A sad-dance anthem built on myth and memory. “Hyacinthus” turns an ancient love story into a modern club confession of pulsing beats, shimmering synths, and a chorus that chants his name like a spell. It’s Apollo on the dance floor, grieving in neon, chasing what was lost and what still lives in the rhythm between us. Emotional, intimate, and made to move.

hyacinthus (ruin of us)

This song lives in the middle of the dance floor.
Sweat, breath, bass, hands everywhere.
The moment when the lights feel too close, the music hits your chest, and something warm clicks open inside you.
It’s about losing yourself on purpose, in the crowd, in the movement, in the touch. When the rush settles in and everything starts to feel connected.
No distance. No thinking. Just bodies, rhythm, and that lift where the night finally takes over.

touch me, touch me

[Verse 1]
We learned to smile in reflections
Keep it neat, keep it tight
Rules handed down like instructions
How to disappear in plain sight
Velvet pain under polish
Soft—when we weren’t allowed
We folded parts of ourselves
To make the room feel proud

[Pre-Chorus]
We called it strength, called it control
But light was bending in our bones
It doesn’t die, it only waits
For a different way to show

[Chorus 1]
We were never broken, just bent by design
Our wavelengths rise and redefine
From a prison to a prism
We make the spectrum our own
Angles shift, we persist
Refraction shows the truth they missed
Challenge rules, how we’re seen
Relearning who we’ve been

[Instrumental Break 1]

[Verse 2]
Men taught us how to measure
Who gets crowned, who gets cut
We learned sharpness from mirrors
That only love you half enough
Even here, in borrowed safety
We were graded, ranked, restrained
Velvet bruises below bravado
Calling damage “being brave”

[Pre-Chorus 2]
We didn’t fail what broke us down
We stopped asking to be allowed
Light was never too much to hold
They feared what it would show

[Chorus 2]
We were never broken, just bent by design
Our wavelengths rise and redefine
From a prison into a prism
We make the spectrum our own
Angles shift, we persist
Refraction shows the truth they missed
Challenge rules of how we’re seen
Relearning who we’ve been

[Instrumental Break 2]

[Bridge]
Still refining, still in motion
Not erasing our reality
Rough edges show
We survived the brutality
Velvet scars, still soft, still open
But they don’t decide our worth
Leave the path, pain extracted
Not as chains, but as proof
Still ourselves, now refracted
When it finally tells the truth

[Final Chorus]
We were never broken, we were held too tight
Wavelengths rise, no need to hide
Once fractured, now defines us
A new spectrum claimed outright
Angles settled, we remain
Refraction moved outside the frame
Nothing left to prove or mend
We are who we’ve always been

prism

Santa Daddy— an AmEx Platinum under the tree for me?
I’ve been good in theory-Ali
Santa Daddy— so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa Daddy— Balenciaga wrapped in black
I’ll bring it back
Santa Daddy— so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa Daddy— I don’t mean to overshare
But affection’s not my thing
If you buy me something shiny
I’ll feel wanted and flaunted,

Some people like quality time
I like credit, I give youth
If you wrap it up in ribbon
Then I know you tell the truth

Santa Daddy— something quiet, something clean
A Rivian in sage green
Santa Daddy— so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa Daddy— Grindr Unlimited sounds right
I keep it tight
Santa Daddy— so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa Daddy— Car-tee-aye locked around my wrist
I won’t resist
Santa Daddy— and hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa Daddy— don’t you get how this works
I don’t need you to stay
Just confirm I’m worth the trouble
Then you’re free to walk away

I’m not needy, I’m attentive
There’s a difference, can’t you see
If you buy me something nice
I’m very loyal, you get me

Santa Daddy— take me shopping at The Row
Take it slow
Say you’re proud of what you see
Even me

Santa Daddy— maybe somewhere I can hide
Mykonos, a yacht outside
Santa Daddy— so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa Daddy— one last thing before I go
You already know
Santa Daddy— tell me I’m enough tonight
So hurry down the chimney tonight

Hurry down the chimney tonight
I swear I tried
Tonight

santa daddy

I poured the drinks a little strong
For confidence, not taste
The lights are low, the tree is on
Nothing needs explaining, right?

You hover where you always do
Half in, half out the door
I said you could stay for one
I didn’t say what for

I told myself I’d keep it light
No labels or debate
But you’re barefoot on the floor
Daring me to stay

Those little lines above your shorts
I see em, then I’m wrecked
I came to keep this casual
Bad at exits, getting late

I say I should call a ride
You say, “want a hot toddy, wait”

We’re wrapped for the night
That’s all this has to be
Lights on the ceiling
Clothes under the tree

We’re wrapped for the night
Good enough, agreed
You don’t have to promise
Just stay and keep warm with me

I know that look, I know your pace
How you stall, then move in
I can stretch out the moment
Till you’re heavy on my skin

I joke, I have no feelings
Like it’s harmless, like it’s fine
You laugh a half-beat after
Then you don’t pull back this time

