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Self centred
yesterdays mentality
Honestly want to knock out them dentures
Tell you to look at the bigger picture
But you only ever focus on the actors too many factors for you to consider
Only know what affects you not how it impacts my own version of heaven
I've been a giver but its never enough so alone like eleven
My brethren only my brethren when it suits them this life all becoming too much now im on (Kanye west's "seven")

When will I find my safe have haven i am who I am why does that make you so mad i think its time to confront your web of lies
Are you afraid to fly and fall from a place so high are you afraid to die like me.
Never ask why no you never ask why we here.
I guess I'll keep going without you
I guess I'll never be knowing
I just wanted to feel something
Always stopping me when the lights are green
Are you that riddled with envy that I leave you so empty that you have to theft from me even I have nothing no loving nothing just my cunning i hope that will be enough to get me out of here
I just wanted to close that divide
I just wanted you to open your eyes
I just wanted you to know there is more to life.

Yeah there is more to life
But you will never see it
That lights to bright and it leaves you blinded you blinded every single time
I try to tell you that this ain't right
But you scream this hurts and your ears are bleeding but they aren't I just think you're scared of feeling
And you are
Yeah you are
So fucking scared of feeling.

Only ever hit me up when I'm weak hoping ill go out and seek what everyone else grabs with ease
No ill never be free my dreams out of reach for someone like me
And i hope you hate this and I hope this hurts you
How the fuck can I be positive
When all I ever knew was the negative
I'm still the same but this is what happens when you play the game
There is no honour amongst thieves
This is my accolade been erased by those who made him
Dreams he chased but they
Sunk beneath snatched away by Satan
Got nothing so you degrade him
What you think i want to feel this funking way
you cannot break him though
I've been through hell bro
Misused and accused
Would lose at everything he would choose to do
I really don't know what the fuck to do
I'm hanging for a noose make a wish obtuse rubber goose
I just want something real and that's not you no fuck you
You never been true
This world is enough to drive me crazy
I guess it blue when you're so damn lazy nothing is making sense
I don't belong
I said it once and I'll say it again
Something like the Mandela effect
You could never understand my concept
Im Not pure im just what I know and feel but you never felt it guess the cards you never dealt em so how would you know

There is more to life
But you will never see it that lights to bright and leaves you blinded every single time

I try to tell you that this ain't right but you scream this hurts and that your ears are bleeding but they aren't I just think you're scared of feeling and you are
Yeah your so fucking scared of feeling

You were made to feel like you were completely worthless every day of your life what else are you meant feel
What else are you meant to be but you're worth so much more than that so go prove them wrong.

Self worth

Self Worth

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS NOW>

THIS IS A COOL AND CONFIDENT TRACK ABOUT EGO, YOUR FIRE CHAKRA, DETERMINATION, WILLPOWER AND BEING THE MOST HIGH IN THE ROOM.

THE TRACK IS CALLED INDIGO AND IN PSUEDOSCIENCE TERMS MEANS YOU ARE SOMEONE WITH A PROFOUND IN DEPTH LOOK AT THE HUMAN CONDITION.

THE TRACK HAS RAPID SPITTING AND WITTY BARS WITH SUSTENANCE ALL THE WHILE KEEPING A COOL CHARM IN THE DELIVERY.

Lyrics: HOOK: THESE THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS GOT ME SO TANGLED, VOICES IN MY HEAD MAKING SO MUCH COMMOTION, DRINK POTIONS POP A BEAN TO GET ME IN MOTION, HOLD DOWN THAT ANGER, STARLIGHT IMPLOSION, NOW YOU GRAVITATE, UNDERSTAND THE NOTION, WE WERE BORN TO BE GLOWING, YEAH, BORN TO BE GLOWIN.

VERSE 1
IN I GO INDIGO TWISTED AND TURNED, A MONSTROUS SOUL
LITTLE LIKE A WENDIGO, ANIMAL ON A BEAT QUITE POSSIBLE, 
I CAN OPEN UP YOUR MIND, BABE, IM THE STRONGEST OF MY KIND
I CAN SEE YOUR SYSTEMS NOT OPTIMAL
HELP ME OPEN UP YOUR THIRD EYE, DON'T ASK WHY
NO MORE FEAR, I DON'T LIE
I JUST WANT YOU TO BE MINE.

HOOK REPEAT.

