Don’t tell me no stories, don’t try to pretend
I saw you downtown with your tattooed friend
I know what happens underneath the boardwalk
Know it’s a lot more than sweet talk
Shame on you for never being the one who’s on their hands and knees
That will change and rearrange, and you will be the one who pays
***
Everyone will hate your guts, including your own mom
And you will lose all of your friends who let you tag along
And everyone will beat you up and boast of knuckle scars 
And everyone will call you slut and burn you with cigars
***
You think you’re the greatest thing since sliced bread was invented
The way you tear apart the room and when you leave I mend it
Well, I am not your seamstress, you’re not my demolition man
This is not some giant game of catch-me-if-you-can
The upper hand’s a funny thing, it’s fickle when you get it
You let it creep inside you and you clothed it and you fed it
Pretty soon it got too big, it ate up your whole soul
You pushed me every way you could thought you were in control
***
I hope that everyone will hate your guts, including your own mom
And you will lose all of your friends who let you tag along
And everyone will beat you up and boast of knuckle scars 
And everyone will call you slut and burn you with cigars
***
Why did I invest so much in something I can’t hold?
When everything is temporary, possession is so bold
Why can’t I forget to feel these feelings for a day?
Come on, baby, take your best shot, la la lie away
***
Finally, I told him that I’d had the final straw
He turned away, and then I heard a sickening guffaw
He said, what do you think you can do? You think you’re so right
When it’s time tocast the vote, I will always win the fight
***
He told me everyone will hate your guts, including your own mom
And you will lose all of your friends who let you tag along
And everyone will beat you up and boast of knuckle scars 
And everyone will call you slut and burn you with cigars


Knuckle Scars

Life Is Good

Future In Bleak Format

body (in my bed)

I held my breath for so long, I could hardly breathe
I made it so far without ever even screaming 
Grew out my hair to make up for my lack of femininity
Guess I'm not as convincing as I used to think
There must be something that I've done to make  me what I am
I'm looking over maps, creating escape plans
Pretty soon I'll go somewhere and change to what I wanted most
I'll build a little house and settle on the coast

I hope that I can cut ropes to every tie that binds me
Miami in the summer is exactly what I thought it would be

Every time I go along with someone else, it ends the same
Piecing it all out and wondering if it was worth the shame
Count my cards, at least let me keep two to cover my chest
Pull on my scars to see if they stay closed, withstand the test
If somebody told me I'd be here last year I'd laugh at them
Cause it's just the same old thing repeated over and again
I just wanna take a plane to somewhere that I've never been
I'll get a job and make some friends and I will settle in

I hope that I can cut ropes to every tie that binds me
Alaska In the winter is exactly how I thought
Alaska in the winter is exactly how I thought it would be

Alaska In The Winter

Lay your burden on my sunburnt shoulder like a baby in my heatwave car
Ate a lollipop on the way over, now your tongue is colored wrong
Refresh the page every ten seconds waiting for a bigger break
Count the headlights and the turnpikes, count the yellow license plates 
Sifting through your several options, check the texts inside your phone
Ever wonder who you're hurting? You will live and die alone

I heard you wrote a novel/ I heard you're doing well
You made it like you wanted/ I hope your book won't sell
I hope that all your issues magnify in lover's eyes
I hope animals will chase you down dark hidden alleyways

Kibble for your little dog friend, tuna for the tiny cat
Feed them and you might feel better helping out with all of that
I gave up pretty quickly trying to help you with your woes
Never really was invested, tried to never let it show
Quick! Before you lose the spirit, show me all your energy
Try your best to make me love, you never meant that much to me
Quick! Before I catch more feelings, I had better push away
Close enough to make me want you, sad enough to make me stay

I heard you wrote a novel/ I heard you're doing well
You made it like you wanted/ I hope your book won't sell
I hope that all your issues magnify in lover's eyes
I hope animals will chase you down dark hidden alleyways
Alleyways that lead to dead ends
Alleyways that lead to dead ends
Alleyways that lead to dead ends
Alleyways that lead to dead ends

Dead Ends

Time is an asterisk, time is a great eclipse, I’m making sure you won’t love me
In time, you will find that I’m fine, I just wanted to be alone more than anything

I know I’m not the only one who wants to be alone forever
Maybe if you cared a bit more, we could be alone together

I’m fine, I could tell you, I’m doing ok for myself now I’ve 
figured out nothing gets better
I’m ok, don’t have a thing you could tie me down to, and I like that I’m feeling untethered

I know I’m not the only one who wants to be alone forever
Maybe if you cared a bit more, we could be alone together...

