Earl Stan - Nightmares

SHVDXW LVNDS (ft. GhostThaKid, Tsunami J. & Manhertz)

https://soundcloud.com/rivilin

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNQ77eK9Gf8

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah this doesn't make any sense
So why did you tell me you don't want to see me again
How's does it feel to be you, pushing abusing the ones you love you break
So what does it mean to be me you wanna ask me
The questions you don't wanna see
You're rubbing the back of my hair your screaming so loudly
You don't want to show that you care

You're punching your face in the street
You're hitting the pavement your spitting out bloody teeth
Eager to meet me, don't want to see me, so confused i don't want to see
So what does it mean to me, you never ask you never care
So what does it mean for us, yeah you know i shouldn't ask that

Cus im a skinny piece of shit from the west side, lose sight
From where I wanna be cus im back on the drugs again
I wanna blame you but I know it's my fault
Just to date someone so disgusting

So who am I meant to be, yeah I know
He looks a lot like me
So tell me lucifer is that your reflection in the window
Staring back at me, what do you see

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Fuck you watchu thinking, you ain't know fuck all about me
I work harder than some pussy boys that do it for a bounty
They be bragging bout the money that they sucking dick to see
You a sheep boy, living in the simulation, deep

I am free

Boy I threw away a 6 figure job, twice
Knew I'm giving up a life, still I paid the price
I ain't give a fuck about the money, I'm alive
Create to survive, that's my line, till I fucking die

My ex said that I was a lame-o
Said sloth you a pussy just take those
Blank thoughts while blacking in the shadows
Fuck, thank god I left that hell hole

Drove fast, eyes closed
Count downed, I really didn't know
Thought my life would just stay shit
But know there's light in darkness

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

BURNT IGNITION

Construct

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Construct [Music Video ↓]

Prod by: @quiteevil

Robstar: @robstar100

Lyrics:

(Robstar)
(chorus)
Yeah
I've got a voice inside of my head, telling me "I need to fill up my bag"
It's a life of money or else death
So I catch my breath then I scream right back
Sayin' Rob is off of his meds I just test anything when it aint Prozac
When I die, better bury me at midnight
Like life, rest in, dressed in black

I was working overtime
I never knew what I'd become in the spotlight
Take another pill it's alright
It already killed when the thrill is a lifeline

(SCAR$)
(Verse)
Look at me I'm so done
Look at me I'm so fun
Til I grab my gun and ya'll start to run
Look at me I'm so done
Look at me I'm so fun
But my heart will stop as the clock hits one

Wasn't really built for this shit
Wasn't really ready for this shit or even care for this shit
But it's cool I admit
Yeah
As I'm starting to desire it

They're like damn
Scar$ is fucking killin' it
Bitch I'm fucking bringin' it
You wanna be a star and my team already livin' it

We some kings of the underground 
I'll use my wings as you crawl around

We some kings of the underground 
I'll use my wings as you crawl around

(Robstar & SCAR$)
(chorus)
Yeah
I've got a voice inside of my head, telling me "I need to fill up my bag"
It's a life of money or else death
So I catch my breath then I scream right back
Sayin' Rob is off of his meds I just test anything when it aint Prozac
When I die, better bury me at midnight
Like life, rest in, dressed in black

I was working overtime
I never knew what I'd become in the spotlight
Take another pill it's alright
It already killed when the thrill is a lifeline

Lifeline

SCAR$ & Robstar - Lifeline

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi for jumping on this track <3

Yeah, take a step back see the faces under yeah they scream
get my life back from the ones who say they're real to me
feel the train tracks vibrate under as you intervene
get a flashback, realize now that  suicide is free

memories stack, like a knife it slices and I bleed
(I FEEL FREE)
realize now that, the options there if I just want to leave
(FOLLOW ME)
feel my spine crack from the pressure of the stress it creaks
(I FEEL FREE)
flick a match down watch the embers burning at my feet
(FOLLOW ME)

cut up slice down, I don't want to talk now
(DOWN THE HOLE)
change up lose faith in a god who betrayed
(NO, NO)
everything that we tried to be
(ANIMALS)
we're just human yeah why can't you understand
(WE’RE ANIMALS)

how cruel could you be, to give a body to someone so weak
(DOWN IT ALL)
it's not like you to intervene, then why’d you put a curse on me
(FOLD, FOLD)
deteriorate, fatigue, chemistry wasn't your expertise
(MAN THE ZONE)
you lied, then left, guess this father never cared
(BURN IT ALL)
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke
 


