Songs that I like that I'll probably listen to again at some point in the future after I remember I have this playlist

@slyleaf
@seragayki

Big thanks to @ohthatkazuki, @jetomoosic and @itsasymmetric for helping out with the song and my sister for doing another amazing job with the cover art! (you can find her stuff here: www.facebook.com/isduhchockie/

"We wrote this song about a long distance relationship because we both have been/are in our own long distance relationships. We know it can be a real struggle but we want this song to show the charm and wonder of it and to let people know to never give up on something you want, even if it's through a screen. &lt;3" - Leaf and Bien

Thank you guys so so much for the support recently. I just hit 1000 followers and it feels so surreal. Once again thank you so much for listening to my music and supporting me, love you guys &lt;3

Lyrics:
yeah we stayed up all night
yeah I'm sleep deprived
yeah we slept all day
but I like it this way

oooh I never thought that I
would want to spend my time
staring at my phone and waiting  
for you to see my reply

don’t keep me waiting please
this is what I need
for me and you to be   
together forever whenever you meet me

yeah we look at the moon
yeah I dream about you
yeah we say its okay
but I don’t want it this way

You light me up like a beam when I see you through my screen
Haven’t held you yet but the way I feel makes me want to believe
Every word and every letter, I read it all to make it better
Falling in love with you… a journey, romance for two
This distance between us will bring us together forever whenever you meet me

don’t keep me waiting please
this is what I need
for me and you to be   
together forever whenever you meet me

<a href="https://theartistunion.com/tracks/1018bb" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">Download for free on The Artist Union</a>

Screen Love

Screen Love (feat. Slyleaf & Bien)

Free download!

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

prod. by @byrook1e

mixed by @ibr

featuring @youknowlimbo

Lyrics:

Everybody told you it's a cold, cruel world
But you ain't believe in it, you're an independent girl
Till you left your hometown and you straightened your curls
When the strings you used to ride along were cut and unfurled
And I was I sure that you were nothing short of ignorant
Failure always imminent, 
the kind of girl of stumbles through her life, a village idiot
But oh I was wrong, thought I had you pinned and ended it
So now when you walk by I try to analyze like Benedict
Searching for a clue to solve the plague this question brings to me
The wrinkles on your sweater, or the way your clothes lack synergy
A scuff you never buffed away, nothing's what it seems to be
We've both been missing something since I lost the gift of empathy, and

You the reason I'm on fire
You the reason I've been burning down these bridges, water tumbles like the dryer
You the reason I still cry
You the reason I still stare outside my window trynna re-support the sky

Once I left this town where we grew up
I didn’t think that everything would be so tough but
All the strangers on the street who are in love
They remind me of the thing I want the most cause
When I listen to all our favorite songs it's
Hard to imagine things would get to be so wrong but
Maybe one day baby you’ll see 
That I belong to you and you belong to me

You the reason I'm on fire
You the reason I've been burning down these bridges, water tumbles like the dryer
You the reason I still cry
You the reason I still stare outside my window trynna re-support the sky

spotify

You're The Reason ft. limbo || prod. by rook1e

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//ごめんなさい//
@exprecords
@lil_pretzel

lacuna

follow kid pretzel

alright (prod. by ernest gonzales x kid pretzel)

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//あなたは素晴らしい//

i'm finally happy again so here's a lil' love song for a lil' someone. 
thank you so much to my best friend qawi for comin' in clutch with creating this with me. i love you man <3

@qawikamri

lyrics
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(guardin)
i look at you & the stars align
you're a comet in the darkest sky
butterflies in my fucking eyes
got me wishin' i could make you mine

i think i'm falling for you
everything you do is so cool
i'm a sucker for your tattoos
and the way you say i love you

let's just crawl inside my bed
sleep until it's six a clock my parents think we're dead
i could hold you for eternity or till you fall asleep
i could write a song about the way i love it when you speak

baby you complete me evidently 
you're a diamond in the rough & 
i'm so fucking glad you met me
imma love you like forever or until you just forget me
but i think you wanna stay a while
i think you that you get me

