BBY WHERE  (Prod.by Pulse Tan)

Blacking Out Cold (Prod. g0necry)

Please Don't (prod. isolated)

You (Distortion)

I
Cried all night when I closed my eyes and I can't deny, I wanted to die
Held you tight, and I asked myself why, why, why is it that I wanted to die?
Cannot take the pain and, all of this raining, all of the pain that you left me inside
Couldn't take the truth, all I wanted was you
You were cruel, you left me to die

I don't know why I, I don't know why I, I don't know why I wanted to die
I could touch the sky, I could touch the sky
And I asked myself why, I asked myself why, I let myself cry
Wanted to be warm, wanted to be warm
I didn't want to know her, ended up torn I was always gone

God, I was never the one
One
I
I

Sitting here and cry, I, Ask myself why
I know that, I no longer want to die
But I, ask myself why did I let it all go?
When I didn't give myself no time to grow

I don't wanna die no more
I don't wanna die no more

I don't wanna die no more
I don't wanna feel your pain
I don't wanna burn in the rain
I don't wanna go insane

I don't wanna feel no pain
I don't wanna burn in the rain
I'm trying not to go
Insane

I don't wanna die no more

Insane - Ruby Elizia

Find Joy
Find Pride
Find Peace
Find Hope
In everything I do

I close my eyes sometimes at night
And then I think of you
When oceans purple
Yeh you manage to turn the sky
Blue

Then everything is strange
And I try to hold onto hope
I hear your voice
I hear your words
And then I start to choke
Because this love is painful yeh
It's like a stick and poke

I don't want to see you leave
But all I can do is let myself bleed
I don't want to see you go
But all I can do is pour out this hope

There's no lights on anymore
We closed it, You shut the door
You know I can't feel a thing
And oh how this love can bring my heart
Home

Oh
When will my heart come home?

Mmmhmm

Mhmmm

Find Joy
Find Pride
Find Peace
Find Hope
In everything I do

I close my eyes, sometimes at night
And then I think of you
When oceans purple
Yeh you manage to still manage to turn the sky
Blue

Then everything is strange
And I try to hold onto hope
I hear your voice
I hear your words
And then I start to choke
Because love is painful
And this one feels like a stick and poke

You poke a hole in my heart
And then I start to pour
Start to pour love
Where do I call home
When I start to fall in love?

Voicenote73 - Ruby Elizia

I find it hard to process what you did to me,
I find it hard to process what you did to me.
Bleeding in the sink,
I find it hard to look myself in the mirror when I, scream
I wish I was not the once that got burnt,
But that's how the story goes
I wish I was not mentally disturbed
I wish I was cold
If I could take back time,
Then I would call you mine
But I don't wanna suffer all over again
I guess this is all is just pain in the end

I'm a broken doll
I'm a broken doll

Play me like a puppeteer,
Cos I have no place to go
See you standing over there,
Knowing what you've done
I wish I could, I could say
That I was having fun

I wish I could, I could say
You're just anyone

I'm a broken doll
I'm a broken doll
Yeh it took its toll
I'm a broken doll

I'm a broken doll
I'm a broken doll

Yeh it took its toll
Won't you hold me,
Oh

Broken, Doll - Ruby Elizia

I wish I'd have known who you were, before I really knew who you were
Didn't think that you would fuck other girls
Didn't think that I was, not really your world
I didn't think that you'd lied to me

Until you went and fucking lied to me that week
When you did all your drugs
Went and fucked her in the club, thought I wouldn't find out
I found out one month later

That's when I realized that you're such a hater
Told all your little friends and not me
Now you're trying to claim that you love me
Well, you went and took everything from me

All you ever did was use me and abuse me
I guess it's my fault
I guess that's just ended up being my type font
I really wanted you to understand me

But you would always have other plans, see
Yeh you were always out getting high with your friends
That's why I went and lost in the end

You lied to me
You lied to me
You lied to me
That's why
You lied to me

I didn't think that you'd lie to me
Until you went and fucking lied to me
That week when you did all your drugs
Went and fucked her in the club
I didn't think that you'd lie to me
Until you went and fucking lied to me that week

When you did all your drugs
Fucked her in the club

You had it all figured out in your mind
You had it all figured out, you'd leave me behind

I
I

Didn't think that you'd lie to me
You'd lie to me
You'd cry to me
That's why
You'd lie to me
You'd lie to me
You'd cry to me

I didn't think that you'd lie to me

Until you went and fucking lied to me that week
When you did all your drugs

Went and fucked her in the club

I found out one month later
That's when I realized that you're such a hater
Told all your little friends and not me
Now you're trying to claim that you love me
Well you went and took everything from me
All you ever did was use me, and abuse me
All you ever did was use me, and abuse me

