collab with jointroller </3
@urlblunts

im tired of this feeling
that i keep to myself
i'll sweep it under the rug
just like everything else

making up a reason
or another excuse
but ill just keep to myself
because it's so overused

maybe there's a reason
why im always on edge
and why i stay up at night
there's something under my bed

counting off the times
when there's nothing to do
we'll use it as an excuse
to practice drug abuse

...

tired of this feeling
that i keep to myself
sweep it under the rug
just like everything else

making up a reason
or another excuse
but ill just keep to myself
because it's so overused

tired of this feeling
that i keep to myself
sweep it under the rug
just like everything else

making up a reason
or another excuse
but ill just keep to myself
because it's so overused

maybe there's a reason
why im always on edge
and why i stay up at night
there's something under my bed

counting off the times
when there's nothing to do
we'll use it as an excuse
to practice drug abuse

drug abuse (demo collab w/ jointroller)

ayee its my bday :D

Song On Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2W5OEYvBagbOE3vjuWAICM?si=9dc84b69804142f3

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Lyrics:
Is it wrong just to say that you hate me?
Am I right to still wanna say baby?
All the times that you wanted to save me
All the things that I thought about lately
Am I going fast?
Going slow?
What do I know?
Where'd you go?
I don't think I wanna die no more

I don't wanna talk about how all the things you do
Make me wanna be close to you
Is it fine to just say the truth?
(That I)
I can't be with you
I don't know what to do
Tryna make a move

Is it wrong just to say that you hate me?
Am I right to still wanna say baby?
All the times that you wanted to save me
All the things that I thought about lately
Am I going fast?
Going slow?
What do I know?
Where'd you go?
I don't think I wanna die no more

I don't wanna talk about how all the things you do
Make me wanna be close to you
Is it fine to just say the truth?
(That I)
I can't be with you
I don't know what to do
Tryna make a move

I don't know what to do
Can we change the mood? 
Is what you said the truth?
Is it Me or you?
Can we just go find the things that are complicated
Tryna find the options that are waiting
Is it wrong just to say that you hate me?
Am I right to still wanna say baby?
All the times that you wanted to save me
All the things that I thought about lately

Me or U

Me or U (prod. ok mallii)

@re6ce
prod. grayskies
https://ffm.to/heartatt4ck

lyrics:
Talking for hours
Losing our minds over the phone
Walking in place
Like we don't know where to go
Still don't know where to go
Lay me to rest
Talk over me
Don't breathe in my sleep
Don't sleep till 3
And still wake at 4

I'm falling for you
Please don't let me go
You don't know me
Like you think you know

If you're obsessed now
Say it with your chest so I know
You've been running your mouth
You're testing me I hope you know
I hope you know

Talking for hours
Losing our minds over the phone
Walking in place
Like we don't know where to go
Still don't know where to go
Lay me to rest
Talk over me
Don't breathe in my sleep
Don't sleep till 3
And still wake at 4

I'm falling for you
Please don't let me go
You don't know me
Like you think you know

If you're obsessed now
Say it with your chest so I know
So I know
You've been running your mouth
You're testing me I hope you know
I hope you know

Talking for hours
Losing our minds over the phone
Walking in place
Like we don't know where to go
Still don't know where to go
Lay me to rest
Talk over me
Don't breathe in my sleep
Don't sleep till 3
And still wake at 4

heart attack w/ re6ce

@jayya1k

(killnord)
you look so bad i’m into you 
i wish you felt the same i do 
don’t need that much, i’ll wait for you
i can’t escape the way you move
it’s not about me, it’s all about you
can’t reach your heart, is it bullet proof?
i fucking hate you yes i do
i just can’t stand the way you 
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care

(jayya)
you know i hate when you lie to me
but i can’t overlook it girl you know that’s the pride in me
it’s been this way for weeks so it comes no surprise to me 
i shut myself off once again and deal with it privately 
i hate the way you always get what u want 
always put up a front 
i’m so tired of all the fighting can we just make up
i’m so tired of all the fighting i think we need to break up 
it’s been way too long

