break down into dust (eric godlow)

Lover can you take my picture
To see if I'm still here?
Feel you slipping through my fingers
I've become transparent as my fears

I’m a good kid 

I’m a bad kid 

I don’t know dad, 

I just wasn’t thinking 

I don’t even have no reason 

I just did that shit I was feeling so.. 

I don’t know,  

Lost and confused and out of control 

Back to the wall left out in the cold 

Like nobody knows me knows 

What’s going on up inside my head 

Daily wishing that I was… 

Wishing I was Content instead 

Constant anger with hints of dread 

Lost myself and I can’t go back 

Need your help but I just can’t ask 

I’m so tired of letting down

The only ones that I care about 

I’m so sorry you’re scared right now 

Not quite sure of my whereabouts 

Where I’m going or where I’ve been 

Can’t have this conversation again 

Cause it goes the same every single time 

Got your opinions and I’ve got mine 

I’ve got a void inside my soul 

I don’t think That I can be whole 

I’m not sure what I supposed to do 

Not quite sure what I mean to you 

I’m so glad that I earned your trust 

I wish that could equate to love

Don’t ask why I won’t let you In 

You want truth and I’m lying again 

You can’t see it, I blend right in

still a snake when I shed my skin 







Im a good kid 

I’m a bad kid 

I don’t know mom I’ 

Just feel so empty 

I know there’s a good man in me 

But he’s sick and he’s dying swiftly 

Nothings ever enough 

I buy an ounce and I roll it all up 

Gone in a day and I dont feel a buzz 

I hate who I am and I miss who I was 

Sometimes I can barely remember 

How I got myself through the winter 

When the world brought the rain down on me 

Crushed in between its pincers

Crushed by the weight of conscious 

Head hurts and I feel so nautious

Attitude so fucking toxic 

You can miss me with all that nonsense 



I’ve been gone for the moment 

Here’s my heart god I hope you can hold it 

It’s in bad shape, I know it 

the last one squeezed it until it was broken

It never works out 

But here’s hoping 

I’ve got to go to work now 

See you in the morning 

If you’re still here 

If I come home 

There’s someone in my blood 

That I don’t know

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Lyrics
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Pitch black room crying when I'm faded again
Don't you talk to me, I'm talkin when I need a friend
I'm gon' call my plug
Like when you pulling up
'Cause I've been thinkin
I've been thinkin
I've been thinkin too much
Sit back, relax, lyin and jaded in my bed
I'm tryna fall asleep 'cause I don't wanna be in my head
I need another drug
I need to burn my lungs
I got a reason
Got a reason
That I need to be numb

I thought I found love
It broke my bones
Then I found hate and lost control
I found pain but I found gold
Then I changed when I sold my soul
The gold chains hang lower when you know the cost
I dropped some hundreds on that bag
Tomorrow it'll be gone
Old ways die hard, I'm smokin 'till I cough
And I'm gon keep on smokin
Until the day that I drop

Pitch black room
Cryin when I'm faded
Don't you talk to me
I'm talkin when I need a friend

Pitch black room crying when I'm faded again
Don't you talk to me, I'm talkin when I need a friend
I'm gon' call my plug
Like when you pulling up
'Cause I've been thinkin
I've been thinkin
I've been thinkin too much
Sit back, relax, lyin and jaded in my bed
I'm tryna fall asleep 'cause I don't wanna be in my head
I need another drug
I need to burn my lungs
I got a reason
Got a reason
That I need to be numb

Need to Be Numb [Prod. Branwen]

produced by the one and only @nevrfall
lyrics <3

{srypedia}
mom called she told me everything will be okay
im so bored, guitar is like my only escape
my head is hurting, im stimming and i am filled with hate 
pls stop flirting im dense and i know that ur lying
i aint no man i cry when shit gets rlly bad
but its okay, my ex told me that she dont care
i got a deck with ur name and i am filled with despair 
like everydays a test and idk if i’m here
i’m outside 
it’s peaceful and i love the storm
i’m okay, i sit and i think about ur door
ur pretty as u sit and u wait for me
u broke me, torn
hey, i think your voice is warm 

i deal with heartbreak everyday
it eats at my sanity
baby i need u here with me now
im losing it im losing it
u like to tell me im okay but im not
i like to suffer and i deal with brainrot
i love my mother 
hope she makes it to the top
i also love u like no other and i hate myself so what?

[wes]
looking for you, you're nowhere to be found
you can find me 6 feet in the ground
looking at trees and i'm wondering how
did i get this far with so many doubts

tear me apart and run away 
u took my heart and my only escape
comfort in hiding underneath the rain
sometimes i don't wanna feel this way

it's getting harder to not think about you
with every little step that i take
it's getting harder to not think about you
truth is that i've never felt that way

tearing me down piece by piece 
i wish that i wouldn't see you in my dreams
tearing me down piece by piece 
without you here i don't feel like living

hey, i think ur voice is warm w/ sunder.

(feat. Sosi) https://soundcloud.com/seesosi

Casket (feat. Sosi)

prosto freestyle

back back rooms -freestyle

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CYMQqGF2xgI&t=5s
vox mixed by soundcloud.com/prohibeo
much love


losing all the hope 
that i thought that id been
gaining
handle and restrain it
let me under estimate 
a bitch who can’t contain it
never broke a bone
but ill snap my neck
in half if
i have to deal with 
all this riff raff and nonsense
all these people
talkin
who don’t really belong in
i don’t even want it
it don’t take much
to feel entitled to some shit
its for the music  
not the flossing
you need them numbers
to be remembered
i need this music 
to stay non tempered 
you’re not in it for the craft
just the drugs and stacks
take it elsewhere 
real passion 
don’t need that
interrupt my train of thought
with another story 
of you fucking up
its quite enough
wheres the justice huh
theres not e fucking enough

handle (prod GREAF) (video in description)

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mixed and mastered by 
post car crash scene

broken hearts, deluded lovers and beat up cars.

i trace it all back to the moment you said you can't do this anymore
i reflect on those days where you said that you tried but there's nothing i can recall
so take all the space that you need to decide who and where you wanna be
and in the meantime i'll be sitting here waiting for you to come back when you see that i'm all you need
so won't you come back to me?
cause you're all that i need
and i can't breathe without you here

another broken heart
driving way too fast in a beat up car
crash into the reservoir
another mourning lover shocked to the core

@kaiyko
so here we go again
i'm fading out while you're crashing in again
i swear i locked every single door but here you are again
here you are again
i'm sorry for the distance but i think it's for the best
i hate myself for thinking you were different from the rest
i know i'm a fool
i'm a fool for you
but why do you hurt me when i tell the truth?
i know that it's too much
i know that you can't take this
so let me go
yeah let me go...
i know that it's too much
i know that you can't shake this
so let me go
yeah let me go...

I'll leave you standing at my post car crash scene

spotify link

heart of darkness (feat. kaiyko)

Interlude

WALKAWAY ft. CRIM

𝔐𝔢𝔪𝔟𝔢𝔯 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 "𝔇𝔦𝔢 𝔜𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔤" 𝔠𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔳𝔢

https://soundcloud.com/die-young-die-young

I want you to break me
Break me
Like nobody breaks me
Love me
Love me
Like nobody loves me

Need to Be Numb [Prod. Branwen]

Robstar

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