lil happy lil sad

@lilhappylilsad @yngkms

I'm jus lookin @ my life n im failed
I'm jus lookin @ myself n i drain
I'm jus cutting til i can't feel the pain
I jus cut her then we smoke on some flame
i look back n fucking everything has changed
she said she loved me and i couldn't say the same
i ran away n did some drugs yeah I'm ashamed
i knew she loved me when she kissed me in the rain

you say you love me but what for?
I say give me reasons but you won't 
you say you want me but you don't
if u dont need me whats the point
was a fool for all your lies
cut the pain out on my thighs
you don't look me in the eyes
pop some pills and pray I die
got some loud fading in the rain
i thought he loved me when he kissed me on my face

shame (prod. killedmyself)

@lilhappylilsad @imsoalone

i feel no shame, girl im a no name
if i go my own way will u still stay
if i ever have to go will u let me
switchin lanes, if i fall will u help me

you is always on my mind cant believe it
how i tried to make u mine and i reached it
and im still getting high cause i need it
on the surface i am fine, whats beneath it

am i dreaming, girl whats our reason
i try to find myself in here like girl whats my meaning
feel like im sleeping, get low from my feelings
get high to relieve it, i fly and im leaving

i feel no shame, girl im a no name
if i find my own lane will u still stay
im beaten down, and i cry i cant feel shit
then i look into ur eyes and i feel it

u remind me of the good times, u remind me how i used to feel
u get me ridin on some good vibes, u remind me how it used to be
u remind me of the good times shawty give me good vibes bitch is real
u put me in a good mind, shawty give me good highs and its all surreal

no name w/ solonely (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

i cant run can u help me
im so lost baby save me
i just want u to crave me
ur my drug why u playin

i cant feel baby
ur not real baby
all these tears baby
all these years
if i let you go will u feel alone
would u want me back
would u even care

baby trust me tho
i just cant be yours
bitch i feel so low
demons in my core
know u hate them too
but they hate me more
they always bring me down
they always make me fall

u always try while i fuck it up
u know i cry cause im so fucking numb
u know i try but im so fucking dumb
u know ill die and i will let you down

the voices tell me to kill myself
i wanna do it cause i live in hell
they always scream, always in my head
they wont leave till im fucking dead

save me (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@poppytears @lilhappylilsad @killedmyself

poppy tears:

I told you its in your head
you never believed what I said 
but I knew you never would
yeah I knew you never would 
And now Im gone now Im gone
now Im gone
you can play my fucking songs x 2 
no the boy cant do it wrong x 2
when you left me that day 
now look who Ive become
look who Ive become x 2
please just make me numb x 2

lil happy lil sad:

pls jus make me
numb

no i told u it's in my head
when i drown and i drop down dead
i got loud n i put that in my brain
i got loud jus to numb the fucking pain
i cant breath girl i cant get out of bed
i cant breath i cant get u out my head
i cant feel baby stab me till im dead
stop talkin cant remember what you said

poppy tears x lil happy lil sad - make me numb(prod. killedmyself)

@lilhappylilsad

i got bud
i got mud
i got anything ud ever want
i got love
i got blood
pour it up from my wrist im a drug

if u want
let me take u
to my town
i can help you
fell in love
girl i want you
take some drugs
know you want to

i just want u to feel everythings fine
i just want u to stand by my side
i just want u to get high all damn night
i just want u to fuck me and cry

im tired, I'm so sick of this shit
im so tired, but ill never quit
cause i know that u know what i do is too lit
cause u stayed w me all night wiped blood off my wrist
suck my dick

lil drug (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

girl fuck who youve become
i still hate on who u were
u would always do me wrong
i was always drippin blood
baby u could never see, how u laid the blade on me
tryna fight the shit i feel, but some scars just never heal

yeah u did me wrong
so i made some songs
tried to numb the pain u gave me but the numbness never lasted long
yeah u did me wrong
w some other boys
and i tried to get me high like all the time but didnt work that long

im sorry, i never wanted u to hurt
like boy, im sorry
its behind us now lets skrrt and write our story
cause i love you and u love me please dont worry
please dont worry

