Selenite

lyrics:

Lately im having doubts about the fast life and my health
People I know get worried about the way that I been treating myself
My mom told me she scared for when im all on my own
And my friends get tense whenever I dont pick up the phone
Now im in New York City in this apartment alone
And I know I dont talk too much but life gets hard
If our words could damage Id be covered up in scars
But baby im just like u if we were standing in the dark

I feel like I failed one too many in my life
If u cut me lose in these times well u were right to
I cant love no more I felt so bad when u tried to
Cause really I love u dearly I just dont work how im meant to
Please pass the blunt im gonna smoke till im sleepy
And im pouring cups of liquor while they hit me kinda creepy
Im just tryna relax inside this party but I cant now
Because how Ive lived my life thus far im unable to turn down

If I die and they tell me what im worth now
Im pretty sure ill be owing shit first now
I am so wavy I spill shit on my shirt now
I cant pick up the phone cause im in turks now
Lately im having doubts about the fast life and my health
People I know get worried about the way that I been treating myself
My mom told me she scared for when im all on my own
And my friends get tense whenever I dont pick up the phone
Now im in New York City in this apartment alone
And I know I dont talk too much but life gets hard
If our words could damage Id be covered up in scars
But baby im just like u if we were standing in the dark

Im not me in the slightest
And she had just wanted to fight
She told me
But I won’t stay here and rot
Ill just love me for once now
Why would they choose me go for peak instead
I cannot get that paragraph from my head
I wonder if u think about me in bed yea
Im not bad my angel wings just made of lead

If I die and they tell me what im worth now
Im pretty sure ill be owing shit first now
I am so wavy I spill shit on my shirt now
I cant pick up the phone cause im in turks now
Lately im having doubts about the fast life and my health
People I know get worried about the way that I been treating myself
My mom told me she scared for when im all on my own
And my friends get tense whenever I dont pick up the phone
Now im in New York City in this apartment alone
And I know I dont talk too much but life gets hard
If our words could damage Id be covered up in scars
But baby im just like u if we were standing in the dark

infraRED (taylor morgan x punk)

hold the applause
produced by @prodbybrody
featuring @sewerperson
mixed by nine to 5 and sewerperson

lyrics:
both:
so won't you hold the applause
cause its all that i got
i know its not a lot, but it feeds me the strength that i would need to move on

nine to 5:
I did all the things that i said i would
Try to push me to the side but you never could no
I’m breaking through the walls it’s competitive
Now im taking to the bottle like a sedative woah

After all of this time and i still get it wrong
I won’t tell you what you wanted hear no more
Yeah you played me a game tryna get up the score
But i aint finished yet i’m still coming for more

So won’t you hold the applause
Cuz its all that i got
You tore it apart
It was doomed from the start
Fallin for your mirage 

Falling from nothing
But oh its so exciting
To go
To these places i aint been before
You took hold my body sunk it into the floor

going insane, my body is sore
i feel a lot different than i did before
seasons have changed, i'm closing these doors
i'm burning these bridges can't take anymore
so take all i am, i'll do what i can
but nothing will satisfy you in the end
but i understand, it's all gone as planned
you fucked up my head but i'll take what i can

sewerperson:
Seventeen nights in the grip of cold hands
Baby i try do u right while u just doing what u can
Wails heard thru the night from somewhere deep inside the branch
Toss out a flare we can light up the world
Ash floats thru the air as this fire unfurls
Tell me how this shit compare to a night better spent
Watch The banshee touch down on to the charring grasslands

Won’t you hold the applause
Cause its all that I got
I know its not a lot but it feeds me the strength I would need to move on
With her taste on my tongue
And my hand on my heart
I cant be what u need but I swear on my life I will be what u want
With the grace of a wisp
She comes right around and attaches to my hip
She whispers are u scared and I said maybe just a bit
U know I cant lie when u look at me like this
When u look me in my eyes
I know u could see into my soul into my mind
U know I know I could never get away with lying
That’s why its the truth that without u id rather die

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nine to 5 - hold the applause ft. sewerperson (prod. brody)

9tails - rude (prod. Jack Stotland)

9tails - i got a headache

[Intro]
I been—

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (I just wanna feel alive)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine
I won't find another human like you in my life, yeah (In my life)

[Verse 1]
Catching photos, where'd the time go? (Where'd it go?)
Facebook memories from the last snow (Last snow)
Strive for times where I won't answer to employers (No employers)
Work and music keep me busy, I don't know her (I don't know her)
Baby, get to know me, I wish we'd get closer (Get closer)
Gain connection then start breaking down the borders (Breaking down the borders)
Way back, way, way back (Way back)
I forgot the loving and I never got it back (Never got it back)
Playlist, crybaby face tat
Knew that you were something special
When you told me that it slap (R.I.P.)
I keep tasting shit when I breathe (Tasting shit)
Pull it nice with the bong, need it to be clean
Gold ring on my nose, gold ring on my finger (Ring on my finger)
Ballin' up in the Northface, loud hit the coat and it linger (Linger)
She said she wouldn't call me a singer
But all my shit fucking slaps
Baby, call me whatever
Fuck the neutron, I gotta blast

