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A track for those who feel like they don't own their life anymore.

It's the start of a brand new day
For the same old patterns
That I've come to tolerate
Just barely though

It's the end of the same old day
The neverending grind 
of climbing the tallest paper mountains 
Aiming for someone else's targets

But I'm done with watching myself just fade away

Take my life back 
You made a fool out of me 
Now watch me walk out the door

Take my life back
You tell me who I should be
And I can't stand it anymore

Don't you know?
You don't know me at all
So I'll go
Find a place
Where I really belong

Take my life back
I'm not sure where I should be
But I know that it's not here

I believed the lie they sold
Now I'm drifting farther
Sinking further down
From where I'd rather be

Now I know this wasn't meant for me
Used to dream about tomorrow
But now I float through every second
Longing for all my yesterdays

But I'm done with watching myself just fade away

Take my life back 
You made a fool out of me 
Now watch me walk out the door

Take my life back
You tell me who I should be
And I can't stand it anymore

Don't you know?
You don't know me at all
So I'll go
Find a place
Where I really belong

Take my life back
I'm not sure where I should be
But I know that it's not here

Take my life back 
You made a fool out of me 
Now watch me walk out the door

Take my life back
You tell me who I should be
And I can't stand it anymore

Don't you know?
You don't know me at all
So I'll go
Find a place
Where I really belong

Take my life back
I'm not sure where I should be
But I know that it's not here




Take My Life Back

This song is also on Spotify! https://play.spotify.com/album/5mFTabBbrhg5aK5UDKmvP8

When I show my whole soul, it's never good enough
Despite the hundredth try, they tell me to give up

Do I have to write songs that everybody loves?
With words so meaningless
Yet I'll still smile and strum

Get that impostor offstage
Goodbye
Get that impostor offstage
It's time

I'll be who I am today
No matter I do, they've got something to say
And I'm not gonna change for you

Trying to become a better version of myself
But I'm always worrying about the thoughts of someone else
Terrified, I run and leave my verses on the shelf
Then he steals them
And he tells me that I should check my mental health

Get that impostor offstage
Goodbye
Get that impostor offstage
It's time

I'll be who I am today
No matter I do, they've got something to say
And I'm not gonna change for you

'Cause I'll be who I am today
No matter I do, they've got something to say
I'm not gonna change for you

I'll be who I am today
No matter I do, they've got something to say
And I'm not gonna change for you
No

Trying to become a better version of myself
But I'm always worrying about the thoughts of someone else
Terrified, I run and leave my verses on the shelf
But he steals them
And he tells me that I should check my mental health

Impostor

Wrote this reaaaaally short song to test out a few things. I'm putting this on Soundcloud since it's not gonna be on the upcoming album.  Free download if anyone wants it lol

Lonely In The Meantime

I've been floating through the days
Ever since you disappeared, I swear I've never been the same
Drowned in the illicit to elicit a response 
Thinking maybe you would listen if you've seen what I've become 

Well, what were you expecting me to do? 
When I was constantly doubting, I pulled through because of you
In a superficial world, you were the truth among the lies 
Did you think it was so simple when we finally said goodbye?

For the the beauty of what we had
And the purity of our plans
Our story started great but ended terribly and
I'm sorry
For whatever I did to tear us down 
Our falling out is nothing to be proud about 

And since silence is all that we have in common now
Gotta go cause I know that 
You and I know that 
All of our problems bottomed out 

Maybe all our heartache could've been avoided 
If only I paid more attention when you said
"Hey listen!"
	
I hope you're doing alright 
If you've found somebody new, I hope he's making you smile 	
Fix myself until holding someone feels right 
But I'll be lonely in the meantime.

Lonely In The Meantime

This song is also available on Spotify: 
https://open.spotify.com/track/2UM2BY8NVI9ctNjwBvL75d?si=D5zqG2Fr

Download this song for free. 

Lyrics:
Now you find yourself alone 
Searching for answers in all the wrong places
Now you find yourself alone
A wandering mind in the darkest spaces

It's over now
You can't get over the sound of the silence
You're surrounded by the 
ghosts who found
 a loving home in this town
They accept your invitations

They're asking for a place to stay
You point them to a quiet grave
They don't know that's where you lay
You died the day she went away

Now you find yourself alone 
Searching for answers in all the wrong places
Now you find yourself alone
A wandering mind in the darkest spaces

Newly independent 'cause you've got nowhere run to 
Remembering the moments that you're wishing you could undo
Everything was perfect, now you're left behind and confused 
In all the loneliness that you're left to deal with

When she has her darkest days you try to help her up
If you prove you're not invincible, that's when she's had enough
Then desperately, you ask her "Tell me, was it really love?"
Conceding, feelings leaving through the ceiling up above

Now you'll go alone and never speak of this again
Down a lonely road you don't know what's around the bend
The world is colder but you're gonna figure out a plan
Even machines break down

It's fine if you get sad
You know it's not so bad

Forgetting how to breathe 
To find that you can't sleep
At night you have no dreams
You're falling in too deep with the anxieties

That lodged inside your brain 
'Cause even when you wake
The thoughts won't dissipate

But you anticipate 
That with each step you take
To reach another day

There is no other way
You're gonna be okay
You won't forget her, but I swear you'll get better.


Now you find yourself alone 
Searching for answers in all the wrong places
Now you find yourself alone
A wandering mind in the darkest spaces

For now, you find yourself alone 
Searching for answers in all the wrong places
You' ll be stronger
Learn to make it on your own
Freeing your mind from the darkest spaces

It's over now
You can't get over the sound of the silence
You're surrounded

Contradictions

Start Again is hope for when everything seems lost. We are the sum of our successes, failures, mistakes, and countless other experiences. Our lows make the high points of life much better. We can never completely restart, but we can learn and move on.

Stream the song on Spotify here: 
https://open.spotify.com/track/3WnNjNJuqVVc0rQASVg6IA

Lyrics, Melody, Music Production and Artwork by: RJ Manulid
Performed by: RJ Manulid and Khail Solo

I'm chasing the shadows of my own thoughts
Hearing the voices inside my head
Facing the crossroads I feel lost
Unsure about everything

Tell me
Is it too late now
Tell me 
Can I turn it around
'Cause I'm thinking

Maybe I could start again
Nothing's gonna pull me under
Maybe I could start again 
I won't let 'em pull me under

Another mistake for the trophy case
Top shelf for everyone to see
I probably should hide it away
So they can see the best parts of me

But why worry at all when I could be proud 
Of the things that make me who I am
I'll give it my all and stand my ground
They're probably gonna think I'm crazy

Tell me
Is it too late now
Tell me 
You'll turn it around
'Cause I'm thinking

Maybe I could start again
Nothing's gonna pull me under
Maybe I could start again 
I won't let 'em pull me under

We're not going down
We're not going down
They're probably gonna think I'm crazy
We're not going down
We're not going down
But why worry at all?

Tell me
Is it too late now
Tell me 
Can I turn it around
'Cause I'm thinking

Maybe I could start again
Nothing's gonna pull me under
Maybe I could start again 
And I won't let 'em pull me under

Maybe I could start again 
I won't let 'em pull me under

Start Again (ft. Khail Solo)

2nd album, Phases, out now. Link:
http://push.fm/fl/phases 

I make music to feel better