner peace 

You were stumbling around 
While you fixed your crown 
And adjusted your frown 
Nightmares came tumbling down 

Drinks taste like water and you love to order 
The ones with no sugar 
We drank 'em at a cost 
and now we're at a lost for the lights 

but it's still good company 
Now that you're here with me 
This is our symphony 
This is our energy, I'm talking 'bout inner peace 
Company
Now that you're here with me 
This is our symphony 
This is our energy, I'm talking 'bout inner peace 

I'll keep you company 
Now that you're here with me 
I'll keep you company 
Now that you're here with me 
I'll keep you company 
Now that you're here with me 
I'll keep you company 
Now that you're here with me 
(now that you're here with me)

Company

Piano recording engineered by Charles Myers at Mason Jar Studio Brooklyn, NY
Mixed by Mason Bonner at RCM Studios Chicago, IL
Mastered by Zach Lipkins
Photo by Blythe Thomas

stay with it
you don’t need to water it down
no one else has the same story

stay with it please
stay with it please
you can take all the time that you need

I know that you worry
what if nobody cares?
and you're sorry
you had a big enough head to

stay with it
stay with it please
stay with it
stay with it

something is broken
so fucked it’s not hard to feel hopeless
I see you sleeping while the sun’s out
anything to distract you from your doubts

bro

I’m not here to tell you to get up
I know you have had it rough
I don’t know anybody more tough

I’m here to remind you
of the image you drew of yourself when you believed nobody could stop you
he’s still there
But you choose to look away
I think you’re scared of your own greatness
can’t you see it?
can’t you see it?

I know that you worry
what if nobody cares?
and you're sorry
you had a big enough head to

stay with it
stay with it please
stay with it
stay with it

I know the pain of running a race in the wrong direction
I know the pain of a long and slow bitter break
I know how it feels to have nobody when you can’t stand up for yourself
I know how it feels to push your problems into a box 
and place it on a shelf
it’s time to realize that you have exactly what you need
its deep down inside behind the lies you tell yourself to get by
I’m only here to remind you
of who you actually are

I'll Never Love Nobody If I Don't Love Myself First

Rich Saunders

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