ft. https://soundcloud.com/lilspudxlp
prod. dead spyro
art: https://www.instagram.com/elianelianelian/

Millionaire w/ Spud [prod. dead spyro]

blood on my hands [prod. jolst]

traintracks ft. spud [prod. 2001 x jolst]

Feeling pretty down at the moment, so I figured I'd type up a story related to this song for any intererested listeners. I remember one time at school I looking for some of the darker side of soundcloud stuff, and was on the google page of dylann angercar (rest in peace). Our school had a weird firewall system on the google search result pages so some really odd stuff would often come up if you looked for stuff that'd usually have been blocked, and I remember a website coming up called todie.today (that was the link too, the site is now dead I believe or at least I can't access it). The site had loads of rare or private soundcloud links to otherwise lost songs, and a bunch of random somewhat creepy stuff typed up on it with mentions of dylann angercar and other names in that area of soundcloud - clearly like some sort of fan made website or just a site made by cutemobb themselves, I couldn't be sure. Either way the next week I went back to look for the site and could never find it again, and I'm forever curious about it. That's all, thanks for reading (and listening I guess? I can't imagine anyone having just read this and not listened to the song, but who knows lol).

s/o Superbad, emptychest, and mckel for the art. <3 love you all

Lyrics:
oh, how many lies do i tell?
and oh, what does it take for me to repel, oh

i been feeling like shit
wanna cut words into my wrists
lie too much and that’s an issue
never fix my issues

i’m scared sometimes that i’ll die alone
i don’t need friends, i’m on my own
i’m wasting time, wasting time
waste away as i die today

wasting time, wasting time
waste away as i die
how many fucking times?

it won’t be long
i don’t know how to live on my own
on my own, but

i been feeling like shit (like shit)
wanna cut words into my wrists (my wrists)
lie too much and that’s an issue
never fix my issues

i’m scared sometimes that i’ll die alone
i don’t need friends, i’m on my own
i’m wasting time, wasting time
waste away as i die today

die today [prod. emptychest]

Check out all the people involved with this track below!

Featuring: https://soundcloud.com/robstar100 & https://soundcloud.com/lilspudxlp
Cover Art: https://soundcloud.com/monocryy
Producer: https://soundcloud.com/kingtheta

Thank you so much for all the recent support <3 ^-^

Lyrics:

[rxfxx]
i can’t breathe 
so i’m passing out
and i cant see past the stormy clouds
in my head

step out catch the cold air on my face
now tell me what did you want to say, now
i cant breathe
so i’m passing out (in my head)

[spud]
in my head
living with the undead
dragging on the floor 
and im begging you for more
i cant sleep so i tire with ease
and im begging you
to stay please

[rxfxx]
i don’t want to be alone
and i don’t know what i can do

[spud]
fuck it i cant breathe
this shit gone to my head
and am i better off alone?
coz im stressing till death
and if im gonna do it then it's gotta stay
hiding in a place where everything goes my way

[rxfxx]
i can't go on anymore
i don’t know what hurt me more

[robstar]
suffocating,
every night i lie up waiting
and oh i'm hating
every thought im contemplating

check my phone but
i dont think that she gon text back
i need a map
im wondering where my head at
firing thoughts like a gat in a panic attack
if i breathe in fast then my lungs collapse

only scremaing through my teeth
i cant breathe no i cant breathe
i keep dreaming that she leaves
i cant breathe no i cant

[spud]
fuck it i cant breathe
this shit gone to my head
and am i better off alone?
coz im stressing till death
and if im gonna do it then it's gotta stay
hiding in a place where everything goes my way

[rxfxx]
i can't go on anymore
i don’t know what hurt me more

I Can't Breathe Ft. Spud & Robstar [prod. King Theta]

Wasting Away ft. Bunnyboy [prod. splashgvng & jang0]

prod. wisssery & caves

lyrics:

the fall comes now i’m still falling,
what do you mean, what do you mean
i’m still looking at the trees,
as they lose their leaves

the fall comes now i’m still falling to my knees
what do you mean, stay away from me
rain comes down while i’m looking at the trees
falling apart as they lose their leaves

and i (and i),
i still wanna die
while you (while you),
go on living your life 

so why (so why)
do i cry all of the time?
do i tell all of these lies
to make me feel better

