lyrics:
take enough trazadone so you can sleep for 12 straight hours 
please don’t call, i’m kind of sick of the way your voice sounds right now 
you won’t hear from me, and im almost sure that’s what you wanted
so as for now, i’ll stand my ground and do what’s best for me

don’t act so proud 
that’s not what either of us needs right now 
you talk so loud 
but still manage to say nothing somehow 
don’t act so proud 
that’s not what either of us needs right now 
you talk so loud 
but still manage to say nothing somehow 

 i’ll take enough shots that i might be able to get some sleep tonight 
without you here it’s a little warmer, never how i thought it’d be 
wherever you are, love, i hope you’re finding yourself frozen
i hope you’re staring at your ceiling, i hope you’re missing me 

i’ll never tell you what you meant, it’s far too gone now 
you’ll never know how much you meant, and that’s prolly for the better now 

don’t act so proud 
that’s not what either of us needs right now 
you talk so loud 
but still manage to say nothing somehow 
don’t act so proud 
that’s not what either of us needs right now 
you talk so loud 
but still manage to say nothing somehow

1. too far gone

lyrics: 

you make me feel like i’m underwater 
drowning to the sound of your voice 
ask me if i thought that this was worth it but im too busy choking to understand the noise 

tell me that i’m wrong and that i’m imperfect 
tell me that i scare you and shake you to the bone 
i’m not sure i deserve this sometimes i just think that i’m better off alone 

and i will keep longing for you like a dog that’s chasing a rabbit 
and i’ll try to stop fucking around but i can’t seem to shake the habit 
the runs in my tights say enough, you’d never stick around 
and i’ll pray to anything listening to let me drown you out 

you can ask me if i know what i’m doing 
imply that it might be by mistake 
conscious willing action is not my strong suit 
i’m hoping you won’t notice that all of this is fake 

but other people are boring 
but you’re a car accident that i want to die in 
id rather bleed out than be alone 
say you’re going to bed soon, you can fall asleep angry and get us both nowhere 
the least that you could do was take me home 

push me away and then pull me back 
can we stop trying to talk right now 
when the silence starts eating me alive 
i’ll pretend i don’t notice, i’ll drown it all out 
you can call me if you feel alone 
but i don’t have the strength to lose a fight right now
you can take me, i could leave it and save all my energy by not having you around

2. tell me that i scare you

lyrics:

i can’t help but wonder 
does my name ever cross your mind?
does it leave a bad taste in your mouth 
from all of the hurt left behind

if i were to reach out
would my words find ears that’ll hear what i have to say 
if i were to touch you again 
after all this time would it even feel the same?

3. interlude

lyrics:

i’m only myself 
if i’m being used 
show me how to live 
separate from you 

get inside my head
sink into my chest 
break away the walls, 
do what you do best 


(chorus)
because i am alive 
only by your hand 
teach me how to lie 
make me understand 

consummate the doubt 
show me that i’m right
use your silver tongue 
show me the light 


as the year drags on, 
did you feel the change? 
the dying of the spark 
driving you away 

i know you tried your best 
but as you told me, once 
no matter all your efforts,
your best isn’t enough. 

because i am alive 
only by your hand 
teach me how to lie 
make me understand 

consummate the doubt 
show me that i’m wrong 
use your silver tongue 
so i feel like i belong

4. only by your hand

lyrics:

i still look for you in every single person i meet 
and i’m coming up empty handed 
my hands won’t stop shaking as i try to figure out how this is where we landed
i’ll bite my tongue for now, i’ll keep it still 
you can shove it down my throat because you never did, and you never will


if you reached out and asked if these songs are about you, i’d look in your face and i’d lie 
id fabricate a crueler love that could’ve done twice the damage between now and july 

i still look for you in every single person i meet, but i don’t want to find you 
every ounce of my efforts in moving on, but i guess i just don’t know how to
i don’t want to talk now. i don’t want to think about what’s still in my way 
but you’ll come back around in a month or two and prove that my plans never mattered anyways

if you reached out and asked if these songs are about you, i’d look in your face and i’d lie 
id fabricate a crueler love that could’ve done twice the damage between now and july 

and i miss you at midnight and i miss you at six am
you eat at me in the silence and you eat at me in the mayhem 
and i hate you in the sun and i hate you when it’s freezing 
and i ache for you in the nothingness, i ache in the fucking meaning 

and your mind is as fucked as your moms, 

if you reached out and asked if these songs are about you, i’d look in your face and i’d lie 
id fabricate a crueler love that managed to do twice the damage between now and july 

and i miss you at midnight and i miss you at six am
you eat at me in the silence and you eat at me in the mayhem 
and i hate you in the sun and i hate you when it’s freezing 
and i ache for you in the nothingness, i ache in the fucking meaning

5. forgiver

this is a single off forgiver, even now but i wanted to put it out because i love it and i want to share it 

lyrics:

you said that you would come back for me in a few months 
go ahead reap the benefits of my work
to keep yourself comfortable 

plant the false hope 
because you know me 
i’ll sit around until you get bored and lonely 

you know i’ll do anything that you want 
if it means that you’ll want me 

it was beautiful out when you left 
and i haven’t seen the sun since 
i could swallow my pride and forget 
look away without reverence 

you said that we both need to give it some time 
i’ll face the winter on my own 
stay away from the line 

use your harsh words 
because you know me 
when you get mean it just pulls me in slowly 

and you know i’ll do anything you want 
if it means that you want me 

it was midnight when you left 
and i’ve seen every midnight since 
i could sleep it all off and forget 
look away without reverence

reverence.

here's a little song i wrote, kinda different from my other stuff, hope y'all like it lol

An Idiot's Lament of a Failed Relationship (Demo)

just a little song i wrote about a shitty guy. hope ya like it

Dont Call Me When You Overdose (Demo)

this song makes me cry every time i play it lol

dont let it kill you. (demo)

i don’t love this song but it’s kinda catchy so here ya go

can you hear me now? (demo)

bite your tongue (demo)

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