(guardin and qawi kamri)
i look at you & the stars align
you're a comet in the darkest sky
butterflies in my fucking eyes
got me wishin' i could make you mine

(qawi kamri)
welcome to my house, please take a seat
i call you beautiful, cos i mean it
are you hungry though? i can make you something
what do you want? i can make you anything

or we can order pizza too
i got spare change my room
dominos or pizza hut
just so you know the choice is yours

ohhhh the choice is yours
ohhhh so which one?

maybe im your soulmate
maybe you're my soulmate
should i kiss your lips
we're gonna make history
we're gonna make history  

(guardin and qawi kamri)
i look at you & the stars align
you're a comet in the darkest sky
butterflies in my fucking eyes
got me wishin' i could make you mine

follow qawi kamri

shaky hands (feat. qawi kamri)(prod. by qawi kamri)

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//もういちど私を愛して//

this hasn't gotten any easier for either of us. if you're reading this, just know i will always love you. you'll forever hold my heart & i'm sorry it still beats for you.

lyrics
--------
so baby tell me that you love me
tell me anything instead of nothing
i just wanna hear you speak again
even if its just the air you're breathing in

i know that you wont ever want me
but a boy can hope i cope by smoking palm leaves
the ghost of what we had is floating in the smoke
i cry every night about you i'm a fucking joke

i'm a fucking joke
texting you at 2 wish you'd reply but you don't
what the fuck is going on i really do not know
said you loved me yesterday in a few days you'll say you don't

tell me that you love me

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//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
--------
this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

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ＩＮ　ＤＲＵＧＳ　ＩＮ　ＭＹ　ＣＯＡＴ

//この曲はあなたのことです//

show my mans some luv @tothegood

lyrics
--------
your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this
i'm broken (x8)
i'm tired of loving someone
who don't care bout enough
so i take my drugs and i
numb the fuck up love

your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this

this was a curse from the get-go
my head is a trip and i feel like i'll let go
of everything that i care about
and if i wanna leave then i'll get the fuck out
and i'll pack up my shit and i'll go
run with the feeling of feeling alone
missin' your touch when i know that you don't
i just want love but i find it in drugs in my coat

and i hide inside
and i cry every night i'm alive
cause the flesh in my chest is a lie
when i smoke and i look to the sky
this'll be the end of everything we know
i can't really think about the future and i won't
waste another day inside just scrollin' on my phone
stitch my broken heart and then you wrap it with a bow

your love can't save me now (x4)

follow tothegood

pyramids (prod. by tothegood)

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//それを明るくする//

follow the homie taylor morgan 
@taylor

lyrics
--------
addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

i got you on my mind girl
& this time i'll rewind till you're my girl
life sucks waking up let my mind whirl
scroll down on your page & i might hurl
i hate when i do this to myself
write about a girl that's detrimental to my health
lost inside a state of mind where talkings only hell
and the closer that we get i lose my grip and start to yell 
i lose my shit quite often off in august on my cell
when i hit you up and told you that i'm outside of my shell
i hate the way you say you're fine
and i can tell it's just a lie
i'd wipe the tears right out your eyes
but we've already met our demise
so

addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

i'm not your enemy
i'm just a boy
you've got your friends
you say you're doing fine
but i can tell you're wrong despite
the way he kisses you at night
your smile shines so fucking bright
i think i need another light

addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

follow taylor morgan

addicted (prod. by taylor morgan)

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//私は十分に話していない//

lyrics
--------
when she goes i kiss her on the nose
tell her i love her so
turn around and walk alone
when she goes i smoke till i implode
coughing till i'm a ghost
i'm swimming to the coast 
where am i going
full of disgrace and self loathing
i cannot sleep without you in my sheets
so i stay up all night just hoping
that you come back but there's nothing
i guess i'm wishing for something
lost in a love with a girl whose a dove
and a crow of a boy that's been bluffing

i am just nothing
i am just nothing

when she goes i pick another rose
rip petals till i don't
that's just the way it goes 
when she cries i write another note
put it inside her coat
start clearin' out my throat

i never talk enough baby
trip over words like i'm crazy

follow taurusmoon

when she goes (prod. by taurusmoon)

