Lyrics:

fuck the ____ tough talk enough to leave it rough like
catch a born body many bricks i throw a hundred up
keep my love with god when he speak nobody interrupt
people would do anything to get they dick sucked
everything loaded keep the 
cant let nobody kill my buzz I'm living life the most
if i was to go ghost then i deserve to get doped
man and thrown across the coast man body gets toast
now I'm feeling like lebron cause I'm feeling like the goat
i just started flows for days just like lamar did
if you try to diss me you prolly wont get a response yet
started on SoundCloud rapping unguarded
where letter to my children was the best thing me and josh did
I'm tired of the fake Christians who run around saying 
they following gods language but they ain't ever praying
and disobeying his guidance, gods love's amazing
cause if i had his power i know i wouldn't be forgiving
every day a new shootout turn kids into spirits
started out as glorious   to early grave visits
everybody lyings lives stuck in the lyrics
saying they out doing this but doing that's in their limits
i can't reach total damnation i put that on my mama's children
and first its time to reach a million
matter fact we gon reach a billion
zuckerberg numbers but i ain't a reptilian
money and the power's only thing the people want
but when respect ain't a factor then it ain't got no heart
man yall really do anything for number one charts
its like I'm denzel curry cause all my songs are unlocked
always stick to the arts I'm always ready for anything
got so many styles so they saying I'm varying
these beats that I'm carrying the pace that I'm steadying
keep my soul alive for everything (everything?)
everything prayers to our holy father
dominate the skies, I'm tony fokker
y-y-yall drinking gatorade I'm all on body armor
i think its been a hell of a year ain't like no other
man its always been blue don't ever trust the news
drag your name right through the mud and mess up the crew
its always been the same you know it wont ever change
but I'm still east side even th-th-though i moved
cant let the numb feeling get a touch of my soul
cause there's times where id be walking around with no goals
used to live life controlled now i search for the gold
my rhyming is cold i don't care bout your polls
I'm too busy to worry bout what clowns think about me
lots of people out there just waiting to drown me
i don't like yes men and fuck pender county
you wan turn me to a pirate you gon have to surround me
i cant beg for things to get better gotta put in that work 
a lot of privileged rappers don't get what they deserve
one legged fadeaway ill cook you like dirk
take it to the matt, shoutout to perk
recovery isn't the end you know you gotta maintain
suicidal thoughts leading to ____________
suicidal thoughts make you curse god in vain
i cant even say nothing.......
if the sky wont glow when i die don't show love
cause that means i did nothing but get people fucked
instead of chasing forgiveness id be chasing the bucks
brush the dirt off my shoulder I'm about to go nuts
its love

Prelude #1

Writer: Ryaliman
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed By: Ryaliman
Mastered By: Ryaliman

dreamcatcher (Instrumental

dreamcatcher (Instrumental)

Writers: Ryaliman, Berolina Sound Orchestra, Siegfried Mai, Fr. Mike O'Connor
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

ALWAYS (Soundcloud Version)

Writers: Ryaliman, Fr. Mike O'Connor
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

TOTAL DAMNATION

Writers: Ryaliman, Tata Vega, Fr. Mike O'Connor
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

Ayo

I'ma leave my pain in God's hands
Chains was never for me faith of God'll build my raw land
And God stopped me from sinking in the quicksand
Stacking up these bricks and trick I'm running through the wind strands
I'm talking to god before I sleep he told me
Never weep
So I put my trust in thee so I don't fall into the weak (Uh)
You stay with the Jays like Memphis bleek, they all love to cheep
Getting hard for me to fall asleep but now it's vivid peace
My soul was down in the dirt, I had to rise from the ground
The devil want me to hurt, I had to pray to the clouds
I'm not tryna be cursed I stay away from the crowds
I had to come from the worst to the level I'm living at now
Pray I survive through these teenage times like Robert Todd
Jesus put us in the right place so we avoid harm
I know that life be getting hard but I know to stay calm
I know ain't nothing more important than our holy father, god (Uh)

And I talked about the fact, that there is this power of the evil one
That is present here
And that we struggle, it's the very same power that crucified our l-

HOLY FATHER

Writers: Ryaliman, Alain Goraguer
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

Hey Matt say something
What?