NO BEGGAR NEVER GONNA LET UP TILL I GET MY CHEDDAR
GOT A COUPLE TENNERS RUN IT UP LIKE BRUCE JENNAR 
GOT THAT GREEN LIKE BRUCE BANNER 
GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME I CAN SWITCH IT UP KAITLYN JENNAR 
BUT IM COOL (HAHA)
I NEED TO GET AWAY AND GROW MY HAIR OUT LIKE EDDIE VEDDAR 
WITH A GIRL LIKE KENDALL JENNAR 
GO TO SOMEWHERE LIKE SOUTHEAST ASIA

BRIDGE: PERILOUS JOURNEYS, WELCOME TO OUR CREATIVE TOURNEY
OUT IN SPACE WITH THE OTHER WORLDLY OR MAYBE WERE JUST EARLY
GOT THE BEST WORM, BEST KEEP BACK, MY CHAKRA IS SOMETHING THAT BURNS, YOU WILL LEARN WHEN I LEAVE YOUR ASHES UP IN AN URN.
I LOVE IT WHEN SHES PLEASE AND THANK YA
IM IN LOVE WITH HER MANNERS WHEN SHE BEING SO NASTY, CMON GIRL OPEN THEM LEGS, THATS SOMETHING SO DAMN TASTY.
HOOK REPEAT

OUTRO VERSE: MY SEASON ISNT EASIN 
THEY TRIED TAKING MY STARLIGHT TO BE APPEASING
THEIR JEALOUS FEELINS
FUCK EM 
MAKE EM REMEMBER MY POWER 
LIKE A FAR RIGHT DICTATOR 
THESE HATERS CHASE A THREAD TILL THEIR DEAD, DAMN
THEY REALLY ARE THAT DESPERATE. (HAHA) 
MY ONLY ADVICE TO IS TO RELAX AND COOL THAT HEAD
BECAUSE YOU'RE NEVER, EVER GONNA GET THIS SHIT LIKE I CAN
FAX
KEEP IT SIMPLE
ALRIGHT

INDIGO

Indigo

Devils Deal

When It's Too Late

VRERSE 1

Looking for something better than this I don't know what it is Something like the taste of them peach coated lips Something I miss I've been loat with the will o wisps I can't find my way out trapped in the mist Trying to find strength in this fortress I have builtal Watch it all crumble from a couple pills You know I chase that thrill Trying to find a place to hide away But there are eyes in these hills Chasing bills to eradicate Thoughts that capture Caught in the rapture Split between heaven and hell my soul so fractured Can someone save me I've been alone in the motion picture No leading actress I miss being with ya Rebel renegade if I ever seen Katniss Everdeen

HOOK X2
 Scatter the rack hang on I'm.back A star on the track Running from what's in the mirror that stares back I need to unpack all that keeps me trapped here

VERSE 2

 I need balance I need rest from the malice My sense so itive Your touch so heavy to ne feels like talons Powers so aggressive beating me down with batons No one is real anymore What happenend Whats with all this actin Kill the good Just because That's something you could Never be Now live in a world full of enemies You can feel jealousy Might lose a head like Kennedy's You got a better way of living but you act so fake and empty Ok you got something lemme see Wow look at that. Nothing. Now curse me and say I'm worthless Have a behind my curtains You can see what keeps me hurting Now you see this worlds burdons But your method is still to act like it's nothing I see your illusions Merlin 

HOOK X2
()

VERSE 3

Loaded dice Three blind mice wearing monocles and colourful ties All swear to sell you vice Infesting my thoughts like lice Been in the trap when I walk outside I put my shades on its way to bright These rays sting Steve irwan would say they have bite I'm so high you look weary would you like to try Come and smoke up and buy my lies If it all don't seem right These colours start too swirl like Tye dye Then your mind is seeing whats at height your third eye can't reach When it's not free Careful don't catch heat

Illusions

You ever have a breakup? You tried everything but because you are you. You fkd it up. If you have well I guess we are just some scumbag millionaires.

Scumbag Millionaire pt 1

The Game is Rigged

If I Fall

Not finished, probably wont get it finished.

Hunger Games

Hate me More (Scumbag Millionaire Pt 2)

Supervillain sessions

Hunted like moby dick but got a vengeance.
even when it feels like everything is out to do you foul its all goods becuase you are the white whale. MOBY DICK.

MOBY DICK

MOBY DICK (prod HARVEY)

Commodore

COMMODORE (prod. XENOCHRIST)

Pretty self explanatory, i fear on missing out.

