I dont know why im this way 

Are we okay? 
Dig my out of my grave 
Just to put me deeper than I've been 
Moving at my own pace 
Said you need some space now your space is with another person i had some faith 
Gave me hope but it turned to me being a slave to my own mistakes 
Trade our love for mountain of pain overcome it so I can see the world and seperate
Walk a mile in someone else's shoes now i feel okay, they dont see my struggle because I hide it from their face 
Misplaced my brain in a state of loneliness I know 
ill be okay 

Thrown away 
Left out for someone to pick me up but then im hearing wait

I dont know why im this way

Are we okay?
Lost in a pile of pain 
Umbrella for the rain 
Negative thoughts from years of strain 
Trained 
Breaking point avoid me 
Like im losing my soul 
Sealed my lows but left me with a hole 
your love always eats me whole 

I feel broken 
I am only hoping 
That ill make it out
And I make it through this hopeless world 

I dont know why im this way

Are We Okay?

Another day that i woke up in a motherfucking grave
Using credit cards so i can try to fucking change
Im still the same
Its not going my fucking way
Homie no its not
Ive been home a lot
Cause theyre fake

Entertain another drain
Now my life and passions have been drained
They wont think i made it until they see 100k inside my bank but the second that you blink the world you're seeing will disintegrate
I told you all that i wont wait

I cant afford shit cause im fucking poor
Always torn if i should leave the world with holes 
getting stabbed by friendly swords 
give me a couple years to finally be on tour and on billboards 
right above where i was fighting a mental war
The world changes faster when you're torched
Turning fire into more
I got demons taking over
Hitting start over before falling deeper in this hole
I got goals
But they're gone
Now im old
Draped in mold instead of gold

What am i doing right if i cant catch up to my fucking peers?
it appears that im losing but im winning when my futures getting near
i dont have any fear
Shed a tear after killing the old version of myself that couldn't steer

Gain a 100k
Ima gain a 100k
Ima gain a 100k
If i can find out how to change

Landing

Sold my soul for a dollar i don't even own anymore 
Storing all my feelings underneath the floor 
Dig them back out when I need em never feed em to another soul 
Everybody leaving me inside the cold after warming up their goals 
Now i dont even know who i am anymore 
Its all the same things ive been dealing with before 
Everything always coming back and forth 
People wanting more and more slowly turning me into a corpse 

Paint another masterpiece then I up and leave 
burning all my currency just to currently see 
who is really friends with me 
Betting there is zero but we will wait and see 
had a team but they keep infecting me 

Effected negatively so I'm on leave 
We've been living lives they can't seem to see
Honey isn't for the fly's enjoy the shit watching me enjoy your dreams 
There is no free ride in this life hard work gives relief

Worrying Too Much

ive been afraid to let you leave my veins 
you form my grave i just wanna know who to save 
why cant i heal? days without a meal 
i forgot to feel losing you to a better steal 
broken heart fix with a seal 

time is in jeopardy what do i need? 
why do i bleed while youre standing there happy 
this world is fake 
focus only on the things i can control 
i always took the blame 

(taking the same drive 
taking the same lies 
taking the same byes 
taking the tries)

fuck that 

losing my mind 
sacrifice just for s a m and i to fight 
why try replaced when i die 
you just needed time so now im on my grind
rain or shine get high 

i need no help when im by myself i don't feel hurt 
but i do better work when im hanging by a belt 

cant handle the pressure of being with me 
i was looking to bless her 
but she making my chest hurt 
when the memories fester 
only looking for investors 
not love or the things that they said first 
i ride in my hearse when i wanna converse 
now i now that'll i burn when i don't wanna fucking be lonely 
i feel like they owe me for leading me on 
and watching me die right in front of them slowly 
i going from groaning to growing to eventually glowing 
and now they keep acting for years that they've known me 
even though they just always ignored me 
they just want my money please take it my money comes from my music the only component


got no soul 
got no heart 
im a fool 
all this love has been rewrote 
take a toke
i went broke 
bitches fault that im a ghost 
they said give it time you both will grow 
yeah on separate roads 
now i know that i belong alone 
don't interrupt my flow 


(taking the same drive 
taking the same lies 
taking the same byes 
taking the tries)

Splash Zone

oxidized

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Splash Zone

rusted & tarnished

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