had ts on my alt but i want it to get rec so im uploading on here

@skyyurii
@nesxs
-
i dont know
what I stand for
i just want somebody
i can care for
got my soul
runnin circles
but thats sure
what im here for
you only here when
i say its too late
so much hatred
cause i took the bait
all this hatred
just turns to rage
all this rage
just turned to weight
weight on my soul
on my heart
weight on my love
for you
you just wanna break me
you cant break me
i can break you now
(uh oh)
i been on my own
for hel-la long
on my own
for hella long

love for you [skyyurii x nesxs]

Prod @shineghoulie
#AmorEterno

And love is hard
You know that I’m scared
I grip my chest
Know you hurt me there
And it’s so unfair
Cause my feelings are real
But you know, and I know
Yeah I know

360 and days
Hurts me in every way
Always feel dismay
Rotting in my grave
360 and days
Still can’t forget your name
Still holding onto pain
(Yet you know, and I know)
Still holding onto pain
(Yeah I know)

Yesteryearr (2K15)

prod @injuryxo n @intellectualarrogance

; fuck you for changing 
, im changing the way i feel 
; cant decide, it dont feel right, it cant feel right 
; what do i do with you, what feels right to you 
; cant reside with you, wasnt this feeling? - 
; - from chasing love, chasing love, im done chasing love, chasing love.

background vocals - "i dont want to fallout tonight"

fallout, p fuse ambi ⛆ #transcendmusiʞ

mix n mastered by me

make your own lyrics :)

prod zavi

it sucks (zavi)

@shineghoulie
lyrics:
i miss self harm i wont lie to you
you dont know how bad i want to fall back
if i hang  up shawty you wont call back
Same shit,  wont change, what you call that?
too much doubt in my head, i know you mean shit
make out, then i bite, its so seamless
i wouldnt think bad if ian ever seen it
i wouldnt worry if ian ever seen that
  try to grow, and thats all that i can hope for
i know  its hard but ill be real, you gotta show more
sometimes im doin good,  then i cant go forth
and sometimes i see your cracks like you aint so sure
if you really feel  sumn then you should tell me
it should be natural, i cant ask you to help me
fuckin war in my head, ian healthy
god strike me if its fake,  dont compel me

Ghoulie - Belieff 211 #Sv211 (prod harle)

prod @shineghoulie mix by me

lyrics ~
u always tryna be me
i do shit u cant believe
u always talk behind my back
but u wont say shit to me
u wanna step to me
ill break in ur air stream
u say that u be getting play
that shit is make believe
i be on my own shit
u bitches fake to me
i up that pole if he wanna talk down
2nd degree
i be on my own shit
staying focused
he say that he wan go band for band
but he a broke bitch
i dont have a heart
so i dont show emotion
im so fucking pessimistic
my whole world is fucking broken
been losing my patience
but yet im still walking
i try my best to go crazy
or else im living for nothing

pessimistic (prod ghoulie)

produced by me and @injuryxo
mixed by me and @mizusaiko
https://www.instagram.com/kxwzah
lyrics
we can make it
How long have I waited
I need your patience

Tell me can you break me
How much can I take from you
I don’t know how you feel about me
My heart running races
for you I will take it
my mind will erase it
is this how you really see me are you just faking
i think about you when im dreaming
in love with your voice so addictive so deceiving
when you were too caught up chasing lust you failed to see it
i cant take this heartbreak its too much i feel defeated
dont need it

Sweet ⊹ Dreams 자다 ⸝⸝⸝⸝ Prod Fuse ⟡ Kowzah 🌑

Hell Canto

On 7.10.23, Palestinian forces, led by Hamas, broke down the fence separating the Gaza Strip from Israel and unleashed a savage day of slaughter and kidnapping that ended with 1,195 dead on the Israeli side and 251 taken as hostages. The Israeli response was just as savage but much longer lasting and much, much more devastating. It resulted (at the time of writing) in around  72,525 direct deaths (70,525 - most likely, many more - Palestinians, approximately 80% non combatants, and 2,109 Israelis, largely soldiers) in Gaza, as well as at least 171,000 Palestinians injured, compounded by a genocidal policy of starvation and destruction of civil order. A response that has lain waste to most of Gaza and accelerated the expansion of illegal settlements in the West Bank - where there have been 1,012 Palestinian deaths caused by Israeli settlers and the IDF since October ’23. The Gaza Health Ministry does not include those who have died from preventable disease, malnutrition and other consequences of the war. There have also been many deaths and injured in Lebanon, Syria, Iran and Yemen.

The horrors of the Unholy Land felt near at home, and like the invasion of Ukraine, pushed me to give some kind of personal response - however pointless and inadequate - beyond following and sharing news and commentaries. Already far into Luna rising, a text and electronica album about Ukraine and Russia, I didn't feel capable of responding with texts so I embarked on a wordless album called Hell Canto, a term I’d coined years ago as a gentle provocation - a name for a vocal aesthetic antithetical to bel canto, and which has some of its roots in the vocal experiences of Alfred Wolfsohn during WW1.

The parameters are the same for each of the pieces, each made as sound poetry via comprovisation derived from vocal improvisations and electronic manipulations. In November '25, having recorded 50 pieces, I stopped adding more - also the fragile, frequently ignored October '25 ceasefire was remaining in place though in practice ‘ceasefire’ has been a bad joke, with no sign of real peace and humanitarian and political solutions on the horizon. I split the tracks into 2 CDs of 25 tracks each. The first called Nal-yol-hund and the second Hund-yol-nal.

Raining Spiderling Istanbul, December 2025

notes: 
statistics: Wikipedia
provisional release date: 1.3.26
formats: double CD/Bandcamp/Soundcloud/DL/streaming
recorded at The Attic, Istanbul, December 2024 - November 2025
performed, composed and mixed by Nikolai Galen aka Raining Spiderling
mastering: Zlaya Hadzić @ Loud, Barcelona
photos: Nikolai Galen
artwork: Tasha Birch
distribution: Voice of Shade (Glas 15)
made in Europe
© & ℗ Voice of Shade & Noise of Shade

Mount of olives (barren trees) (mix 1.1)

Lunae Decrescente

A brief EP.  Something awful, something full of awe.

love for you [skyyurii x nesxs]

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