This is the first song I've written in years. My partner in crime is my friend, Jan Dizon :)

It's an homage to everyone who has loved and had to said goodbye to all those years.

Pardon the static and the rain, we just recorded outdoors. Sort of a jam.

THE START OF THE END

This is the start of the end 
A goodbye to all those years we’ve had 
Gray skies set the stage 
As we start to make our exits 

Wounded and scarred we have become 
The angry fights and silent cries 
We tried to make amends and repair 
All this madness 

And if you ask me what’s on my mind 
As we peel the memories off these walls 
And we put them in boxes to be forgotten
 I’ll say… 

CHORUS
 Those were the years we laughed 
The years that we cried 
We made peace with demons inside 

Those were the times that we lost 
The moments we found 
And we grew our wings to fly 

One by one we relive our days 
Of time gone by 
As the sun sets on everything we’ve had 

We’ve been ravaged by the storms 
And blown away to opposite sides 
Seems we weren’t strong enough
 To withstand all the hurting inside

 CHORUS 

And in my head are a million questions
That no longer need to be answered
 I’m sure you have your own	 
And if you ask me, I’ll say… 



The Start of The End

Our second original song...

Again, pardon my voice, the static and the rain.

Paalam Na.

a  higher version... Just trying out the possibilities with the song. Let me know what you think.

Start of The End new version

a slower version of the song, In my head, Radha sings this song.

Paalam Na...

my reading of Katrina Tamondong's piece on Thought Catalog...

http://thoughtcatalog.com/katrina-tamondong/2014/02/dear-future-lover-of-mine-i-hope-i-dont-meet-you-anytime-soon/

Dear Future Lover Of Mine, I Hope I Don’t Meet You Anytime Soon
FEB. 10, 2014
By KATRINA TAMONDONG


Dear You,

I don’t know your name. I don’t know who you are or where you are or when we will ever meet. I don’t know whether or not you are already in my life somewhere. I don’t even know if you exist in this lifetime. I’d like to believe you’re walking this earth someplace, but sometimes I’m not sure if I even believe in the idea of fate and romance anymore. Maybe you can save me from myself.

If you are in this lifetime and on this planet though, I hope I don’t meet you anytime soon. I have a lot to learn and I will probably hurt you, because I don’t know yet that you are the one who will make me happy.

I’ve been through a lot. But while I wish you could have been there with me, I know you will be proud of me because of how strong I turned out to be and all the things I made it through without you. See, I had to be alone for a while so I’d know what I’m capable of. And so I’d appreciate having someone like you more.

I like being single right now because all my time is mine. I need to be single for a while so I will not regret not having this kind of freedom in the future. When I’m yours, I’ll be completely yours because I had this time to be mine.

But sometimes I miss being in love. There are days when I wish you can get here faster just so I can have the kind of love that I’ve been waiting for since what feels like forever. But I guess it’s better that you’re not here yet because I don’t know how to be with you right now. I’ll probably say a lot of really stupid things and scare you away.

You won’t just the love of my life, you will also be my best friend in the world. I’d always thought of all my old loves as best friends at the time, but I don’t think I ever really knew what that meant. I love that I will be able to tell you anything and everything and know that you will be the one person in the world who understands.

We won’t always get along and we will more-than-possibly get into some really ugly fights, but I know that in the end, we can make it through because nothing is more important than learning and growing together.

We are probably different people with diverse interests, and that’s a good thing. We will make time for what is important to the other because we like making each other happy. Of course, there will be things that we enjoy doing together. We will spend some days curled up with a blanket and books or popcorn and a good movie. Braveheart will always be a favorite between us, and reruns of FRIENDS will take up some of our lazy Sundays. But we will spend most of our time going around the world together, seeing places we’ve only once dreamed of traveling to.

We both love to talk and laugh, and we will spend a lot of our time getting to know each other. Even when we’ve been together 20 years, we will always find something new about the other or reminisce about the people we once had to be to get there. And while I will probably roll my eyes at your jokes, I will also smile just because it’s so cute how you tried to tell the punch line.

You’ve probably loved a girl (or more) before me, and that’s okay. I’m sorry though if you’ve gotten hurt and I wasn’t there to make you feel better. I’ve been in love before you, too, and I’ve also gotten my heart broken and feel like nobody could really understand. It will take a long time before I can let anyone else in again, and maybe you feel the same way. It will be better to find each other after going through all that, just so we will both know how to not take being in love for granted.

We’ve both become better people separately, something I will always be thankful for. And because of all the pain we have to go through before we meet, we will both realize then that we deserve that happiness and we deserve each other.

I don’t know what you look like but I know you have kind eyes and a genuine smile. I don’t know what you do for a living but I know that you will have time for me. I don’t know you, but I know that you can give me hug when I’m down, hold my hand for no reason and kiss me just because you love me.

There’s a possibility though, that you don’t exist, and I’m writing this letter for no one. But in spite of all the cynicism I’m entitled to, I have to believe that you’re out there somewhere. I have to believe that all the heartache I’d ever had to endure will someday lead me to you. I have to believe that God created you because He knew I would need you. And while I know I’m a complete person on my own, I have to believe that someone like you exists, someone who might not complete me, but can make life better. More beautiful. More colorful. A man who can make me believe in love again.

I don’t know who you are or if I’ll ever find you, but I wish with all my heart that you’re out there, waiting, just like I am.

I know that someday I will find you. In this lifetime, or the next, I will find you.

Yours (someday),
Me 

Santi Obcena