(Saintsinner)
something you have to remember that im here to listen
to your voice like the past on december, im right here tryin
theres something ive always wanted to say, you left me here with the scars, but i don't see any chance
yea i dont see any chance, i dont see any chance to bloom
ive been drowning far away from you
how can this be like this, im curious

ku terbuang, dia beralih
kau yang tersayang, aku sang pengganti
peranku terhenti, goodbye for you kekasih
gali semua benih yang telah tertanam
aku telah sadar aku memang cadangan
usap semua air mata di setiap malam
telah lama ku sembunyi dalam diam
dalam kelam ku bertinggal, titip salam
selamat tinggal untuk dirimu
kan kumulai hari hari tanpa hadirmu
karena bersamamu aku slalu membiru
ku tak butuh dirimu berada di sisiku

(Lzcaa)
its over 
the year we going through together 
what you tryna play a game with me dear
I think we can't start over, it was over 
waste my time to loving u

thought u can loved me even with ma flaw
i thought u will be my romeo but, i just realize dat im not a Juliet
i cant give u enough even try ma best
love was a game for u, now u're cheating on it

we better off alone baby
we better off alone
we're not playin hide and seek but many things dat u hide for me
how far we can go? this time i should go
this game was over, no more xo like a tick tac toe
its over

(Indrawgsa)
Kata ini  lagi tak bisa kuucapkan
Tak ada lagi alasanku untuk berharap,
Saat ini kisah kita terhenti
Waktu bersamamu tak mungkin terulang kembali,.

Mungkin telah tiba saatnya,
Untuk mengihlaskan cerita
Yang pernah ada,
Dalam hidup ku
Saat ini Ku sudah melupakan dirimu

mix&mas by me and Fatur, Indrawgsa

Alternate ft. Lzcaa, Indrawgsa

FromTheSunriseTillTheNightfall (prod. ETERNAL DAY)

will i ever see u again? ft. Wxrif (prod. pekarot x dead yami)

im leaving now
but not forever, ill be back soon as i can

im seeing you with someone else
you dont even care, break promises and go away
but im still for you
comeback if you want to
ill be here still waiting on you

everything gets dark when i see your silhouette
will i be the one to wear the wedding dress with you

im leaving now, but not forever. i'll be back soon as i can. (prod. pekarot)

ive been feel alone
oooooooo
oooooooo
since that day you left me with someone new
now i have to moving on

pergilah kasih
takkan kusesali
semua kenangan yang indah
takkan kulupakan semua

ku pun pergi tinggalkanmu
kan ku mulai cerita baru
terima kasih atas semua
kan ku buang puing yang tersisa
kan ku mulai cerita baru
tanpa ada dirimu

500-days-of-summer (prod. used beats x kmkz)

hanyut +hildanlogic (prod. dead yami)

all i can see/hear (prod. pekarot)

ku tuangkan rasa pedih dalam lagu ini
berharap kau kan dengarkanku kali ini saja
dan ku ingin kau tuk kembali padaku
telah penuh asbak kuisi hanya mengisi kepergianmu

feel like im crashing down
thinking about it all the time
im missing you like hell today
i hope you missed me like i did
when i close my eyes
i see your pretty face
put a smile around your mouth
i got a grin spontaneously

kini kau beku tanpa pernah bercakap denganku
apakah ku yang masih yang sama?
kuingin kau tanyakan itu
tapi dunia berkata lain
ku makin terpaku
terdiam tak berkutik
melihat kau membeku

crashing down (prod. bennykaay)

i can only see your shadow,
when im in my dream.

i couldn't reach you.

semua tinggalkanku. saat semua tak peduli, hanya ku pendam sendiri. (prod. KMKZ)

but now you are free, to go anywhere. fly away, and run beauty.

farewell 2 (prod. bennykaay)

aku takkan pernah menggapaimu
semua rasa yang telah ku bangun
hancur begitu saja kau tinggalkanku

rasa yang ada, semua berubah
begitu cepat, kau tinggalkan semua
kenangan yang tersisa, hanya aku dan bayangan
begitu samar, dirimu dari kejauhan

menghilang / berubah
aku takkan pernah
kan ku tepati apa yang ku ucap

samar (prod. tracyxo)

i walked her home for the last time
"promise me, you'll always feel alright"
and everything that you've said to me,
i'll be fine, right here
i been thinking about us, do you feel the same? like me.
im wishing you got a good life and be free, without me.

