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I wrote this song about my Dad who left us behind when I was four and who I never saw again. It was very cathartic to write and I’m sure many people can relate.

Lyrics
I don’t know why
But lately your on my mind
A scar I’ve had so long
A phantom love I feel sometimes

You gave my name
To me you were larger than life
But I was just a boy
When you left us behind
I never did see you again

Chorus
But sometimes like tonight
Your memory tears the wound
And I just wonder why
Phantom love
I buried you alive
It saved me from the truth
But sometimes deep inside
Phantom love

Where are you now
Are you even alive
Oh how can I not know
When your blood runs through mine
Do you regret
Or did you forget.

Chorus.

Bridge.
You never came
I blew the candles off that cake
I wished so hard but nothing changed
In time I learned to say goodbye

Phantom Love (2026)

Written and performed with the AMAZING Alyssa. (a.k.a @QuothTheLlama)
This is a cover version of our original song using Suno. Our original vocals can be heard in the chorus and the original song itself   (Performed and arranged completely by Alyssa and I) can be found on my profile page.

Lyrics.
Sorry I’ve been off my game
I can’t shake the low
Wish I could escape my brain
It’s hard to let go
It’s alright, it’s alright
I’ll be fine, bring on the weekend.

Every time I get knocked down
You save the day
Busting out your telephone booth
Wearing a cape
And in your eyes, in your eyes
I always find, all that I need there.

We know some come undone
Under pressure
But you and I still defy the odds
Together.

Yeah we rode the supernova
In and out of luck
We rode through the darkness
Never giving up
Now our love is the starlight
Nothings gonna tear us down
We are a constellation.

Remember when I wrecked our car
You carried me home
You fall, I fall
But we don’t fall alone
If we just keep pushing
Keep on moving forward
We’ll be alright.

I know you don’t wanna let me down
I told you then and I’ll tell you now
That I’ll never leave your side
I promised til the day I die.

Bridge.
Oooh I will never leave you in the dark
With your hand in mine
We’ll show them what we are.

Constellation (‘26)

This is an AI “Cover” of a very old song of mine. Originally I wrote, sang and produced it, but I wanted to hear a female vocal on it. I think the AI has done a great job of covering my original, but making it even grittier and dark.

Lyrics.
Where am I
I feel so numb inside
Wild sky
Flames and chaos
I remember
You and I
Dark and angry as the clouds
The lightning strikes
We ran out of sky

Chorus.
Mayday mayday going down
We’ve lost control head spinning round
The gravity of what you’ve done
Is rushing up to meet me
I can’t quite believe it no
This Bermuda love triangle 
My parachute deploys and signs read
Welcome back to crashland.

I landed hard
Tore open my scars
I’m in shock
Minds all tangled up in details
The darkness comes
Oh but no one sees the flare
Love is cruel
I dint want the truth
I only wanted you
I only wanted you….

Why’s it every time I try, I fail and end up right back here
Love isn’t fair

Chorus.

Crashland ('26)

Written and performed with the AMAZING Anya. We love our original version of this song released 4 years ago, but on this new version and with  the musical help of Suno, we have made the song much more orchestral and hopefully more epic. 

Lyrics.
Girl.
The train slowly pulls away
I find you at the window
Your breath fogs up the pane
And just like that you fade away

Snowflakes and teardrops
At war just like my thoughts
As I'm left waving you goodbye
Your scent still on your scarf
You gave me this morning
As first snow was falling
When I was almost yours...

Boy.
I wave, your blackberry kiss I taste
The snow blows wild around you
Your bright red hair ablaze
I hate it has to end this way

Too many mountains
And oceans between us
And time was never on our side
We knew it couldn't last
But still we kept falling
From summer through autumn
When I was almost yours

Bridge. (Together)
Nights were bright
In St Petersburg
Found your hand in mine
Lost in the warmth
of your wildfire smile
In sweet denial.

Verse (together)
The train moves along its way
A postcard of a moment
The one that got away
But in my heart I know you'll stay
Far from this weather
I'll always remember
The nights, by your side, in the light
Of that midnight sun
When I was almost.....yours.

Almost Yours (New Version ‘26)

I wrote this song with the very talented Florian Hoffman a few years ago. He created a beautiful orchestral backing track and I wrote the lyrics, melody and sang what we wanted to be a “Bond” song. This new version is me singing but with a synthwave backing track that I made with Suno.

Lyrics.
Mines been a life
Lived in the dark
Scouring the depths for my mark
No surprise that I’d be blinded by a spark

In such perfect circles
She hunted her prey
Stealing my heart was a game
I was dead before I ever saw the blade

I’ve known pain
Lessons learned
But nothing hurts
Quite like her

Blood is in the water
There’s no time
Shadows closing in
It’s kill or die
I’m a fool, never saw it coming
Every kiss was a twisted knife
You played me once
Won’t kill me twice.

I’m drowning in memories
Our beautiful lie
Stunned by the chill in her eyes
Oh the irony she made me feel alive

Can’t look back
And I won’t run
And I can’t miss
what never was.

You never should have left me there for dead
You underestimate me
When the pressure is building I rise.

Written by Florian Hoffmann/Leo Bull

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