All of my brothers be calling me Billy Corgan cause this shit is too perfect
I'm thinking this beat is too boring, now I gotta go bring in the organs
And you know that I'm crossing these rappers like Allen Iverson was doing to Jordan
When I turn on yo music it's like I'm Perkins on Tristan's couch cause I'm gonna be snoring
I'm getting that (money and the power) I'm getting that (power and the money)
Yeah this shit just be getting too easy I'm counting a milli just like I'm Lil Weezy
You know all these rappers they really can't really see me I'm leaving your face all p-pale and q-queasy (uh)
When I'm playing yo music I'm boutta go grab a lil blanket that shit is just making me sleepy (uh)
I'm getting that money and the power I'm getting that power and the money
How could you say that I'm limited lyrics is limitless vividness living unlimited
Yall motherfuckers be drinking that dirty sprite I'm sipping on lemonade Cole Bennett (uh)
B-b-bench players be flexing they jerseys when they ain't getting minutes
Man you love to hate it

Im a whole mastermind I'm pouring the syrup just like I-I'm Pastor Mike
How could you still call me Korny and still acting like this necklace ain't blinding yo eyes
All of these bitches that's bringing themselves to this party would run away when Matt arrives
They still be saying they Christian but when they pop out they be asking "Who's bringing out drinks tonight" (I'm getting that)
This ain't on Adam Calhoun shit man I promise that you gonna die tonight
I ain't tryna stay at no 9-5 so I'm tryna blow up like I'm dynamite
Don't give a fuck if these bitches don't like me (Uh), just mind yo own business and pay me no mind
You ain't gotta fake being kind cause I don't give a fuck if you whine or yo top 5
Rappers be selling they souls for the bars and then give it to satan for big fancy cars
Their spirits is vanished their spirits is gone like Avey Tare and Panda Bear
I just be Running round for 16 seasons ima stay a G like I'm Bart Starr
And I'ma go head make a Billie because my Armstrong
Back in the days I was running round scandalous I think I'm Pac reincarnated
My pupils is dilated, I know that all of that talking gon get yo ass chopped like lamar davis
I came from the flood like I'm Dardanus, a lot of these lames think they are famous
Some of these ******* they are basic they fuck for the money
Huge difference from a bitch and a woman that shit is real funny
Nose real runny, how yo ass get caught in the spot
Someone always keep watch they tryna fuck up the squad
Just like its GTA 5 you know that I'm Mike with the shot (Uh)
I just hit the lotto, and the world is now mine shout out to Nas you know I'm the new Wave God

M.A.P

Writers: Ryaliman, Harley Streten, Alexandra Ward, Fr. Mike O'Connor
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

Got the world in my hands and I ain't ever gonna drop it
You ain't ever seen the top but you still talking needa stop it
All these bitches they be bopping they just waiting for that ‘posit
I'm just tryna make the profit, like Lil Uzi I just wanna rock it
Y'all be stealing bars and still be calling that shit lyrics
It's ridiculous, the types of moves we make we leave no witnesses
I could never leak my address cause that's how they got Pop hit
Bitches think they on top but when they drop they ain't the hottest
I would dream about this life until I leveled up from rookie
Look at all these lame rappers begging "please just book me"
They still doubting me I'll tell them haters please dont overlook me
Buddy I ain't chance the rapper I could never need security
I stay inside the house so you could catch me home at any time
And I still see the signs that you've been talking shit so many times
How you sitting on yo ass all day and all you do’s complain and whine
You know you hate that lonely life b-but you still gon say you fine

You don't have to be afraid
You don't even have to be brave
Living in a gilded cage
The only risk is that you'll go

Slipping slipping on gloves all you pussies keep dreaming
If my music make him deaf then I'ma send that boy to heaven
Brother told me act my age I guess that they was never blinking
Any type of impression it ain't gon stop these pussies hating
I ain't linking wit you if yo music shit just treat it like its sin
These people love to snake me (hoo) play me like that violin
Slide into yo team and steal yo ring just like I'm Jeremy Lin
Dont stop get it get it, I'm underneath yo skin
50 thousand on yo head shit gon leave yo ass in debt
All that yapping on the net you talking down and then regret
And you still get upset yo pussy ass still running round like you a threat
I'm running up a check and I'll make sure t-that you can't forget
But how do you still want the old me when you ain't like that kid
I told you that I closed the lid I'm done with all that stupid shit
Once I hide away for life you'll never see me cause I'm off the grid
You'll never know just what I did you'll only know me from my spirits

You don't have to be afraid
You don't even have to be brave
Living in a gilded cage
The only risk is that you'll go

And the list of virtues what it means to be a man to be virtuous, temperance
Self-control, I talked about quite a bit, silence
Silence (silence, silence, silence)
Silence (silence, silence, silence)
Silence (silence, silence, silence)
Silence (silence, silence, silence)
Silence (silence, silence, silence)