sample used:
killedmyself - i walked her home, for the last time
the story so far - navy blue

i walked her home, for the last time. (remix)

kuberikan hati, dan sebilah pisau di telapak tanganmu
dan tusuklah hingga darah itu mengalir di putihnya jiwamu
-milkey, surakarta 2022

terima kasih ft. Milkeys (prod. pekarot)

hope you never forget w/ bar$ (kiv)

i miss the smell of you,
giving me glance,
sometimes i smell it but its not you,
it was only a remembrance
of you,
because they shine like you.

blue sweater that you wore,
makes me even bluer,
saw you with somebody,
i tried to ignore,
you hold his hands,
just do it, more and more.

i went back to the past,
remembering your presence,
like your love/lie in march,
the 13th and the nightmares.

glance, blue sweater. (irby)

seeing blue ft. Disiden

now i dont need you
kubasuh luka ku
tak butuh bantuanmu
hilanglah dan pergi
ku tak butuh hadirmu
semua omong kosong
kau ucap dari bibirmu
semua hanya bualmu
and i should never trust you

baby i give up to trust you
semua yang kau lakukan kurasa cukup sakit
berikan luka tertanam dalam
di lubuk hatiku
sudah cukup kau hempaskan ku jauh

and i should never trust you
semua yang kau ucap
bahwa kau kan menetap
janji manis yang kau buat
dan kini ku sendiri
im better off alone here
ima do my own thing
tanpa resiko sakit hati

youre right tak apa
ku sendiri its okay
this time ill be fine
cuz my lyrics everywhere
and i will never change
gudang garam kubakar
buang semua kenangan
tak tersisa its okay

kau disana
ku harap bahagia
biar luka ini jadi saksinya
so jangan ulangi kebodohanmu
kembali sakiti hati tak berdosa

kau dan aku perna jalin cerita
biarkan semua kenangan berbicara
kita telah usai
there's no chance to deny

aku kan bahagia, tanpamu aki bisa
seperti dahulu kala sebelum ku terluka
biar waktu buktikan
dan kan sembuhkan
ku kan terus berjalan dan lupakan

kau yang pernah indah namun sisakan luka
its time to say goodbye cz baby i will fl

i should never trust you +ryo (sadface x 5head)

no clue

leavemeatrace (nightiger)

[Verse 1:Saintsinner]
i been runnin from everything, tryna free my soul
all these demons round me, surrounding myself in a hole
searching for an esc button, escape from this cruel world
laying my self low,   everything gloom and sorrow
[Verse 1:Rased]
covered in ash my vision gettin blurred 
bove the desk all thing is plurred
mind about some word.suicidal thought
bitch
i need my password 
i keep on livin and i will pass it through
but i can't escape from this world
they tied my soul, found myself low
and they pulled me to a black hole

[Verse 2:Saintsinner]
these demons in my mind, they chasing me so fast
keep dwellin on the past, feel like this could never last
pitch.black.on.my.vision and i feel like like i will blast
put me on reverse, and this will be the last 
i will face, all these mess that i made 
[Verse 2:Rased]
all these voice got me trapped 
they got me like they slapped,
chapped everythin into pieces
seekin for the cure of the disease
torture me like everyday battery runnin out from my feces
try to fight back but they fought me again and again like reverse

[Chorus:Saintsinner, Rased]
the hollow, it drown me, and took my whole soul
ill find myself screaming "fuck" everything is a curse
find the cure by myself, restart every step i took
all these    cigars that i smoke, this is me against the world

T.I.M.A.T.W ft ra$ed (kenshiykari)

untitled +red uzi

if i had a chance to see you one more time.

i'll be fine if im not okay w/ ra$ed

nobody but you. (melik)

rain;

Lil Peep x Juice Wrld type beat.







vocal by Stephanie Kay.