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//多分いつか//

lyrics
--------
baby maybe you could come my way
if you want to you could always stay
it's not like you just to walk away
treat it like it's just another day 
pick up my phone
twitter i'm scrollin' all day i'm alone
walkin' outside
get in the whip & i drive on my own
saw the cd
spirals drawn on it you made it for me
cry by track three
grabbin' my pen & i puff till i'm free

truth be told i lost control a year ain't nothin' changed
you could be my everything just come back for a day
truth is that i love you so but lost you on the way
you cracked the door i swear you swore that things would never change
mortified by what's inside the demons in my range
grip my head pronounce me dead i'm turning in my grave
said goodbye i held you tight the night you drove away
no one ever told me that i'd never be okay

(travel your mind you'll see what i)

music video

someday

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ＤＥＳＴＲＯＹ　ＥＡＣＨ　ＯＴＨＥＲ？

//私たちは病気です//

tysm to @jvbeats666 for creating this beauty with me
go show him some luv 

lyrics
--------
whiskey pour another cup
nothing like the feeling of getting so fucked up
off the last lost breath of a lover that you once
had but she ran with a man much better than yourself
i think i need help
i think i can touch the sky & grip orion's belt
taking off my vans full of sand and some shells
heaven ain't the place for me but i can hear the bells

they say that an angel is self defined 
so when i describe
the girl that lost her mind
the sky will probably cry
but the rain won't mind
if you cry too
feel alive when the sky makes the clouds move
raindrops fall but i fall harder 
light reflects off the water in the harbor
i don't care to compare what i'm told
to what i believe cause i'm still all alone


i've been tryna get back home
but i don't know which road
to take before i can awake from this nightmare
i'm cold
all alone
got the wind straight blowin' in my face i can feel it in my bones
if i smoke
will the clouds lift my body from this place cause i don't feel at home

what's a home without a lover
what's a road without another
how did we destroy each other
how did we destroy each other

follow jay vee

all alone (prod. jay vee)

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//安定したあなたの呼吸//

i can't begin to thank you guys enough for everything we've accomplished, even just this year alone. i never imagined i would reach this point, but i am incredibly grateful of it & i promise it's only up from here. i'm sorry for a lack of releases lately, but i've kept busy with touring & meeting all of you beautiful people & i can't wait to do it again with these tours comin' up next year. i love you guys.

merry christmas <3

lyrics
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now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

i've been livin' my life to the fullest
anxiety comes but it won't sit 
got tossed in the bag but it won't zip
cause i killed my mind all in one hit
blast to the past & i feel it
the days we put stars on our ceilings
the tape on my hearts always peeling
and i do not find that appealing
so maybe i
contemplate strategize ways to ease my mind
sit awake and i bake all through the night
touch base with your face being close to mine
and maybe you
can't sleep cause your dreams never seem to soothe
so you spark in the dark tryna make your move
touch me & i fall but i play it cool

(lost in your embrace and i'm longing for your taste love
said we'd runaway but you hardly ever say much)

now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

snowflakes

prod @oceanonthebeat

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

you wanna ride that guy over clout go head
text me i'm the problem with his hands around your neck
text me i'm dramatic while you open up your legs
for a guy who doesn't care about you he just wanted sex

you're in love with the feeling of feeling used
tell me you hate me like bet that's cool

you don't want the drama you would rather have abuse
you're the reason that i hate myself for trippin over you

i fell for a girl to fast and that's facts
i got problems with attachment i'm losing my fucking grasp
its gettin harder to trust people it all feels like an act
i was starving for a light and now i'm blinded what is that?

i can't trust a soul
i can't feel at all
i can't feel your heartbeat
please don't say you love me

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

i cried every night now i sob
i got problems with lovin then movin on
i got problems with stayin all by my lonely like
nathan i miss you like come and hold me tight

i can't help that i can't help you
you want him now he might break you
he might relapse he might reuse
he might love you he can't change you

i can't help that i might love you
you're real nice but i can't trust you
you won't date me i can't make you
walls to strong no way i'll break through

i deserve better (prod. ocean)

