Wrote this one late at night when I couldn’t shake a certain feeling — like I was standing between who I used to be and who I’m trying to become after losing someone very close. The lyrics came out raw, almost too real, but I kept them that way. Didn’t overthink the production either… piano, strings, a few touches here and there — it just felt right. Kai’s vocals hit this delicate balance I didn’t even know I needed until I heard it back.

This one sat on private for weeks while I tried to pull it apart, but I couldn’t bring myself to change a thing. It's not perfect, but it’s honest — and maybe that’s the point. Hope it finds the ones who need it.

[Verse 1]There's a part of me I've lost tonight She smiled just to stay alive Kept it cool, played the game But deep down she wasn't the same[Chorus]And I still feel her late at night Like a ghost I never fight I'm not who I was, not quite brand new Lost in the shift between the two It's not broken, but it's not clean I'm still stuck in what I mean[Verse 2]Used to say yes just to make it end Bit my tongue just to not offend But peace doesn't come that way Had to leave just to stay And the hardest part is not letting go It's not knowing where to go[Chorus]I'm not who I was, not quite brand new Lost in the shift between the two It's not broken, but it's not clean I'm still stuck in what I mean[Outro]And there's no reset, no clear goodbye Just a softer voice and clearer eyes And maybe that's enough for right now Just breathing in without the doubt I'm not who I was, not quite brand new Still finding space to pull me through It's not perfect, but it's real And that's the part I finally feel

Not Who I Was

J’en veux toujours plus

Dead Flowers

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Tradition Of Closure

Left In Last Year

Homemade Pallet Town

Mix and Master by Brody Mckeegan
Art by @thatohorra
Cover by Auras
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L Y R I C S
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(it goes something like)
Whoa
imma keep on surfin'
I don't wanna get lost in the current
trouble from the past keeps returnin'
like a double sided candle I got two ends burnin

I haven't felt happy in a long time
(I dont even remember what it feels like)
I only get manic and its not fine
(I only get manic and its not fine)
they say the shit runs in my bloodlines
(they say the shit runs in my bloodlines, baby)
or maybe its something from a past life
(I just really hope that some of you relate to me)

(it goes something like)
Whoa
imma keep on surfin'
I don't wanna get lost in the current
trouble from the past keeps returnin'
like a double sided candle I got two ends burnin
[James Colt]
Whoa
what am I doin?
no clue, but I gotta keep movin'
whoa
imma keep goin
through this life and through all of these emotions
lost in your eyes and im caught inside your trap
caught inside the tide and theres no turning back
try to ride my wave I bet that you'd just collapse
and thats facts

Whoa
imma keep on surfin'
I don't wanna get lost in the current
trouble from the past keeps returnin'
like a double sided candle I got two ends burnin

W A V E L E N G T H  ft. James Colt  [Prod. Dj Khaled's Son]

in flames

@decksmusic x @ejcarrmusic

produced by @splashgvng and @sainttomorrow

pretend (w/ decks)[prod. splashgvng x saint tomorrow]

First single off the EP, "Liminality: Volume II" out February 26th

"I'm trying to let them know, that in this whole world, there's at least one person who cares about them"

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