LONER

re-uploaded.
july 2019 i recorded this song but i deleted it for some reason.
-
Its about uh a girl that just broke my heart I try to move it on
Its 3 am sittin down and now im all alone
She left me now then look shes gone and now my wings are broken
Try to fix it up but now you can see my heart is fuckin bleeding
I dont want to talk so they can call me a fucking demon
She know that i need help but look now i dont have a feeling

Aku penawar dan kau beri poison
Tlah ku coba tuk keluar tapi hatiku benar kosong
Kau buatku hancur,  emosiku meledak
Rasa ingin melebur, tapi diriku terjebak
Diriku terlelap dalam cintamu yang gelap
Rasaku tak merasa inginku berhenti berharap
Memori saat bersama, luka lama ingin kulupa
Lenyaplah sana kisah cinta kita berdua
Ingin rasanya kuulang semua cerita
Mulai dari berkenalan hingga kita berpisah

Hatiku sedang tertatih tapi kau tidak peduli
Ingin ku sudahi tapi ku harap kau kembali
Apapun yang terjadi ku ingin kau ada disini
Temani hari buatku jatuh hati lagi

prod ocean

memories.

maafin anakmu mah, pah.
-
[aq (Saintsinner)]
Genap 18  hidup pun terasa keras
Pada umur 11 aku pikir hidup bebas
Senang, tenang, riang, laut luas terbentang
Penuh cahaya terang indah menyala

Umur 15 aku mulai membangkang
Bolos sekolah, cabut terus terus berkala
Pergi cybercafe, main billiard pula
Pelajaran aku skip, aku pikir itu salah

Umur 17 aku sudah lulus sekolah
Dengan nilai pas Pasan aku mulai daftar kuliah
ISI seni rupa, mimpi tidak bisa
Aku tak putus asa akhirnya masuk swasta

Selang satu tahun aku terus berjuang
struggle terus jalan penghasilan pun tak ada
Ekonomi hancur merasa gagal jadi manusia
Perlahan namun pasti percaya pasti bangkit

[Dia (Kane East)]
long gone better get that long haul
so long draining my soul left me unknown
growing up lost one step feel exhaust
faith fade away, afraid dead, keeps me wake

driving my car, ride on this dreary night
under pressure woried for shifting light
feel misbehave cant even doin right
hop on this wave hoping for brighter night

life aint easy, find my self worth
cant guarantee, let my self hurt
hope someday, hate my self less
woke up great, joy my life bless

ndue ndaz mumet, ra ndue ndaz wagu. (ft. Kane East)

Everyday i used to feel like this
Feeling all alone
Everything is bloom
Since the first day i met you
Ive been falling love
For the first time i saw you

Do you know I'm alive in this world?
When you left me alone for that boy
That never loving you like I used to
Will you receive all my letters?

Keep writing and the paper is full
I don't know what to say the point' is
I Miss you and still missing you
I keep blame myself hate the way i life
I don't wanna end this why don't you call me
Hit me on the phone youre my favorite flower
In my garden of love, I still choosing you
Youre the one that I wait, I still waiting on you
Still waiting on you

Night never be the same without you I'm a fallin toy 
Wish you remember every moment That we made at my little home
Wish you here know I'm around
I just wanted to be found
Hold your hands for the last time
So don't go away from my side

Mixed & Mastered by 17Eira
 prod by splashgvng.

loveletter (ft. Vlame)

girl dont be afraid cause ill be here with you
ill stay on my lane here is where i belong for you
im here for you always for you
talking to me whenever feeling down

aku disini untuk dirimu terasa hampa tanpa hadirmu
tanpa dirimu aku tak tahu bagaimana kujalani hari
ye ill be here, dont go away
stay with me i know we both can make this be the last

///

all the time we had, all the tears and laugh/
can we both not to ignore all the pain/
so we can stay for forever/
rain in december reminds me of you/
pain in november was never be cool/
can we still be like this till i die?/
can you stay with me, tho we'll never cry/

kini kusandingkan cinta dengan maut/
saat tak ada lagi hati yang bertaut denganku/
denganmu, pilihan yang tepat untuk bersatu/
bahkan kata mati tak bisa membunuh/
cinta yang kupunya.

produced by Saintsinner

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