FOMO (PROD. HARVEY)

When the walls are caving in from a life of sin your just a hinderence to your self but still to numb to know what you need your heart bleeds a tinman to everyone else in a hot minute your lost in your own indifference and all you need is a little change so damn derange and its strange to say but the pains of yesterday made you who you are today your out of range to those who should be close to you so who can you rely on when everyone seems to be lying this is appearin to be impossible to break I'm trying to prove something to you to show my worth it hurts because i enervate what you feel and I KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL all this love and i know what you know but fail to show because i dont know WHERE  this path will lead and what you need is someone to see that we can be more the just another couple lost lover but why bother when you know you cant just move on to another.

Waterfalls bleedin these waterfalls stealin what i need to be seeing its what im fearing on the other side if i walk at least ill feel  feel alive or at least know what you hide.
 when all this hate is all you taste its all you chase i guess this is your trait, its what we create but what else can you build when these are the materials we are given and fuck all i do is question you adressin you testin you but im not testin you this aint a game but we all play when we want to be millionaire 

Waterfalls bleedin these waterfalls stealin what i need to be seeing its what im fearing on the other side if i walk at least ill feel  feel alive or at least know what you hide.

Blood Waterfalls. (prod. IOF)

Introduction to the tape. The first track to broaden your perspective this before it starts.

DNM (introduction) Prod. Lonely star.

Full of Vanity.

We never got to know each other (no)

You never could understand (woah)

I could never find a reason to care (oh)

Now we find reasons to hate it each other 
Like we never had a flame capable of setting the world on fire
Now we just use it to burn these bridges 
We will never get over it 
It was never about getting under you
We had so many issues with this
You wanted to plant seeds in the ground
But I'm not what you think I am Im always taking the exit route.
I'm sorry I've been a coward it's just I'm scared of the deep and scared of these oceans when all I do is sink. when I open up this Pandora's box.

 Never been an honourable man eye patch and hook for my hand I can't stand the man I was and the man I am.
No you won't understand.

We are misguided liars with guards up and the traps wired 
Both have a self hatred that we only cater whenever the heat signature shows on the radar
Both were waiting 
Both knew Satan
Both knew the dark
Both without love
Both crave lust
Both gluttonous 
Both have greed in our heart no
We can never get enough.
Not much can satisfy what we need 
So why do we seem to be so
Distant.
Because we never had anything like ourselves before we couldnt imagine the thought.
Of ever feeling not alone in world so different.

Different. (Dracula's Confession)Prod. Switch.

Its about Ego.

this is an addiction not like like nictotine this a sickness a common affliction dive in to these pristine waters hoping to clean me im sick of this back and forth just trynna find peace and makes me think i should of been open arms insted of opening arms and the worst has passed but i still feel these eyes on me only goal is to get higher im walking on a wire above a pool of fire and your a fucking liar and you know it and your a fucking liar because you dont show it this rage i feel i try to quell but the flames they grow higher like a hot air baloon my ego inflates the cash has run dry jenny and now all i feel is the burn the hate i cannot escape 

Too occupied with yourself never focusing on the people on the outside it feels like the people who wanna help also wanna tear you down home is where the heart is but how do you know where that is when your home is heartless the laughs are laughless you wouldnt get it anyway too thick headed this hate you feel imbedded because you dont fucking know what to do without it.

HATE SEX. (Prod. Strehlow)

Stars are fallin your heroes cant hear you callin only the walls can hear you talkin back to yourself wish i could save you from that hell but this all we know this is all we feel

Find a kid with a pipe in his hand trying to set alight these demons but the fright only becomes more alive with each click of that smoking gun you know you want fun just chasing the sun you never wanted to burn up but you only reap what you sow so now your turn up is turnin on you surely you knew what this was about i mean you were warned drugs kill and im for real you should know that  like ur abc and ds are knockin when the rockin is finished watch you diminish from this place and watch you waste away in to your nightmare its not fair i never got my share caught in this snare


 life has been playing entrapment on me baited now now trapped and strapped in tapped in but capped out im lapped out been doing to much but hush hush hush the rush is amazing right when your only live a life of love drugs and brimstone

 chorus 
Stars are fallin your heroes cant hear you callin only the walls can hear you talkin back to yourself wish i could save you from that hell but this all we know this is all we feel

My remains stain the very place im restin maybe to teach you a lesson to value you the help you deserve but i can not see this truth i got a few screws loose so i guess i struggle to hold my shit together sometimes i choose to jet off and let one off but i feel like there is no option im lost in the fact of not knowing anything better is there anything better i know im off track but i got no where to go im back to back with myself this hell i cant run from well i better hide then right im out of sight but im coming alive tonight right so high like a kite caught in a power line and the hour is sublime right now i have enough time to make the world mine maybe make a girl mine hey there do you mind if i snip this life line i mean it probably sounds like a crime i guess im out my mind but im on the incline and right now all we have is time but how can any of this end right im coming alive by the end of the night yeah im comin alive im coming alive but im feeling so dead

Love, Drugs And Brimstone

Spaceman

DEEPDOWN (FT. COXY)

I wrote this track in sync with the Pandemic the world is currently experiencing. Heavy lucid, dope and raw bars delivered fast paced with high asf energy.

