all i strive for is some balance
getting ready to feel safe again when i´m getting closer
now i find myself between exhaustion and unrest
when i´m tipping over

there is a thing in me that eats away
following swallowing everyday
lost my faith - turned to a nay
gotta force myself to believe and pray
there´s a voice inside that greets when i wake
follows every step that i take
felt numb before - now i´m filled with hate against myself 
got to hit the brakes before it´s too late

i know that i ain´t shit, that i´m hated and i´ve been wrong but the guy in the mirror says you´re worthless and thensome
you´re worthless and thensome
i´m not sure if i can handle the quit
it leaves me speechless with nothing to say
torn up, restless and tired
oh god please just take me away

moods./conscious._demo

the fear of not growing but falling apart.

rwnct