raw. loss hurts but it isn’t the end of any of you, stay up guys <3

edit: she heard this song lmao

all your fault | prod. frevel x 5head

dreamgirl✨ (freestyle) | prod. tennis player

Astray (feat. wintrrz)

falling away

#ots | what’s up guys!
p. idly blare

lyrics
i don’t wanna be that guy 
but i wanna see you
(i wanna see you)
babe i wanna see you
(please let me see you)
i wonder if she misses me
yea i think so

hope u miss me

night away | prod.sorry

we'll be fine - (emotegi talent show cover)

(prod. Shingan) | single off upcoming album :0, stay tuned! #ots

thank u @bawanfr for the feat

could be me ft. BaWaNfr

first album, real feelings and thoughts on it. hope u enjoy | all producers in the description, thank u guys if u see this project #ots

better days ahead ft. otscamo

love like ours

(prod. everestdidthis) w marr | #ots

his sc: https://soundcloud.com/m_ar8

feeling like / staring at the moon ft. marr!

never give up! #ots https://soundcloud.com/m_ar8 | prod. warheart

Heart Stop! w/ m@rr!

(thislandis x taylor morgan) | #ots
I’m ruining relationships they put up in the dirt 
they done told me that I’m changing and I’m changing for the worse
I don’t wanna be like this nomore so put me in a hearse 
And the people that I’m round dey care but I don’t so they hurt
I wanna be an icon
Let by gones be by gones 
I wanna be the right one 
Please let me be the right one 
I feel I stray from my God
Please save me oh, My God
I’m such a fucking hypocrite 
how the fuck I’m asking “why God”
aye 
im still thinking bout you
im still thinking bout you
im still thinking bout you 
aye 
and im such a fckin fool 2x
Got me questioning my love, did I mean it
im still trying to find my worth it’s depleting 
I dont wanna need your love but im feinding
I ju let myself get lost and left you bleeding

icon

(thislandis x jolst) | #ots ft. @m_ar8
ruedvxn - hop in the whip and the bitches all bad
bouta cop a stick with a 50 round mag
fly head to toe, and the fit all black yea
tryna have fun but im in my head
been have had a couple hoes in my bed 
can’t go out sad but they just not you
can’t open up cuz these niggas all laugh 
try to help me out I just turn out mad
not waking up just to be all sad yea
do I regret it? yes a tad
aye its ruedvxn lil bitch im the man
wanna go back they jus not you

marr - Baby they just not you 
I'm trying not to double back back 
Baby I been missing you 
Don't ask what I see in you
At the end baby I just want to be with you 
Don't pretend you don't need me like I'm needing you
Smoking loud out the pound, harder seeing you 
Don't ask what I see in you
Cause I'm seeing you 
Baby I hope that we make it we gon see it through
Baby I hope that we make girl just me and you 
Girl for you it's not a lot of things I wouldn't do
All you do is trip, I don't need all that 
Tryna get rich I just need these racks 
Give you all my love but I don't get it back

just not you ft. m@rr!

(jolst) | #ots ft. @imjustxl
ruedvxn - time to face my fear
i thought i would be easy, now youre not here
this shit a fucking bad dream it cannot be real
but i done dealt the damage baby how u feel?
it feel like i been crying crocodile tears
cuz how u feel this way like dv whats the deal?
'fraid to quit the act but soon my shell gon peel
cant take my heart no more cuz bitch aint shit to steal

imjustxl - Ever since I lost you, I lost my mind
Things ain’t been the same, guess it takes some time (yeah)
I hate when they check up, no, I’m not fine
Every second of the day, swear I feel like dyin’
So I’m patching my pain with my clothes
I feel good cuz I’m putting it on
Yeah, i’m living a rockstar life, Rolling Stone 
Yeah, she wanna play with my mind till it’s gone
All of these niggas be fake to me, don’t even text me, just leave me alone
Yeah, bitch I’m so up, I can’t pipe down 
She wanna blow up my phone 
If you wanna be with me, then just let me know 
Huh, she wanna sing all my songs, don’t even write em’, we don’t do the poems
They hit me up, I ignore em
It ain’t not a thing to these niggas I owe

crocodile tears ft. imjustxl

(thislandis x sneezii) | #ots 
i dont wanna find love 
cuz my heart hurt, it made my heart burn
see what it did to me?
im too scared to find love
im in a love hearse, maybe my hearts cursed
some twisted fantasy
little secret: i lie when you ask if im fine 
baby i lie
you wouldnt get it 
you wouldnt get me 2x

hard to say right now i wouldnt fall again
already messed it up baby cant make amends
i cant tell my self wed be better as friends
cuz i hurt you bae i hurt you 
its hard to want u back but i dont want you to go 
but you did right then you hit the road
im at fault imma go thru this alone, oh 