(to make me feel better again)

another day (another day)
another week (another week)
i still can’t get no sleep
tell me why the fuck you had to leave
you had to leave
tell me what i do to make you see
like 123 it’s easy
baby yeah its easy
tell me do you see me?
do you still believe me
baby yeah you tease me
i dont know, i dont know
take me to the call
you said i was it all
and now i hate the fall
coz i never was it all
no i never was

the fall comes now i’m still falling to my knees
what do you mean, stay away from me
rain comes down while i’m looking at the trees
falling apart as they lose their leaves

and i (and i),
i still wanna die
while you (while you),
go on living your life 

so why (so why)
do i cry all of the time?
do i tell all of these lies
to make me feel better

(to make me feel better again)

Fall [prod. wisssery & caves]

way better than me [prod. dercept]

prod. https://soundcloud.com/kingtheta

lyrics:

let’s get high just to pass the time,
yeah

imma tell you what i got to say
20 this week, haven’t slept in 2 days (haven't slept in 2 days)
get away with all the games you play
imma need some space today (i need space today)

need some space today
coz my head is not okay, it's not okay yeah
it’s full with the things you’d say,
you’d say to me
people say i’m crazy

they tell me i’m on drugs,
they tell me they don’t give a fuck
i’m only bad luck, yeah i’m bad luck

they tell me i’m stuck
coz i'm never blowing up,
i'm never blowing up,
uh, so

don’t go away
know that i need you here
and place to stay
i don’t care anymore
walk away slam the door
board a plane,
and you fly to LA

so what i do say
i was never meant for your love
anyway,
now i settle the score
and i get with a whore
i don’t need you anyway

is it bad that i waste my time?
is it bad that i'm out of line, yeah
i'm not doing fine, i'm not doing fine
but i don’t really mind, yeah

they tell me i’m on drugs,
they tell me they don’t give a fuck
i’m only bad luck, yeah i’m bad luck

they tell me i’m stuck
coz i'm never blowing up,
i'm never blowing up,
uh, so

i don't want a girl if it means that i gotta say goodbye
i don't want a girl
i don't want a girl, yeah

don’t go away (don't go away)
know that i need you here
and place to stay (and a place to stay)
i don’t care anymore (i don't care at all)
walk away slam the door
board a plane,
and you fly to LA (and you fly to LA)

so what i do say (so what do i say)
i was never meant for your love
anyway (anyway),
now i settle the score
and i get with a whore (and i get with a whore)
i don’t need you anyway

(i don't want a girl if it means that i gotta say goodbye
i don't want a girl
i don't want a girl, yeah)

bad luck [prod. king theta]

Louis Vuitton ft. Spud [prod. Vertigo]

written for @_trofim.n_ on instagram

lyrics:
i don’t know what to say to not sound rude
i can’t find the words to describe you
she’s like a girl from a cartoon
i hope that girl will be mine soon

we lay by on the grass under the moon
counting stars until the noon
the sky turns bright shades of blue
but i’m sure it looked better with you

i look in her eyes and i swear they were aqua 
i’m sorry that i couldn’t have moved a little faster
i wish you’d told me what you were after
i know that you knew it would end in disaster

the colours of the skies i swear they were aqua
you were hurt too, in fact you were sadder
if she didn’t mind i’d go back and ask her
left unfinished can’t pretend that it’s over

i don’t know what to say to not sound rude
i can’t find the words to describe you
she’s like a girl from a cartoon
i hope that girl will be mine soon

we lay by on the grass under the moon
counting stars in the sky until the noon
the sky turns bright shades of blue
but i’m sure it looked better with you

i look in her eyes and i swear they were aqua 
i’m sorry that i couldn’t have moved a little faster
i wish you’d told me what you were after
i know that you knew it would end in disaster

the colours of the skies i swear they were aqua
you were hurt too, in fact you were sadder
if she didn’t mind i’d go back and ask her
left unfinished can’t pretend that it’s over

