HLFD

UNDEAD ft. TENTO

BXNES

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p, grayskies
this one really took some time 
big thank to every1 for the support  <3

lyrics:
(shi)
where is my lighter at
i think ive lost it again
anti social 
hence im losing my friends 
converse, rain drops pain crosses my chest
scared eyes fucked up put a gun to my head 

smile smile for me 
fly u didnt fly with me
cry bad trip on ecstasy 
"lies" dont see the truth in me

burn a cross in my chest
tortured souls cannot rest
feelings scary sight is blurry
guess im a trainwreck

where is my lighter a-
NEVERMIND
why do you have to keep haunting me
all the time
i hate my postition 
any way i can resign any way i can decline
cuz u been there all the time 

emotions
they deal damage 
there is no heal no there is no potion
and i know it isnt real
gaping open

erase my memories 
feelings frozen

spotify

trainwreck

p. grayskies
https://linktr.ee/h3nce 

thanks yall :)

lyrics:
the darker night
the brighter the sun
the darker night
the brighter the sun

and she said that i'm alright
you brought back the night
now i'm pissed, pissed, pissed, pissed off again
no, i can't tell my fucking friends
good things come back
worst thing ever said
'cause im pissed, pissed, pissed, pissed off again
my headache it will never end

i lied you know
it's the half of me
that said i should'nt ever be
dark thoughts turn into evergreens
no i don't need no therapy
i been up there, down there, i been all around
never staying in my own lane
but im crossing people out
and i know this place is flooded
but i'm living in a drought
girl is claustrophobic
needs someone to let her out

i gotta run away, get away, run away
i got no place to stay
and she's been feeling kinda empty
won't come home today
i gotta run away, get away, run away
i got no place to stay
she's been feeling kinda lonely can't find her escape

and she said that i'm alright
you brought back the night
now im pissed ,pissed, pissed, pissed off again
no i can't tell my fucking friends
good things come back
worst thing ever said
'cause im pissed, pissed, pissed, pissed off again
my headache it will never end

it'll be fine and it'll be alright
and i'll be right home but i cant go back in time
everyday i get up going through a fucking fight
and that's the reason why i cannot be by your side
and when you wake up
i'll be long gone
forget the things, forget the songs
forget her smiles, forget what she has done
the darker the night
the brighter the sun

worst thing ever said

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/05H7DFe2YnGGrIokYRhAnG?si=8_dJSMLYQ8qMqEzGoBV5dQ
art by visualsbykura
prod: grayskies

lyrics: 
Hold me close
I need you right here by my side
I just can't seem to get this right
That's how it goes
I try so hard but I always find a way to sabotage

So won't you tell me what I did wrong
Spent so long tryna find out where I belong
Fucked up from the way you string me along
I'm so fuckin sick and tired of the love songs

I don't want your love, but I need it
Thinking about my past gonna leave me steady grieving
I cared so much, don't give a fuck if you believe me
I've never been smart, so it's not hard to deceive me

and I know it's all my fault
now I'm on my own

I hate you
You say you want me dead, I don't blame you
I don't get why this is what it came to
I don't remember one time that you came through

So save your words
It'll be a long time till we mature
My brain is fogged, my visions blurred
I guess I got what I deserved

I can't stand to be alone
Like why won't you pickup your phone
You break me down, and leave me broke
Yeah, all the pain that you invoke

Did I even love you in the first place
How can I wish someone the best in the worst way
I miss putting my arms around your waist
I hate seeing your face on the worst days

and I know it's all my fault
now I'm on my own

Hold me close
I need you right here by my side
I just can't seem to get this right
That's how it goes
I try so hard but I always find a way to sabotage
(so won't you)
Hold me close
I need you right here by my side
I just can't seem to get this right
That's how it goes
I try so hard but I always find a way to sabotage

dissonance

@1bearr - 
Just can't go back this time
I've made up my own mind
A flaw in your design 
Heard what you said, oh my oh my

[@rlvst]
Give me your bag, I left it in the bedroom
Pack my bags, then I'll tell you why I left you
So decieving, girl I try my best to
Trust your words but, I can't ever trust you

What you did you broke me in two halfs
You broke my heart, I can't go back
I'm crying fixed with some Cognac
I take the train I hope to crash
Why do you hate me so passive aggressive
You're the reason I've been so obsessive
Drugs to me, yeah they act so supressive
You're the reason I've been so progressive 