I don’t ask what this could be
I don’t need a name
I feel you settle into me
Like that answers everything

Your shoulder fits me easily
We’ve both done this dance
I say I’m not staying long
Can’t leave it up to chance

We’re wrapped for the night
No future, no past
Your kiss on repeat
And glass after glass

We’re wrapped for the night
Till the feeling fades
You don’t have to mean it
Just say my name the right way

We don’t have to call this something
I wasn’t going to anyway
I hate the empty silence
I just needed to leave home

This is only for tonight
So I don’t feel so alone

We’re wrapped for the night
Locked in, pressed tight
Your hands know exactly
Where to take their time

We’re wrapped for the night
Until I come undone
If this is filling a void
Then we fit it just right

You can stay if you want
I might for a little

wrapped for the night

It’s December, which feels fake
Sunset’s pink at five-oh-eight
Fog rolls in, we call it snow
Lower your expectations

Sutro’s wearing powdered tips
Tourists fully lose their shit
Someone says “is this normal?”
We say “no,” but let it sit

New York’s buried, slushy streets
LA’s doing swim and slides
We’re in coats with tiny little shorts
That’s a micro-climate flex

It’s snowing in San Francisco
Don’t argue, join the bit
If the tower looks dusted
That’s a storm, I swear that’s it

It’s snowing in San Francisco
Emotionally, yes
We don’t need flakes falling
We need confidence

Castro packed with naked Santas
Fundraising and over-served
Someone lost their coat on Market
Sequins saved us from the cold

Golden Girls in Christmas wigs
Lashes lifting, bathroom break
They’re powdering their nose,
God—I love these hoes

Every plan is “five more minutes”
Every bar is someone’s house
If the holidays are chaos
We figured that part out

It’s snowing in San Francisco
I saw it in the lights
Fog hit every corner
Changed the vibe overnight

It’s snowing in San Francisco
The streets slick and white
If the city’s dressed for winter
Then it’s fact tonight

Maybe snow is just distraction
Maybe joy is low demand
Nobody cares where I’m from
They just grab my hand

I didn’t grow up with seasons
I grew into this place
Some cities want perfection
This one lets you misbehave

It’s snowing in San Francisco
No blizzard, no despair
Fog and friends who won’t let go
And a reason to be here

It’s snowing in San Francisco
I don’t need it to be true
I just need one night believing
That this city chose me too

Still snowing
Still dancing
Still home

snowing in san francisco

Okay, so—
If everyone could just sit for one second

I said seven, which felt reasonable
Food is still warm, kind of— it’s fine.
Oh— an unexpected guest, there’s no space
We don’t have extra chairs, we talked about this
Gifts on the table, please sit down
No, not opened, that ruins the flow
I made a spreadsheet for the order
It’s fine, I’ll just close it

I tried way too hard today
Homemade snacks, fresh baked
Nobody’s eating, shocking.
I love that for us, okay

White Elephant, pass it left
Please don’t steal yet, I’m not ready
White Elephant, smile big
Pretend you didn’t already see it

Someone brought an Hermès bag
Someone brought their startup swag
Someone’s explaining the thought behind it
I didn’t ask, but okay, go off king
We set a budget, it was clear
It was written, it was bold
I spent three weeks finding something perfect
That says more about me than you

I don’t need it to be fair
I just need it to make sense
Why is everyone laughing
Am I dissociating?

White Elephant, steal it back
No, not that one, the other
White Elephant, count to three
We talked about the order

I did this because I care
Not because I need control
I like when things have meaning
And everyone feels involved
I know it’s not that deep
I know, I know, I know
I’m just hosting through my feelings
Please keep going

White Elephant, final gift
Oh— that’s for me
It’s penis mug
That’s hilarious, honestly
White Elephant, love the joke
Really nailed my brand
White Elephant, thank you all
I can donate this, I guess

Okay
So dessert’s in the kitchen


white elephant

lit by the fire

Apron on, you’re trouble in my kitchen light
Flour on your fingers, smiling like you might
Say “hand me the sugar,” you lean in very close
We’re measuring, seeing what we can overdose
Vanilla in the air, watch it change the whole vibe
You read the recipe like you’re reading my mind
We crack eggs, talk slick, keep it sweet, keep it neat
But you brush my wrist, my heart skips a beat

Whisk, whisk, chemistry
You laugh, I lose the rest of me
Warm hands, small sparks, no relief
Science turning into heat

Sweet treat, stay close to me
Turn that sugar into trouble, baby, patiently
Oven heat, one-two-three
Let it mix, let it rise, let it happen naturally
Ice it, swipe it, don’t be shy with me
Red and green, little bite, little smirk, little “come on, please”
Sweet treat, you’re bad for me
And I’m gonna take my time, before I take you home with me

Dough on the counter, rolling slow and thin
You pick the Christmas shapes, I catch your grin
Stars, trees, and reindeer lined up like a scene
You say “make them pretty,” and you look at me.
Tray slide, timer set, you tell me “don’t you peek”
I act like I’m in charge, but you’ve got me on a leash
We clean as we go, but you keep pulling me back
“Quality control,” you say, and steal a taste mid-laugh

