Tri-Light (Zedd- Spectrum Mix) [- The Valley -] [FREE DOWNLOAD]

Tonight [free download]

This is a rap about my life with a background trap by EAProductions20. Enjoy.

Lyrics: 
Ive lived my whole life nearly convinced ive got nothing going on for me and holy shit im useless nevertheless, ive tried my hardest for myself, cuz i felt like i was lonely and i had nobody else
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Yeah, i had it good dont get me wrong, but what seemed like the whole world, it was nothing all along, in my head, i had a bed to sleep in that was it, thats much more than some could say, but to me it wasnt shit.
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Shit, when i was little i was hit, not the kind that builds a character, the kind that makes you spit up blood and little bruises teachers questions on the lot, but i always thought of ways to cover them up on the spot
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My dad loved me, ill always know he does, but mom and dad, they split long before i what that was and going back and forth from the good side of town out to the boons, but i liked it better there, i wasnt beaten up or bruised
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and mom loved me more than i could comprehend, she still keeps in contact just enough to keep that in my head, she tried but her and Ken were so damn caught up in their heads that her world went downhill too quickly for my "thank yous" to send
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Hear me out, id take my life to make hers work, but thats just it, whats life worth, i never could find the girth and the balls to realize that this whole thing was just a different way that i couldve been raised and im just who i am this way
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But i am, who i am, ill never understand, why i am who i am. Im the worst person that i could know, the best man at being unknown, i am the young who's grown, i am the young whos grown
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Back in 06, it started getting better, the clouds began to clear and i saw some better weather, never had hopes high cuz i was scared, young and wondering what other terrors that i should beware, 
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i was still little tryna learn, with a lot stuck on my mind and some memories to burn when i experienced my first time feeling like i could live, i was only nine years old, not much time but much to give
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I started making friends, just one or two, people thought i was the weird kid when i walked around he school, pointing fingers and calling names damn, it used to hurt, so i started throwing swings and making sure my fists could work
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Dad told me to settle down cuz i was getting in too much trouble the principal would call on a daily basis to tell him bout the newest shit i did, id say i didnt know better cuz i wasonly just a kid,
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That didnt stop them for poking at me more and when the bullying got heavy, little battles made a war and i was little, i didnt want the punishments they gave, so i took it and stopped opening my mouth, i was a slave,
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which is dark but honestly i turned into that type of guy, that does whatever you asked so you wouldnt cry i was scared that if i didnt somehow id end up inside the office listening to the call to my dad and asking why
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Please, just keep in mind that theres a backstory, i know you wouldnt hear it cuz it comes off kinda boring, a kid scarred in his youth to the point that he hides away, no responsibility but still suffering every day
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It's kinda funny, and crazy just to think that i was little once to, little to no hope on my way to a future where shit was gray and i never had time to play, i guess not everyone lives a life where youre sposed to celebrate



Memory (Why I Am Who I Am) - A rap about my life

This is the full version to the new and first track, Screwball, from the upcoming album The Architect. Enjoy!

Screwball {Full Song} [[The Architect]]

Worldwide [Demo]

Beyond {DEMO}

This is my first ever House project that I've completed officially!

Elevation {First Original House Complete}

Please Don't Go

Ripple {DEMO}

Down Under {DEMO}

Down Under [Original Deep Trance] {Please Dont Go EP}

Just a little late night rap about shit I went through as a kid.

Lyrics: 
I'm sick of hollerin' and sick of yelling back, only tryna' keep myself leveled theres' nothing wrong with that, 
Pushed til my visions black, wonderin' what time i have if my entire existence is wasted by the worth i have. 
Someone's gotta stand up, and someone's gotta say something, watch it take a million years but sooner or later 
I'm gonna get this through the worlds head, i hope before i turn dead, like all the kids half my age suffering through all the words fed 
Like cyanide, seeping through my skin til i'm convinced that i'm no better than the walls and the pillowcases i hit, 
But i'm sorry that i finally found my breath to tell you this, that ill never be your own personal punching bag again. 
Eighteen years that i'm forever healing, and that's a fact, a few hundred thousand apologies just to be exact. 
Why is that okay? What was going through your mind? Let me take a second here, let us both try to rewind, like:

I'm no better than you, i'm sorry i tried so hard for so long for nothing,
i don't know what to do, i'm sorry i tried so hard and for what, for nothing.

You told me i was just a bad kid, you were wrong, I was doing all the right things all along, 
You had my undying respect, its pathetic, how you took advantage of the fact that i didn't know better. 
Sure you broke my shit, a radio, a phone, but worst of all that's broken was the love i hadn't known. 
I never had a chance to quite experience a home that didn't feel as good as ever only when i was alone. 
I wanna take it back, i hate who I've become, but after all the shit i knew, i'm not the only one, 
I'm sorry dad i love you still and don't think that i ain't, but the faces that were smiling were covers for the hate. 
There's one more thing i wanna say, i hope this means a lot to you, cuz i'm willing to forgive all the suffering you put me through, 
It sounds a bit pathetic but as family that's what we do, i'm still here for you dad, you're still my dad and that is always true.

I'm no better than you, i'm sorry i tried so hard for so long for nothing,
i don't know what to do, i'm sorry i tried so hard and for what, for nothing.


Punching Bag {Original Anti-Abuse Rap}

Stressed {Rap}

I don't make much very often, and i try to post what i do get done. I like to mix and make music, i love it actually.. I am no master, but i do my best and enjoy my pieces. Thanks for liking/reposting/commenting and all the good stuff!

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