The Spiritual Gangsta

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Get Down Or Lay Down, And If You Lay Down.....Stay Down.

Damn why am I so cold
I got so many friends but feel so alone
Damn, As I grow old
I feel farther away from having a home
Damn, I need a purpose
To avert this
Feeling that is reeling in my soul like a circus
Its   Goin around around and around 
Hurting my brain and heart until I fall down
And I cant get up, cause im stuck in a rut
'Seemingly a bore' is what I ignore with my gut
The emotional rape that I instigate
Is my destiny and part of my fate
I just cant accept that as fact so I look back
Tryin to define my mind and life into a  track
But I know I seek love, though I am above
That and everything else that I knew of
I Huff and puff and try to blow my wall down
This shit is too tough ill never be found
I wield the shield of no self respect
It’s the feel of that steel that keeps me in check
But maybe I protect myself too much for my own good
And what im doing is not what I should

I cannot believe I have this need for your love
I want all the things  I thought I was above
Im not sure why, but I gottta try
To figure out life with a partner by my side
I don’t want to be alone in this home
Broken, cold, and always stoned
Thinking what could have been, feeling the love behind the sin
Denying these feelings within

Can we escape… our own self hate?
Or appreciate that this might be fate?
This mindstate feels oh so great 
I wish I could make every date  a clean slate
But I cant go back. I wish I had
met you in a time when we wanted it bad
With no regrets, no past, no strife
Great sex, moving fast but the situations just right
And life will never sever or bust our trust
Knowing that life can be just a little too much
No rush, but our hearts wont hush
Always hoping were always open and this don’t turn to mush
Sharing our hells, sharing our cells, pulling our hearts down off the shelves
Blowin the dust off, peeling the rust off, im thinking with you I might love getting pissed off
im betting where im headin, with you I wont lose, cause I choose to confuse myself when I infuse thoughts of you and me being true to what we do knowing through and through 
that the other will be there to sacrifice and care
to lay our souls bare and always be aware
to lead each other to goals, filling holes in our souls
and yes sometimes we will be payin tolls
but alls fair in love and war
that’s what really lies at this core
but I feel you lady, it makes me want you more
please come to me baby no risk, no reward

No Risk, No Reward  (with lyrics)

I Am Building A Dream

Dont Trick Me

Written and recorded in the state of mind implied by the title of the song.  Take the implication as you will.

K-Holio

Phasers my man.....Phasers

Title says it all.  It is a parade.........of souls.  (looks at questioner awkwardly)

A Parade Of Souls

Its inspired by my youth and how easily I was able to believe in anything, no matter how stupid.  The mystery of life as a youth was always one with wonder and sometimes darkness, but it was always moving and embracing more than when the illusion wore off as I got older....or maybe the illusion wore on.

Impressionable Mind

This is the soundtrack to how my brain tends to operate. waves in and off.......or wax on......wax off.

The Swarming

People provided free sample packs, So I made a track then packed it together in a nice little snack.  Thank you and good night!

Sample Pack Lunch Snack

Call The Champion

Save The Suspense

Building Forward

I use this track to program my own brain to motivate and stay on the technological track so that I can become the best cyborg I can be.

I am Magically Motivated

This is the soundtrack to having sadness and then letting nanobots into your brain to restructure your psyche so as to have a more upbeat look on life and sending you on your way.   Enjoy

Emotional Nanobot Restructuring

I grew up playing drums.   I always leaned towards hip hop and metal music as a child and I like dance music now, but really i like music of all kinds.  Id say my music leans more to beats than dance music because Rap is my root.  I began playing with mixing software over 10 years ago and writing lyrics almost 20 year ago.  I never really consider myself much of a performer, but I do like making art.  I also work within a pirate radio community throughout Colorado and love to play underground and/or local tunes on our stations.  Much love!

   Musically, I tend to incorporate a lot of drum styles even in the melodies, and always find myself leaning towards, what I feel, are the darker elements in sound.  The mixture of that makes for fun and sometimes awkward music.  Lyrically, I do not tend to share a lot for lack of good vocal recording equipment and for the fact that it is my soul.  I don't write lyrics for anyone usually but myself and so bringing that to the forefront takes time.  Not to say I dont have some more ridiculous songs, but even those are a part of my soul.  I think any inner looking and in depth lyricist can understand.  Anyway, enjoy.  Share. love. hate. do or do not appreciate.  I just know I have to put my music somewhere.  Part of me wont let me hide it, so here it is.   Finally, I appreciate almost all music and those that know me locally, know I do love my community.  If we all take the extra time to love our communities, we can achieve a much greater standard of life and respect for ourselves, and each other.  Much love to you all in your own journeys.

Rocky Flats

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