this song plays thru my head over and over

From the other perspective 


im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want
thinking is sickening
so you think with your lungs

do you even want peace for yourself
look around you theres nobody else
they're all up above
think for yourself
till it all falls apart

till it all falls apart


im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want
im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want

im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want

guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im

think with your lungs

when you awake
i wont be there to give in
i take whats left of the day
sorry days
when i go away
i hope the memory stays
or will the memories fade
different day 
sorry days
ill be 
in a pool of your makeup
ill drown
when you awake
i wont be there to give in
i take whats left of the day
sorry days

sorry days

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

it set me free 
at least i think
what do you know?
theyre all just freaks
what did you wanna know
i see myself in me 
a couple tools 
thats all you need

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

you try and try again
and nothing seems to work
you push your age away
and then you ask 
why it fades away
decaying in the room that you were pushed into
its been years you seen the outside and you dont know

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed
i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

snarky

You Tell me what you believe in
I push it away
I won’t let you control me 
The Witches they laugh
Oh how I wish I were home
The things I couldnt hold 
I see you’re certain, well
You need a certain hell
To Decompose your mind I need to see it go inside
You know I try to learn
I tried to Make him breathe again
I try to learn
I tried to make him breathe again
It works out, it works out always
I fall for whatever you make
It always gets captured in frames
The Praxis you practice it fades
You know I try to learn
I tried to Make him breathe again
I try to learn
I tried to make him breathe again

soil

So I fall
Back in your steps
Ud Wake me up 
If you’d feel thin
Ill right your wrongs
And then they’ll fade
Ill win it back, Ill win it all
It gives me life
I controlled you
You’re giving up?
I can’t stop you
Your egregious
I dont forget
You made him up
It needs to go
You mean so much
He watched me rot
Ill burn with you (x4)
It gives me life
I controlled you
You’re giving up?
I can’t stop you

thin

januarytwentyninth, twentytwentytwo.
produced by anvii.

ur so stupid
u fell in love with someone
that u didnt even fuckin know
whats the use then?
u could talk to me for hours
and i wouldnt hear a word

id rather walk down this road
that ive found while drunk and high
thinking bout her
i dont give a fuck about him
i could kill him if i really wanted to
but id rather not

abstain

stream

​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

my heart it breaks at what cost
my heart it breaks at what lost - my hope is empty
i look at myself in the mirror
i cant be what you want me to be

you want it all and you tried
there is no reason no light
the passing hours the lost time
and there is every reason left 2 cry
i wish it wasnt so cold
i wish i felt a bit better
the seasons keeo changing
and i still feel bitter

day after day and year after year
nothing ever gonna change anyways
all i keep doin is wanderin around
and wonder why it stays the same

the world is more beautiful to me
than you could ever be
ive seen things you couldnt dream of -
like the colors dancing around me..

feeling frenzied by the emptiness that you leave
hearts dont shatter, theyre built to break

my heart it breaks at what cost
my heart it breaks at what lost - my hope is empty
i look at myself in the mirror
i cant be what you want me to be

prod saint mike

at what cost

@j6u for more archives!!

[Pre-Chorus]
Crying eyes
Disguised in a smile
Lying down
As if I don't appear as vile

[Chorus]
Break me
Use me
Not good for anything
Kill me
Use me
Take everything I have
Break me
Use me
Not good for anything
Kill me
Use me
Take everything I have

[Post-Chorus]
Crying eyes
Disguised in a smile
Lying down
As if I don't appear as vile

[Chorus]
Break me
Use me
Not good for anything
Kill me
Use me
Take everything I have
Break me
Use me
Not good for anything
Kill me
Use me
Take everything I have

quannnic - vile

a letter to myself, with @lo3rd
do you know how much time i spend
in my head yeah i think a lot
about what could've been
i feel the air and it's getting thin
i sit in the dark writing letters to my past
so much shit i'd change
so much shit that i'd do differently now
but i've changed and i've grown (x2)
i saw the past again in my dreams
theres nothing i would change
this feeling creeping in my back
will take me to my end
i saw u far from me (why would i change)
i wanna be like that again
im crying my mistakes (why would i change)
i wanna tell u, that im not ready to go again
(fly) fly away from me this time
(heal) heal the pain that u have caused
(cry) cry for me once again (its the only way)
the only way that you can pay
(the only way that u can pay... for the past)
why would i change the past?
why would i change my mind?
why would i change us?
why would i change my life?

instrumental by grayskies & me

streaming

a letter to myself, lo3rd

as the silence grows / wall

with austin van fox

wir passen perfekt zusammen
glaub nie etwas anderes

dark ++austin

not again - lovesage

@cureid

a man and a woman
are one
a man and a woman and a blackbird
are one

cypress ++cure id

(p. remghost, wstdyth)

I like to get hurt
And you just make it worse
I like finding needs
At least I'm fixing things
I like you and I
Only for a while
I like you and me
I like feeling things

I like to get hurt
And you just make it worse
I like finding needs
At least I'm fixing things
I like you and I
Only for a while
I like you and me
At least I'm feeling things
(I like feeling things)

I like to get hurt
And you just make it worse
I like finding needs
At least I'm fixing things
I like you and I
Only for a while
I like you and me
At least I'm feeling things
(I like feeling things)

needs (i like)

HACKING☆PARADISE
.

Written, produced & performed by:
Vi Ellis - https://soundcloud.com/v1xl3t
.

Dark Transfiguration

Interlude

rome

my friends:
@cureid
@k155xo
@elanseele, @archarcharch
@basrrr
@dawn111

dark ++austin

romec

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