i listen to this song quite often i like it :D

prod @wisssery 
@speedlmt
@sleepywater

even in the end i was nvr worth it
got me feeling down got me feeling worthless
cant you see i struggle god i hope you notice
stutter when speak and now im losing focus

turn the light switch on man its killing me
im barely even half of what i used to be
say ur stuck in the mud but its clear to me
you really wasnt anything you claim to be

im not even hearing what youre saying 
cut through me  
all the lies they leave me aching 
you never understand all the breaking 
break me down to nothing its so fucking berating  
and i dont understand what you say to me 
feeling sick, turn me blue just like an artery 
turn to ice you hit your target, archery 
tryna look forward, find myself but its hard to see

baby in the end i was loosn focus dissapearn act is my hocus pocus
if i was magicionnn i wud b gone in a munite
u aint a part of my life so dnt tell me how to liv it
baby in the end i was loosn focus
my dissapern act my hocus pocus
i open up the portal to hell
and i dont wanna close it
i been livn w satan this the life that i chosen

and i dont want to live now
two shots been lost and im let down
crying out for a lord what you say now
dont need no hope im alone now

even in the end i was nvr worth it
got me feeling down got me feeling worthless
cant you see i struggle god i hope you notice
stutter when speak and now im losing focus

turn the light switch on man its killing me
im barely even half of what i used to be
say ur stuck in the mud but its clear to me
you really wasnt anything you claim to be

magician w/ speedlmt, sleepwater [wisssery x sharp]

produced by soloft
mixed and mastered by me

time is a blessing but cursed all the time
what i would give to rewind 
all of the nights where it felt so right 
they hit like a brick every time 
i still hate going outside 
sometimes I wish I was blind 
still choose to ignore it, but never forget it, and yeah I regret it 

tell me right now
tell me right now
is it nice on the other side of this hell?
i know calling at the worst time’s suicide
let me find out and I’ll tell you what it feels like 



i got a problem with spending my money before it deposits
that is an easy one, i have a thousand, don’t know how to solve them 
please do not tell me you love me if you’re always busy
no ring when im calling 
yeah, not gonna lie, a lot of my dreams involve bridges and falling 
i walk around with my anger a lot 
know it’s not healthy, im learning to stop
i been working OT
chasin a check tryna figure it out 
don’t really feel in control of my life 
and that shit don’t sound right 
only my best in the cover of night
kill every beat and I don’t even try 
on my mind in the middle of the night 
wanna die at the thought, can we go for a drive?
catch a vibe, smoke in the sky
nowhere near great but im feeling alright
all out of time
still gotta try
nothing to lose
so here goes the dive

i'll tell you what it feels like (prod. soloft)

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you
ill make it better for you
ill find a way to change hue
i feel like alien
and i just want to relate
got me going

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

if we're talking about time i wanna cut it down
if its gonna make the wait longer then fuck it all
you're in my mind right now
and i just wanna get to you so i can shut the fuck up
got me going
dont fall down
SINGING EVERYTHING FROM MY HEAD!
its generic
but im simple
when you speak to me you make my legs tremble
i see ghosts in my room
i see ghosts in my room

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone
im so fucking sick of waiting for my life
im accepting the fact nothing happens over night

GHOSTS (Scottysplash)

<3
i cut up our pictures
theyll never last
and even tho i miss you
im never coming back oh

she call me im insensitive
i never mean to hurt tho
she say ima hermit
whatevers coming
i deserve it bro
i smell something burning
the bridges down
and the tables turned
i feel so uncomfortable
no matter what its head to toe
i still got her pheromones
i keep putting her jacket on
ask me how im feeling
i jus fake a smile and knod it off

so im tossing and turning our bridge burnt down
can you gimme one good reason i should stick around yeah
no i wont give you one goodbye
dont know whats ahead of me
so i wont take no ones advice
dont project your shit up onto me
i dont know what i wanna be
and i dont care whos that fond of me
this shit right here is my everything
i need a pen and paper to tell you
all the things i sacrificed in my life for this
itd be a long list with a lot of bullshit right now that i really miss

