Just gotta push through no matter what man

who can hook me up with their mental health counselor?..ha

i aint won a battle in my head since this war has fucking begun!!

Spotify version: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6a8moV3pwtbVFJJyQkQwjZ?si=2m8c7GmlSaOebpY9WN-yOg

Songs I have on repeat

Marigold

Complacent (feat. SadBoyProlific)

@sadboyprolific

Put in work until I'm hurting that's what's needed to excel
Lately I aint worry bout nobody but myself
But I remember they aint really give a fuck bout how I felt
Bitch I though I already told you, you should worry bout yourself
2am in LA on the water all alone
4am in Brooklyn while I'm cooking on the stove
Don't know why these thoughts always gotta haunt me where I go
I don't try and hide the pain it just prolly doesn't show
Whether I'm awake or I'm asleep I see a ghost
I hear your voice inside my dreams and it keeps haunting me the most
They said I'm a liability, they try and keep me close
I learned to say the least and let my actions speak the most
Turn this song, trynna take my head off through this scope
But that wasn't the true meaning behind even out the scope
Getting current with the top gotta circumvent the flow
Welcome to the underground this is working with your soul

Yo
Sick of hearing that the best is yet to come , I see
Grass is never green, just another field of mud 
And they say the only way to make it grow is with your blood
And so I grabbed the blade and sliced away like I was fucking drunk
How am I supposed to follow heart and mind
My mind tells me to die
My heart tells me to try
And every single second I'm alive I question why
Got me second guessing every decision in my life like
Was it real? when you told me that you loved me
I don't feel the same about myself i put you way above me
I'm self destructive and i've never been too trusting 
Work all by myself until i make it, i been hustling
Rolling with the mud, and it gets tough in rainy weather 
Keep my head up cause i know this shit aint gonna last forever 
I keep telling myself things are gon get better and I mean it
It's the last thing that you said to me that's written in your letter

Haunted

Spotify

Skitall, SadBoyprolific - Haunted

Ascension OF The KIIING

Ridin'

w/ https://soundcloud.com/sadboyprolific
prod. DatBoiDJ
like + share <3

SPOTIFY

Numb w/ SadBoyProlific & Keshi(prod. datboidj)

art
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sadboyprolific
https://soundcloud.com/sadboyprolific
8rokeboy
https://soundcloud.com/8rokeboy

Raincoat feat. SadBoyProlific (Prod. 8ROKEBOY)

I feel like im going insane but maybe thats not such a bad thing...



Indii G: @indii-g
Rodger : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DD_AXczH8A8

Insane ft. Indii G. (prod. RODGER)

Lyrics:
[Hook]
?
[Verse 1]
ive been feelin sad ive been feelin lonely 
ive been wishin thatd youd come around and hold me
feels like somethings missin even when im with the homies
thinkin back to when you said you loved the old me
i lay in my bed and wish i could go back
wish i wasnt so ugly wish i wasnt  fat
lifes like a ciggaret that shits a drag
used to want it all now i just want you back
i dont live in the present im stuck in the past
love is a drug and i want yours so bad
dont really believe feelings faded that fast
lookin for my heart so im diggin thru the trash
if its just friends then i guess imma be there
gotta learn that lifes not gonna be fair
ive been breathin herbs moe than i breathe air
i fell hard like i tripped on some steep stairs
[Hook]
?
[Verse 2]
i know it ended but my wounds still open
dont know why but im too scared to close em
acting whole but inside im broken
hide my emotions cause im too scared to show them
ridin the wave of life and ive been coastin
our ship got sunk and i stood floatin
knockin back the bottles ill fix it with the potion
but ive turned toxic and oh so potent
i miss you soo much and each day it just hurts
hating mself and i question my worth
maybe a chance aint something i deserve
but im still gonna ask for better or worse
i know you got problems and i cant solve em
but i could be your drug i could try to dissolve em
writing you songs and maybe i should stop it
but writing bout my pain is a habit i cant drop it













prod: @oceanonthebeat
mixed by: @kammichaelmusic

I Miss You... (prod. ocean)

