midnight journals

bottomless (demo)

stay awhile

help me to look in front of me
keep running past my coldest feet baby
read up your astrology
the only sun i'll ever need 

don’t let me down
I said don’t let me down
don’t let me down on lucid dreams

help me to look in front of me
keep running past my coldest feet baby
read up your astrology
the only sun i'll ever need 
don’t let me down
I said don’t let me down
don’t let me down on lucid dreams

will you help in the bed
when i lose my bonnet
and my titties don’t sit  
and my words don’t make sense
will you reach for the bic    

or comb through all my thoughts and hold me

                 
Wednesday you said i’m all you need
but did you write a song for me baby
i’ll need more than Rodeo sprees
a rodeo i never seen, baby

don't embarrass me

verse1
roads that I wanna go
(and you let me)
threw petals on the floor
(and you led me)

you wanna see me grow 
(don’t need plan b, this is all I know)

chorus:
I’m tryna act like I been here before 
smiling til my face is sore
romanticizing old doors
(cuz they led me to you)

tell me what I gotta do
to keep this in bloom,
you’re pulling my weeds I’m feeling brand new
(and I’d go through it all again to bring me to you)

verse2
distract me from my fears 
still dancing in the mirror 
(I’m right here)
always at your beck and call
you’re mine take that personal, personal

cuz you take my bad thoughts away
wondering if I’m enough today
then you look at me like
the sunny ray, sunny ray 

chorus:
I’m tryna act like I been here before 
smiling til my face is sore
romanticizing old doors
(cuz they led me to you)

tell me what I gotta do
to keep this in bloom,
you’re pulling my weeds I’m feeling brand new
(and I’d go through it all again to bring me to you)


I’d go through it all again, again, again, again, again, again

verse3
patient while I bleed,
gaze when I’m ugly 
still on both your knees
love overflow from your cup
(i’m sippin’ I can’t get enough)
we’re not in a rush
but you’re still my rush
this wouldn’t be knocking up
(how could I be stuck with you?)
I’m better by loving you,
loving you 
loving you

bridge/chorus:
cuz I just didn’t think you would keep me here
(tryna act like I been here before)
now I’m like hell yeah you’d keep me here
(smiling til my face is sore)

cuz I just didn’t think you would keep me here
(romanticizing old doors)
now I’m like hell yeah, you’d keep me here
(cuz they led me to you)

cuz I just didn’t think you would keep me here
(tryna act like I been here before)
now I’m like hell yeah, you’d keep me here
(got me smiling til my face is sore)

and I think I just might let you keep me here 
(romanticizing old doors)

(cuz they led me to you)

in bloom

if this ends..

demos and memos of my poetry for now
if you’re reading this ily ♡

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midnight journals

s4rucho