first song ! finally :>

lyrics :
purple bruises scream a message i dont wanna send 
shaking hands and steamy windows 
making up excuses to justify my tendencies  
why am i doing this? i dont know 

ill ask a stranger what he thinks of me 
it seems my only source of validation 
digging up old friends from their rotten graves 
oh i know i cant resist his temptation 

oh i'm so alone 
now that ur gone 
theres no one left around me
oh im so alone 
at night it gets so cold 
with no one wrapped around me 

i'll drink too much and see the people i pretend to love 
a sloppy kiss and drunken hug gave out to anyone 
cry on my shoulder pretend i'm older 
hold the weight of you've done 
i could be anyone 

ill dream of poison running down my throat and in my lungs
i feel it rotting in my teeth and through my gums 
break me down devour my town 
pull me in a little closer 
just enough to help me forget being sober 
 


coping mechanisms

i have severely outgrown this song but alas i'm posting it so i never have to think about it ever again <3

lyrics:
bound by an impossible thread 
weaved through my neck 
split through the middle 
stuck with me 
fused till we lay still 

woven in time 
tracked through the mud 
scratched with dirty finger nails 
through the bone of skull 

like two mice in a puzzle 
children pressing buttons 
a sign of warning 
and a mother mourning 
big and bold 
red letters 

but like the mystery of the island
the rotten rattling door
the mouth upon a tail
the water in the pail
the impossible - seen by my eyes

your legs won’t ever stop running
ground down to the bone
encompassed in stone 
tomorrow and yesterday x2

robin graves