so tell me what the fuck you mean
i wear my heart all on my sleeve
i open up to everyone i ever meet
and then they always fucking leave
except the last one yeah thats all my fault
i wont blame anyone but myself
i cant drag you down with me if i dont make it outta this fucking hell
that dont mean i dont miss your smile
or the way you looked in my eyes
how the fuck you calling me selfish i was worried bout you the whole time
dont put your faith in me
im a bad bet to gamble with
dancing with the devil at your door with the candle lit woo
issa cold world tell me what your living for
i see the signs everywhere its too hard to ignore
and i hate myself enough for the both of us
just let me go
i swear to god this is never what i wanted
hit my phone i let it ring
sabotaging everything
yeah i lost my best friend and a part of me
i wont see again
still holding on to the last bits
ill make sure the last pieces fit
fucked up in my head but i know one day it wont mean shit

the good the bad and the ugly

spotify

THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY [p. recyclebin+irby]

featuring @decksmusic

produced by 5head and Yeezo

Lyrics:

sunset, not yet, falling again 
cuz i’ve been upset, force fed things that you said 
is my head, spiraling n dying as i’ve been 
trying is violent 
silent as nothin 
face me, baby 
try me and maybe
you can be safety 
cuz it’s on the daily i’m 
dying 
always trying 
to be fighting 
but the truth is 
i’m just tiring 
(pre-chorus) 
and i’ll just waste the night away 
searching for your remedy 
cuz all my luck just seems to fade 
when you’re not here next to me 

(hook)
can i keep you safe in my head?
far away from what wants me dead 
when you’re not here can’t seem to forget 
that i need you closer 
you’re my four leaf clover

waste time
face my
fears all again
its like i back track
snap back
years in my head
so could you tell me something
that i could pretend to care about?

watch the street light
chase my
tail in the night
i’ve got a death wish
headless
nothing is right
i can’t seem to get back up
when my face is in the ground

so hold me
when theres nothing
consoling
i’ve been searching for solace
nonsense is blurring the lines
i can’t do this
through it all in my mind, so

clover (feat decks) [prod. 5head & Yeezo]

【﻿ｉｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ　ｗｏｎ＇ｔ　ｓｅｌｌ，　ｋｅｅｐ　ｏｎ　ｂａｒｇａｉｎｉｎｇ．】

thank you so much for listening.

prod. farber x @jang0x
(additional piano implemented by me)

another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

i cannot leave when the ground has been holding me
weep and repeat, cause the cycle has grown on me
you'll brush it off, "oh he's spittin some poetry"
but really i'm trying my best so you'll notice me
i ain't been up on my luck in a minute
it must be my fault that my health has diminished
but i'll fight my way through this shit to the finish
cause i'm all i got, and it's all i was given
i wish they saw what i see on the daily
but i no longer desire a saving
i've learnt a lot, but i still fuck it over (i always fuck it up)
birds feeding out of my chest while i smolder

i watch them fly away
my intestines in their veins
i'm in an empty space
in a stagnant state

this moment's passing me by
but just whose fault is it this time?
with wings made of sludge
blue is more than just the color it's made out to be
what chilled lips to cave into the temptation of frost
if the truth won't sell, keep on bargaining.
having the upper-hand doesn't determine how many fingers it's broken
but you can assume a lot, right?..
RIGHT?
-
another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

with wings to fly [prod. farber x jang0]

lyrics <3

I'm sick of the bad weather
I ain't gotta lot 2 give but I'm a go getter
maybe I'll get off the shit and then I'll feel better
but thats never gonna happen til my strings are severed

I ain't ever been the type to be a goal setter
I'm a pessimistic kid wit no hope to last out until November
but that shit ain't ever mattered
ima out the 40 to my head and let it splatter
splatter splatter

let the fuckin mirror shatter
put my fist in2 it let it bloody up until my thoughts are scattered
turning up the radio to listen to the police chatter
they just put like 14 rounds into a bystander

ion fuckin get it
how we gonna let em move on when they kill our children
how the fuck we let em sit there and just waste the minutes
when a kid pulled out a gun and murdered 19 students
it doesn't make sense

ion think ill ever understand
how society gon let em slip by wit the shit not go n stand
up for ourselves again
cuz all we do is bitch on social media and make a post about it