shes like 4 am, wide awake and writing love notes
thats just who i am, i cant sleep girl i just want u
yr my only friend, u just get me like i get u
u fucked up back then, its okay girl know i love you 

make me whole again, i got blood all on my nightstand
im fucked up like damn, im so lost please take my hand and
let our love expand, fuck what anyone think
they dont know what we have, they dont know where we been

numb the pain (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

i dont wanna go dont make me do it
your numbers on my phone but i could lose it
i dont understand why you keep lying
burning down the bridges where youre standing

one day you showed up and you just took me
one day ill give up so girl dont push me
you used to patch me up when i was bleeding
now u deal the cuts but im still breathing

yeah u picked me up
saved my life
patched me up
all the time
yeah u picked me up
took the knife
u would cut me up
save me now

still breathing (prod. lilhappylilsad)

s/o everyone supporting me i appreciate you so much

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

no time, so stressed
i just wanna die im only positive in drug tests
so high, deep breaths
white sauce baby drippin down your skinny breasts
i cry, she left
now i count every second till im fuckin dead
more smiles, feel less
im alive baby but ive been so close to death

im alive but ive been so fuckin close to death
i get high to get rid of all the fuckin stress
coming down and i know that im a fuckin mess
cutting ties baby and i never have regrets

fuck fake people, fake friends fuck you
wish i didnt waste my time nah i hate you
and ive been on my shit, feeling good without you
fuck my old gang bunch of fucking see throughs

I wish I didn't waste my time I fucking hate u
baby please come home again I'll break too 
and I don't want to live alone without you
Even though I tried I'll fucking doubt you 

I dont wanna be alone
I'll try this one more time and then im on my own
I just wanna feel your touch want you to come back home
everything will be alright but I'm just so alone
please don't call my phone
I can't do this on my own

I just wanna feel your touch
you said you fucking loved me I can't feel your love
the times you said you cared you couldn't give a fuck
and now my arms are bleeding cause my wrists are cut
bitch I'm out of luck and I'm just so fucked up

and I don't wanna live alone without you
I swear to god I fucking hate you
I promised you the world I fucking gave you
your heart never left my hands I'm faced to

shatter it to pieces all again
your skin was so soft you're always running through my head
I just can't believe those fucking words that you said
shred through me like bullet i wish I was fucking dead

no time, so stressed w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad @nciku
cover art: instagram @coverartplug

what was i supposed to do
i made u feel so sad i know
if u want to u can call my phone
you dont have to cry alone

nah ion wanna cry alone
nah ion wanna die alone
and ion really feel at home
walkin down a lonely road

im walkin down this lonely road with you
i feel like everyones against me girl but you
i feel like everythings against you girl but me
its like you and me against the world for real

what was i supposed to do
i made u feel so sad i know
if u want to u can call my phone
you dont have to cry alone

i got a broken heart and lots of dreams
i got suicidal thoughts and lots of weed
i always light it up to get relief
i have to light it up to get some sleep

lost dreams (prod. nciku)

@lilhappylilsad @nciku @memuryboy
cover art: instagram @coverartplug

i hope that youre alright girl, yeah i pray you're well
I've been worried all damn night girl pick up ur cell
i cant shake this fucking feeling that somethings wrong
i tied some rope to the ceiling & i put it on
please hit me up and tell me that youre fine
i dont wanna die girl ive had enough tonight
stuck inside my mind dying on the inside
i get high all night cause i fucking hate my life 

and i miss u
nothing else is on my mind girl let me kiss you
i just want u by my side and guess i got you
falling stars look in the sky and make a wish boo
i swear they come true
yeah i miss u
nothing else is on my mind girl let me kiss you
i just want u by my side and guess i got you
falling stars look in the sky and make a wish boo
thats how i got you

yeah i miss u
baby call me
i never listen
and im sorry
if i came back
would u love me
girl i smoke thrax
baby join me

yeah i miss u
yeah i miss u so
baby please don't go
I'll be waiting home
yeah i miss u so
baby please don't go
I'll be waiting home 
yeah i love you boo

falling stars (prod. nciku+ultraviolet)

produced by haruhi
with lil happy lil sad

lie to me (with lil happy lil sad)