Aqua ♥ [prod. kyotospeak]

ｔｅａｒｓ (泣き出す) [prod. kyotospeak]

lyrics:

rain goes down like tears on my window
ever since you left ive been so
trapped from myself everyone thinks im down low
thinking bout the reason why you gotta go

why you gotta go is a question i just gotta know
if the feelings were for show then okorosu-yo
focus on the path focus on the fucking journey
how come you had to leave right atfer you hurt me

you dont know where the fuck youll finish
you only know what the fuck youve done
maybe this is the only beggining
it doesnt mean u cant change what u become

even if it ends and youre both just friends
youve gotta open up youve gotta love again
even if it ends just like you feared
it doesnt mean that its gotta end in tears

it doesnt mean that its gotta end in tears
it doesnt mean that its gotta end in te-ars

"rain goes down like tears on my window
ever since you left ive been so
trapped from myself everyone thinks im down low
thinking bout the reason why you gotta go"

you dont know where the fuck youll finish
you only know what the fuck youve done
maybe this is the only beggining
it doesnt mean u cant change what u become

it doesnt mean u cant change what youve become,
its not fair if you cant forgive someone
you never know when you might fall in love
just remember forgive the one you trust

why you gotta go is a question i just gotta know
if the feelings were for show then okorosu-yo
focus on the path focus on the fucking journey
how come you had to leave right atfer you hurt me-

you dont know where the fuck youll finish
you only know what the fuck youve done
maybe this is the only beggining
it doesnt mean u cant change what u become

even if it ends and youre both just friends
youve gotta open up gotta love again
even if it ends up like you feared
it doesnt mean that its gotta end in "tears"

s/o @hellbbabby on instagram

ｔｅａｒｓ (泣き出す) [prod. kyotospeak]

lyrics:

i don’t wanna die
i just feel like ending my life
i don’t wanna live, my "knife like ice"
coz i’m so tired of this life
everyday i pray she’s "switching sides"
she’s the sun to my cloudy skies
and i keep falling for "those eyes"
those eyes, coz she see thru other guys
those eyes, coz she see thru all my lies
and i don’t wanna fucking die "i don’t wanna die"
just feel like i’m so damn high
high from the feeling "when she cries"
high all the time i swear time flies

i don’t even think, that it all matters
maybe i’m insane, maybe i just want answers
"in my head she moves like a dancer"
fucking up my lungs till i die from cancer
fucking up my liver, sip up blue
fucking up my life who knew
i need some time to start a new
i just copped some fendi shoes 
fendi shoes, "i just copped some" UVBlues
will i be your next or will i die too
i dont wanna have a clue
will i be up next or "will i die too"
maybe you will see my point of view
will i be alive next year or "will i die too"

Time Flies [prod. Tsurreal x luvcrtny]

losing my mind ft. value [prod. zach sutton]

In The End ft. Robstar [prod. 5head]

some shit i didn't really wanna release but i didn't wanna delete it either i guess.

at my funeral i pray she's there [prod. tundra]

in reverse [prod. underwood x gangboy]

Yaoi! w/ feeluvsyou [prod. cloudlobby]

𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓭 𝓯𝓾𝓵𝓵 𝓸𝓯 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓭 ft. spud [prod. fantom]

STREAM ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/209WA2cUrG9GQrqIkgwSA4?si=7jmUrSCiRuyd61X2ePRwvw

crash [prod. majinaru]

everything [prod. metlast]

