Rant: I made this song in 8 hours and uploaded it here bc I'm so fucking mad at myself that I'm nowhere near as good at music as I want to be no matter how much time I've put in. I understand that it's a never-ending path and that I lack experience, but when I listen to the music of the role models I admire or even any SC artist, I genuinely wonder what I'm doing. I keep thinking about how people in SC who have less equipment make such beautiful music, and I keep telling myself that I'm not cut out for making music because I feel like it might be true given that no matter how hard I seem to try, I just keep producing things that I'm not proud of.  I'm still fucking mad, but I won't stop trying.

Edit: Arhghghg you guys really liked this song and wanted it on spotify so I uploaded it there! Thank you so much for the messages and love. I don't know how to feel. So please feel free to listen on any platform you like ;w; ♥ (Though I mastered the spotify version a bit better heheh)

[Verse]:
Lately I've been taking so much shit from no one but myself
(You wanna break it off, break it off)
I cant get anything to work,
Is it just my lack of talent and reserve?
(Boy, youre just not enough, not enough)

But I wanna cross 
The boundaries that I never thought I'd touch
All the pain that I go through for things I love
And I wanna give it up, god I wanna stop

[Pre]:
God I cant,
Waste my life
All this time, 
Have I done any right?

Dont think I wanna do this anymore
It just makes me feel miserable
Dont even know what to do
Lately I've been feeling like a fraud
Now I put my heart in the ground

"You're not cut for this, stop it now"
Ha, yeah

[Chorus]:
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 

(God I cant)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Waste my life)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
(All this time)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Have I done any right?)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more

Frustrated

@maxrrss
I just wanna trust you, but you never wanna try
Tell me cause we're running out of time
Take my lead if you wanna feel alive
If you really wanna go, I can put it to the side
Trust you, but you never wanna try
Tell me cause we're running out of time
Take my lead if you wanna feel alive
If you really wanna go, I can put it to the side 

me
I don't wanna be apart from you
You were my home
I don't understand the things you do
You know I don't
But I still try
But I don't wanna wait too long for you
So tell me why
Tell me why I'm thinking about you

@ri4h
I can't let you go
I can't do it no
Like what's the point of even loving when you can't show
That you wanted this from the start
How can I trust you when you broke my heart
I can't let you go
I can't do it no
Like what's the point of even loving when you can't show
That you wanted this from the start
How can I trust you when you broke my heart

@riensu
Baby I won't lie
We can make this right
Just throw away your pride
Only for one night
You know
How I felt about you
How could you be so cruel
When I'm not over you 

@maxrrss
I just wanna trust you, but you never wanna try
Tell me cause we're running out of time
Take my lead if you wanna feel alive
If you really wanna go, I can put it to the side
Trust you, but you never wanna try
Tell me cause we're running out of time
Take my lead if you wanna feel alive
If you really wanna go, I can put it to the side 

@1toge
Tell me and I’ll pull up to your place
Lemme know If you feel some type of way
Just one call
I’m one message away
I thought I loved you 
It turns it was fake oh
How can I trust somebody else
On god
I’ll never love somebody else
Oh well
Yea I know I’m a mess
I’m obsessed wow
But can you blame me
When you showed no effort

@yokulol
Yeah I don't wanna wait too long
I'm just thinking that I'm thinking that I
Wait too long for you
Take your time
Take your mind off
I swear to you I'm tryna make it
Right
Could you need any more
And I, I don't think I could matter anymore
Cause you're talking to me, and you're all I can see
Your eyes, off and wander away

@ri4h
I can't let you go
I can't do it no
Like what's the point of even loving when you can't show
That you wanted this from the start
How can I trust you when you broke my heart
I can't let you go
I can't do it no
Like what's the point of even loving when you can't show
That you wanted this from the start
How can I trust you when you broke my heart

trust u (ft. riensu, ri4h, maxrrss, manni ✰, & yoku)

lyrics
I know it's been awhile
Since we talked all through the night
You still got that smile
That makes you shine so bright
Even after all this time
You're the one that's on my mind
Maybe it could a sign
That we should just rewind

I know it's been awhile
Since we talked all through the night
You still got that smile
That makes you shine so bright
Even after all this time
You're the one that's on my mind
Maybe it could a sign
That we should just rewind

Oh how the time has passed without you
Baby tell me how you've been
You know that I always think about you
And all of things we did
Replays in my mind all the time
Wish that we could just hit rewind

We should just rewind
All of the time
We should just rewind
Hit rewind
We should just rewind
All of the time
We should just rewind
Hit rewind

I know it's been awhile
Since we talked all through the night
You still got that smile
That makes you shine so bright
Even after all this time
You're the one that's on my mind
Maybe it could a sign
That we should just rewind

rewind

are you mine tonight?

left right (p. sagabeats)

Song with @dwennn!!!

