the german word for despair is ‚verzweiflung‘ which has the word ‘zweifel’ (=doubt) at its core. this means that despair literally translates as ‘lost/entangled/caught up in doubts.’

etymologically, this can be explained by the loss of hope for improvement, i.e., doubt that something bad could turn out well in the foreseeable future.

one could philosophize at length about doubts. I guess this has already been done in heaps. especially since, beyond the torment of perceived hopelessness, doubts also have absolutely positive aspects. they are an essential part of intelligence and wisdom. just as their absence clearly indicates stupidity and arrogance (#dunning-kruger). so being smart always means agonizing over the question of whether you are actually smart.

apropos agonizing, a relatively tolerable form of despair undoubtedly goes hand in hand with the conflict between the desire for individual freedom and interpersonal bonds. can I translate that as the “have-your-cake-and-eat-it-too-dilemma”?

fortunately, I/we personally never had a problem with this, because I/we never experienced or felt our relationship as conflict of freedom and commitment. however, looking at the course of relationships in our son's generation, I get the feeling that there is a lot of turmoil at work. relationship stress and divorces all over the place. that fits with my album topic! 

here’s a song I wrote about 20 years ago with just the first line of the chorus and later released as a semi-instrumental on sc ages ago. now lyrics have been added (translation hopefully not too wordily phrased) – and with them vocals based on my guitar templates, where suno once again acted extremely annoying. the machine repeatedly tends to slip into hackneyed vocal patterns and that means having to start completely from scratch…

©music and lyrics by Hans-Michael Albers, instrumental cover & vocal performance by suno 5

I reach for your arms, but I dream of the sky
I ache for your touch, yet I can’t comply
You whisper ‘home,’ and I drift away
Each time I linger, I lose my way

My heart’s confined while my thoughts run free 
Two fractured souls coexist in me
One craves the flame, one longs for the breeze 
I’m love’s own patient, undone by its disease

As much I love you, I feel the blues
The more I hold you, the more I lose

It’s a holy war, a graceful crime
To beg for forever yet plead for time 
You’re my redemption, my sweet undoing 
Every path I take leads back to you

There’s no victory in a game like this
Where freedom and love can’t coexist 
To live is to lose, to stay is to die 
So, I fade to ash beneath your sky

As much I love you, I feel the blues
The more I hold you, the more I lose
As deep I feel you, I lose my ground
As near I find you, you can’t be found

As long I chase you, the more I fade
As much I trust you, the more I’m afraid
As much I need you, I pay the dues
As much I love you, I feel the blues

As much I love you

Shoulda Woulda Coulda - Jaehyun Doyoung Taeil

[DOYOUNG]

Yeogin eodilkka gunggeum haejwo

Jommeodubji anha ? bureulkyeobulke switch !     



[JAEHYUN]

Saekgwa geu tongro ddo dareun chance

I mireoui kkeuteul nawagatji gabeollae



[TAEIL]

neomodo neomodo  kkeuji eobneun sail

Deo meorodo meorodo dahgo sipeun place oh no

dahgo sipeun place





Jeogi meolli gallimgili kkeuteun mwoga boilka

yeogi noh-in geollimdoreul neomeo gamyeon boilka

Cheoeum dahneun gachin siseon majeo gibunhi joha

jeogi meolli kkumkkun kkumi jeomjeom gakkawojyeoga



Maghin gilli eongkin gilli nareul mag hasondaedo

Geuryeoganeun chaewoganeun kkumeun namaneujido

Cheoeum boneun natseon siseonmajeo gibunhi joha

Jeogi meolli boin kkeutji jeomjeom gakkawojyeoga





[DOYOUNG]

uri baro jigeum i sungan



[JAEHYUN]

Jeomjeom geu saegi ddo muldeureo ganeunjung

Neomu eoryoeun geon geudaero pass



[DOYOUNG]

Gakkawojil geoya hamkkeramyeon neon



[TAEIL]

Maeil neomodo neomodo  kkeuji eobneun sail

Deo meorodo meorodo dahgo sipeun place oh no

dahgo sipeun place



Jeogi meolli gallimgili kkeuteun mwoga boilka

yeogi noh-in geollimdoreul neomeo gamyeon boilka

Cheoeum dahneun gachin siseon majeo gibunhi joha

jeogi meolli kkumkkun kkumi jeomjeom gakkawojyeoga



Maghin gilli eongkin gilli nareul mag hasondaedo

Geuryeoganeun chaewoganeun kkumeun namaneujido

Cheoeum boneun natseon siseonmajeo gibunhi joha

Jeogi meolli boin kkeutji jeomjeom gakkawojyeoga

    

Maghin gilli eongkin gilli nareul mag hasondaedo

Geuryeoganeun chaewoganeun kkumeun namaneujido

Cheoeum boneun natseon siseonmajeo gibunhi joha

Jeogi meolli boin kkeutji jeomjeom gakkawojyeoga


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Everything is possible. Here in my dream.

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NCT’s dreams are connected like branches on a tree. 
NCT의 꿈은 나무의 가지처럼 연결되어있다

'My Dream'

And magical moments unfold. 
그리고 마법과도 같은 순간들이 펼쳐진다

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