Burn the world ash I’m doing god a fucking favor
Watch me self destruct and I’ma send you to your maker
All together now let's walk to hell it's getting cold
Know the devil waiting, keeping on saying, that we gotta go

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke

Lazarus Ft $lothboi

written/performed/produced by sepha.
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lyrics -

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together 
On

i wanna spend the end of my days in a 
'Leaving Las Vegas' style haze as I
Burn my possessions and i tap that - 
Romance that needed no 'chit-chat'

We can turn under smoke
of the lights as we're broke
and i'll bin all my clothes
and my jewellery - pawn broked

and you'll dance for me
and i'll clown around
i'll clown around this shitty place with you
this shitty place with you

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together
On

Everything now feels like it's gonna kill us
So fuck it we'll just deal in realness
Like the way your skin feels in this stillness
as we let the sunset breeze distill us

I get a body transfer in dreaming
When i'm only putting myself in feeling
Now the lights are hitting her in all the right places 
But she's unaware of the beauty in her paces

and you'll dance for me
and i'll clown around
i'll clown around this shitty place with you
this shitty place with you

lets - blow out
lets spin
go round
in these dirty streets

lets - blow out
lets spin
go round
in these dirty streets

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

together on
together wrong
together on
together wrong 
together on
together wrong
together on
together wrong
together on

TOXIC TOGETHER

Follow $lothboi: @slothboipapi
Follow Nicolas Sales: @nicolassales
Prod. Grayskies

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/LtUeTlERXQM

Lyrics:

[$LOTHBOI]:

STARING AT THE SKY
LOOKING GOD UP IN HIS EYES
ANGELS ALL AROUND ME
BUT THE DEMONS STAY INSIDE

DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
IN THE CLUB I'M ROLLING DICE
REALIZE
DEVIL STILL AN ANGEL
BEAUTY NEVER DIED

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

LATELY I SEE CREATURES SHIFTING
VOICES IN MY HEAD BEAT
CALL THE ONE THAT SHARES MY MIND
MYSELF IN DIFFERENT MEMORIES

SIPPING WINE I FEEL ALIVE
ASCEND I SHINE IN STARRY SEAS

PALACE SO DIVINE I EXIT
FLASHING LIT THEM LIKE A SCENE


[NICOLAS SALES]:

RUN
RUN AWAY
RUN IN PLACE
I CAN’T RUN AWAY
AND I’M BACK WHERE I STARTED
MUST BE A BETTER WAY
INNOCENCE YOU’RE MIXING IT UP
CONFUSED WITH IGNORANCE
NOW I DON’T KNOW WHERE
ALL MY FEELINGS WENT
WHERE MY FEELINGS WENT
YEAH

[$LOTHBOI]:

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

[NICOLAS SALES]:

SKY FULL OF STARS
LOOKING DOWN
THEY’RE ALREADY DEAD
YOU'RE NOT YOUR JOB OR THE VOICES
YOU HEAR INSIDE YOUR HEAD
YOU DON’T HAVE A NAME
YOU DON’T HAVE A PERSONALITY
YOU'RE JUST THE OBSERVER
TRYING TO SET YOU FREE

[$LOTHBOI & NICOLAS SALES]:

I SAW A LIGHT AND FOLLOWED IT
DO YOU BLAME ME FOR ALL OF IT
I’M SORRY THAT I LEFT WITHOUT A BYE
BUT I BE TIRED OF IT

SIGIL IN THE NIGHT
I ABIDE
CAN YOU GUIDE ME RIGHT
EVERYTHING’S CONNECTED
SO IT MATTERS WHEN THE TIMES RIGHT

THROW ME IN THE FIRE
LET THE EMBERS FLOAT AWAY

LET THE FATES DECIDE
IF I’M GONNA GO OR STAY

BURN INTO THE GROUND
AND FEED THE EARTH A BIT OF PAIN

ALL THAT’S LEFT IS SMOKE AND ASHES
HALLOWED BE THE DAY

I SAW
ANGELS
KILL MY
FRIENDS AND
I SAW
GOD PRETEND
HE CARING

Painted Clouds

$LOTHBOI x NICOLAS SALES - PAINTED CLOUDS

LYRICS:

