All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 05/2016

Running Out Of Time

Somewhere I'm Not Wrong (Alternative)

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 08/2016
Took the ending of "Marianna" and put it here because I think it fits here better.

Small

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 08/2016

Lyrics:

I want to hide
I want to escape

No one knows I'm faking it

Please help me
See through me
Expose me
Take me down

There is no one waiting for me
There is nothing inside of me

The Imposter

All music. lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon, 08/2016

Lyrics:

Nothing is ever changing
I fear this weight just behind my neck
The boundaries are fake
I'm slipping forwards, never coming back

And I will never be enough for anyone
I put the scales on my eyes
This mask is not my real face
I don't remember what it looks like

Leverage
A different face, not a different person
I have nothing to offer you
I have nothing to offer
I will not erase
Leaving streaks of emptiness
Like marks on a blackened body
I will drown out in the noise
Whitewashed

This face is not the face I feel I should have

Whitewashed

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 08/2016

Lyrics:

Something is stirring just below the surface
I have been breaking for such a long time
Why did this happen again?

But I will not falter
And I will not fail to hate myself
And you were the one
But you never wanted me
And I have no right to redemption

This heavy shadow drowns me everywhere
I cannot speak - that doesn't matter
Why did this happen again?

No Redemption

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 09/2016

Lyrics:

This world doesn't want me
I think I feel the same
I cannot tear down this wall
I cannot go on
Everything I do is wrong
I cannot go on

Just outside of this bubble
That's where life begins
In here there's no living
Only me

This town is my home
But I don't belong here
I cannot go on

The Shadow Inside

I Cannot Go On

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon, 10/2016

Lyrics:

A sudden feeling as I walk outside
A certain weakness of the sunlight

Whichever way this battle goes
What I call 'me' will always be the losing side

Internal shadows casting doubt on me
The lack of freedom the only certainty

No release, no escape
It's over, it's over

The Losing Side

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 10/2016

Lyrics:

Are you fucking kidding me? The bomb fell years ago!
No one knows or no one cares, we go on with the show.
Are you fucking kidding me? There's no sincerity.
The last honest man is born again into prosperity.

So we lie and we cheat and we hate and repeat:
"No one knows where the truth has gone."
We lie and we cheat and we hate and repeat:
"No one knows where the truth has gone, it's gone away for good."

Are you fucking kidding me? It's not that hard to get:
The game is rigged, the jury bought, the stage has long been set.
Are you fucking kidding me? Your choice is not your own.
Truth inc. is controlling it through what is and isn't shown.

Are You Fucking Kidding Me

All music and lyrics by Ruben du Pon 07/2013

I'm Not Happy To See You (I've Got A Gun In My Pocket)

All music lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 10-2018

Goodbye

All music lyrics and performance by No Hope 10-2018

No Hope - Mantra

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 12/2018

Talking Over Me

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon 01/2019

Lyrics:

Turn around
Spinning sideways
Leaky shadows
Thick as tar
Jump and fall
No relation
Cheesy plotlines
Full of holes

Tell a lie
Fall apart
Keep pretending
Don't get caught
Shattered glass
Feel the mirror
Twist and turn
Break a leg

There is no escape
Prepare yourself tonight

Game Over

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon, 04/2019

Come on down, break apart
I've resignated from the start
Feel the lies, feel the stain
I'm not trying when there's nothing to gain

I was always the problem but now I'm no more
I've been feeling unworthy but now I'm not sure
Take it all, take it all, take this self-loathing nature and shut it off
I was always the problem but now I'm no more

Hush, hush

Stepping up, find a voice
Don't be discouraged when it's just noise
Ignore that sound when you fall:
"I'm a filthy animal"

I was always the problem but now I'm no more
I've been feeling unworthy but now I'm not sure
Take it all, take it all, take this self-loathing nature and shut it off
I was always the problem but now I'm done

Hush Hush

All music and lyrics by Ruben du Pon 04-2019

She falls down and doesn't know how to get up
He comes running, but he can't stop
Her tears. She says "the bitterness it flows.
The darkness in my heart, besides you, darling, no one knows."

He lies down and he holds her in his arms.
He says "Honey, I'll switch off your alarms."
And then he puts his lips on hers,
Their misery subsides as everything outside them blurs.

Even in the darkest weather -
Even in the blackest storm -
The lovers stay together;
The lovers stay strong.

Even in the darkest weather -
Even in the blackest storm -
The lovers stay together;
The lovers stay strong

And pretend there's nothing wrong.
They pretend there's nothing wrong.

Even in the darkest weather -
Even in the blackest storm -
The lovers stay together;
The lovers stay strong.

The Lovers

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon, 05/2019

I've been dreaming of all the rest of this
Useless fairy-tales, guess that's all there is

Now she's gone, on the run
All alone, on the run

I'm in solitude, lacking goal or plan
Such ineptitude, falling down again

Now she's gone, one the run
She's alone, on the run

Keep it aggravated, unsubstantiated
Keep it complicated and exacerbated

On the run, on the run

On The Run

All music, lyrics and performance by Ruben du Pon, 07/2020

Little Bird

All music and performance by Ruben du Pon, 07/2020

Say Their Names

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