Between/Apart

that strange feeling.mp3

you walked out of the room
without a word
crossed arms and dampened cheeks
you came across a beach
and suddenly you wanted to fall asleep

was this ever what you wanted?
to run from lies?
compete with other peoples' words?
just to prove them wrong

but you only stared at the sea
wishing it would wash your pasts away
but it's nothing like that
it was nothing like that
it was nothing like that...
was it ever what you wanted?

you walked out of the room
you came across the sea
without a word
was it all worth it in the end?
you wanted that?
you wanted.. you wanted
you wanted.. hey yeah eh yeah

it's only been 4 years since i last saw you go

What You Wanted

This is, in fact, my very first sound uploaded on my soundcloud. Out of nothing, I felt like singing this old particular song and recorded it on one take. So bear the mistakes if there is any. 

Amie (Cover)

My very first own song.. COMPLETED.. after all of my other scraps of songs that's never been completed, ever. 

Making this song was a fun-fun because, as in the song, I depicted myself as a bungling lout but has this strong yet true affection for this lovely girl who he finds difficult to approach. Although much showed the same from the frolicky girl, she insists that their love would rather be lost in each other which leaves them twirling around searching for one another. This is indeed the love she wants it to be and, as for the clumsy dude, he simply goes with the flow happily.. even if it means running through love-grasses pricking his trousers.

Lyrics:
dear, you're gone.
where did you go now?
out in the fields now?
aren't you such an adventurous one.

cause dear, i'm lost.
among these dizzy routes
don't know which way to go.
i'm such a lousy scout.

so just shout out my name
cause this isn't the same maze

these prairies don't seem to adjust
to the way how we both can trust the sun
no matter the worst, these sprouts will still burst
in the months we'll get to have fun.

all I see is grass
aside from all these insects
i never knew their stings can hurt that bad
even though i apply with some herbs
that i can find

yeah, i stand on this rock.
to see if there is any luck.
but to no avail, i see 
none other than more
grassland, no ponytail.

it's getting late
this is probably insane

these prairies don't seem to adjust
to the way how we both can trust the sun
no matter the worst, these sprouts will still burst
in the months we'll get to have fun

what tomorrow brings, i can forever think.
about what we can do for the rest of our living.
no matter the worst, these sprouts will still burst 
in the years we'll go through,
even an eternity will do.
A lifetime to be with you.

All I See Is Grass

A short song made about one's perspective of another who's lost in confidence and self-awareness. Nothing so deep really. Though just a pint from myself but rather conceal it with some wordy words. Enjoy!

Lyrics:

Lander, you went too far.
Landed on some place plain and dark 
and now you're begging for home

Not a lot on your whereabouts,
your radar snapped, then your sparks
are turning south.
and now you're walking alone

beside the cold.
icy tides gave shivers.
and let your fingers froze.
it holds your only hope,
so now let out the..

fire and startle the sea in you
let ripples across the horizontal view
violent and wild, your inner fire.
shoot it up, shoot it up across the sky.

Lander, you went too far.
Landed on some place plain and dark
and now you're begging for home.

Lander

Here's me, sharing another song that took me just during the time when my head decides to overflow with words (about what, 23 mins?). I just 'wanted' to sing it out. Yep. It's this few....
Nah, I was simply entertaining myself with the tune and them wordy words.

lyrics:

"make a sound," they say.
the same mayday.
when no-one came
for the rain.
it's cold to stay.
it's wrong to say.
but hey. everything became

so grey, so grey.
so grey, so grey.

dilly dally around,
sleeping on the ground,
making no sense to
what we all do.
it's wrong to stay.
it's cold to say.
but hey, everything went 

so great,  so great
we were so great.
so great.

At Least

One of my instrumental tracks made back in the carefree days of 2010. Back when I was so experimental and frivolous. So.. stress-less as you can say.

The year gave its best and we, the people around and myself, reached out to our greatest selves all through the hardships we tackled and went through. As for myself knowing the introverted youngling I was, and still am, I've had so much highlights, both good and bad, throughout the year. It's incredible that all that were had in just within a span of one year. 364 days, yet it felt so quick. I miss those days forever and always. 

This instrumental one was recorded with my laptop's mic and Windows Sound Recorder program (believe it or not). I've nailed this arrangement so great, I don't think I'll ever get back that kind of luck again. So there I share you my sound (above)

rudiryde