from a live jam at Mechanizer Studios located in Norristown, Pennsylvania

Myself on guitar/vox
Ethan Beckman on guitar
Erin McCone on bass
Louis Mocke on drums

shakin

wake up eat work fall asleep
drink and smile won't show I'm weak
how are you? I'm fine I said
feelings come and they go again
yoke so heavy don't want to speak
it's nice to meet you, so good to meet you
I wish I could break you
why don't we face what we should?
if I only could

if I split into pieces would I drift away
or will I be where I stay?
when the roof caves in where will I go?
eyes so heavy they sink in my soul
days so long
yesterday is gone
gone gone gone
I wanna stay
if I only could

dreams we had haunt my head
world so loud try and tune it out
the answers always slip away like water thru my fingers
how I'd hold it near if I only could

If I Only Could

21st Century Picnic

where your heart lies

patchouli

alone

recorded from a moldy basement by myself and Ethan

Pretend

if I cant love you ill give you words to hold in your head
Closer than we could ever get in bed
When you said that life and death might be the same thing what did you mean
Waited for you at the edge of your sleeve
Smiling
Thread by thread
Slowly unraveling the seams
When you said that life and death might be the same thing what did you mean
Playing happy family painfully
Lying tearing breaking and breaking
What’s this aching
Can’t you feel me reaching
Crying so softly
Why won’t you release me
What could I have done but love you
Was I wrong to want to
Innocence like a mirror shatters and cuts you with patterns
Hurt to go on without you but if I cant love you ill give you words to remember

bear