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (Ooh)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side (Ayy, woah)
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine (Yeah, yeah, ayy)
I won’t find another human like you in my life, yeah

[Verse 2]
What would you call me (What would you call me?)
Smoking on palm tree (Palm tree)
Hair look like shiitake (Mushroom)
Bars icy like hockey

[Open Verse]

9TAILS - connect (prod. yusei)

[Intro]
(Beam me up Scotty)
Woah, ohh
Yeah, uhh, uhh, uhh (Uhh)

[Chorus]
Same old fleece
Same old jeans
Same old club with the same old team (With the same—)
Salmonella with the same old beef
Shoot the same old shots
In the same sub tweets
Same old tears
Same old scene
Same old thoughts
Same old stream
But I'm bringing new waves from the same old me
Same old weed from the same brown leaves

[Verse 1]
I just want you—want you to feel fine
Heard you will take to the grave, fine, yeah
You needa unwind
Don't have to be [?] red eyes, yeah
Blow that smoke, make you choke
Yeah, you will wake but now you been woke
Held her throat when she spoke
Sleepin' on words, baby, jus let 'em go, wow (Ohh)
I'm on loose
Lock all the doors, I got nothing to lose (Lose, lose)
I'm looking for food
All of this music keep draining my juice
Chasing my visions and changing my views (Changed that)
This shit is not what I'm used to
All of the ways that I used to move
Faded away in the process
Faded away in the progress
Got no eyes and no name, yeah
No path and no pain, yeah
No loss and no gain, yeah
I'm somewhere in the empty space between
I remember him and never rang a bell, yeah (Ring, ring)
Allow me to ring a bell for my same old self and I

[Chorus]
Same old fleece
Same old jeans
Same old club with the same old team (With the same—)
Salmonella with the same old beef
Shoot the same old shots
In the same sub tweets
Same old tears
Same old scene
Same old thoughts
Same old streams
But I'm bringing new waves from the same old me
Same old weed from the same brown leaves

[Verse 2]
Let the street light guide us back home
I can't go alone, I barely stand on my own
It's an alright, fuck though
Summer night, I'm pourin', cryin' out on a sideroad
Tight rope living
Worn night tight visions, ayy
Like, water through the forest
Man, I might go missing, yeah
Cellphone digits don't work out
Where we heading?
I got ounces at the cottage, yeah
Trade off for the coverage, yeah (Ohh)
Wearin' these boots
Making these moves
I ain't want fashion
Might cop shoes
Might cop Bape
But I might cop blue notes
Open up shop when I open up new tones
No new phone, bought a new EQ and my headphones
Homie like Pichu if I'm like Raichu
Rap game, Thai food
They just wanna bite dude, fuck you

[Chorus]
Same old fleece
Same old jeans
Same old club with the same old team (With the same—)
Salmonella with the same old beef
Shoot the same old shots
In the same sub tweets
Same old tears
Same old scene
Same old thoughts
Same old stream
But I'm bringing new waves from the same old me
Same old weed from the same brown leaves

9TAILS - same old 2 (prod. scottysplash)

9tails - toronto lodge freestyle

[Intro]
It's [?]
Ay (Ay)

[Chorus]
New winds, new piers, seasons (Seasons)
Changed, but I'm still right here (Right here)
I play when my eyes close here (Close here)
First gear, I'm relaxed down here (Down here)
New foes, new frays, seasons (Seasons)
Changed, but I won't fade away (Fade away)
I'm up and I'm here to stay (Stay)
Shade me, I won't go away (Away)

[Verse 1]
Sound like you hit with the wave (Wave)
Doggy my roam for your fade (Fade)
Saw family, treat it like waste (Waste)
All of our bonds got erased (Erased)
Throw it down then I run it up (Run it up)
Crown and slushie in a slurpee cup (Ayy)
Spit a verse then I fuck it up (Fuck it up)
Set a date then I slap it up
Hit the date then I chuck it out (Chuck)
Frequent dates is what I'm talking 'bout (Talking 'bout)
You took a year to whisper singles out (Yeah)
But they're still shitty when you play it out
No, no, no, no
This ain't the way it used to go
My broski will son you like maury show
I'm faded in the sun like it's darker clothes (Ahh, fuck)

[Chorus]
New winds, new piers, seasons
Changed, but I'm still right here (Right here)
I play when my eyes close here
First gear, I'm relaxed down here (Down here)
New foes, new frays, seasons
Changed, but I won't fade away
I'm up and im here to stay (Stay)
Shade me I won't go away (Away)