Gimme more than what I need I don’t need anything at all 
Gimme what’s in front of me I’ll take it and then spit it out
Stick me in the kitchen cabinet, crawl behind me in your bed
I’m as sure I shouldn’t see you as I am sure my blood is red

alone together

There's nothing to be done about the crick in your neck, no you can't, no you can't get it out
There's nothing to be done about the blood on the sheets, there to stay, come what may, can't get it out
There's nothing to be done about the smell that you left, no matter what perfume I might use
And nothing to be done about the place you left a bruise

Can you be my lover without thinking of me, like I'm learning to not think of you?
Going undercover as somebody who cares while I wander the hall in your shoes 
I cannot be crazy cause I've never been sane, so I cannot compare what I know
Under every song I hear a strong and steady drone

Feelings are deceiving, I can't think of a time when I felt how I wanted to feel
Carrying these feelings is a burdening bomb and I think i may very well fail
Crawl into my ribcage and then pull me apart, breaking bone after bone after bone
I don't mind as long as I'm the house that you call home

Put your hands inside my pockets and I'll warm them up good, using all of the strength that I have
Whisper sweet nothings into both of my ears in a language I don't understand
Kill me with your silence and then kill me again when you say what I don't wanna hear
Say it once again, you wanna make it loud and clear 

I wish I could take the car and start heading out west till I run out of money and gas
Feelings are deceiving, I will watch you undress and I know that this feeling won't last
You will only call me when you feel you've done wrong and you want me to tell you you're right
You fall sound asleep and I will watch you through the night


the house that you call home

You can’t feel it/ Feel when to quit/ You can’t forget/ What hasn’t happened yet
But I can see that this ends badly/ Yeah, I can tell that this won’t end well
We just don’t match/ One tree, one ax/ Don’t get attached/ One plane to catch
Sun and the moon/ Knife and a spoon/ Cut from two cloths/ Flame to a moth
You speak too fast/ No, this won’t last/ I speak too slow/ You like to tell me so
I don’t mind if you waste my time/ And I will waste yours/ Who needs a divorce?
Cause I can see that this ends badly/ Yeah, I can tell that this won’t end well
Two birds, one stone/ Two dogs, one bone/ Two kings, one throne/ Fear the unknown
Cause I can see that this ends badly/ Yeah, I can tell that this won’t end well
**


sun & the moon

Isn't it ironic that the day I leave is the day you decide to need me? 
Dink a gin & tonic, wash down the taste of your tongue till your glass is empty
I am not a sonnet that you've crossed out in ink upon the page
Come on, let's be honest, I mean, do you know your age?

Do you know how to let go? We've been here before
Pretending there's an ending, we keep running back for more 
(x2)

There's always a first time, but the last time isn't quite so cut-and-dry
Hoping for a next time as you fall asleep and memorize goodbyes
Do you ever notice that you roll your eyes when you think that no one's watching? 
Tell me I'm to blame, well, look who's talking

I can't stand it, you're a bandit and we're robbing the same bank
When they take me to the station, I'll have you to thank

(Chorus)

how 2 let go

Punching walls and breaking bones and holding onto hope 
Nothing that I ever said would make you wanna cope
Keep me close and keep me open, now if not tomorrow
Told you all I felt for you in every word I swallowed

You are still In love with her, it breaks, it breaks my heart
You are still in love with her, I know, I know you are
I know, I know, I know, I know

Writing words that I can't read through tears that smear the ink
All this silence gives me much too many hours to think
I am crying all alone and wishing you would hold me
But if you call, I won't respond again cause that's the old me

(Chorus)

Will you burn your arms with lighters getting drunk and high?
Can I still convince myself that silence means goodbye?
When I stood outside your door, I wondered what had happened
Feeling like a whore in rumpled dress and cherry chapstick

(Chorus)

Punching walls and scraping hands on buildings made of stone
Nothing that I ever did would make you be my own
I will quit while I'm behind and hope I've learned my lesson
All I ever wanted was to make a good impression

(Chorus)
I keep bending over backwards just to try and be your girlfriend, and I can't, and I can't, anymore



cherry chapstick

The telephone wires reach to the sky
Higher than I will ever climb
I'm so revived by my fear of heights 
And I will confide fear keeps me alive

The wires that bind, the wires that break
Electricity is blood in my veins
The wires unwind, took all they could take
I'm wired with wine, I'm wired with cake
Sing me a song that will keep me awake
And I'll sing you one that will put you to sleep
And we will be strong cause our lives are at stake
And we will make plans cause that's all we can make

(Chorus)

The telephone calls, the telephone rings
And I am afraid of what my impatience brings
The voice on the line could say many things
And I am prepared for unfortunate themes
The telephone rings, the telephone calls
And I am prepared to hear noting at all
I'm sure if I climbed up that pole, I would fall
And I am prepared to feel nothing at all

telephone wires

Baby Walk

diy until I die
I'm a solo artist creating my own music. Collaborations/ input/ love letters welcome!
I'm influenced by the Velvet Underground, the Mountain Goats, the Magnetic Fields, Neko Case, Sharon Van Etten, Waxahatchee, Mirah, Liz Phair, PJ Harvey.
I play banjo, violin, ukulele, musical saw, bass, keyboards, percussion, etc. 

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