I think I could live witout it
but if it wasn't for the internet our message could never be heard
but we can't stop at talking bout it
we just gotta go and put sum politicians 6 feet in the dirt

put em underneath the fuckin floorboards
o u thought that I was done talking? lemme say more
this is what they paid for
to create chaotic tendencies amongst all of the people

they started the race war
just to scare of us each each so we cannot stand and then demand more

this is what they made for
hopin that we kill off every tenant tryna stand against the landlords

stand against the opposition
put me in an odd position
why can't anybody listen
to the shit I have to say

lately I been rockin wit it
maybe we should stop a minute
think about the wrong decision that we as a people made

when we elected the current officials
the things that they vote for are fuckin abysmal
they only care about their own beneficials
and let us just r o t in the mess that they tripled




4 (sorrow bringer)

I hope u love it, enjoy <3

prod. me
https://soundcloud.com/nihil2free on guitar
collab with https://soundcloud.com/bitekivibes
shoutout to both of them for real


lyrics:
i've been trying to fight off this gravity
can't have shit in this life its fucking comedy
seems to be i worked up on my honestly 
were still stressed, nothings left, somethings gotta be up
tell me that you don't give a fuck
i said, "okay see you in bit" 
crushed my hand with a mallet
ditch all my attachments and bring the fucking damage

keeping me up on a late night 
in deep, no sleep in my damn eyes 
you said you missed me i said, "damn right"
can't rest i'm stressed till the daylight

i could use a little bit of closure
fucking up my mental i've been distant and colder
they're so judgemental it sucks my composure
all i have left is what i should have told her

break me down to see myself
i've lost my mind
don't need your help.

now i get it
synthetic how they act around me tryna be my friends its pathetic.
i keep waking up to panic 
suppression locked in, i cant stop it.

gravity.deprived

new cover w the brother @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @nevrfall
=================
original by @sewerperson:
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson/lrt-nevrfall
=================
hope u enjoy <3

LR7 w/ betweentheveinsandi (cover) [nevrfall]

@strivemusicau
@shizukesaaa
@autumndropsdead
@torvamia

(strivesad)
Caught in a cage with this endless pain
caught up to my age now I’m getting paid
Depression stays high and now the feelings changed
pour another bottle all apon my grave

you’ve been building roads
I’m building settlements

I keep craving another fucking serotonin hit
let’s flip the script

I don’t need no alliby
come with me and stay the night
Fighting for my life I think I’m doing fine

Ripped clothes now I’m going home
got these problems cause I feel alone
keep me in my zone

(shizu)
beamer swerving 
cuz i deserve the worst shit
bet she gon hit me up w/ 'love u but this isnt working'
might fuck around my blade till i negate the serotonin
now watch the liquid dripping red off slitted wrists, still frozen
find another guy and leave me dying w/ no notice
no i was never that man but fans in my dms saying im chosen
it gets hard to speak every want when everyone is seeing you choking
when words go wasting the space of audio waves to leaving me broken"

(autie)
my conscious is ever so heavy
i've been so cautious ever since you left
i've been holding myself down, with this self doubt
but nevertheless
i swear that i'll know when you need me
you know i'm right there when you're hearing that ringing
i'm patient a bit, but waiting's a bitch
i wish i could split and fuck up my breathing
but if there's anyone out there like me
smite like a god do and make me undying
bottle my goods for a world that is dying
plenish a helt that is tattered with lies
'cause i see through them every single minute
proof is in my dome, that's why i'm livid
tell me that you love him 'till i'm finished
i repel and let them be forgiven

(torva)
smoke until my chest hurts, til my lungs burn
think ill die soon, think ill go first
now my head hurts, never heard worse
if i lose you, need a gold hearse

never fuck it up, bitch i run it up
i go fucking crazy
til i do enough
keep my tommy tucked, never losing love
think i need some help
fore' i lose my trust

Cage w/ strivesad, shizukesa, autumndropsdead & torvamia [+ Tied For Silver x flesh]

prod by me
enjoy<3

lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

4 (sorrow bringer)

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