SPIRITS

Writers: Ryaliman, JMurph49, Killamac
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

SHOOTOUT (Ft. JMurph49)

Writers: Ryaliman, $Markusss
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

ALWAYS blue

GHOST (Ft. $Markusss)

Writers: Ryaliman, Lilliana Ferri, $Markusss, Joshithehottie, JMurph49, K!ngKerry, & JFlackoz
Produced By: Ryaliman & Joshithehottie
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

Sometimes this shit just don't feel real (Shit just don't feel real)
All them bitches fake (All them bitches fake)
Most 'em say they real (Most 'em say the real)
Listen to my words can you picture how I feel (Picture how I feel)
Look up in the sky just wanna tell him how I feel
But I ain't get no answer, so is he really real (real real)

It's always blue where I've been and always blue where I'm heading(Uh)
And I hope that when I'm dead and underground I get to heaven
But I'm scared to talk to God I feel he won't forgive my sins
Now I lost some real friends just to follow the trends
And as of late, I've been watching everyone in my space
But as I'm getting older things just getting different with age
And I've been ghosting everyone just to hop on the stage
And for money and the power they be saying that I changed
For shootouts and spirits ain't no one tryna hear it
Realizing that ain't nobody care bout my digits
Now I'm back at the beginning and I'm tryna get religious
But I'm scared that I lost my relationship with Jesus
I said I promise I'll change and that it ain't what it seems
And that I fell into Satan away from ultralight beams
I've disgraced all my fam all for some false ass dreams
It's all for nothing I ain't ever gonna be on that screen
So to all my friends and family I'm sorry for being distant
I've been perfecting my craft and trying to boost my image
B-boost my image, but lately I've been acting real privileged
I've been changing the functions but I ain't a derivative
But now I got nothing haven't felt this feeling in so long
Cause I was walking around thinking that I could do no wrong
Now I'm back to all alone I don't got no one to call
I wanna talk to God but I'm afraid cause we ain't spoke in so long

blue (Ft. $Markusss, Joshithehottie, A.T., JMurph49, K!ngKerry, & JFlackoz)

Writers: Ryaliman, Julie Driscoll
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

They just don't know what their missing
They'll prolly come around the next day, I was stressing for nothing
I was fussing for nothing now I'm chilling
I keep my ten towns down that's how I'm running and I don't need no loving
They say Its denial I say I said what I said
These voices in my head were lying to me to begin with
Its all about the bread they just mad they upset
I'm not really stressed they'll run right back when I'm dead it was all in my head

My ____ sent me here she think I'm crazy
My brothers said I got lazy I'm just thinking that they mind is hazy
They just mad they ain't got a mindset on that gravy
I'm the most improved rapper since Tracy was playing in Disney
I know I'm ghosting everybody for a real reason
I had to show these motherfuckers that its my season
(but how is it your season when you living in treason
If they aren't like you then they should've been  leaving
Everybody is a shadow in your eyes ain't you seeing)
You don't know what you talking bout I refuse to believe it
I- (know you want war you ain't looking for love
If their ain't any drama in the spot then you'll leave it)
But I never was loved as a kid ain't you seeing?
(yes you were you just say that because your wanting attention
And that everyone's a bitch cause they put you on medication)
But how could they do that to me (cause you were hasten
Having trouble sitting down) but that's the way the was raising
(no they didn't) yes they did how you gon' tell me how I lived
(cause you live in denial I'm not the first to admit it 
For you ain't wanna see nobody be better than how you did it
A complete narcissist) I never needed a ________
Don't know why my ____ forced me to fucking do this
(cause everybodies' worried bout your age and your digits
Constantly telling you to enjoy being a kid but you refuse to listen
Shut everybody off but who you gon' have when your lonely
Sit by yourself wondering why you dying slowly
Masturbate until your numb cause that's the only way your cozy
Keep lying on god’s name but your saying your holy 
I know you more than you know bout yourself ____
Your predictable all of your lies they span to the horizon
Treat your sister like shit you insecure bout yo height and
Everytime somebody speak to you you trying not to eye them
You should have listened to those voices in the last song
Cause you were never wronged your parents tried for too long
All your prayers are fake you just wanna boost your ego
Everybody in your life yeah they should cut you off
Done

the numb feeling

Writers: Ryaliman, Alain Mion
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