(killnord)
i swear you look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care

spotify

so bad feat. jayya (okayjml)

produced by aftrr and @prod_pk
featuring @scrufff

on my timberlake shit ion got no suit n tie
she think that im taken baby its just u and i
in the rari laneswitch, double doors it suicide
all these hoes they basic ion gotta decide

what u really want from me, i want u to decide
roll another collard green, dont worry bout no other guy
she dont wanna talk to me, on my page she stalkin me
new day new memory, if it aint bout money dont talk to-

like

new mercedes drop the top
that girl hate me she get blocked
double cup sip ciroc
i aint messin wit no thot, oh
copy me just stop, woah
trappin out the tahoe
see me up now they wanna follow

<scruff verse >


it seem impossible but i been ona mission
philosophical, her words, it gimme wisdom
bankroll, money talk, ur pockets fiction
baby come to me, u know u dont miss him

on my timberlake shit ion got no suit n tie
she think that im taken baby its just u and i
in the rari laneswitch, double doors it suicide
all these hoes they basic ion gotta decide

what u really want from me, i want u to decide
roll another collard green, dont worry bout no other guy
she dont wanna talk to me, on my page she stalkin me
new day new memory, if it aint bout money dont-

like

new mercedes drop the top
that girl hate me she get blocked
double cup sip ciroc
i aint messin wit no thot, oh
copy me just stop, woah
trappin out the tahoe
see me up now they wanna follow

yeah walked in, im the man of the room
look at me i look at her now she askin what it do
but i cant pay no mind, waste my time, sorry if im rude
but she know she still mine, still treat her right, cuz i aint like that dude

tryna talk down on my name but know nothing abt me
think im goin insane im off the gas so loudly
brodie bring that paint in case that boy he wanna doubt me
off the gas sleepin soundly, off a perc my head pounding

SPOTIFY !

suit n tie w/ scruff

@traxee

*You know i wanna be ur MAIN

Rawr

valentines day W/ TRAXEE !!!!!!!

spot of sunlight

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/corefish/sos   

I need a spot of sunlight
To get a- away from life 
I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again

Fried out of my mind get it over easy
True story I run see me on the TV
In a month I'll be out of the rut
Rust covered and lust filled
Calling your bluff

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost
And you're the talk of the town in my mind
When you look my way
You split my taste in the mood
And when I take it the conflict rise
I'll just fake my life 
Fore I lose my faith in the ruse

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

You and I are out of luck we're at a standstill
Guess I'm a diamond in the rough whenever going gets to tough
Cause I just roll with the punches, throw a stone in a bucket
No my tone isn't fine but I just won't get to bluffing
I guess I'm a dope fiend and I'm waiting for nothing
I got no self esteem when I'm calling you lovely
You need a hotel somewhere else combing the cusp
It wasn't noble when you're fucking causing a ruckus

Cause if it's better than me 
I'll sever tether to breathe 
New sweater, trendsetter
Back on to the leash 
I need a spot of sunlight 
To get a- away from life 

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost

@t1gerstar
@poisonedcheeto

remix: https://soundcloud.com/luvkurtis/spiral-mxjia-remix

[kurtis]
yeah yeah
the circles spinnin 
it goes round inside my head
yeah youre the only one im needin tonight

im tryna plan out my escape 
im so stuck inside a loop
i do the same shit everyday

i been fightin for a minute cant u help me 
cause baby how im fuckin livin isnt healthy
i dont rly mind i know one dat that ima die
so baby wont u come around im drinkin till i hit the ground

yeah
no i wont stop im takin rounds
smoke a bong and lemme rest
im tryna drown out sounds

drown out sounds yeah
im bein told to kill myself
these thoughts will be the death of me yeah
i need to down another pill

stop wait a minute open up and look around
boy wont u stop wait a minute 
u did this shit all by yourself 
boy wont you stop

exaggerating 
tried to hide and masquerade it
boy can u stop
the fuckin drinkin 
my body feels its slowly sinkin

again and again
no i wont stop keep playin pretend 
and again
and again
no i wont make it out again
yeahhh im

[tigerstar]
pickin parts of my own mind
bury me when im alive
baby how could i survive 
the enemies up in my mind

never meant to make u cry
i tried to hide out in the night
i been fightin with myself
but only one comes out alive

[tigerstar + kurtis]
i been fightin for a minute cant u help me 
cause baby how im fuckin livin isnt healthy
i dont rly mind i know one dat that ima die
so baby wont u come around im drinkin till i hit the ground

[tigerstar]
Drink yourself into a spiral
Succumbing to the cycle
No use tryna fight, it's something i cant fix
Something about it got violent