[Verse 2]
Changing up the flow too much
You feel schizophrenic when you hear me switch it up
I was making raps since I was back at school
And thats only a year ago, like damn, I improved
Ayy, still got a lot to do
Even though it's all that I do (Ayy)
Learning all these methods I use
Channeling opinions and views

[Bridge]
No, ahh
It's a [?] people
Okay
Ahh

[Verse 3]
Have to switch it up
It's barely satistfactory, I never get enough
My future what it has to be, I'm not worried at all (It has to be)
Once summer is over, I'll be taking over fall now (Fall)
Hype it up, too loud, I don't hear you saying pipe down (Pipe down)
Real world got mad, something happened to the kid now
I don't really wanna talk about it unless we getting lit now (Lit now)
Blunt ash on the seatbelt (Seatbelt)
It's like the apocaylse, burning all the trees down (Trees down)
Bruce wayne, grease flame with the smoke out
Walmart, bad knees, with the blow out (Blow out)
Sitcom, next song with the fade out
Fresh sheets, set it blog with the layout (Wow)
Long nights, empty PayPal
Black gloves with the stakeout
Bickery with the cake out (Cake out)
Drop song with the comedown (Come)
I'll fucking tell you and tell you again (Ohh)
Recording cause full mental evoluations

[Chorus]
New winds, new piers, seasons
Changed, but I'm still right here (Right here)
I play when my eyes close here
First gear, I'm relaxed down here (Down here)
New foes, new frays, seasons
Changed, but I won't fade away (Fade)
I'm up and I'm here to stay (Stay)
Shade me I won't go away (Away)

[Verse 4]
Mental mind wars (War)
Fucking base race village with the dark horse (Dark horse)
Get a mace face coming out the task force
Get a race face, listen now you're done for (I'm done man)
Fucking cyborg (Fuck, Ahh)
Take a quick look, you couldn't resist more
This shit is textbook, fuck you need a teacher for
What you feed me for? I'm just gone keep eating more, ayy (Ah, Ah)

[Chorus]
New phone, new face (Face)
Seasons will change on the same (Same)
Soaking up all the pain
Plugging them up to my brain (Plugged to my brain)
New clothes, new strains
Highs will change, I'll be the same
Shittin' on all these lames (Ay)
Walking and paving the way (Yeah)

9TAILS - my szn (prod. nadiak)

lyrics:


Mists coat the lake while the afternoon dies
Pills by his side but
The drugs dont even get me high
Of late im barely getting by
Hold me close and try again
An old man told me that the key to this life
Is hiding your fear
And rarely ever speaking your mind
Just Save the words for when u die
You’ll learn just what they really meant

Fire watch notice
The permafrost broken
The bright burn of cedar blinds the people of the forest
My love U cant ignore it as the sky is lit golden
The damage here is massive
But the aftershock is gorgeous
The boreal is cleansed and it is lined with dead tourists
Everything’s a target when you’ve spent a life mourning
Blood is turned blue and brittle bones provide harvest
The plants begin feeding
And The humans start marching
We starve at night and feed in the morning
I wake back up and still the sky is stuck storming
Im not much but I could try my hardest
The song spells treason u Left me broken hearted
The message lights screens inside the darkness
And im touched that u thought of me regardless
We got two choices and im worried both are
Pointless
The same phone calls But I dont recognize the voices
If I become soil
Would u become dirt
And could we lock hands while we marry to the earth
While roots wrap their base over top of our form
And I could forever laid safe in your arms
In this fire watch notice
I will lay in its torrent
In wait of the sounds
I will place in its roaring
In this fire watch notice
Im gasoline soaken
Dancing in its flames 
I am bathed in its orange

Mists coat the lake while the afternoon dies
Pills by his side but
The drugs dont even get me high
Of late im barely getting by
Hold me close and try again
An old man told me that the key to this life
Is hiding your fear
And rarely ever speaking your mind
Just Save the words for when u die
You’ll learn just what they really meant

firewatch (sorrowbringer)

im still learning (prod. killedmyself)

produced by @idealismus

cover art by SirC at https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

i been feeling kind of lonely
maybe i should try and find somebody decent for me
i dont need no one to hold me
just that some of these ideas i have need to reach somebody elses ears
falling out with my peers
i dont enjoy nobody elses company and im scared
nobody really knows me
well enough to say whats wrong with me
and the people there that try deserve the deepest of apologies

took me 6 months
but i blew past
miss my medication
got brain zaps
looking at the scene
i dont reflect rap
im a skinny freckled kid
with no face tats

i live the life
if u minus all the ammunition
bitch i do the drugs
but i never wanna go to prison
my own blood turn on me
to see that shit is sickening
but i thank em for my lyrics
cause they fueled the feelings

blueberry og straight out the deal
my exes tell me im cold and i should learn how to feel
i dont feel no love because i know its never real
every girl i meet just want mcdonalds fries and a pill

i cant connect with them
the only one i liked wont respond again
id love to prove that ive evolved from then
ill never be back in that apartment

Selenite

sarah ;)