Always find a way to hate even when im at my best
All this excess hate against me guess youve always been obsessed
Whatever type of demon possessed i aint tryna get into yo nest
Always on yo mind i think its time you finally get some rest
Retarded ass illegal’ll do anything to make me fail
I cant listen to no slut who leave her pussy for sale 
You still gon be mad ima yank on yo tail
Picture caring bout me more than you care about yo children
Bitch just start telling truths and if the shoe fits ill wear it
Opinions shouldnt share it this shit is getting real desperate
I cant talk to no freeloading bitch thats begging for credit (why you using ur husband)
Insecure nosey bitching to my world
Delusional enough to tell yourself you ain't a concern
I ain't ever do shit to you this what i get in return
Relatives lying to me hope they get they ass burned
I hope you twisting and turning cause you cant stop thinking bout me 
If you think u ain't the problem then your vision is cloudy
But your children are perfect angels could never be rowdy
Its delusional to think that you speak quiet not loudly
Always knew you were a snake from the start, i had suspicions
Always making fun of everyone for they religions
Hoping that your children make the right decision
And leave you in the ditches wish you'd see it in my vision stupid bitches

Every single problem that i got now started with you
You got issues but its ok cause i got them too
Every single day you dragging my name through and through
Every single fucking time you talk i wish your head had blew
Off your shoulders now that I'm older i realize your hearts is colder
Than it should be i swear to god i wish you would smoulder
I'm tired of seeing you alive i want you to look like a moulder 
You can never act your age but somehow your older
When nonno was dying you ain't let your babies stand beside
Always knew you were souless i saw it through my naked eye
Retarded bitches ain't got no pride but still decide
To ruin everybodies day well at least you tried
Right bitch
I'm just waiting to see u die bitch
Dancing on your grave that's the way we gonna do this bitch
You better hope i die before you bitch
Cause if i don't i promise ill be the last thing you'll ever see bitch
I'm on one you wait till i take your son away from the hell you want him to live in bitch you gon need a gun
5 kids born ain't you already have yo fun
Posting round like a slut lil bitch i just begun
What would your mother think about the way you treat your children
Maybe she didn't try she should've never had a kid then
I don't wanna argue with secret pedophile 
When we talking face to face you ain't admit you were the villain

.oicoR

Writers: Ryaliman, Jimmy Takeuchi
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance
Please give me one more chance

All this ruminating ain't working 
I guess I was never learning I'm bargaining
My ego is disheartening, no wonder why its dark again
I dont even know if god is real or not so who im begging to
I aint even checking up on you that moment’s passing through
Its only adding to all of this narcisstic attitude
There aint no more defending all my lack of sincere gratitude
All this ruminating aint working
I cant even beg for a second chance i dont deserve it
If only id check up once in a while id be preserving
Now im twisting and turning this attitude is recurring
All this time I spend doing nothing and just ignoring them
All this god attitude and ruminating aint working
Trying to make it seem like it ain't my fault that I don't talk to fam
Thinking I'm better than everyone and that I don't need friends
How I think I'm better than everyone and don't need friends
Everything was a lie im as lazy as ever
I got no motivation it aint worth seeing that heaven
There wasnt god in my life it was just greed and oppression
How many times that i would joke on myself to make impressions
It isn’t money and power i still live with my parents
I ran around thinking i was a god that im a pedant
I cant even put the effort and cant even be present
Why did i ever think that i deserve a place in heaven
Blaming everybody for the way I treat the world my visions blurred
I know I'm tryna change but everything I do just never works
Hopefully when i leave this world someone will take my placeand that's my word
Never once have I learned from a mistake
Until my heads on a stake 
I guess I'll learn it one day
I guess I'll learn it one way

beg/ruminate

Writer: Ryaliman
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

It's cold outside
I don't even feel like I'm alive
Been lying to myself a long time
Everybodies' fault but mine
You can see in my face not eating I'm slowly dying
I'm just floating away all these thoughts their just frying
In my head prolly gon' end up dead
I cant want anything when I'm wrong
Guess i never knew i was the problem all along
Brain split into pieces i don't think theirs much left to me
I cannot be strong
Only thing i got is these songs, every day i look in the mirror and see all my wrongs
Nothing else left for me its all been gone
Nothing else left for me