Been so cynical living life like I was atypical needing antipsychotics but for me not optimal does not compute damage on my mind not minimal i can not constitute too much narcotics filling up with subliminals gonna put me in institute go to the core get these minerals look at my eyes hypnotic Ive lost it see Ive been destitute from a life living in a tube being tested but when I'm in a vocal booth I feel restitution in spirit when I feel it you better fear it all I do is intake you haven't witnessed my outake so for your own sake back the fuck out if I hit the kill switch not even Erin Brockovich will be able to help you now been sadistic no need for prescription im self medicated fuck the system have you read the description you better be dedicated mind goes numb permanent intermission get Educated I disassociate to protect my vision from my own associates fuck getting high all the time fuck getting intimate fuck your discussions fuck the bullshit spouted out by these puppet masters I gave you the key and you went and fucked it.
Talk is cheap so the next time you open your mouth you can suck it.

lately it feels like the world is falling apart 
nothing new but i didnt expect to outlast the beats in my heart
i still have more to give but this life that i lives strips me of anything real.
if you see and feel this can you tell me that im something more than the devils advocate he is adamant to test my adamantium can i win this hand when the devils the dealer just go all in and see if i can win some solace in a world so dishonest.

lost in my mind my soul im yet to find lost in the place beyond the pines  always frettin about whats behind i got these monsters lying in wait where the wild things are their eyes spying what they crave to taste the same what scraps i have on my plate my fate to overcome what my parents made or succumb be forerver torn asunder from the despair of a lover who could never grab what he so much desired
 to light a fire that could never be spared and light the way of this place that has me sicker than a corona case just feeling my out this maze and out onto the stage without fright steelys the name remember this feeling and embody it when the time is right like a macrophage healing is what im needing i know i wont find it from the crowd cheering but its one hell of a bandaid stars aligned time to rise like the planet of the apes wont give up till i acquire it even if it takes a century i wont budge like a sentry to bull headed like gendry set fire to this fendi to prove my value is more than what a pennyworth my past comes to haunt me when the future suddenly seems so daunting i just want to know if ill ever find what i have been searching or if ill end up in the underworld and have my soul eternally burning.

if you see and feel this can you tell me that im something more than the devils advocate he is adamant to test my adamantium can i win this hand when the devils the dealer just go all in and see if i can win some solace in a world so dishonest.

BREAKOUT//OUTBREAK (prod. HARVEY)

Lofi vibes.
enjoy your moments in life. They last a lifetime.

MOMENTS

MOMENTS (PROD. NEXERATION)

I'll Always Be There 4 U  [prod. Nexeration]

Raw track with heavy emotion.
Sometimes we try to do better than the person we use to be but that seems impossible at times since all things we learnt were empirical an are so integral with who we are.

Let me Take you back to my beginning before I started all this sinning it all started when I was a kid when the devil was clinging and bringing this sickness I stood for nothing right I use to have guys run up on me in a pack of five Ive been down on my luck but like they gave a fuck cus I'm not right in there eyes hoodie over mine you knew I wasn't fine see I was performing crimes and supplying my guys but why when I acquire a Oz Dee's rock up the next day like they got spies don't tell me lies I knew something wasn't right 

These snakes slither fast right past your line of sight I thought I had brothers we were tight and I couldn't fathom that some might be ratting I had no one looking out for me and I was looking out for everybody going in and out of the boundaries iguess I had the big brother mentality but everything started to get to me and I got heated like a foundry but fuck you! You have no ideas what the fuck Ive been through

I don't know anymore, these days fade together I try so hard to do better but I'm bound to Murphy's Law. Anything that can go wrong will. No I can never get ahead a of this bad weather.

Way back then I was living in fear of a man charged on alcohol because the police put a halt to his goals you see there was green to be sold but It wasn't enough (nah)
 he had to hit the gas had to try and make that cash right shit fell apart after that domestics ensued so damn spastic leaving my mother bloody and bruised she would be crying on the back doorstep and I would be holding her tight at 9 trying to counter it I'd do the same for my little brother and sister I'd be there like don't worry he will never hitya but I was frozen in terror whemever the drama would come after us i couldn't be a man fuck. 

