martyr

Twink Death

i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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I'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
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Believe me 
when i say 
that things really
did change

I woke up and saw you
and you were acting
so strange
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Now that i have gone away
you can have all the space
that you prayed for
that i paid for
is this i get blamed for?

now that it's all gone
is that you really want
i just want to carry on 
and I want you to move on
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i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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i'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
Believe me 
when i say 
that things really did change
I woke up and saw you
you were acting so strange
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i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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Running Away



so infiltrate my astral plane
help me make my mind erase
all the memories of what we had
i wish it didn’t turn out so bad 

you told me to text you when it snows
but deep down im sure of where i will go
you know that there’s no love 
theres no care and theres no trust
just know im doing this for passion 
not for lust

when you call me i wont reply 
i wont stick around to say goodbyes 
throw my phone into the creek
its not my fault she is haunting me

isekai x ?
 wanna change my life
isekai x ?
wanna run away and hide 

isekai

entering increasingly extreme 
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a stupid vulture

pray that youll forgive me for my sins 
comply with anyone who takes me in
and you wonder how my views are formed
but don’t help at all you dont try to warn 
me of how i left my world behind 
to get closer to my human side

entering increasingly extreme
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a fucking poser

didnt choose to fall this far at all
just wanted a place i could call home
maybe this song is too on the nose
cant let the irls know cant be exposed 
my worst fear is being left behind 
is this my out
you decide

extremist

this song gives me a migraine to listen to

got a bad attitude its my brain
i dont have fun and i always complain
about everyone and everything around

i got a bad mind its in my soul
i lose my mind and i lose control
and i dont know much of anything else

i cant believe my own existence
with a life like this
Tuesday and i feel so finished
when the fuck will the week end?

i hear the words
i hear them leave your mouth
but i just stand and stare
my brains been hollowed out

i waste everyday i waste my nights
i hate everything and i hate my life
and i cant do a thing to turn it around

i got a bad mind its in my soul
i got a bad attitude and ive got no pull
i just push everyone and everything around

i dread the thought of the weekend ending
im scared of all this time im spending

i never do nothing
and i dont mean shit
and nothing that i do to make up for it
will ever hold significance at all

got a bad attitude
what can i do?
i got a bad attitude
what can i do?

i got a bad attitude
and im always so rude
got a bad attitude
im not in the mood

bad attitude

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im done with emotions, they get in the way
fucking up my brain, get rid of the pain
im done with everything
i dont care anymore, i dont care if it hurts
this lifes a fucking chore

so pointless
to give a shit
im done caring
cause its only brought me hurt

i wish i could go back to being normal
i didnt have a choice in it at all
wish i didnt withdraw
my emotions
my emotions

i regret all it, its too late too quit
too late to change, just cry and whine
i miss the time, i felt something
i miss the time, when everything was right

so pointless
to give a shit
im done caring
cause its only brought me hurt

apathy, cant feel a thing
apathy, cant feel a thing
apathy, dont want to feel anything
dont want to feel anything

apathy

Goodbye and so long i hope you choke on the words i wrote for you in this song you'll hear me sing when you pass away can't say that i blame you for having bad taste
You know i still think about how you kinda treated me badly and you still do i wonder if you ever tried to change you're so full of shit and you're still the same

Im looking forward to the day I get to dance on your grave even though your already dead inside dont ya know I hate you for being alive
Every breath you take is a waste of space every move you make is a total disgrace when you know you're living on borrowed time you're dirt you're already dead inside

And it was funny and it was sad the stupid shit that always made her mad there was literally nothing that I could fucking say can't say that I blame her for being that way
Our lives were shameful and a waste of time, regrets that she can still make me cry I wish that you could somehow take me back, closest thing to love that I ever had

epitaph

2025

i feel so full of hatred
its killing me
the violent tendencies
i need to please

i freeze in place
your blood is on my face
i want to get out of this place
but your corpse is in the way
will i ever be forgiven

its all coming back to me
your scream, its so haunting
and it all felt so good at the time
but now i wanna die
please end my fucking life

please excuse me
your corpse is in my way
please excuse me
your always in my way

please excuse me

Old demo I had but never published because I thought it was bad. 

Woke up at 4, didn’t leave my bed
Saw that you left me left on read
Tried to text back, I changed my mind
Guess I’ll just rot here, guess I'll die

Yeah, I'm trying to move past her
But it's so hard to forget her
Yeah, I swore I’d get it together
But I’m still stuck in last November

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I'm watching the paint peel from the wall
Crying as I wait for your call
Told myself I would start again
But here I am, waiting again

It’s fine, I’m used to it
Always feeling like shit
I'm burnt out in my mind
But I swear that I'm fine

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

Cut Me Instead

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i waste every day
playing anime games
i dont ever need to try
nothings coming my way
always stuck to my chair
but i dont care
i got grease for days 
i got lard in my veins

cause im a
fat fucking retard
im a fat fucking retard 
i got rocks for brains and an infinite waist
cause im a fat fucking retard

and when the girls see me they run away
i dont Think anyone could ever love me
it hurts to be like this
a stupid fat fucking piece of shit
why oh why is this my Life
i'll lay and die in the mess ive made

(fattard)

its getting harder to move
everyday i weigh in a little more
lifes getting tuff i can never look at food the same way i did before
I hate my guts
I cant even get these stupid girls to fuck
even my shirt is getting tighter
everyday i get less lighter

(roadkill)

everydays the same for me
wake up eat slop sleep repeat 
this is not the life i want to lead
if only things could have ended differently

Fattard (ft Fattard & Roadkill)

Run away

Blue eyes and red hair,
The only one that cares
And you're so far away
And I don't think that it's fair
I wish you were here
And I wish that I was there
But I don't really care
Just as long as we're a pair

Blue eyes and red hair,
I'll lay my soul bare
In 2 months I'll be there
Without a thought to spare
Cause you take it away,
Yeah, you take all my despair
I don't really care,
I'm so happy we're a pair

I cannot wait to kiss your lips
Or feel you trace 
the scars etched into my wrists
I need to feel like you
Want to be with me
As one and only
And suffocate my thoughts
Cause they don't ever help

apathy

roadkill

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