I don't love myself anymore
Sometimes i wish that i was never born
And why'd i have to be the way that i was
Now i look and wonder where is that kid they used to love
And all this time that I'm wasting
All that i do is just sit around hating
When the only thing that i should be hating is my face
Total disgrace ship me out of the united states
What else is there to do, what else is there to prove
I've shown that i cant be alone in my own room
Grief taking my soul turn my space into gloom
I've accepted my fate id much rather be doomed
Then be myself anymore
I'm praying for the rain to pour
To wash my ashes down the sewer when i don't live in this world
Hoping once they find me light fire to my corpse
And if Jesus is real ask him why i wanna fall to the floor

the sky won't glow

Writer: Ryaliman
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

This is my suicide note
I'm barely even staying afloat
Wake up every morning wanna cut my throat
But tomorrow gon be the day when my body gets smoked
I've given up on myself and given up on life
Got so many problems it ain't gon be right
I keep the knife by my dresser so i can cut me open say good night
Why would i wanna live anymore
Eyes blacked out i don't wanna live in this world
When my body's lying by the door burn my dying corpse
Send my ashes to the poles to the poles
Don't let me survive
I've accepted its never gonna be right
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
I'm so fucking done with all this pain i cant get out my head
Id rather have everybody see me dead
Its not like anyone would care
Stain the carpet red no tears were shed
I'm a worse version of myself
I just wanna kill myself
Take all of the pain and i put it on the shelf
Fuck everything i don't wanna fix my health

But if you see a blue bird just remember i existed
Even if my life keeps getting more twisted
Even if suicide is what i committed

This is my suicide note
I'm barely even staying afloat
Wake up every morning wanna cut my throat
But tomorrow gon be the day when i finally get smoked
I've given up on myself and given up on life
Got so many problems it ain't gon be right
I keep the knife by my dresser so i can cut me open say good night
Why would i wanna live anymore
Eyes blacked out i don't wanna live in this world
When my body's lying by the door burn my dying corpse
Send my ashes to the poles to the poles
Don't let me survive
I've accepted its never gonna be right
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
I'm so fucking done with all this pain i cant get out my head
Id rather have everybody see me dead
Its not like anyone would care
Stain the carpet red no tears were shed

But if you see a blue bird remember i existed
Even if my life keeps getting more twisted
Even if suicide's what i committed
Even if all of my emotions have drifted
If you see a blue bird just remember i existed
Even if my life keeps getting more twisted
Even if suicide's what i committed
I don't wanna fucking live anymore 
Fuck this shit

blue birds

Writers: Ryaliman, Fr. Mike O'Connor
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

I woke up this morning after seeing god in a dream
He told me how to fix my self esteem
Suicide is never worth anything
I've accepted myself again for christ to redeem
Hope that my ego doesn't get a hold of me again
Satan wanting me to end my life and burn in hell instead
But i know that god got me  cant be over my head
I know that i can start over with whole new friends
A whole new perspective on life i know that i could get it right
If i really tried i cant have them grief through my demise
I cant have my mama see her son bleeding out from his eyes
I cant break the hearts of everyone who loves me when i die
God gave me the tools to locking right back in
Pick up the bible every morning pick a chapter and read it
Not to be around people that don't make you feel completed
And don't listen to Satan making you feel defeated mistreated

Gods lights the only thing i need to follow
Shut off all my social media and stopped looking at models
Fully energized I'm moving on a full throttle
We don't drink away the pain you gotta
Every single time i look in the mirror i hate what i see that's why i gotta change and move my past to the side
Jesus died for our sins he gave himself to be crucified
So I'm forgetting the past and all my sins they can move aside
Your never too busy for your family and your friends
So don't follow in my footsteps i promise it'll leave you dead 
Picking up this pen im a brand new man
Hope i dont fall into the same cycle again
Hope i don't fall into sin that's not what god wants
Hopefully this time i learn that greed isn't the one
Cause every single day id run around chasing hugs
But if i don't love myself then how could i ever love someone

I know that gods not finished i know he'll save my soul
Hope he's taking control hope he's playing his role
I know that gods not finished i know    he's saving my soul
I know he's saving my soul i know he's saving my soul
I know that gods not finished i know he'll save my soul
Hope he's taking control hope he's playing his role
I know that gods not finished i know he's saving my soul
I know he's saving my soul i know he's saving my soul 

It's blue

I know that gods not finished i know he'll save my soul
Hope he's taking control hope he's playing his role
I know that gods not finished i know    he's saving my soul
I know he's saving my soul i know he's saving my soul
I know that gods not finished i know he'll save my soul
Hope he's taking control hope he's playing his role
I know that gods not finished i know he's saving my soul
I know he's saving my soul i know he's saving my soul 

recovery isn't the end

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