i was up all night
thinking about how my life
could have been
if she was by my side
it make me cry
every time
i see her
she has a smile
i've been thinking about for a while

i've been in love for so long
i don't know how to tell her

day comes to an end
and i am alone again
i have no friends
alone until the end
i know she won't
love me
like i love her
it hurts so much
but i have to let her go

i've been in love for so long
i don't know how to tell her

i've been in love for so long

i miss all the time that we spent
id love to talk to you but i dont know what to do
you can say its the end
you dont have to pretend
but maybe in another life
we spent more time together

and the thought of her is softlocked inside my brain
its hard to go on, with all my hurt and pain
and the more i think of her, the more it drives me insane
i guess you were right, i cant keep going on this way

im all alone again
when will this ever end

i just want to cry
cant keep up this lie
think i need to commit suicide

and the thought of her is softlocked inside my brain
its hard to go on, with all my hurt and pain
and the more i think of her, the more it drives me insane
i guess you were right, i cant keep going on this way

im all alone again
when will this ever end

softlocked inside my brain

I know we talked that night 
But I can’t ever seem to savor it
I guess I feel alright 
I went back to bed I’m falling asleep 

At 3pm and I can barely rise from bed
My fucking head I can feel my heart inside of my chest
I won’t bother to try 
But I don’t have the will to die 

Sometimes I wish I’d died 
And I’m so fucking ashamed of it
Half baked my mind is fried 
No life counting all these days I’ll live 

It’s 3pm and I can barely rise from bed
My fucking head I can feel my heart inside of my chest
I won’t bother to try 
But I don’t have the will to die 

I’ll be you and you’ll be me
In my secret society 
I’ll be you and you’ll be me
I’m dazed and hazed stuck in a dream

Somatic

Never ever use the normalize option in Waveform 13

[Verse]

Don't you think it's so unfair you're expected to do social interaction
With people that hate you to get anywhere in life
If confidence were a thing you could hold
Mine's an icicle that slips away and shatters on the sidewalk 

[Pre-Chorus]

'Cause every time I talk I inevitably get it wrong
That's why I sit at home and hide behind my guitar

[Chorus]

Dryfire drills on my own head
For when reality catches up
This is the only thing I've ever planned ahead
The absolute only option
I tried to be inoffensive
But mess up with every sentence
And sabotage all the things I've planned
Before I even make them

[Verse]

My goal in life is to let you down
So I'm left to my devices 
I'm so stunted, so stupid, and I can't get bullied out of it
Explaining only makes it worse,
I sperg when I should sew my mouth shut, just shut the fuck up

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

I can't talk to people


When I wish upon that star
You'll stab me in the back
watch from afar
As I hit the floor
And fucking cry
I want to tell you
I don't want to die

I'll write shit music
Just to tell you how much my life fucking sucks
But I know deep down
These rotten prose will never be enough
And I hope that I don't end up
With a bullet in my head
I'm pretty it won't happen
I'm so stupid

I'm on the internet 
And people hear just what I have to say
And all I cry about is how
I want to die every other day
So people please just listen
I think this life ain't mine
I know I sound real edgy
That's not what I feel most of the time

I contradicted
Straight out my hell
I feel conflicted
I'll never tell
So when he disappears
Just know the truth
He's still living in fear
And hiding from you 

Lifes like a zoo
And I'm a damn dirty ape
On my computer
Say doesn't living feel real great
It's not enough
to bedrot
I really need this
The pain will never stop

bedrotter

neet life is a neat life (feat. roadkill)

Bad Sniff

Feat the assisted vocals of: @mil3karton, @genericsongs6, @amertard

you don't have to to bring us down
It's not enough for you
You end up going round and round
Who are you? What to do?
I don't know who needs sleep
More than me
But it's not your fight
You're so argumentive

(chorus)
Please shut the fuck up
You're no better than us
When we all go to hell
You'll be down here as well

we're all disgusting

My head hurts 
My head hurts 
This torture 
This torture 
Can’t endure
Can’t endure 
Can’t be there 
It’s not fair 

My eyes are seeing double
My head is spinning trouble 
I can’t believe I’m so pathetic
I’m so pathetic 
I’m so

pathetic

ALL PLATS SOON

im back this about almost the 2 year mark of me having hallucinations, depression and episode without mental help or medicine id say im doing good others say not so much and i need help "i keep getting sleep paralysis" got in trouble for yelling a kid who didn't say anything even tho i swear he did (hopefully im not going insane even tho ik i am) this is not me trauma dumping just sharing where im at i havent cut myself in about 5 days ig thats good right? hope u like the song its my first shoegaze song hopefully more in the future (idk when) if im still alive by then my family just thinks im attention seeking or just saying lies or "not believing" so maybe yall will right  anywayysysysysysysysys have a gooooood day (this is a random rant xaxa)

softlocked inside my brain

roadkill

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