@1bearr - 
Just can't go back this time
I've made up my own mind
A flaw in your design 
Heard what you said, oh my oh my
Don't really care what you're saying
Tell me that you love me, i know you're playing
Know you wanna meet, but I'd rather stay in 
My own bed is where I'll be laying

@alkayn 
Its 3pm, haven’t left my bed
Never been the type to reminisce
but there’s this feeling in my chest
and I just can’t stop running out of breath

Holding my own hands, trying not to call
My eyes best friend’s been the drywall
I fucked it up, it’s all my fault
I drown my pain with alcohol
I don’t recognize myself
I keep my feelings on a shelf
I hate my being in itself
I’m sorry I can’t take your help

I’m sick of saying that I’m fine
I wish that I could turn back time
I don’t go up, I just decline
I’m just a prick by my design
Feels like I’m bad at everything 
Just fucking say it, you hate me
You moved on so complacently
My life’s a pot of agony

@1bearr
Both been here before
You saying we should try once more
You're rotten to the core
On your way out make sure you close the door

Just can't go back this time
I've made up my own mind
A flaw in your design 
Heard what you said, oh my oh my
Don't really care what you're saying
Tell me that you love me, i know you're playing
Know you wanna meet, but I'd rather stay in 
My own bed is where I'll be laying

rewind w/ rl + alkayn

--- lyrics ---
(So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone)

Love from a distance, I've been losing my mind
I can't fix it, vision starts to go blind
Don't solicit, blacked out no time
Lost cognition, I should've listened
I did so much to preserve our love
I don't understand where we went wrong
Vision blurry I'm starting to fall
Seems like you never cared all along

All the effort I would put in, you threw away so our love it is disputed
You treat me like I should've understood and I don't, I won't

So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone
So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone

Seems like our love is misconstrued
I think it's time to conclude
The only reason we're apart is your attitude
I don't have the time to follow through
I'm so tired of the misconceptions
Using my words as a lethal weapon
I feel so stripped down can somebody step in
Consequence you can only threaten

And I'm so sick and tired of the games, I thought I told you that I don't wanna play
You say you're different but I see you're the same, again

So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone
So I'll just sit here, thinking what'd I do wrong
Think of all the times that, I wrote you these love songs
And how I always trusted you cause I thought we were lifelong
Guess all that time we spent meant nothing cause it turned into a bygone

cross

--- lyrics ---
watch me bleed from the edge of your counter
contemplate I've been sitting here for hours
dust on my hands I'm still waiting for my flowers
fifteen years and I still don't have no power
never thought it would be me to blame
guess that I'm that type of person to be thrown to flame
"hear they're calling out for help but I don't know their name"
and you say you're falling down I hate to say the same

but I'm thankful, for the words that you left me
it ain't my fault that you don't impress me
for a minute there I thought you would accept me
you tore my heart out now I'm feeling empty

fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that, hope I stay
fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that

say it in my head, I don't wanna lose myself
i'm in my bed, thinking to myself am I being mislead
when I'm older will I be okay and not be dead
cause the way this world is going I think
there's gonna be a choice, It's either one or two
can you hear my voice, and I'm just screaming out
can you hear the noise, I think the present's
in the past, baby lets rejoice

fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that, hope I stay
fifteen, thinking of the things I hope I do before I'm
sixteen, think of all the lovers that I've had know they don't
miss me, scared of what's the future, what's the past like are you
kidding, I'm already stressed enough at that

fifteen

sidelines

--- lyrics ---

You pushed me away, but that's fine you don't wanna talk anyway
I see the numbers getting to your brain
We gave you too many chances
Still you can't take the blame
It's just wasted potential, the person that you are
Keeping it confidential, and honestly It's sad that
You're so revengeful, to people you know care about 
"How is your mental?" (I feel so dismantled)

Honestly, It was your choice of words
You could've used them better could've made this work
It was your own choice, now you're the one feeling hurt
You're so naive now, don't realize we fell apart

You can't save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't
Save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't

See the crash out, blame it all on me but you're the one that'll act out
You're the one who fired shots first, now you back down
Is it cause you care, or you'll get hurt, by the stats now
Claim we never fell out
It hurts to hear you lie on my name
Wish you would claim what you did but you never take blame
You were the one that started it ignited the flame
Now that you're gone I'm feeling better but it won't be the same

You can't save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't
Save yourself, already made the wrong choice in a mental cell
And maybe that's your problem you should ask for help
Your condescending words the reason I farewell
Only here for the numbers can't save yourself

cross

rl

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