Track thirteen from Make It Through Fall

All production, lyrics and vocals by Lil Xtra

Links:

Spotify

https://open.spotify.com/artist/7j8XINhxkD7WS4efrPxbhm

Soundcloud

 https://soundcloud.com/lilxtraatl

Merch

https://lilxtraofficialmerch.bigcartel.com/

Insta

https://www.instagram.com/lilxtraatl/

Twitter

https://twitter.com/LilXtraATL

Youtube

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYqEuND_ZtclJ6RQzzsPtcA/videos

Facebook

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She says with eyes of stone
The wine is not for drinking 
I thought I’d found my home 
Don’t know what I was thinking 
Summer came and went now 
I made it through the fall... 
You were everything I wanted 
Now I want nothing all

And now winter sits upon me 
And I can’t wait till spring 
The pain will not subside,
But oh, the joy the sun might bring 
And perhaps I will see you 
I really hope I don’t 
Cause you said you’d always be there 
But we both know that you won’t

Cut my hair and change my name 
And tell me “now you look the part” 
Won't you do just as I tell you until 
I can’t tell you apart, 
Why can’t you just be perfect?
Can’t you just fix what’s inside?
Yeah You said you won’t forget me 
I can see how hard..
See how hard you've tried...

Make It Through Fall

Winter

youtu.be/-HaeMbV5UQU
Idleglance video <3

I’m fucked up 
In my room
All Alone
Where are you?
Guess you found out
They Always find out
That I’m fucked 
In the head
Think I’m better off dead
Nothing improves
Not even my mood
And this world 
Hates my guts
Always down on my luck
Maybe one day
I’ll find my way
But for now
I’ll just pout
Guess I’ll see you around
When the spring comes
I hope that spring comes

Da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da dum
Da da da dum

I’m fucked up
All alone
Broken heart
Broken home
Can you feel it
I want you to feel this
When I say you were loved
I know it’s not enough 
But I mean it
Just know that you’re missed
And i hate 
Everything
This life doesn’t mean a thing 
Far as i know
Just let me go
Cause the spring
Never comes
Frozen bones
Blackened lungs
Cause i can’t hide
From cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Spring Never Comes

Lyrics:

[Chorus]
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go

[Verse]
Demons so close I could taste them
Tryna cut em down like Jason
They used to say my flow was basic
Had to come through elevate it
I'm just the kid in the back of the class
Only ok when I'm off of the gas
Smokin' till my vision turnin' black
That's the only time that I relax
Homie I know I got problems
But at least I'm honest
With my homie's sippin' tonic
Yeah I've been off that chronic
Lately my stats been poppin'
'Boutta blast off like a rocket
I feel way to awkward
Never been one for talkin'
Society ain't met for me
This can't be my destiny
Most days I wanna rest in peace
Think God fucked up my recipe
Baby imma psycho I know I'm insane
Just talked to my doctor and he said he can't explain
All the fuckin' problems that he found inside my brain
Yeah you're the reason I wanna die everyday, yeah

[Chorus]
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go

SadBoyProlific  - Time To Go (Remix)

Just Like You Do (ft. Thomas Reid)

Produced by ENRA

LYRICS:

Dont fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Don't fall asleep yet
Promise me you’ll stay here
Are my pictures on you wall still like last year

Don't fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Its been a long time
Miss u around me
When I dream about u r u dreaming bout me


Verse

Dont fall asleep
Im wide awake
I hope that we
Have brighter days
U still have my heart
So don’t let it break
I want u all mine forever
I’ll put my heart on a projector
I wish we settled all the struggles we got into
The best part of my life was with you