Check the edge, golden brown
We both know what we’re doing now
Wait, wait, let it breathe
Then we’ll see what you do to me

Sweet treat, stay close to me
Turn that sugar into trouble, baby, patiently
Oven heat, one-two-three
Let it mix, let it rise, let it happen naturally
Ice it, swipe it, don’t be shy with me
Red and green, little bite, little smirk, now you’re tasting me
Sweet treat, you’re it for me
And I’m gonna take my time, now come home with me

Cooling rack, but we don’t have patience
Icing bags like little invitations
You draw hearts, I draw lines I can’t keep
You dab some on my lip, then you don’t let me speak
And I finally say it, plain, no disguise
These cookies aren’t the only thing I want to try

Sweet treat, stay close to me
Turn that sugar into trouble, baby, patiently
Oven heat, one-two-three
Let it mix, let it rise, let it happen naturally
Ice it, swipe it, be messy with me
Red and green, little bite, little smirk, now you’re tasting me
Sweet treat, you’re it for me
And I’m gonna take my time, now come home with me

sweet treat

Joseph the white-nose reindeer had a very tiny nose
And if you ever booped it, well, you’d even say it blows
All the other reindeer swore it shimmered when he sneezed
Left little snowmen on the mirrors, on their knees

He said, “It’s just the weather, babe, the air is dry tonight”
Every bathroom line was backing up the hall
Frost on Joseph’s snout, steam rising in the stalls
Everyone sees the snowfall, nobody makes the call

White Christmas, white lies
Frozen breath and dilated eyes
Santa’s knocking, but we’re busy
Deck the halls, get a little dizzy

Ohhh…
Joseph with the white, white nose
Snowfall anywhere he goes
One quick bump, now watch it glow
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

Joseph with the powdered grin
Just one line pulling us all in
Silent nights don’t stay that way
When the sleigh won’t stop till New Year’s Day

Candy canes in glassine sleeves
Angels doing key bumps in the trees
Rudolph’s red feels overdressed
Next to Joseph’s minimalist chic, obsessed

He heard something happening down the hall
Someone laughing, like the night’s about to call
Not chasing powder first, he chases where it’s loud
The snow just helps him keep up with the crowd

Snow on lashes, snow on lips
Everyone swears it just drifts
Carolers outside, inside it drips
From cute to chaos in little bits

Ohhh…
Joseph with the white, white nose
Snowfall anywhere he goes
One quick bump, now watch it glow
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

Joseph, darling, take the lead
Guiding sleighs at double speed
All the gays say “yes, of course”
He’s the reason Santa lost the horse

Not an ad, not advice
Just a vibe, just tonight
Baby it’s cold, baby it’s bold
Baby it’s been… a year

He says he hates missing moments,
The snow keeps him convinced that
He’s exactly where he’s meant

Zip up the coat, wipe off the grin
Swear this is the last time, then
Oh wait, the beat just dropped again

Joseph with the white, white nose
Snow angels in designer clothes
From the club to the after-show
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

History books won’t say his name
But every gay knows why we came
He didn’t guide the sleigh by sight
He just made sure we felt alright

Let it snow…


joseph the white-nosed reindeer

I parked myself beneath the green
Like timing’s something I can screen
Minty breath, a near-miss glance
I weigh the odds before the dance

Tall enough to clear the door
Wrong side of the bedroom war
Gold card, keys, a perfect view
Hairline telling half the truth

I don’t call it fear, I call it taste
I don’t rush what should be fate
Every almost gets erased
I stay

I’m still under the mistletoe
Letting right things pass me slow
If it’s not exact, I let it go
I’m precise like that, you know

I’m still under the mistletoe
Counting flaws like falling snow
Tell me, is it asking too much
When nobody’s ever enough

Gym-built silence, gorgeous frame
Nothing moves behind the flame
Then a face that feels too known
Same sharp smile I see at home

Someone asks us how we met
I dodge it with a cigarette
Another box gets nearly ticked
One loose thread, I pull the stitch

I say patience, I say poise
I say chemistry is choice
Still I don’t step from the glow
I just don’t

I’m still under the mistletoe
Letting right things pass me slow
If it’s not exact, I let it go
I’m precise like that, you know

I’m still under the mistletoe
Counting flaws like falling snow
Tell me, is it asking too much
When nobody’s ever enough

The room moves on without me
I stay framed in greenery
Two I passed lean in, collide
Laughing like it’s not that deep

Hits me quiet, hits me late
Love don’t queue, it don’t wait
I loosen something in my chest
I’m not sure what I meant

I was under the mistletoe
Thinking love should show up whole
Maybe I was holding too close
To a version I outgrew

I step out from the mistletoe
Watch the moment start to move
Maybe love don’t come correct
Maybe it just comes through

mistletoe

RYL GOODBOI

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