July 20

Church Girls - Separated

you and i
we were so naive
us against time
setting out to the sea

wish i knew what i was thinking back then
acting so careless
floating around in my own head
memories feeling too taboo
with those kisses in the silence
and the poems that were written for

you and I
we were so naive 
maybe you’ll wait around for me
us against time
setting out to the sea

you and i
we were so naive 
maybe you’ll wait around for me
us against time
setting out to the sea

just wait for a second
for all my transgressions
to settle down to aggression
i know that you get the message

we always thought that this wouldn’t end
but when i hear your name now
it feels just like the life i left
it’s funny how i’ll still think about you
with those kisses in the silence
and the poems that were written for

you and i
we were so naive 
maybe you’ll wait around for me
us against time
setting out to the sea 
maybe you’ll wait around for me

you and i
we were so naive
maybe you’ll wait around for me
us against time
setting out to the sea 
maybe you’ll wait around for me

you & i

frenemy

from our first album in four years, "Birthday", arriving on March 23rd. 

It was right, it was right off the phone 
You were right, right on the nose again
I call you show to any zipcode
Look alive you look a lot like home
Other night, when you spent up all my dough
I pay you back, give me the weekend

Fell into a system but it’s honest after all
Maybe you fix up my ride but you’re the one who scratched the wall

Love it when you call me James
You know I’ll answer just the same
Even though it’s not my name
Still fits a special kind of way

Nevermind, so happy I could lie
To you this time just like the last one
And you don’t have to worry
Don’t leave in a hurry
Take my coat, you know

Heart is warm but eyes are cold
Not so young we’re not so old

Birthday

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James (So Happy)

Riddles n Cigarettes

Description:
Broken Protocol is a reckoning based on my life experiences. Each track exposes the hunger to steal light, the calculated rituals of emotional theft, and the devastating realization that what felt like love was never real. This album documents the cycle—love bombing, gaslighting, ghosting—repeated not by accident, but by design. It’s the story of being chosen only to be drained, of grieving a relationship that never existed, and of finally naming the abuse for what it is: a sinister ploy to destroy. These songs bring it to the light, with no apology and no return.

I Don’t Belong to Your Spell

It’s that ache in your chest that never quite goes away — when you look at someone and feel so much, yet can’t find the courage to say it. You replay every glance, every laugh, every little moment, wondering if they feel it too.

Your heart beats louder when they’re near, but your fear whispers louder still. You want to tell them how they make you feel safe, how they light something inside you that no one else ever could… but what if they don’t see you the same way? What if saying it changes everything?

Still, deep down, there’s this quiet truth — that love should never be buried out of fear. You start to realize that it’s better to speak from the heart and risk it all, than to live with “what if.”

It’s the kind of feeling that makes your soul tremble — because you know, even if they don’t love you back, at least they’ll finally know how real it was for you.

And in that honesty, there’s freedom.
A soft kind of bravery.
The moment your heart finally breathes.

Because sometimes, the truest love isn’t just being loved in return…
It’s having the courage to love out loud. 💫


If You Love Someone, Tell Them

Jaded

formerly known as Tae
instagram: rubydoll.mp3
contact: sabrina@beanmgmt.com

Jaded

Ruby Doll

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