prod. caspr
engineered by skrwd
mixed and mastered by Patrick Gardner

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I just wanna talk about it but you don't hit my phone up
I got too much in my system, fucking throwing up
I've been working every night, just have to count it up
Tell you I miss you, but you don't wanna speak much
I feel so lost when you're not here
I can't fucking sleep when you're not near
I swear I care, but we don't even talk and it's not fair
I've been losing my mind and I'm holding onto you
Trying to figure out a way to give it back to you
Overthinking every word I ever say to you
I'm trying my best, don't know what else to do
I'm so scared you'll leave me here, I worry so much you'll disappear
I just wanna talk about it, you don't wanna talk about it

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I haven't seen you in weeks, you're not too far from the city
You tremble when you speak and I know it's on me partially
Talk to me softly, tell me that you want me
Laying in my bed, yeah, longing for your heartbeat
When I'm with you it's not so bad but every time you leave, I just get so sad
You're the only one that knows me like that so I'm so scared that you won't come back
You're the roof over my head, eyes got me focused
Every time I inhale your scent, I'm in heaven
You're the one I'm flexin, not even a question
Tell me what's on your mind, maybe it'll kill the tension
We'll be alright, only a matter of time
Even from far away, you're the color of my sky

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

swear w/ skele (prod. caves)

Biteki AMV: https://youtu.be/aMOX-qUEWMw
prod. farber
this 1 been in the works for a while 🖤
i hope some of you find relation & or clarity.
ft. @user-411557229

[autumn]
so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

cause i’ve always really wanted space
now i just wanna see your face
(see your face)

girl i want this bad
i told you that
i’m not just sad
my world’s been plaid

hello?
praying you’d pick up the phone 
how’d it go?
being on your god damn own

so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

[not home.]
they wanna be me
she gonna leave me
for somebody new
off of the shrooms
cold in my room 
lost in the ceiling
look at the moon

[autumn & not home.] 
(2x)
look at my face when you’re talking
(when you’re talking)
i get bored so i smoke now i’m coughing
(bitch i’m coughing)
all the friends at the house 
now i’m yawning
(what the fuck bitch)
they be chasing all the
shit up in my pockets

obsessed w/ not home. [prod. farber]

prod by me

lyrics: 

shes like, “kade why u always gotta lie?” 
im lying cause u make me do it.
last week I saw the story in ur eyes 
tell me could u see mine

flippin through ur pages 
cant say im ever bored 
I got a lot of patience, but I hate bein ignored
ill tell u what im feelin if im up to it 
first u gotta tell me why u aint trustin me

cus i dont got a lot of time for this 
im findin all the pieces ur denyin me 
was this all u wanted from the picture in ur head
u know that im not much, u gon work me till im

dead how I been feelin lately 
in our head how we been dealin baby
im sorry if im complicating 
im not an easy read im sorry baby

but dont take me for fool I need food too 
I get deprived from the feelings that I want from u
what do u want from me I told u that i told the truth 

I told u that. I told u u should know its true. 
u should know it in ur heart I didnt lie to u
and all the times that I did 
u made it the only way out 
u say excuses can be useless
well im on my way now 
yea im on my way out 

shes like “kade do u even cry anymore”
well..
u kinda got it all outta me so its usually jus hard to breathe now

spotify

books

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

hi<3

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic v talented prod 

enjoy:)

lyrics:
my necks sore, holding up
weight, from my mental it still brings me down
i cant ignore it, but i cant make it stop
i just cant find a reason to give a fuck

alright, ok, ive had it
waste a new day, damn thats tragic
alright, ok
(alright, ooo)
alright, ok, im not me
i want to leave my body
and really im so sorry, i dont know what to do

my chest sinks, im used to it
i was on the brink, you picked me up, dont mean shit now.
oh you overthink? well so does everyone
now im on the ropes, feel it slip, falling down

i get this feeling makes my head spin
i cant really explain just how its been
im so sorry for the distance
i try my best for everyone who listens

honestly cant show up, nah
too busy in my head, numb
try my best to show love, so
you know im always here
um, i kno that i care, but to me it feels you dont
really understand me

alright, ok

alright, ok (branwen x splashgvng)

lyrics:

we sang this song in the shower too many months back
a memory and an hour ill never get back
pour me up in this cup cause thats a quick hack
for erasing these flashes my brain will still track

told you if it didnt work, youd be all my songs
told you im obsessed you didnt see it you were dead wrong
now im in this room just sipping steady so im headstrong
its my medication and its cheap id rather be gone

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just lay here and smoke

i just lay here and smoke
i just lay here and smoke

bacardi on the floor always spill some
soak it with my skin just to feel sumn
my night aint even started its a killer one
im faded out my mind and im not even done

i wanted to end it, i wanted to go back
i wanted to do it all over the way that it was when i knew that
nothing was changing, we all stay the same please
dont forget me forget it its okay im drunk on the daily

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just throw up the most

ive ever seen
now im seeing green
now its turning to black
ill just lay on my back

Obsessed

obsessed

AUAUAU (CH2MERA)

lyrics:

I give everything, it never comes back to me
why am I so nice to ppl who rlly dont mean shit to me 
why do I keep thinkin so much I rlly need some company 
I rlly need u next to me

they say wake up but I dont wanna go
I jus wanna lay in bed until I grow old
I dont rlly wanna show 
do u rlly wanna know what i know 
cause I know its hard.

u discard
everything so hard 
u act like i dont exist but u got my heart


wasted potential
20 mil but im still broke
I hate how life goes 
I hate this cycle

wasted potential

wasted potential [prod. blade901 x 5head]

Lyrics:
the sun has just set and im looking at lights
on top of a hill while i sip on this vice
the darkness is closing in i say im fine
just give me some space while i pour up this wine

im sending this letter hope it finds you well
im not doing great that's if you couldnt tell
i know that you're fine so this is my farewell
was good while it lasted fell under your spell

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

and I remember used to talk about just cruisin to the coast
but you always hated water so we never took a boat
and im drowning in my feelings like the ocean i cant float
you could catch me at the bottom cause i sink just like a stone

i dont know, where to go, cause i drift, like the snow
now im out, in the cold, got no love, got no soul
got no heart, jus a flow, pay the bills, you dont know
how im dead, now you know, that im done, so ill go

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

Leaving

leaving

Prod by. me :)
mastered by soundcloud.com/cay2o
lyrics:

they whisper to me, wither away
don’t want them to see so I cover my face
i’m insecure and my feelings dont matter
stuck in a loop am I like this forever
fuck it I might be
feelin low like highkey
how you act so fuckin bland like a white tee
I dont think you understand why you like me
why you like me you ain nothin like me

ima do it for my friends and the people who don’t mean shit
cause I’m the only one who gon give what they need
shit if I ain gonna make it
then I hope whoever does knows how to treat a fuckin bag and keep they friends close too
dont know you do I have to,
crack a smile to a stranger, bet they lied too
gonna get a tattoo, 18 real soon
ima hussle till I make up back to you

I don’t want no problems
cause I ain gonna solve it
I know everyone around really hates me and it’s okay
i’m sleepin till its too late
for any of my plans to work
fuck it ima wake up when all this shit easier

wasted potential [prod. blade901 x 5head]

kais