Original song about working on yourself and grieving those who won't.

Lyrics

I speak and thats when heaven sings
I danced and somehow sprouted wings
I fly among the fallen
Not sure why, but I record it

All it takes from me - some worn out things
My walls, my grave, my subtlety
Repression was a chance
To find my fight in the last stand

Have I spent too long away?
Fighting to live I dug another grave
I speak and thats when it hits me
You havent done anything but miss me

While I made friends with my demons
You took a look at yours
Said "How the fuck could I free them?"

"They might give all my secrets away
How could I possibly cope and pretend I'm ok?"
But this isnt about you, its about me
I've got a few things to work on
But I think I'm finally

It's a funny thing
Leaving it behind
I'm losing my thoughts
I'm losing my mind

The passion is there
but it cannot carry you
Afraid of what could be
I guess I just never knew

Yeah its a stupid thing, leaving it behind
I'm losing my thoughts while you toy with my mind
I'm standing right here
and I cannot save you
Would you put in the work if I told you I love you?

While I made friends with my demons
You took a look at yours
Said "How the fuck could I free them?"
But this isnt about you, its about me
I've got a few things to work on 
But I think I finally

I speak and thats when heaven sings
I dance and somehow sprouted wings
I fly among the fallen
Not sure why

Survivors Guilt

Lyrics:

Sometimes
I'm streaming, fine lines 
I'm teething, red lines

I'm gonna take me there, take me there

Post ride
I'm feeling so high
Releasing my time

But I'm almost there, almost there

Shotgun
Everybody's got one
These days
Irate
Like I'm tryna
Erase my fate

Post ride, I'm feeling so high

Real ghosts
In solid places
Soldiers
Have many faces

I write to hold my place
Is everyone feeling alright?

Don't know why but I record it tonight

Just a cog in the machine, for me
Shotgun blast
You'll take the pain, I'll take the bullet
Remind me of the better days
Of love drunk punch and sweet malaise
Remind me, when I hear you say
"We signed a contract, and you paid"

Shotgun
Everybody's got one
These days
Irate
Like I'm tryna erase
My fate

Post ride, I was feeling so high

Real love, in broken places
My home, or brand new faces
I tried to hold my place
As the whole thing built to a landslide

No wonder I couldn't see it
Needed to lose my place
Never thought that you'd miss
Built the whole thing up from a landslide

But a shotgun
Everybody's got one
These days
I raise the question
like it's common place
We might face retreating
Under dire stakes
I raise the question
Are these all mistakes?

I'm trying, my fate
I'm trying, my fate
I'm trying
I'm trying

Shotgun

Lyrics:

Sometimes
I'm streaming
Fine lines
I'm teething
Red lines

I'm gonna take me there, take me there

Post ride
I'm feeling 
so high
Releasing
My time

But I'm almost there, almost there

Shotgun
Everybody's got one
These days
Irate
Like I'm tryna
Erase 
My fate

Post ride, I'm feeling so high

Real ghosts
In solid places
Soldiers
Have many faces
I write
To hold my place

Is everyone feeling alright?

Don't know why, but I record it tonight

Just a cog in the machine for me
Shotgun blast
You take the pain I'll take the bullet
Remind me of the better days
Of love drunk punch, and sweet malaise
Remind me, when I hear you say
We signed a contract, and you paid!

Shotgun
Everybody's got one
These days
Irate
Like I'm tryna
Erase 
My fate

Post ride, I was feeling so high

Real love
In broken places
My home
Or brand new faces
I tried to hold my place
As the whole thing built to a landslide

No wonder
I couldn't see it
Needed 
To lose my place
Never thought that you'd miss
Built the whole thing up from a landslide

But a shotgun
Everybody's got one
These days
I raise the question
Like it's commonplace
We might face retreating
Under dire stakes
I raise the question
Are these all mistakes?

I'm trying, my fate
I'm trying, my fate
I'm trying

Shotgun (No Drum)

Shotgun (Original Recording)

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