I drift for hours on end
And I drank alone again
is there a sign that luck could send
To somehow clear my head

It’s been happening a lot
I get too deep in my thoughts
And I think of all it’s not
And how the wound’s not worth the shot

But I’m through with being vacant
Can you meet me in the basement?
We’ll mourn all the time we wasted
You don’t love me, but just fake it

Happiness lives secondhand through friends
Though far removed from all my connections
Haven’t left my room these past few nights
I’m just holding on to the slightest of lights

But it’s all a blur
And our worlds will always be parallel 
And I’m not hurt
I just told myself things would all go swell
But now it’s getting late
And my vision is getting hazed
And I’ll never admit I’m wrong
And I’m sorry, but it’s just time I go now


There are more important things
That a future life would bring
But I’ll pawn the diamond rings
I just wanna feel something

Cause I’m through with being vacant 
But I don’t know how to be blatant
It’s a bigger mess I’m making 
You’ll never love me, but just fake it

it once burned bright, but now it strains my eyes
To die alone or void of compromise?
Haven’t left my room these past few nights
I’m just holding on to the slightest of lights

I’ll throw my nickels and my dimes
It won’t ever be worth my time
My life savings in wishing wells
To get us through personal hells
I’ll throw my nickels, throw my dimes 
It won’t ever be worth my time
I lost the game with my own rules
Thought I was the prince,
I’m just the fool

go now

I'd bite my tongue on what hell's serving
Just for a taste of what I've been yearning
I've tried it all, but it's not working
But it's okay, at least I'm learning

I haven't learned anything
I haven't learned anything
I haven't learned anything
I haven't learned anything

And I don't wanna know
Just wanna be left alone
Let it rain over my drought
Synthetic thrills in which I'm doused
Isn't that what it's about?
Let's all pretend that nothing's worth it in the end

So what have you learned?
What have you learned?
That nothing's worth it in the end

I'm staying in, I'm not going
What it will be ain't worth knowing
I fear the world that I'm avoiding
Swallow my pride 'til I'm choking

I haven't learned anything


Haven't you heard?
Oh, haven't you heard?
Misery's got a new postergirl!
Haven't you heard?
Oh, haven't you heard?
I'm misery's new postergirl!

I haven't learned anything
I haven't learned anything
I haven't learned anything
I haven't learned anything

And I don't wanna know
Just wanna be left alone
Let it rain over my drought
Synthetic thrills in which I'm doused
Isn't that what it's about?
Let's all pretend that nothing's worth it in the end

So what have you learned?
I haven't learned anything
What have you learned?
I haven't learned anything
And nothing's worth it in the end

What Have You Learned?

i’m gonna throw a block party
for the neighbors to complain 
look i’m sorry for the noise
really didn’t have a choice
it’s my block party

i’m gonna throw a pity party
i want all my fake friends to dance
i know they have other plans
and they wouldn’t understand 
but it’s my pity party

ill shout it from the rooftops 
to make this fucking pain stop
oh so now you’re switching lanes 
should’ve known something changed
but i don’t feel bad about it
do you? i highly doubt it
theres no way i could’ve stopped it
you’re still invited 

i’m gonna throw a sick house party
i wont know anyone there
i don’t really think they’ll care
if they are even aware that it’s my sick house party

i’m gonna go fucking crazy
i’m gonna bathe in my own tears
i should really face my fears
i wish to hold them all so dear
instead of going crazy

and it’s never the same
But it’s always the same thing
you’re still invited 
you’re still invited

block party

i know what you're going through
it's ominous, i feel it too
i'm your 8 am commute
i'd stick around, but what's the use?

who were you to call it off? 
could call it on, but at what cost?
read your signs and i was lost
but it's kinda all that i've got
you were kinda all that i've got
and plus!
i wasn't looking for that much

but i'll be good i swear 
i'll have bad ideas
for both of us to share
just to keep you near
i'll be good i swear 
i'll swallow down hard pills
with liquor and despair
and anything unclear

cause i don't like who i am when i'm off it
i do it sometimes, but not often
i do it sometimes, but not often 
but sometimes is never enough
no, sometimes is never enough

the portraits of bliss i drew
embellished me and cropped out you
was fucked for what i saw in you
and you're fucked not to follow through
but it's not like i lost a friend
i just cut off all my dead ends
understood the signs you sent
realized it was all in my head
realized you were all in my head
and plus!
i wasn't looking for that much

but i'll be good i swear 
i'll have bad ideas
for both of us to share
just to keep you near
i'll be good i swear 
i'll swallow down hard pills
with liquor and despair
and everything i fear

but if you need me, then i'll be 
getting stoned in the alley
you'd fit in there perfectly 
but, you choose to walk it blindly
i fear the life you have outside of me
the tinted windows hide the blasphemy
yet, i saw you as godly
but, that was the old me

sometimes is never enough

i can say what you want to hear
but that don’t change how you’re nowhere near
and I’m not mad about our fate
just need something to occupy the space

cause I can’t help but sink this low
tired of being alone
it’s been a while since I’ve let this go, but I’m void of any sign of hope
i’ll play this song while watching stars
sleeping through the false alarms
but they just don’t shine bright
I just need another night

but it doesn’t mean a thing
it doesn’t mean a thing 
it doesn’t mean a thing 
cause we were never anything
we were never anything
we were never anything
we were never anything

i reassured myself
that I don’t need anyone else
but now I know myself too damn well
my only friend in my personal hell

but I know the summer never lasts
every year’s a mirror of the past
and nothing ever goes as planned
would it kill to understand 
that ill play this song while watching stars
but these troubled thoughts are doing me harm
and they just don’t shine bright
if there even is a light

but it doesn’t mean a thing
it doesn’t mean a thing
it doesn’t mean a thing
cause we were never anything
we were never anything 
we were never anything

and this is how it is
this is how it’s gotta be
this is how things were always meant to be
oh this is how it is
this is how it’ll always be
it’s how I deserve things to be

but still!
i can’t help but sink this low 
tired of being alone 
it’s been a while since I’ve let this go, but I’m void of any sign of hope
i’ll play this song while watching stars, but these troubled thoughts are doing me harm
and they just don’t shine bright
if there even is a light

but it doesn’t mean a thing
cause we were never anything
and we’ll never be anything

roxanne izzo

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