Ever since it got quiet it gets filled more noises
As your voice sighs and every single whisper cuts so deep 
Disrupts my sleep, makes me sweat cus you're seething again
Can't get through the night unless I pretend

Once I'm in your bed I don't really mean it
Before I hit the ground and finally black out
Was there ever a light to this meaningless place?
I guess i'll try to fucking drink it away
But I dont need it, I don't need it

pickin parts of my own mind
bury me when im alive
baby how could i survive 
the enemies up in my mind

never meant to make u cry
i tried to hide out in the night
i been fightin with myself
but only one comes out alive

[tigerstar + kurtis]
i been fightin for a minute cant u help me 
cause baby how im fuckin livin isnt healthy
i dont rly mind i know one dat that ima die
so baby wont u come around im drinkin till i hit the ground

<3

SPOTIFY

spiral ft. tigerstar (simon m)

Get back 
I don’t want nobody who could make me feel like that 
“Don’t Call”
In your contacts 
You left your prescriptions 
Now you’re coming over, a contradiction 
But really we not new to it 

Last time you was telling me I talk to much about it 
Now you’re telling me to say sum’n?
If it’s not a problem 
You gon make one 
Tryna start it over
Selling page one 

Not coming back
Funny as hell
Hoping you enjoy yourself 
Now you outside screaming 
I don’t need your help
Now you outside 
Hoping you not lost without it 

Baby I don’t wanna be your lover
You don’t really want no love 
Tryna work it out I doubt it 
You not showing out enough 
All we do is, screaming, shouting 
Baby have we danced enough?
You can see it all surrounding 
I just had to beat your punch 

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

and I could sit around 
But I’m better than you told me
It ain’t a problem being lonely 
I tow the line with myself 
And cut the ties with you 
I ain’t walking back to this hell 

I was lying whichu 
Told me I’m a bastard
That’s how you felt 
You say you hate getting mad and baby
We couldn’t tell 
You telling me I’m the problem really
You shouldn’t yell
Preeing ya hands at the table baby
That’s show and tell

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

savory (KBL)

prod me
episode 5
@letmebeyourhelper
Art by monkeyDGERLUFFY

el toro 🎸 (feat. helper)

prod by: admiin 
recorded, written, mixed and mastered by me

lyrics: 

I heard there’s visitors coming around tonight 
Guess I’m gonna hide
Lock myself inside always confined
Keep inside the box don’t think outside 
Dont think outside 
And I don’t wanna get out of here
Confronting you is my biggest fear
Lock myself inside always confined
Can I make myself crystal clear 
I push away the ones I hold dear
Lock myself inside always confined 

And I’ve been staring at these walls for way too long
I know this place too well
Yet, I don’t want to leave 
Cause if I do I’ll feel inclined to talk to you 
And I know, I 
Can never meet the expectations that you set on me, so high 
There’s a tough decision left for me to make 
Don’t need you to tell me, I know that its make or break 
(Its make or break) 

I heard there’s visitors coming around tonight 
Guess I’m gonna hide
Lock myself inside always confined
Keep inside the box don’t think outside 
Dont think outside 
And I don’t wanna get out of here
Confronting you is my biggest fear
Lock myself inside always confined
Can I make myself crystal clear 
I push away the ones I hold dear
Lock myself inside always confined

Have a good day/night ty <3

confined (admiin)

<what are you thinking about?>
<nothing.>
<wanna know what im thinking about?>

the walls are closing in on me again
i cannot leave
so if i suck up all the oxygen
can they still breathe?

if it’s all in my head
then why am i stuck again?
living life through a screen,
hold conversations through threads
hypochondriac at best
so could you please check my vitals?

pray for cardiac arrest
so i’ll be dead on arrival 

<youre angry at everyone
I know you have a lot to be angry about.
but keeping it to yourself and being quiet, like you're doing,
its not going to help you> 

way too often i find myself
in situations i could do without
i’ll sedate myself to handle going out
now i wish i didn’t come, i need to shut my mouth
(i need to shut my mouth)
why i did leave my house?
(why did i leave my house?)

i suck to be around

so if it’s all in my head
then why am i still in bed?
self induced lucid dreams,
and leaving my friends on read
isolated at rest,
i’m hoping this time it’s final.

pray for cardiac arrest
so i’ll be dead on arrival!