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

lil happy lil sad:

obligations stacking up
lust to live is dropping down
all these feelings fuck me up
breathing fast I'm getting numb

want you to just feel okay
i just make u run away
find u crying with the blade
i know that I'm the one to blame

let me wipe the blood streaming down your legs
fucking up with all the words that i fucking say
sometimes i cant control what i fucking say
i need you to just know i will always stay

9tails:

sometimes i cant control what i fucking say
i need you to just know i will always stay
i could hold your hand as we run away
or i could hold my tears as you walk away

running out the door while i scream your name
we need some time apart thought youd feel the same
i dont like the thoughts running through my brain
and i dont like your eyes looking through my face

weed smoke in my neck
send a text 
then i pass out

hit me back
like we should chill
but girl its bad out

we could smoke
and watch a movie
here at my house

or i could ruin all we have with words from my mouth
screaming

stay w/ 9TAILS (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

i know i did before but i dont fuckin love you no more
you made me hate myself girl did you love me at all
i tried to kill myself girl you wouldnt pick up my calls
i know you knew what i was doin but u wanted me gone

i dont care cause someone else is fuckin waiting for me
she got everything you dont she is all that i need
see me smile see me rollin see me smoking my weed
cant believe i wasted time cause now im starting to heal

ever since u fuckin left ive been moving my ways
makin music everyday helps me handle the pain
makin music everyday is a highway to fame
i dont chase but i want it girl remember my name

ill be one of them
youll never see me girl again
if i dont kill myself
the scene is mine girl my revenge

my revenge (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad @killedmyself
yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXnl7eGno48

if that is what u want i will leave u be
but next time that u need a hand dont come to me
baby im just out here tryna smoke my weed
i dont even need u truth is u need me

people hit me up they want me on their beats
last year they ignored me so i tell them leave
now they want my clout so they acting real
never hit me up & i might let u live

now they acting friendly like im fucking dumb
u think u being smooth u a fuckin bum
i see what u are doing bitch dont fuck around
you never stay around when im feeling numb

leave (prod. killedmyself)

@lilhappylilsad @poppytears @kuroimetsuyu
yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPqGaMUym5U

i wake up every morning
with a feelin that im drowning
in my visions i make money
in the present i have nothing

thats the reason im still grinding
im addicted to the rhyming
i make music when im dying
so the musics never stopping

wanna die when shes cutting
i cant stand when shes bloody
im in love with the body
that my girl treat so badly

wanna die when shes cutting
i cant stand when shes bloody
im in love with the body
that my girl treat so badly

when shes cutting w/ poppy tears (prod. kuroime)

@lilhappylilsad

yt: https://youtu.be/TZGW-dOO3sw

i met u / & my heart froze / ye / but for once i wasnt cold / my whole world / it was put on hold / ey / i could see us both grow old / i had visions for it all / and it made me want u more / i said baby take a chance with me / and im forever yours / i said girl we could get rich / we can sing lets make some hits / u said sure and took my hand / been recording ever since / it was me and u alone / no one was supposed to know / now they bumpin all our shit / acting like we owe them more / but i guess this is the life / that we chose it stress me out / but its slowly getting better / and i love that we got clout / we had nothing but each other / when we first was starting out / look at how they talking now / acting like they know us now / they dont know / they dont know shit / they dont know / they dont know me / only u / fucking know me / only u / really know me /

babe i miss u when youre not with me 
i think about you fkn constantly 
want u to fulfill your dreams with me
i know we'll make it they'll see

babe i know you have it tough 
i know that life's not enough 
but baby trust me it gets better 
i know im the one for u forget her

only u (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

music video: https://youtu.be/qSVPoTjlw-8

she told me i was nothing n it hurt
she used to make me happy n feel special with her words
i tried to shed some light on all the dark inside of her
she used to be my everything and now im off the drugs 

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

always in my bed i made her leave me here alone
screamin at her crying i would point her to the door
all i ever want is her to be here when im low
i try to act unbothered but i end up hurting more
x2

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

lil happy lil sad

Santiago Gallegos