I lost trust I lost love I lost everything that would make you into a better man yeah I'm fucked up I know and I would let you push me over because I didn't think I deserved any better but I would never be the stand over man my father was so go ahead and talk your shit about me and out me to everyone the only warning you will get is a lip twitch if you talk shit then you are gonna get king hit this vile mentality I hate it but a fatality awaits any bitch who wants to blacklist my shit

 these haters are on my dick I guess my shit has been hard and anyone with a lesser heart would crumble under the pressure, I hope you know that

Hook

 I was lost for a while aiding hand In boosting cars smoking hard and fumbling my cards I really was a villain a delinquent but something happened I had writtens brilliant one night was so dark I stared up and tried to find the stars thats when I started rapping I rememebered who I was and maybe then I was no longer lost and without a cause I said I'm gonna do this till I see my family happy they mean everything to me and I just wanted to say sorry to them and how I would be acting,

 you see my mind was feeble and everything seemed so evil I had to match it else the devil would-be snatching my soul and dragging me pdown this hole, I wish I could have been a better brother, son, friend and lover for those ex's but I was the other the opposite I lost it I wish I could take all my badness away and maybe I would no longer feel this madness this is who we are I guessa

 but when we get tested we (bang)
Bang our chest like we are ready for another round and everytime you knock me back to the ground I'll get back up and astound the crowd get back parts of ourselves that needed to be found and then and only then I'll see myself out when we are all safe and sound.

Safe and Sound (Prod Hyprbeatz)

I swear Im really wondering where I'm going an what I'm thinking
Like 1 minute I want something real is what I'm feeling
give it another and I want drugs and woman to fill this hole that I'm filling
But I swear I will never let It get the better I swear what I'm searching for is to no longer be hurting only be manifesting good energy try and find it in these verses but it's me versus Satan and I'm more tainted than he is
more faded than he is so I start detesting myself an easy target that makes me for these fakes who wanna deface anyone who can spit it like someone who is acquitted with it I'm on the chase I need silence I'm gonna start ingesting the competition once I'm in the booth theyre confessing they can never be besting and that theyre lesser and what theyre texting never hits because they never ever send that message no contesting no telling what I'm ngonna do once I'm in session like try and mess with it.

No idea which turn to take 
Trying to find what everyone finds so easily 
I mean really what should I make Of this 
If life's a trip to you to me it's been a 9-5 with overtime at minimum wage
Don't tell me shit 
Because this life has been nothing but a cage with the key thrown away out of reach from me. Like fuck it I'm gonna go in with my dreams. No don't try and preach to me I'm just gonna let it all out now. Watch me get free and get it all so easily.

You're living pretty awesome I swear imma be there eventually
But I'm sick of talking like I'm gonna be there steadily if I start venturing out
I only see reasons that go against me 
A fence I see separating me from everything
Fuck it gimme some benzos I'll jump in a Benz and switch up for the bands bro look mum no hands I got them up on my Bento she tells me there is more than what I'm looking for but I don't even know what I'm looking for

Only one thing and that's what could be lining my pockets such a shocker that I'm letting this out of the hurt locker I got a heart of gold but I'm broke so watch me hock it in God's gift to you but worth no more than the
trash in the bin when you have been doing everything but get nothing back 
then I lose meaning like fuck feelings swear I just need healing not really I'm in love with the pain can't you see me kneeling

I swear I'm gonna get it all so easily

See im always talking like I'm gonna go out and do something but never actually do anything so nothing ever happens y'know 
 but nah fuck that.
No more hesitating with what I want to have in life
 I'm just gonna go out an get it even if I fuck up or fail at least I won't be burdoned by regret of not doing anything
 
And you should too


I swear man
I swear


I swear I'm gonna do this and I swear I'm gonna do that but you only ever cap you ever rap about it and never live it like what's the point in living I've been believing in myself when no one else did but I'm never relieving of the shit up on my mind so I hide in my concubine I tell myself to grow a spine like I don't have enough time to cry like why can I never get ahead why when I give everything and now have nothing left

I tell myself to keep it up like I swear I'm up next I swear I'm about to get that check 
InI swear I'm falling to my knees again but atleast this time I'm not gonna be begging please stop taking from me but I swear this beast only knows greed. and that's something we can agree, now I just want a means to an end like man I wonder what the other side looks I bet it's looking real green. God damn. I swear.

Rydah Steel

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