You know I can't be someone that you depend on
Cus you know when you hit me up I will not answer
The consequences of separation are never easy
And when you’re all alone you hit me up, say that you need me

But I'm sick of that, I don't wanna be used to the grave
Panic attacks hit the stage open up I'm in a state
Dont wanna talk about feelings why can't I be left alone
I'm not coping, I’m not good, I didn't think that it would show

Yeah cus, I didn't want to be someone that you depend on
I didn't want to be the one that didn't answer
You said "Hold your tongue cus I don't want to hear you ever speak,
You just stay inside, haven't had a reply in a week."

"I hope you suffer in the bed that you have made for yourself
Are you happy all alone, in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah I don't care about you, I guess this is goodbye,
Cus I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

You know I couldn't help you when you just suffered
You know I couldn't be something that you wanted
Always getting up at me like I made a mistake
Push us back and then we break, constant fighting, say we’re fake

You wanna reprimand me for times when I didn't understand
Don't want to explain it to me so you give me the backhand
You say that I'm selfish for trying to be someone that just cares
But you run away, ignore me then just give me a blank stare

So what the fuck is up with it, I get it yeah you hate
Everyone who doesn't understand the pain that you create
You say you wanna tear them down in hopes that they never exist
I guess we all just have opinions and to you they don't mean shit

I see, "You suffer in the bed that you made for yourself
Are you happy, all alone in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah you know I care about you, I guess this is goodbye
And I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

Cautious

MAJOR LEAGUE

I can feel your pulse thumping in the walls
I can hear the silent echo from across the hall
It's in the air and I can feel my body rise and fall
Chills down my spine, poltergeist in my visual

Ghost in the sheets, get no sleep when i think of you
I'm not at peace, let me be or let me be with you
I need some closure, ain't had rest in a week or two
I'm sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room

I'm sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room
I'm sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room
Sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room

Your eyes imprinted, metaphysics stuck inside my head
Impulse, admission, ammunition aimed right at my chest
Your disposition fought the prison you were taught was blessed
You sold your wings to please the beast, your head laid on my bed

You said it's what you wanted
But now it's like I'm haunted 

And now I feel you every time I turn my head
I toss and turn all night, I'm broke inside this empty bed
My dreams of blue, they fade in hue, turn into ruby red
Your apparition in my vision haunts me till I'm dead

Ghost in the sheets, get no sleep when I think of you
I'm not at peace, let me be or let me be with you
I need some closure, can you call me for at least a few
I'm sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room

Sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room
I'm sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room
Sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room
With your spirit living in my room

mixed & mastered by @nicolassales

.you still haunt me.

AMV on Idleglance

sleepwalking (prod. thislandis)

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
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Lyrics: 
i'm spending every day
goin insane
talkin to screens
voices in the walls they squeeze me

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

welcome to the era of mass death
unemployment
oligarks
and isolated enjoyment
natures collapse
with self accountability the central employment
not the systemic poisons 
and our daily routines
given more to screens
their reality illusive yet intrusive
click bait dreams
happy days where desires
are figured out for me
let my pores perspire
formulations for my needs
oh...
and a couple of crowds 
are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

well you might feel so corny when you put love first
cos lovin doesn't talk inside the echo church
every roll i'm on they follow in every angry word
daily saving different targets 
manifest my thirst

opinions 
i'm surrounded 
might be catered to til the grave
arteries clogged but still enabled 
on many boards of the same face
see the one's you disagree with 
silenced and called fascistic
no one can expose their ignorance
when they're not platformed with real statistics
oh...
and the crowds are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

so gimme your hate
your hate speech
hate speech so i can speak freely 
no one gets shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb
when you hear them out loud

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

them that preach

Self produced / Sad  

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Lazarus Ft $lothboi

Rivilin

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