...sleeping on the phone

vocals by lando & i
produced by lando & i
mastered by biskwiq
cover photo shot by ellie

@landosmusic
@biskwiq
https://instagram.com/efffelll/

lyrics:
sunday morning, vacant doorway
wipe the sunlight from your eyes
and trace your favorite constellation
on their skin

overwhelmed by the emotion
watching cogs turn in your mind
you sort of wonder where this wonder
may have been

'cause you're always in between
stuck behind the tv screen
in somebody else's dream
feeling like a ghost

always in between
stuck behind the tv screen
in somebody else's dream
trying to let you know

late night when the lights go out
long stares at an old friend's house
feels just like a cheesy movie scene

scan lines on a crt look like
hd when you're next to me, alright
i can see it so clearly

in between
stuck behind the tv screen
in somebody else's dream
trying to let you know

in between
stuck behind the tv screen
in somebody else's dream
sleeping on the phone

spotify/apple music <3

in between (feat. lando!)

lyrics
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it's just me myself & i
trippin' in the sky
hopped up on spaceship and didn't say goodbye
clouded by my mentions & dms all the time
lost but imma face it i didn't fucking try
      
guess i lost her in the process but i've been killing time
flew out to seattle & kicked it with some guys
then we whipped it on some scooters & freed our fucking minds
steppin' up onto the stage is the only time i'm alive 
and i only panic sometimes but i've been feeling fine
friction caused an uproar in 1925
the president is calvin coolidge and whiskey's on the rise
i can tell when you are scared by the look inside your eyes
can you feel the floor it's melting dripping like a faucet 
i had all these plans but then i fucking lost it
you ever feel compared to your parents way too often
your friends are on the gram and you don't see em often

it's just me myself & i
trippin' in the sky
hopped up on spaceship and didn't say goodbye
clouded by my mentions & dms all the time
lost but imma face it i didn't fucking try
it's just me myself & i 
sorta fucking high
all this time i've wasted impatience has arrived
what the fuck it's always raining the sun don't ever shine
guess i'll step back in my house & i'll get up on my grind

gotta get up on my grind it's about time i realize
that i'm about to blow up and i ain't even twenty five
life is a road full of twists and i take every one of em
twist up the dank with my friends maybe some of em
relate to words that i say when i'm hummin' em
fixate their minds to erase when i'm done with em
or when they're just done with me
lost in my head again i cannot breathe
i'd say i'm sorry but i cannot speak
high as a kite and i'm reaching my peak

me myself & i (prod. taylor morgan)

lyrics
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i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

lyrics
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it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
(x2)

hell if i
stay inside all fucking night
where were we when our love died
getting drunk and killing time
sober mind
clouded eyes
do you believe me when i say goodbye?
sorted my things & i hopped in my ride
where are my keys did i leave them inside?
forward in time
our paths collide
i caught a glipse of you right from the side
wanted to meet but you said that you're fine
chatter my teeth when i'm nervous it's fine

it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic

follow hateful

alone in the attic (prod. hateful)

lyrics
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why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

record a bunch of nonsense when i'm feelin' nauseous 
gotta play it cautious if she tryna hang
mirror mirror on this wall inside my heart
does falling out of love make a human go insane
i've tried three times, back it up & rewind
look into your green eyes, tell me if i change
baby you a goddess, you so fuckin' flawless
imma fuck him up if he speaks your name in vain

why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x3)

redemption of a lost mess speedin' up the process
by the time that august comes you'll know my name
g-u-a-r guardin yeah i beg your pardon
right to all involvement writing through the day
got my castle in the yard it's kinda fuckin' hard
to stand like i'm on guard when the clouds are seeing rain
so my bedrooms more appealing, suffer through the feeling
cause i know you're leaving gotta act like i'm okay 
 
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
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Songs that I like that I'll probably listen to again at some point in the future after I remember I have this playlist

Rifat A-pocolyptic