Lyrics:

Baby won't you talk
To me?
I need your lies, to breathe
Oh baby I
Just need you beside me
Was wanting to love you
My mistake?
Cause now I'm lying here awake
Waiting for you

Why don't we talk about everything you
(Made me do)
You wanted love when days turns into dark
(Baby was I-)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

Don't wanna talk 'bout how she really feel
(No she don't)
Wanted your love but I was not enough
(Baby your love)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

But no, I didn't have enough
Don't let me go
I need you by my side
Oh baby girl
I'll take your hand
We could make some plans and take it slow
But I know you'll lie cause I'm just some plan B

So it should've been her, biding my time
(I waited for you)
Cause now I get to see her with some other guy
(I wanted to love)
I'm staring at your pics just to pass time baby oh
(I wanted to love, oh)

You got me all alone, conversating
It's hard enough to breathe
Don't know what to believe
You got me all alone, come save me
But baby girl you got me lost

Why don't we talk about everything you
(Made me do)
You wanted love when days turns into dark
(Baby was I-)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

Don't wanna talk 'bout how she really feel
(No she don't)
Wanted your love but I was not enough
(Baby your love)
Was I for fun or was anything real?
(Made me a fool)
Oh lie to me, cause now I need your love

Loving you
Was my mistake
So I'll be here lying here awake
Waiting for you

ENOUGH (w/ dwen)

autumn to july (cover)

super proud of this one

guitar and bass by @1juanraa on insta
drums and extra synths by me
thank you everyone who gave me feedback for this ♥️♥️♥️

lyrics

feels like we gone back to basics
you're my best friend but i hate it
i dont like the way we changing
but i need something before i cave in

i needed something better
i needed something more
feelings dont change like weather
you dont want me no more
i know you get that feeling
to say that you want it all
baby i wanna see it
tell me im your one and only

somethin about you i cant understand and
i know what i want but i cant take the damage
i cant lie girl im fallin to pieces
i want you yeah its all that im needin
girl you're too fucked up
and you know it hurts
i been tryna let go
i dont know whats worse
me and you fell out
now talk again
are we fightin still?
are we arguin?

yeah i knew that he had it out for u since then
pick and choose when u hanging out wicha new friends
i want you but u say u busy tying loose ends
gotta move so dont bother calling when u lose him
no i cant be the one that you call when your fightin
and i cant be alone when i say i like the silence
baby i want whatever you want but its all too much
yeah and i find it hard to process that its all for love.

i needed something better
i needed something more
feelings dont change like weather
you dont want me no more
i know you get that feeling
to say that you want it all
baby i wanna see it
tell me im your one and only

saw you hanging with your new man
i could take him on with no hands
be honest do you think he's all in
cos i been thinking bout you often
i said i wish you the best
deep down i hope for the worst
you act so tough with your talk
but never fight with your words
you hold your cards to your chest
that poker face is absurd
don't wanna see me again
you probably think that we're cursed
asking me how i fall asleep at night
girl something must be wrong
you wonder how ill fuck things up this time
im so lost without your love

i needed something better
i needed something more
feelings dont change like weather
you dont want me no more
i know you get that feeling
to say that you want it all
baby i wanna see it
tell me im your one and only
i needed something better
i needed something more
feelings dont change like weather
you dont want me no more
i know you get that feeling
to say that you want it all
baby i wanna see it
tell me im your one and only

only (me and juanra)

lyrics

can you tune up my heart and play?
your words like rhythm like how you say
as our symphony starts to sway
we're in perfect harmony, and I hope we stay that way

lately I've been playing out of tune
and I can't play what you've been wanting too
the way you're playing ain't nothing I've heard of before

i just improvised my lines, but
you may have sense of where I come from
you're a melody that's stuck in my head

what can I do?
i'm not just following your lead
you're composing my every move

can you tune up my heart and play?
your words like rhythm with how you say
as our symphony starts to sway
we're a perfect harmony, and I hope we stay that way

i've been learning all the songs that you say make you feel alive
i've been burning them to disks, so i could listen while we drive
away from all the madness, this synesthesiatic love
that we've been feeling, I hope it lasts a while (oh-oh-oh)

what can I do?
i'm not just following your lead
you're composing my every move

can you tune up my heart and play?
your words like rhythm with how you say
as our symphony starts to sway
we're in perfect harmony, and I hope we stay that way

oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
play me your melody
oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
you are my symphony
oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
play me your melody
oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
you are my symphony

symphony

lyrics

Oh baby
Will you be the one to come here and save me?
I've thinkin bout you as of lately
You're the only one that's on my mind
(on my mind)

Why does time move so slowly when you're not with me?
It kills me that I know you're waiting for me
You give me everything I'll ever need
With you I feel so complete

Oh, my heart
Belonged to you from the start
And baby I know that I'm far
From perfect, but you know you are
To me

Oh baby
Will you be the one to come here and save me?
I've thinkin bout you as of lately
You're the only one that's on my mind
(on my mind)

Show me your ways
And I'll show you mine
You make me feel like the stars have aligned for us
Forever is never enough

Oh, my heart
Belonged to you from the start
And baby I know that I'm far
From perfect, but you know you are
To me

Oh baby
Will you be the one to come here and save me?
I've thinkin bout you as of lately
You're the only one that's on my mind
(on my mind)

save me (p. gom jelly)

Is There Something Wrong? [Prod by. tim.p]

(ree-en-soo)
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@zephyrcove
@woe-collective
https://linktr.ee/ri3nsu

save me (p. gom jelly)

riensu

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