you wouldnt get me 2x

wouldnt get me

(prod. thislandis x jolst) | #ots ft. @otscamo
otscamo - Say u love me
Say u want me
Say we got trust
I don’t say too much in case we fall out of love
I don’t want you to pretend you love me
Don’t want you to turn around and judge me
'Cause it can get ugly, it get ugly
All alone in my headspace
It get ugly, it get ugly
So I, run away, so I run away

ruedvxn - they claim they really know me
i know they aint my bros please
stop claiming that u my homie, not my homie 
i dont wan think about failing 
but its on my mind 
my mind thinks about loss
i got not answer why  
my mind thinks about loss
but i wont run and hide

otscamo - 'Cause it can get ugly, it get ugly
All alone in my headspace
It get ugly, it get ugly
So I, run away, so I run away
I’m gone, I’m gone
I work so hard, see me as a icon
I hope I go far, and they all see me as a star
But I know it’s hard
(I know, I know)

ruedvxn - they claim they really know me
i know they aint my bros please
stop claiming that u my homie, not my homie 
i dont wan think about failing 
but its on my mind 
my mind thinks about loss
i got not answer why  
my mind thinks about loss
but i wont run and hide

pretend u know me ft. otscamo

 (frevel x nihil) | #ots
just another day by
If you leaving not so fast jus let me say bye
I broke your heart it was my fault I let our love die
But if you change your heart I wonder if I’ll change mine
just another day by
if you leaving at least let me go apologize
i was broken, im more broken shit i wonder why
But if you change your heart I wonder if I’ll change mine

treating you like you a goddess
is what I said when I was honest
aye dv if im being honest 
not losing your mind, man you lost it 
I wonder why I didn’t stop there
i know i work hard but it’s not fair 
but why don’t we change up the topic 
but why don’t we change up the topic 
all of em lied you do not care 
why don’t you just get outta my hair 
Got Chrome on my body wit moncler 
lock on my heart it say beware
i wanna win, i cannot share
don’t wanna drown i just need air 
pain is to much how can i bare
patch it all up when my heart tear

im blind theres blood in my eyes
frozen, broken, they wonder why 2x

i cant fake it im not ok 2x


change my heart

(guda) | #ots
will it actually be ok? (repeated)
i made a promise to myself

will it actually be ok? [interlude]

(irby) | #ots
yea yea 
i cant fake it
times not ony my side 
like it once was
someone tell me that is wasnt all wasted
i cant move im not alive 
should i face it?
if this my life then i dont got the guts to face it 
i cant lie, im losing my mind
will i make it? just wanna make it 

ive got scars on my body 2x

scared to look in the future, to embarrassed to look in the past, no one to save me, God forgive me.

scars on my body (times not on my side)

(mof x itschrismarek) | #ots
so tired set me free 
don’t know why 
im here set me free
i know what i can’t breath 
take me back, set me free
i cried my eyes out i can’t see
pain i pushed got back to me
poured my heart out now i bleed
it was supposed to be you and me 

cause i can’t want you back, but i really don’t want you to leave
but because of my actions, imma sit here and watch your heart bleed
i am a walking contradiction 
i know in my heart i can’t fix this 
promised ill stay strong but im vulnerable 
And I dished out the hurt but im still on the floor

set me free

(idly blare) | #ots
time after time 
i reflect on the past 
what was I thinking? 
rhyme after rhyme 
i done vented it all
don’t change my feelings yea
jus take me back 
wouldn’t do it at all
avoid what I’m feeling, yea
can’t masquerade 
im not ok 
i don’t wan feel this



cant masquerade

(prod. m0nty beats) - movie sample: the holiday | #ots
hard holiday season for me :/  it isn't over yet though right?

lyrics:
I don’t wanna be alone this Christmas 
she’s the only thing that’s on my wishlist 
want the spirit but half mines missing
bae im sorry yea I should’ve listened 
by myself, up under the mistletoe 
snow outside my hearts gone freezing cold
fake my smile raw emotions go down below 
dying inside ma please let me come home

it’s cold outside, im stuck, im freezing 
Wrap your love in a gift I need it 
another year pass im still home alone 
Find my comfort in your arms: my weakness?

Deepest wound in the snow im bleeding 
in my head when i sleep im dreaming 
i woke up where’s my love im leaning
missed your touch dis Christmas evening 

last Christmas bae you had my heart
and the very next year i tore yours apart 
im sorry

outro - please let me come home, merry Christmas.. i miss you, merry Christmas.

