“When I Still Loved You” is a nostalgic indie pop track with heartfelt lyrics, moody verses, and an unexpected upbeat drop.
It blends emotional storytelling with a danceable finish — perfect for fans of artists like Lauv, The 1975, and LANY.
This song captures that bittersweet moment of reflecting on a past love — when you remember how deep it was, even if it’s no longer there.

When I Still Loved You

Silent Echoes

Lyrics 

"It starts with silence…
The kind that fills the chest like smoke.
And when it breaks—
It knows your name."


I’ve been walking with the weight of silence
Every thought like a sharpened wire
Buried deep in fading echoes
I’m one step from the fire


I can feel the ground begin to break
And every crack remembers my name


 This is the edge of me
Where I break, where I bleed
Screaming in the space between
What I am and what I need
 You can push but you won’t see
What’s hiding at the edge of me


I’ve been crawling through the glass I shattered
Picking truth from a world that lied
Every breath a quiet riot
Every second’s a war inside


I hear my voice behind the screams
But I don’t know what it means


 This is the edge of me
Where I break, where I bleed
Screaming in the space between
What I am and what I need
 You can push but you won’t see
What’s hiding at the edge of me


"I’m not the surface you see...
I’m the break beneath the calm…
The code that never heals.
I was never whole."


This is the edge of me
Torn apart to finally feel
I’m not broken — I’m real
 So don’t try to rescue me
I’m alive at the edge of me


"I didn’t fall apart…
I just found the edge of me."

The Edge of Me - REMASTERED - HD

ROTTENBRAIN ‘Screen Zombies’ (original)

Lost Love in Paradise

Back to the days

Caught in a loop, reaching but never landing.

Déjà Vu

30 songs collected from the vault with grails and experimental stuff

Enjoy<3

Dust (In Bloom)

Song written and composed by Paul Escano and Justice Reynosa. 

Two way mirror.

Foreign Legionnaire wants to return home.

Turnaround

Numerical November is my third solo Extended Play (EP). The EP features a compilation of songs that was created spontaneously throughout the month of November, 2024. The genesis of this project was simply me writing new songs from a blank slate, naming each song-in-progress after a number, beginning with the number 1. 

After a few days, I realized that I was 8 songs in and decided to listen and reflect on each idea I started but had not yet finished. I found that most of the ideas were really good. From there, I completed the songs and decided to create an EP out of a some of them. 

In my personal and spiritual life, November of 2024 was a time of learning and awakening to angel numbers and numerology. I found myself noticing and encountering a variety of angel numbers which led me to explore more about numerology and ultimately, how mathematics, music and the universe are connected . 

Many of the songs that are feature on this project started as ideas that came to me spontaneously between the hours of 12am-3am. Most times, I was awakened out of my sleep at a time that reflected an angel number (3:33am, for example). This happened repeatedly until it didn't. At that point, I knew that I was done recording and could focus on editing, mixing, and finalizing the project in all the other necessary ways. 

I hope the music and the context of this project inspires you, positively evokes your curiosity about numerology and the relationship between math, music, and the universe. Ultimately, I hope it touches your heart. 

Enjoy :) 

Dust (In Bloom)

RdoubleU

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