Lie to Me - Ruby Elizia

Hmm

I don't wanna be depressed, no more
All this stress that's in my head gotta close that door
I don't wanna miss him, he's just a whore
I don't wanna miss him
I was so depressed in my head
Always stressed
It's a mess
Wanted to be the best
All this stress, lost some weight
Now it's grey
I'm a mess (wreck) I'm a
Train wreck
Wanna be skinnier, prettier
Fit in with the mold, with the curve
What the fuck do I deserve?
Wanna take over the world
Wanna be your baby girl
But I ain't
Even feminine
I'm in my masculine energy
Trying to take the pain away from me
I protect myself so that I don't let the demons in
The demon being him
Protect myself so that I don't let the demons in
The demon being him

It used to be me and him
Me and Him
Me and Him

Now I can't let the demons in
Demons in
The demon being him

I protect myself from the mirror that I shattered
Cause the glass is sharp and my blood almost splattered (might just splatter)
And I wanna know, if I even really matter
Cause it's tragic how my hips never get any fatter, but?

But I still want someone to hold them
Hold them
I still want someone to tell me it'll be okay
I don't have no one to hold me
Hold me
I don't have nobody
To take this pain away

Stay another day
I'm trying to heal this pain

Lost Point - Ruby Elizia

Only 22

Only 22
I cannot stop hurting
Wonder why it is
That you did me dirty

Only 22
I cannot stop hurting
I don't want to
Be alone at thirty

Wish you knew me better
Wish you'd remembered me
Wish I'd kept that sweater
I threw it in the bin

Wish I could remember
How it felt to be me
But everything got scary
I can't stand falling

Sometimes I see you in my reflection
I wait for you to give me direction
I wish I could erase the memories of us
So I look to the stars above

Only 22
I cannot stop hurting
I don't wanna be
All alone at thirty

Only 22
I cannot stop hurting
Wonder why it is
That you did me dirty

Only 22
I cannot stop hurting
I don't wanna be
All alone at thirty

Only 22
I cannot stop hurting
Wonder why it is
That you did me dirty

Only 22 - Ruby Elizia

Hello?
I'm scared
Nooooo
One,two,three,four

Now that you're gone, again
Now that you're gone, I can't let go
Now that you're gone again
Now that you're gone, I can't let go

I saw you there
You looked away from me
And you hid your stare
Couldn't stay away from me

I can feel you there
Said that you'd be there for me
But you never were
No, you never were

Like a ghost to me
You let go of me
It's so cold to me
I can't fucking breathe

Feel it in my heart
Knew it from the start
You tore me apart
You tore me apart

Now that you're gone again
Now that you're gone, I can't let go
Now that you're gone again
Now that you're gone, I can't let go

Now that you're gone again
Now that you're gone, I can't let go

Now that you're gone again
Now that you're gone, I can't let go

Again

Now that you're gone, again
Now that you're gone, I can't let go

Now That You're Gone (Again) - Ruby Elizia

Need your help, help

Don't play me you're only gonna play yourself
I don't need your help
Say you wanna play me
You only play yourself
Say you wanna play me?

Don't play me, you're only gonna play yourself
Running out of problems, I don't need your help
Say you wanna play me?
You only played yourself

Don't play me, you're only gonna play yourself
Running out of problems, I don't need your help
Why you wanna hate me?
You only hate your
Self

Called yourself a friend
I could see it through your tears
I was running to the end
I was running through my fears

Thought I trusted you
Until you tried to break us apart
But you were never that true
Yeh I saw it from the start

I've been happier now
And you live to regret it
All the pain you put in my head
Felt like a knife when you said it
I just wanted a friend
I thought that I would know you until the end
I just wanted a friend

Don't play me, you're only gonna play yourself
Running out of problems, I don't need your help
Say you wanna play me?
You only played yourself

Don't play me, you're only gonna play yourself
Running out of problems, I don't need your help
Why you wanna hate me?
You only hate your
Self

You only hate yourself
I tried to help you
You only hate yourself
So what are you gonna do?
You only hate yourself
I'm trying to help you

You only hate yourself

Don't Play Me - Slowed + Reverb - Ruby Elizia

Lie to Me - Slowed + Reverb - Ruby Elizia

Only 22 - Slowed + Reverb - Ruby Elizia

Now That You're Gone (Again) - Slowed + Reverb - Ruby Elizia

Enjoy my first song <3 
featuring Xorochi xo

Blue Sweater- rubyjuicey x Xorochi (Prod. Riddiman)

Liminal space:a physical/physiological/psychological transition zone. The  uncertain area between your starting point and your destination.

Ruby Elizia

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