(so i’ll be dead on arrival!)
(so i’ll be dead on arrival!)

if it’s all in my head!
if it’s all in my head!
if it’s all in my head!

(so i’ll be dead on arrival!)

in my head!
in my head! 
in my head!
in my head! 

so i’ll be dead on arrival.

<there's pain underneath, that's where our work needs to go.
what is it about society that disappoints you so much?>

<oh I don't know.
feels like all our heroes are counterfeit.
the world itself, just one big hoax.
spamming each other with our burning commentary bullshit,
masquerading as insight.
we wanna be sedated.
because its painful not to pretend.
because were cowards.
fuck society.>

dead on arrival (prod. capsized)

eyes wide shut

prod. whitecxffin x lava

lyrics:

just want to escape this fucking pain
just want someone to show an ounce of change
nothing ever seems to go my way
fight it in this bottle of endless drink
failing everything, cant you see that?
fill my cup until i can see black

EVERYTHING HURTING ME NOW
OCD RUNS SO DEEP IN ME CANT YOU FUCKING SEE?
CUT MYSELF JUST TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT ME
DROWN MY SORROWS IN THIS BOTTLE 
JUST WANTED TO FEEL ALRIGHT
YOU WENT SO FAR
LETHARGIC EMBELLISHED OBJECTS
I PUT MY SOUL IN THIS
I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU

2much + @whitecxffin

song !

i just wanna see the stars with you 
maybe i could go to mars with you
but this shit is so heart breaking 
surrounded by love but my hearts aching

i just wanna feel your fuckin touch 
anything to feel some fuckin lovin
over and over and over again 
surrounded by thoughts your the one i depend on 

its getting so hard to breathe 
i remember your name like constantly 
ill say it a couple times i think it sounds nice
do anything to get you on my mind

and baby
this shit is getting a lil bit too much 
you been stuck home alone 
you told me come over 
but i just wanna be left alone 
im fillin my body with anything just to pass some time
oh ive been fillin my body with anything just to pass some time 

i just wanna see the stars with you 
maybe i could go to mars with you
but this shit is so heart breaking 
surrounded by love but my hearts aching

i just wanna feel your fuckin touch 
anything to feel some fuckin lovin
over and over and over again 
surrounded by thoughts your the one i depend on 

yeah im so dependent 
baby i really just wanna end it 
and i really thought that we had it locked down
i guess its my fault for keeping you around this
and baby i feel so surrounded 
all my thought yeah they are so clouded 
my blood is pouring out just like a fountain 
in my mind yeah its so fuckin crowded

baku in the mist ft. DEVIANT (Prod. DEVIANT)

amv by Heishi

neverlasting

Im sorry we have to fight, i'm sorry i'm such a screw up all the time. I love you though and I promise I never mean to hurt you. Thank you for being with me, I wont leave, I promise...

High quality download: 
https://van1sh.bandcamp.com/track/each-time-you-forgive-me-i-fear-it-will-be-the-last

Hope you guys enjoy <3

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Each time you forgive me I fear it will be the last...

sample: childish gambino - 3005 (parkinson white flip)

ib @sadwrist

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/17QCJgtEcHojCgMHu0jpbv?si=0dgioqQ9SrmQ5jb13GyIgA

stream

you're like snow, beautiful but cold

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Lyrics
------------------------------------------------------
(Robstar)
And she said that she's breakin' down tonight
Baby if I'm there I would hold you tight
And I know I can never ever make things right
But baby let me wipe the tears from your lil' sad eyes

And you're deservin' better than a guy like me
Tellin' her I love her when I'm on my knees
And we're staying together only in my dreams
But this is a nightmare, please don't leave
And I don't wanna fight this no more
Screamin' that I love you 'till I'm on the floor
Baby if you leave don't close the door
I don't wanna hear you cry, cry no more

(Heylog)
stay
im lonely
crave
u want me
babe
im crying
hey
i hate me
i rip all my heart out of my chest again
go ahead take it dont mind u crushing it
but pretty soon ill need it back again
but she teasing me im not a fan of it
oh man im crying now im pissed again
im still learning how to calm my temper less
this fire finna burn out from my chest
i dont know how to talk and im sick of it

(Robstar)
And she said that she's breakin' down tonight
Baby if I'm there I would hold you tight
And I know I can never ever make things right
But baby let me wipe the tears from your lil' sad eyes

#2

worlddestroyedwithmyself