Rap

Think about u too much
Trynna fall asleep 
But my eyes won’t shut
Said u need a break
And thats ok
But when u feel alone
Always got my place
Life throws curves
Sorry for your loss
Praying for your peace
When the night feels long
Writing songs for you with my guitar
Leave if u want but please don’t go far

don't fall asleep yet

prod me <3

lyrics:
she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

this is not a tik tok hit, or a mainstream slap
its the hook verse hook on how my heart collapsed
this is not a dance real slow, if you love me don't go
i've been tryna find some peace down every road we go

why do we fight every evenin
i'm sorry i woke you from sleepin
i'm spillin my guts, so my head don't combust
you're the girl of my dreams you're the one i believe in

i went from holdin you close
to someone you used to know
i remember gettin fucked up
i remember lettin go

she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

homescreen

𝕻𝖗𝖔𝖉 𝕷𝖎𝖑 𝖀𝖌 𝕭𝖔𝖎 𝕭𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍𝖍𝖍𝖍𝖍𝖍
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0uhbs3Hq2s
just listen..
LYRICS:
Hey old friend
how has everything been
do you still have the memories from back then
or has time took them from your head 



why do people leave 
actually why do i seek relief 
in people who only mistreated me
love the sense of dependence n needin me
id give the ones that i love all the blood in my body but never be seen as enough
i used to kick with my clique never trip bout a bitch shoving smoke in my lungs
now they just copy me putting out music instead of pursuing the shit that they love 
they havent seen all the sleepless nights i would stay up or the times i would write as id cut
i still have notebooks with pages n pages of verses soaked all in my blood
conversations ii had with myself when no one felt like giving a fuck
contemplations i had  of just giving everything up 
one night i grabbed all my razors and sat there in silence while holding a gun
thinking it wont be so silent when everyone hears what ive done 
squeezed the trigger as hard as i could but the bullet was stuck
etched 20 lines in my skin fell asleep and left life up to luck
im not scared of the dark anymore im in love with it 
spent so much time in it i became one with it
i dont ever wanna see the sun again 
 all i want is to be fucking dead 
leave me roses and violets inside of my coffin 
a knife and an upsidedown cross with 
blood dripping off it 
an ounce n some vodka 
make sure theres a moshpit 
make sure my mom is 
in the middle gettin stomped quick
forall the times she left me n my brother unconscious
 high on drugs coming off it
mixed by@kammichaelmusic
featuring dearly Somber 
prod. Lil Ug Boi

𝕴 𝕹𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 𝕶𝖓𝖊𝖜 𝖂𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝕴 𝕸𝖊𝖆𝖓𝖙 𝕿𝖔 𝖄𝖔𝖚 𝕱𝖙. 𝕯𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖑𝖞 𝕾𝖔𝖒𝖇𝖊𝖗

@sadboyprolific
@le_play

lyrics:

SadBoyProlific:

i hate when im left on my own again
im just a broken kid hoping for someone to hold em quick
lost in emotions and potions this 
is me reaching and you cant even notice it 
you took my heart and then froze it quick
locked up the door and my chest and regret that i opened it 
vision is slow and cant focus i feel like my head is exploding 
shits getting old and my time is approaching 
this is a mindset i think that my minds fuckin broken 
just look at the way that im coping 
ounce nothing less what im smoking
this is the life that ive chosen 
and ive had regrets every step of the way 
puffed up my chest as i left through the flame 
left you for dead and in my head im insane
dead for a red as i bled out in pain

Le Play:
what do you want from me 
this is just honesty cuz honestly ill fall asleep
before it gets hard to breathe 
ill constantly just fall to piece 
you know its hard for me but still you pry so modernly
this is a tragedy or more just like a comedy
keep playing the victim i know all of the lies your tryna sell
im stuck in this room thats full of these mirros all i got is myself
you know i live for the pain 
you know im stuck in the rain 
i do it again and again and again 
and everythings broken and always in vein

boots (Le play X SadBoyProlific)

https://youtu.be/pK5iQpjySIs?si=vXUVLGzcDeRZOxCH

終ることがない苦痛

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Just Like You Do (ft. Thomas Reid)

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