Louis Vuitton 2 ft. Spud [prod. majinaru]

prod. @majinaruu

lyrics:
excuse me coz im so far gone
days go by one by one
feeling like i got no one
when i wake up all i see is my gun

and i wish i was gone
i wish no one cared
im just alone with no one there
and i swear

im holding a gun
up to my head
wish i could stay in bed
or let my head see the lead

i just wanna be dead
or away
im just alone
don’t check my phone

for a message at the tone
engraving my name in the stone
so please
just leave me alone

leave me alone
or leave a message at the tone

but i don’t wanna be gone
not really, 
i just wish i had someone
not really

i just wanna fall in love
not really
ill tell you when ive found the one
but i won’t

and im feeling so far gone
watch the leaves fall one by one
ill be dead when im 21
and ill never ever ever find someone

excuse me coz im so far gone
days go by one by one
feeling like i got no one
when i wake up all i see is my gun

(over last 4 verses)
let me see the end
let me pretend
that im not alone again
let me be with someone in the end

and i wish i was gone
i wish no one cared
im just alone with no one there
and i swear

im holding a gun
up to my head
i wish i could stay in bed
or let my head see the lead

i just wanna be dead
or away
im just alone
don’t check my phone

for a message at the tone
engraving my name in the stone
so please
just leave me alone

let me see the end
let me pretend
that im not alone again
let me be with someone in the end

gone [prod. majinaru]

drive me crazy [prod. majinaru]

Lover ft. Noir [prod. Born Hero]

graveyard girl ft. spud [prod. majinaru]

even if i lied ft. oldarks [prod. irby]

i kinda like to pretend that no one remembers who i used to be. before making music that is. probably because i was just a person, and well, i still am just a person but at least now i feel like i have some content to who i am. i like looking back on all the stuff ive made, and i like to think about how much more i want to make. this was gonna be a throwaway track but, fuck it. special thank you to https://soundcloud.com/noir606 & https://soundcloud.com/lilspudxlp & https://soundcloud.com/lilghoulie for keeping me motivated <3 and thank you everyone else for being so patient with me - much more, and much better stuff coming soon hopefully <3 love you all.

prod. 2001

lyrics:
i said fuck it
will i ever love it?
i don’t want to cry
but don’t know how to stop it
and when i’m running,
tell the world i’m coming so don’t leave
and i swear i’ll be there by the morning

my dear, will i ever love it?
i don’t want to cry
but don’t know how to stop it
and when i’m running,
tell the world i’m coming so don’t leave
and i swear i’ll be there by the morning,
my dear

run up checks like broken hearts
tell the world to rip me apart
i don’t know where i went wrong
so i’ll go write a song

about all my troubles 
i say i’m doing double
but i’m lying all the time 
to make you mine

girl, i owe you the world
my diamonds my words
and a ring with a pearl
on your cute little finger

girl, i owe you my world
my head is a mess
but that’s not your concern,
i swear i never learn

fuck it, 
will i ever love it?
i don’t want to cry
but don’t know how to stop it
and when i’m running,
tell the world i’m coming so don’t leave
and i swear i’ll be there by the morning,
my dear

rip me apart [prod. 2001]

prod. native

lyrics:
(oh i don’t go
where you go
oh i don’t know
what you know

oh i don’t go
where you go
oh i don’t know
what you know)

(that’s what they’re telling me)
(don’t you go talking to a)
(that’s what they’re telling me)

stranger danger
i don’t wanna go
and make her
a stranger
with my insecurities 

call me later
so we can talk again
i love you
and i don’t gotta pretend

stranger danger
that’s what they’re telling me
stranger danger
don’t you go talking to a

stranger danger
that’s what they’re telling me
stranger danger
don’t you go talking to a
stranger

oh i don’t go
where you go
oh i don’t know
what you know

oh i don’t know
where you go
oh i don’t know
what you know
(don’t you go talking to a)

stranger danger
i don’t wanna go
and make her
a stranger
with my insecurities 

call me later
so we can talk again
i love you
and i don’t gotta pretend

stranger danger
that’s what they’re telling me
stranger danger
don’t you go talking to a

stranger danger
that’s what they’re telling me
stranger danger
don’t you go talking to a
stranger

(that’s what they’re telling me)
(don’t you go talking to a)
(that’s what they’re telling me)

stranger danger! [prod. native]

actually a pretty old scrapped song, but i liked it a lot so, enjoy <3

ft. @sinnagacci & @lilspudxlp

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