christmas without you

(thislandis x taylor morgan) | #ots

ruedvxn:
[my heart is breaking, feel my heart is breaking]
forgive my thinking this, just isnt what it used to be 
did work inside my brain but baby im still hurting
i went somewhere and found some help i hope its working
anything to stop my bleeding heart from burning
im so tired of being patient, im so tired love my hearts vacant 
anything to stop my bleeding heart from needing love
i been stuck here for some days and bae i need your touch
i cant fix it everything i try is not enough
theres no way that we are fucking done 

m@rr!:
im so sorry ive been hurting
girl i need your love that for certain
i shouldnt have done it in the first place
yea, hurt me what you said that aint hurt me

ruedvxn + m@rr!:
forgive my thinking this, just isnt what it used to be 
did work inside my brain but baby im still hurting
i went somewhere and found some help i hope its working
anything to stop my bleeding heart from burning

imjustxl!
yea i used to be down now im up
yea i used to be sad but im up now 
yea i know they'll always hate dont give a fuck now 
yea i know they'll always hate dont give a fuck now 
yea im watching time pass as im getting richer
yea she got a fat ass but the titties bigger
i know these niggas aint wit me man my heart burn
i know these bitches just using me man my heart heart
take my hand, and hold me tight
bae i feel my heart is swollen it dont feel right
baby i need you
baby we aint trying nothing please stay in my life

ruedvxn:
forgive my thinking this, just isnt what it used to be 
did work inside my brain but baby im still hurting
i went somewhere and found some help i hope its working
anything to stop my bleeding heart from burning

m@rr!:
im so sorry ive been hurting
girl i need your love that for certain
i shouldnt have done it in the first place
yea, hurt me what you said that aint hurt me

ruedvxn + m@rr!:
forgive my thinking this, just isnt what it used to be 
did work inside my brain but baby im still hurting
i went somewhere and found some help i hope its working
anything to stop my bleeding heart from burning

Used To Be! ft. m@rr! + imjustxl

prod. jolst x thislandis | #ots

Lyrics: 
i need to take a break so bad my thoughts need leveling 
I don’t know why I messed it up girl you are heaven sent
I didn’t meant to do it now i look malevolent
want to get rid of this shit i need some medicine 
but if I take ill OD OD
man i get so lonely lonely 
Girl you was my only only 
Don’t look back just hold me closely
If I take ill OD OD
man i get so lonely lonely 
Girl you was my only only 
Don’t look back just hold me closely

imma get it rather do this shit the harder way 
Infiltrated yea you broke inside a part of me
It’s ok cuz I’ve been balling penny hardaway
Yea you know what’s in my brain like nigga hardly

Betta watch to back cuz all this grass is full of snakes 
Bouta ask my self if I got what if fucking takes
Bouta fucking crash I just wish you’d have hit the breaks 
I’m so sorry I made a mistake 

(Repeat Chorus)

Overdose!

prod. jolst x shinju ft. m@rr! | #ots

Lyrics:
Already know that pain so why I feel temptation?
So much time done passed but I’m still feeling pain yea
OTS the crew them niggas never hated
Picky hoes I’m picking girl you not my main yea
Wan take medicine to ease up all the pain yea
wait wait why, why the fuck I don’t wan face it 
Yea yea I wish I could just erase it don’t got a heart no more my flesh is fucking tainted

Tainted! ft. m@rr!

prod. thislandis x metlast | #ots

Lyrics: 
Gotta go gotta go bitch I gotta go 
Said you wasn’t ready, baby what u stopping for?
Made my way my work was all done in vein yea 
Feel that pain yea you can’t feel my pain yea
Bae u kno id take that fucking blame for u
OTS if niggas try id let it fucking bang for dem
NO TS, if they ain’t gng ion wanna fucking hang wit em
People lie so dv dolo know im not gon change for them

Full rooms so fuckin lonely
wanna hear me listen closely
voices say go cop the op
But if I take I’m gonna od off the opiates 
change my life im gonna win imma show you what a trophy is 
and when i win dont try to slide ain’t nun of yall associates
Lock me in im making pape my pockets full they copious 
and when I win my gang we hit we buildin our utopias 
I’m not gon take I’m not gon od off the opiates

change my life im gonna win imma show you what a trophy is 
and when i win dont try to slide ain’t nun of yall associates
Lock me in im making pape my pockets full they copious 
and when I win my gang we hit we build our own utopias 

(Repeat Chorus)

prod.metlast x fonkyfake x luffy | #ots

Lyrics:
said you love me but you don’t just know I hate that
cheap thrills can’t enthrall or I’ll be fuckin faded
u can’t feel my pain im done im the most hated
I fucked it all up thinking that I fucking made it 
tryna deal with this shit i need pills don’t lace it
live in hell inside my head what I created
went for help just to ease the pain vacate it 
thought I won but I lost perceptions jaded

I fucking lied to you if I could go back I would
The question lies behind my eyes don’t think it should 
Cant explain myself I’m still misunderstood 
Like man I rue the world i thought I was doing good 

Before we met I know I really didn’t need you
but as the time went on I think I start to need you 
I think I wan go back but I done did the deed too
I cannot free you don’t got the choice to free you
you said you mad at me for what I did like me too
wouldn’t make that choice again like I jus wanna redo
you sure you want this bae, you might wan go to review 
fell in love and fucked it girl I think I need you 
ran it back with others but they just can’t be you
I worked so hard for us i didn’t wanna leave you
i did that to my self it’s like i ripped my heart out 
i know im better for it babymeet me right now 

(Repeat Chorus)

ruedvxn ⭒

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